Hey Everyone - the song this time is of course Evanescence "Bring e to
life" which has now become one of y favorite songs - if you haven't heard
it already (because for some reason you have not been on earth the last
couple of months) - download it and hear it! NOW!
PART 12
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How can you see into my eyes, like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb
*
He watched her in the kitchen, she was making dinner, along with some music, dancing while she worked. If he didn't know any better - he'd say she looked happy. but he knew better.
"Call..."
"Dinner will be ready in a bit"
"Great." He sighed and tried again "Listen..."
"I'm not much of a cook so don't expect much, but I think I managed to make something eatable."
"Calliegh we need to talk..."
"Talk away, John, I'm listening..."
"It's about Erik..."
He thought he noticed a stiffness going through her body but she kept going as if nothing happened. Finally he grabbed her and turned her away from the cooking
"Dinner is going to get burned..." he voice sounded weak
"I think we should talk about this..."
*
Without a soul
My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it here and lead it back home
*
For two people who were supposed to talk they were awfully quiet for a very long time. She started feeling very uncomfortable but she didn't dare even move - she sure wasn't going to be the first one to talk.
No, this was John's show - if he had something to say - he was going to have to say it. She wasn't going to make things easier for him. She knew she was being petty and mean - that he didn't deserve this, but she didn't care.
She expected him to accuse her, to yell at her, to be angry - but when he finally spoke, it threw her totally off her game.
"Are you in love with him?"
*
(wake me up) wake me up inside
(I can't wake up) wake me up inside
(save me) call my name and save me from the dark
*
"Are you in love with him?"
Something about his voice, the way he asked her. It broke down some wall inside her and she knew she couldn't lie to him.
"I don't know.."
*
(wake me up) bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up) before I come undone
(save me) save me from the nothing I've become
*
He got up and started pacing around her
"Hagen..." she wanted to say something, wanted to explain
"You look happy when you're around him you know that?"
"What?" She never expected to hear this fro him
"I look at you a lot, while you work" he had an almost shy smile on his face when he said that, it reminded her why she liked him in the first place "The way you and Erik work together, the way you laugh at his jokes - I couldn't make you laugh like that."
"You make me laugh John." she didn't know who she was trying to convince him - or herself
"Not like that.. not like he does"
*
Frozen inside without your touch without you love darling
Only you are the life among the dead
*
"I'm gonna go..." he finally said
"John, don't... I don't know what you want me to say..."
"You don't have to say anything Call. You needed me, and I'm glad I could be here for you when you did - but you don't need me anymore." He shrugged, but she could hear the slight hint of bitterness in his voice
"John.. Erik is..."
"The one you should be with" he was looking straight into her eyes now "And if you can't see that. then I guess you're just going to have to take my word for it"
His plain words hit her like razor blades, before she even had time to react he was out the door and she was left alone
*
All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
*
Erik woke up to the sound of someone pounding on his door - hard. He made his way to the front door, trying to rub the sleep away from his eyes. The person on the other side of the door was not taking any chances - the pounding was so loud, the whole building must be up by now - he thought to himself - they were nearly breaking down the door.
"how dare you!?"
Calleigh was through the door and in his apartment before he even had time to fully open the door, her face was red and it seemed like she's been crying, but her eyes were filled with anger and rage.
"Call, What the hell..?"
"How dare you go to John and tell him anything about us? I had a good thing Erik! I was finally. Just who the hell do you think you are?"
"Wow, wow. Call, hang on a second" he was really trying to understand what she was saying but it was way to late and he was way too tired "what are you talking about? What did I tell John?"
"I don't know what you told him Erik!" She hissed back "I don't know what you did.. but it worked! It worked! Are you happy now? Did you get what you wanted?"
Suddenly he was angry - angrier then he had been in a long time "Did I get what I wanted? Are you kidding me Calleigh? No! I didn't get what I wanted! I wanted you Call' - do you get that? I'm inlove with you! And I know it's not comfortable for you right now - and believe me I'm sorry! I tried not to be, believe me I tried, but I can't ok? And for you to think that I would go behind your back and do something - anything - to brake up you and John, to do anything that would make you unhappy.."
"I wasn't.." her voice was so quiet he hardly heard her in his rage
"I did my best to stay away, because..wait a minute - what did you say?"
"I wasn't.. happy that is."
*
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
*
"I wasn't happy Erik, I was comfortable.. I was peaceful, I guess"
"What are you trying to tell me here Call'?"
