The song this time is "Something that you said" by the Bangles - which has
been stuck in my brain for the past 2 weeks now..
God I hope to get rid of it some day! - it's a great song don't get me wrong - but my friends are starting to look at me funny because I keep singing and humming it all the time.
Oh, and about the story - I think 2 or three more chapters are going to do it. it's very close to ending so hang in there.
Love BlackRaven
*
Everything in a moment starting where
Something you said is hanging in the air
*
She couldn't believe it really happened. She thought about it over and over again, running it in her head repeatedly. Erik actually kissed her. The weekend was pure agony - she couldn't bring herself to think of anything else other than that kiss. She wanted to talk to someone, but usually when she needed to talk to someone she would go to Erik and now that option was out of the question. John was out of the question as well since she didn't think he would react nicely to the news of another man kissing her - especially since she wasn't sure that at some point she wasn't actually kissing Erik back.
*
Now I know my life is sweetening
Changing everything
*
"It would change everything"
"Yeah it probably will"
"You're not helping here" She sighed and Speed smiled slightly, handing her a beer.
She didn't really know what she was expecting him to say, but after almost an entire weekend of obsessing she picked up the phone and called him over. She told him everything in a nutshell, about her father, about John and Erik, about the kiss.
"Call', What do you want me to say? That you'll appear at work tomorrow and it will be like nothing happened? He kissed you and you ran away, there's bound to be consequences" he sighed "but you wanna know what I've noticed you weren't talking about?"
"What?"
"You didn't tell me how you feel Call' " he said gently "I mean, Erik has been in love with you forever, which I think is pretty obvious now - that much we know. The only question is how do you feel about him?"
*
Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Running through my head
Something I have dreamed about
*
"I ran away Speed, I think that about covers it" she was facing the window, for some reason she couldn't look at him while having this particular conversation
"No, not really" he insisted "Calleigh look at me!"
Reluctantly she turned around and looked at him "I'm with John, Speed, remember? I'm with John and it's going well, and I like it. He's good to me and he's there for me and I feel." she hesitated for a second "I feel safe with him"
"safe isn't in love Call' " Speed pointed out in a hushed tone "Calleigh look me in the eye and tell me one thing - tell me you're totally in love with John, tell me you have no feelings for Erik what so ever - tell me that and this discussion will be over right now!"
*
And I feel so real
And it feels so right
*
That night she lay in bed next to John and didn't sleep. Now not only was the kiss re-playing in her head over and over again but it was now accompanied with the soundtrack of he conversation with Speed.
She turned around and studied John's face in the semi-darkness, gently running her fingers over his strong features. She wasn't sure of anything anymore. Here she was, in bed, with a great man who loved her and wanted her, and all she could think about was one of her co-workers.
What the hell was wrong with her?
*
Showing you every weakness
And feeling strong for it
I used to run from real love
Now I long for it
*
There was something off about her that day, he could see it just by looking at her. First - it actually seemed like she wasn't that eager to go to work that morning - something that has never happened before. The second hint came to him when he watched her work a crime scene later that day. It was weird - she and Erik were working side by side, but there was no banter, no joking, they weren't even discussing the scene - something definitely seemed out of sync.
It was like they were taking tremendous effort not to come into any contact with each other, avoiding eye contact, working on opposite sides of the room. When they accidentally reached into the kit at the same time and their hands touched, they reacted like they have been bit by a snake.
*
Now I know what I've been missing
Since I've been listening
*
Hagen didn't even need to be a detective to know that something was going on.
*
Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Lying in my bed
Whispering your name out loud
*
She decided to spend the night at her apartment alone - figuring she needed time to think and also because it felt kind of immoral to spend another night with John when she was so unsure about their relationship.
She spent the evening cleaning out her gun - something that always made her feel more relaxed (go figure!) - but tonight it wasn't really doing the trick.
She was actually relieved when there was a knock on the door, but after peaking through the peep hole - she wished to be anywhere but there.
She leaned her back against the door and closed her eyes.
she thought to herself
"Calleigh! Open the door! I know you're there!"
With a sigh she opened the door and let Erik in.
*
And I feel so real
And I feel so right
Something that you said
Got through to me tonight
Never so far you can't call me back
I'm never more that a single kiss - away
*
"So now we're at a point where you pretend you're not even home?" he said bitterly
"Erik.." she tried to make some excuse, but he cut her off.
"Look, I came here to say that I'm sorry. I shouldn't have kissed you like that, I'm sorry."
"Erik, you don't."
"Just let me finish" he cut her off again "I know you're with John now and I shouldn't have tried to mess with that, and the last thing I wanted was to ruin our friendship. So I'm sorry, It'll never happen again"
He walked past her and opened the door "I'm glad that you're happy with John.but I just wanted you to know that I'll always be here.I'll always be waiting."
*
And I feel so real
And it feels so right
Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Running through my head
Something I had dreamed about
And I feel so real
And it feels so right
Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Lying in my bed
Whispering your name out loud
And I feel so real
And it feels so right
Something that you said
God I hope to get rid of it some day! - it's a great song don't get me wrong - but my friends are starting to look at me funny because I keep singing and humming it all the time.
