AN: This is my first attempt at a song fic, so if it sucks... well, thats
fine. I didn't expect it to be good. And yes, it is long for a song fic.
Think I care?
Oh yeah, the song is Mariah Carey "Can't Let Go". It's a good song. If you haven't heard it, you need to right now. It's old school.
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Hermione Granger and Ron Weasley had been in love. Thats what it seemed like anyway. It seemed like they'd be together forever. No one expected them to break up. Now, Ron Weasley was in love with someone else, Lavender Brown...
-There you are, Holding her hand. I am lost, Dying to understand-
Hermione watched the couple as they left the common room hand-in-hand, whispering sweet nothings to each other. 'Why did he leave me?' she thought sadly, feeling a fresh wave of confusion and hurt sift it's way through her body. She had no idea why, just Ron one day up and told her "It's over." Her eyes followed them until they finally left completely, and the portrait hole was closed once more.
-Didn't I Cherish you right. Don't you know, You were my life-
"You know, I thought I gave him everything he needed to be happy." she said to Ron's little sister, Ginny, while they were alone. She'd been going through another crying fit, and felt it would be best to talk to someone about it. "I mean... Ginny, he was my entire life. I just wish he knew how bad this was killing me." she said shakily. Ginny shook her head and clicked her tongue, drawing Hermione into a tight embrace. "There, there. He's a stupid git anyway. Just forget about him and move on..."
-Even though I try, I can't let go. Something in your eyes, Captured my soul.- -And every night, I see you in my dreams. You're all I know, I can't let go-
Hermione took this to heart deeply. 'Just let go of him. He's not that special.' she thought to herself repetitively. She went to bed that night, trying her hardest to forget about Ron and the pain he was putting her through. But she couldn't. No, this was her first love. She couldn't just that easy let go of him, and everything that attracted her to him. He always had this admirabilty to him, even if he was slightly annoying at times, and couldn't seem to finish what he started.
That night she had her normal dream ever since they'd broken up. She would be standing in the Entrance Hall, all alone, when Ron would walk up. They'd stare into each others eyes for what seemed like ages, then Ron would apologize and beg for her to take him back. Of course, she always did, and then they'd share a passionate, everlasting kiss. But that dream never came true. It was just that.... a dream.
-Just cast aside, You don't even know I'm alive. You just walk on by, Don't care to see me cry-
Hermione didn't want to let him go, that was the problem. She wanted nothing more than to accept him back, if only he'd want to come back. She'd been thinking this as she headed toward the Great Hall for breakfast that morning. It seemed impossible to let him go now, knowing why she had such a hard time. She didn't want to, and she wouldn't.
Just as this thought streaked by, a red-headed boy began walking towards her. She felt as thought she were floating. Was Ron actually going to come break the good news that he wanted her back? Tears were starting to well in her eyes. This could've been the single happiest moment of her life.
It could've been, had Ron not walked by without even a glance in Hermione's direction. Her jaw quivered. He didn't even realize how happy she was about to be. He hadn't seen all the times she'd cried over him, he hadn't noticed any of it. How could he? Just... how could he?
-And here I am, Still holding on. I can't accept, My world is gone-
That wouldn't get her hopes up though. Hermione Granger was stronger than that. One downfall like this wouldn't make her think the worst. He'd come around eventually, he had too. It was love, he couldn't forget completely.
-Even though I try, I can't let go. Something in your eyes, Captured my soul.- -And every night, I see you in my dreams. You're all I know, I can't let go-
The more she thought about the incident in the Entrance Hall, the more she wanted to break down and cry though. He had just walked past, without a word or even a look. Just as if she were a wall he'd seen a million times before. She headed back to the common room after this. It was unbearable, now that she was dwelling on it. She walked blindly, tears springing to her eyes quickly. This was a nightmare, he had to come back. He had too, she'd die without him.
Once she reached the portrait of the fat lady, she choked out the password and stumbled into the common room, which was basically empty, except for Parvati and Lavender. She swallowed the lump in her throat as she stalker stiffly by them and made her way up the stairs towards her bed, which was all she wanted right now. To lay down and never wake up. Live in her dreams of Ron and her, happy and loving and never leaving.
-Do you even realize, The sorrow I have inside. Everyday of my life, Do you know the way it feels-
Fully clothed, she climbed into her bed and hid under the covers. For a few moments, she sat there silently, dwelling hopelessly and reminscing. Then, as if she had been holding it in the whole time, she burst into tears. She sobbed until she had no more tears to cry, until her head throbbed painfully beneath the dark of her covers.
-When all you have just dies, I try and try, To deny that I need you. But still you remain on my mind-
Her insides churned uncomfortably. She couldn't deal with this sort of pain, this sort of torment over a guy. There would be tons of other fish in the sea she tried telling herself. Just because one jumped back into the water, doesn't mean they all will. It didn't shove him out of her mind, it only made her more depressed. She cried dry tears, it was like a wretched screaming muffled by the hand of sorrow.
"WHY?!" She screamed at the top of her lungs. "WHY ME?!"
-Even though I try, I can't let go. Something in your eyes, Captured my soul.- -And every night, I see you in my dreams. You're all I know, I can't let go-
Once she finally emerged from the throngs of the empty dorm, Lavender and Parvati stared at her. She must've looked a mess, writhing hopelessly underneath the covers of her bed. At this point, she wanted nothing more than to go back to her home. The prospect of facing Ron for the remainder of this year and plus the next seemed worse than being tortured with The Crucatius Curse.
-No I just can't get you out of my mind, I never can say goodbye. 'Cause every night, I see you in my dreams-
She wandered the halls aimlessly after this little episode. Her classes, books... nothing seemed to fit into her life at that moment in time. Daydreams flitted by her eyes, memories of past expierences, it seemed like she was seeing her very life before her eyes. And for a while, she noticed, her life was grand. Now she seemed like a train wreck.
-You're all I know, I can't let you go. Even though I try, I can't let go of something that I need so badly-
Hermione hadn't been watching where she was going, and found herself walking smack dab into Ron. "Oi, watch where your go...ing..." he had started fiercely, then spun around and trailed off when he saw Hermione. It was the most awkward predicament she'd ever been in, and she was sure it was the same for him by the mixed look of pain and confusion upon his face. She gulped back a fresh flood of tears and gave him a weak smile before he nodded once and walked away.
She inhaled deeply, sniffing quickly to make the tickling feeling in her nose go away. This was terrible. This was worse than terrible. This was...
She turned to watch the back of Ron's head walk away, and she gulped as she murmured.
"You're all I know... I can't let go."
Oh yeah, the song is Mariah Carey "Can't Let Go". It's a good song. If you haven't heard it, you need to right now. It's old school.
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Hermione Granger and Ron Weasley had been in love. Thats what it seemed like anyway. It seemed like they'd be together forever. No one expected them to break up. Now, Ron Weasley was in love with someone else, Lavender Brown...
-There you are, Holding her hand. I am lost, Dying to understand-
Hermione watched the couple as they left the common room hand-in-hand, whispering sweet nothings to each other. 'Why did he leave me?' she thought sadly, feeling a fresh wave of confusion and hurt sift it's way through her body. She had no idea why, just Ron one day up and told her "It's over." Her eyes followed them until they finally left completely, and the portrait hole was closed once more.
-Didn't I Cherish you right. Don't you know, You were my life-
"You know, I thought I gave him everything he needed to be happy." she said to Ron's little sister, Ginny, while they were alone. She'd been going through another crying fit, and felt it would be best to talk to someone about it. "I mean... Ginny, he was my entire life. I just wish he knew how bad this was killing me." she said shakily. Ginny shook her head and clicked her tongue, drawing Hermione into a tight embrace. "There, there. He's a stupid git anyway. Just forget about him and move on..."
-Even though I try, I can't let go. Something in your eyes, Captured my soul.- -And every night, I see you in my dreams. You're all I know, I can't let go-
Hermione took this to heart deeply. 'Just let go of him. He's not that special.' she thought to herself repetitively. She went to bed that night, trying her hardest to forget about Ron and the pain he was putting her through. But she couldn't. No, this was her first love. She couldn't just that easy let go of him, and everything that attracted her to him. He always had this admirabilty to him, even if he was slightly annoying at times, and couldn't seem to finish what he started.
That night she had her normal dream ever since they'd broken up. She would be standing in the Entrance Hall, all alone, when Ron would walk up. They'd stare into each others eyes for what seemed like ages, then Ron would apologize and beg for her to take him back. Of course, she always did, and then they'd share a passionate, everlasting kiss. But that dream never came true. It was just that.... a dream.