Oh, and about the story - I think 2 or three more chapters are going to do it. it's very close to ending so hang in there.
Love BlackRaven
*
Everything in a moment starting where
Something you said is hanging in the air
*
She couldn't believe it really happened. She thought about it over and over again, running it in her head repeatedly. Erik actually kissed her. The weekend was pure agony - she couldn't bring herself to think of anything else other than that kiss. She wanted to talk to someone, but usually when she needed to talk to someone she would go to Erik and now that option was out of the question. John was out of the question as well since she didn't think he would react nicely to the news of another man kissing her - especially since she wasn't sure that at some point she wasn't actually kissing Erik back.
*
Now I know my life is sweetening
Changing everything
*
"It would change everything"
"Yeah it probably will"
"You're not helping here" She sighed and Speed smiled slightly, handing her a beer.
She didn't really know what she was expecting him to say, but after almost an entire weekend of obsessing she picked up the phone and called him over. She told him everything in a nutshell, about her father, about John and Erik, about the kiss.
"Call', What do you want me to say? That you'll appear at work tomorrow and it will be like nothing happened? He kissed you and you ran away, there's bound to be consequences" he sighed "but you wanna know what I've noticed you weren't talking about?"
"What?"
"You didn't tell me how you feel Call' " he said gently "I mean, Erik has been in love with you forever, which I think is pretty obvious now - that much we know. The only question is how do you feel about him?"
*
Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Running through my head
Something I have dreamed about
*
"I ran away Speed, I think that about covers it" she was facing the window, for some reason she couldn't look at him while having this particular conversation
"No, not really" he insisted "Calleigh look at me!"
Reluctantly she turned around and looked at him "I'm with John, Speed, remember? I'm with John and it's going well, and I like it. He's good to me and he's there for me and I feel." she hesitated for a second "I feel safe with him"
"safe isn't in love Call' " Speed pointed out in a hushed tone "Calleigh look me in the eye and tell me one thing - tell me you're totally in love with John, tell me you have no feelings for Erik what so ever - tell me that and this discussion will be over right now!"
*
And I feel so real
And it feels so right
*
That night she lay in bed next to John and didn't sleep. Now not only was the kiss re-playing in her head over and over again but it was now accompanied with the soundtrack of he conversation with Speed.
She turned around and studied John's face in the semi-darkness, gently running her fingers over his strong features. She wasn't sure of anything anymore. Here she was, in bed, with a great man who loved her and wanted her, and all she could think about was one of her co-workers.
What the hell was wrong with her?
*
Showing you every weakness
And feeling strong for it
I used to run from real love
Now I long for it
*
There was something off about her that day, he could see it just by looking at her. First - it actually seemed like she wasn't that eager to go to work that morning - something that has never happened before. The second hint came to him when he watched her work a crime scene later that day. It was weird - she and Erik were working side by side, but there was no banter, no joking, they weren't even discussing the scene - something definitely seemed out of sync.
It was like they were taking tremendous effort not to come into any contact with each other, avoiding eye contact, working on opposite sides of the room. When they accidentally reached into the kit at the same time and their hands touched, they reacted like they have been bit by a snake.
*
Now I know what I've been missing
Since I've been listening
*
Hagen didn't even need to be a detective to know that something was going on.
*
Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Lying in my bed
Whispering your name out loud
*
She decided to spend the night at her apartment alone - figuring she needed time to think and also because it felt kind of immoral to spend another night with John when she was so unsure about their relationship.
She spent the evening cleaning out her gun - something that always made her feel more relaxed (go figure!) - but tonight it wasn't really doing the trick.
She was actually relieved when there was a knock on the door, but after peaking through the peep hole - she wished to be anywhere but there.
She leaned her back against the door and closed her eyes.
she thought to herself
"Calleigh! Open the door! I know you're there!"
With a sigh she opened the door and let Erik in.
*
And I feel so real
And I feel so right
Something that you said
Got through to me tonight
Never so far you can't call me back
I'm never more that a single kiss - away
*
"So now we're at a point where you pretend you're not even home?" he said bitterly
"Erik.." she tried to make some excuse, but he cut her off.
"Look, I came here to say that I'm sorry. I shouldn't have kissed you like that, I'm sorry."
"Erik, you don't."
"Just let me finish" he cut her off again "I know you're with John now and I shouldn't have tried to mess with that, and the last thing I wanted was to ruin our friendship. So I'm sorry, It'll never happen again"
He walked past her and opened the door "I'm glad that you're happy with John.but I just wanted you to know that I'll always be here.I'll always be waiting."
*
And I feel so real
And it feels so right
Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Running through my head
Something I had dreamed about
And I feel so real
And it feels so right
Something that you said
Turned me from the inside out
Lying in my bed
Whispering your name out loud
And I feel so real
And it feels so right
Something that you said