-Just cast aside, You don't even know I'm alive. You just walk on by, Don't care to see me cry-
Hermione didn't want to let him go, that was the problem. She wanted nothing more than to accept him back, if only he'd want to come back. She'd been thinking this as she headed toward the Great Hall for breakfast that morning. It seemed impossible to let him go now, knowing why she had such a hard time. She didn't want to, and she wouldn't.
Just as this thought streaked by, a red-headed boy began walking towards her. She felt as thought she were floating. Was Ron actually going to come break the good news that he wanted her back? Tears were starting to well in her eyes. This could've been the single happiest moment of her life.
It could've been, had Ron not walked by without even a glance in Hermione's direction. Her jaw quivered. He didn't even realize how happy she was about to be. He hadn't seen all the times she'd cried over him, he hadn't noticed any of it. How could he? Just... how could he?
-And here I am, Still holding on. I can't accept, My world is gone-
That wouldn't get her hopes up though. Hermione Granger was stronger than that. One downfall like this wouldn't make her think the worst. He'd come around eventually, he had too. It was love, he couldn't forget completely.
-Even though I try, I can't let go. Something in your eyes, Captured my soul.- -And every night, I see you in my dreams. You're all I know, I can't let go-
The more she thought about the incident in the Entrance Hall, the more she wanted to break down and cry though. He had just walked past, without a word or even a look. Just as if she were a wall he'd seen a million times before. She headed back to the common room after this. It was unbearable, now that she was dwelling on it. She walked blindly, tears springing to her eyes quickly. This was a nightmare, he had to come back. He had too, she'd die without him.
Once she reached the portrait of the fat lady, she choked out the password and stumbled into the common room, which was basically empty, except for Parvati and Lavender. She swallowed the lump in her throat as she stalker stiffly by them and made her way up the stairs towards her bed, which was all she wanted right now. To lay down and never wake up. Live in her dreams of Ron and her, happy and loving and never leaving.
-Do you even realize, The sorrow I have inside. Everyday of my life, Do you know the way it feels-
Fully clothed, she climbed into her bed and hid under the covers. For a few moments, she sat there silently, dwelling hopelessly and reminscing. Then, as if she had been holding it in the whole time, she burst into tears. She sobbed until she had no more tears to cry, until her head throbbed painfully beneath the dark of her covers.
-When all you have just dies, I try and try, To deny that I need you. But still you remain on my mind-
Her insides churned uncomfortably. She couldn't deal with this sort of pain, this sort of torment over a guy. There would be tons of other fish in the sea she tried telling herself. Just because one jumped back into the water, doesn't mean they all will. It didn't shove him out of her mind, it only made her more depressed. She cried dry tears, it was like a wretched screaming muffled by the hand of sorrow.
"WHY?!" She screamed at the top of her lungs. "WHY ME?!"
-Even though I try, I can't let go. Something in your eyes, Captured my soul.- -And every night, I see you in my dreams. You're all I know, I can't let go-
Once she finally emerged from the throngs of the empty dorm, Lavender and Parvati stared at her. She must've looked a mess, writhing hopelessly underneath the covers of her bed. At this point, she wanted nothing more than to go back to her home. The prospect of facing Ron for the remainder of this year and plus the next seemed worse than being tortured with The Crucatius Curse.
-No I just can't get you out of my mind, I never can say goodbye. 'Cause every night, I see you in my dreams-
She wandered the halls aimlessly after this little episode. Her classes, books... nothing seemed to fit into her life at that moment in time. Daydreams flitted by her eyes, memories of past expierences, it seemed like she was seeing her very life before her eyes. And for a while, she noticed, her life was grand. Now she seemed like a train wreck.
-You're all I know, I can't let you go. Even though I try, I can't let go of something that I need so badly-
Hermione hadn't been watching where she was going, and found herself walking smack dab into Ron. "Oi, watch where your go...ing..." he had started fiercely, then spun around and trailed off when he saw Hermione. It was the most awkward predicament she'd ever been in, and she was sure it was the same for him by the mixed look of pain and confusion upon his face. She gulped back a fresh flood of tears and gave him a weak smile before he nodded once and walked away.
She inhaled deeply, sniffing quickly to make the tickling feeling in her nose go away. This was terrible. This was worse than terrible. This was...
She turned to watch the back of Ron's head walk away, and she gulped as she murmured.
"You're all I know... I can't let go."