"John asked me tonight if I was inlove with you.and I couldn't answer him, because I didn't know, but I do know something - I know that I'm not inlove with John, I'm comfortable with him, he makes me feel safe - but that isn't love - or at least I don't think it is....I think this is.."
*
Without a thought without a voice without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life
*
For one dreadful moment he didn't say anything and for that single long moment she thought maybe she was already too late - maybe he had already moved on - her mind was already searching for excuses to take everything back.
The next thing she knew, he was crossing the short distance between them and then his arms were around her and his lips were on hers.
The kiss was soft at the beginning but soon became more intense, more passionate, years and years of pent up sexual tension finally braking free. Their bodies were pressed tight against each other - and she could feel every inch of her body starting to react to his.
His lips started moving down her neck and she seized the opportunity to say something - but the moment she started uttering words he brought his head back up and looked her straight in the eye "Don't. You don't have to say anything - let's just have right now... this moment...and then the next one, and the next one. You never have to say anything..."
*
(wake me up) wake me up inside
(I can't wake up) wake me up inside
(save me) call my name and save me from the dark
(wake me up) bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up) before I come undone
(save me) save me from the nothing I've become
*
It was dawn when they finally fell asleep, or at least he did. Calleigh lay there , in his arms, and suddenly she realized what John was talking about, what he saw between them.
It was just like he told her - Erik was the one she was supposed to be with. Maybe not forever, maybe not even next week - but right now, for now - this was where she belonged.
* * *
Ok. Well, this is the end of life by a tune - there are just two things I want to say. First - I know it took me a long time to write the ending, and I really hope you like it - I know it came out a little too fluffy, believe me I tried to avoid it as much as I could, I hope it wasn't too much! Second - I know a lot of you hate Hagen, and you were probably hoping I'd either get Calleigh to dump him or turn him into the bad guy - Sorry! But I happen to love Hagen! I think he's cute as hell - and even though he didn't get the girl this time - which you'll have to admit is punishment enough - I couldn't turn him into a villain.. SORRY
Anyway. Hope you like the ending. I'm probably going to right a sequel some time soon but right now I'm trying to finish some of my other stories as well as not get kicked out of the university !!!
PART 12
*
How can you see into my eyes, like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb
*
He watched her in the kitchen, she was making dinner, along with some music, dancing while she worked. If he didn't know any better - he'd say she looked happy. but he knew better.
"Call..."
"Dinner will be ready in a bit"
"Great." He sighed and tried again "Listen..."
"I'm not much of a cook so don't expect much, but I think I managed to make something eatable."
"Calliegh we need to talk..."
"Talk away, John, I'm listening..."
"It's about Erik..."
He thought he noticed a stiffness going through her body but she kept going as if nothing happened. Finally he grabbed her and turned her away from the cooking
"Dinner is going to get burned..." he voice sounded weak
"I think we should talk about this..."
*
Without a soul
My spirit sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it here and lead it back home
*
For two people who were supposed to talk they were awfully quiet for a very long time. She started feeling very uncomfortable but she didn't dare even move - she sure wasn't going to be the first one to talk.
No, this was John's show - if he had something to say - he was going to have to say it. She wasn't going to make things easier for him. She knew she was being petty and mean - that he didn't deserve this, but she didn't care.
She expected him to accuse her, to yell at her, to be angry - but when he finally spoke, it threw her totally off her game.
"Are you in love with him?"
*
(wake me up) wake me up inside
(I can't wake up) wake me up inside
(save me) call my name and save me from the dark
*
"Are you in love with him?"
Something about his voice, the way he asked her. It broke down some wall inside her and she knew she couldn't lie to him.
"I don't know.."
*
(wake me up) bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up) before I come undone
(save me) save me from the nothing I've become
*
He got up and started pacing around her
"Hagen..." she wanted to say something, wanted to explain
"You look happy when you're around him you know that?"
"What?" She never expected to hear this fro him
"I look at you a lot, while you work" he had an almost shy smile on his face when he said that, it reminded her why she liked him in the first place "The way you and Erik work together, the way you laugh at his jokes - I couldn't make you laugh like that."
"You make me laugh John." she didn't know who she was trying to convince him - or herself
"Not like that.. not like he does"
*
Frozen inside without your touch without you love darling
Only you are the life among the dead
*
"I'm gonna go..." he finally said
"John, don't... I don't know what you want me to say..."
"You don't have to say anything Call. You needed me, and I'm glad I could be here for you when you did - but you don't need me anymore." He shrugged, but she could hear the slight hint of bitterness in his voice
"John.. Erik is..."
"The one you should be with" he was looking straight into her eyes now "And if you can't see that. then I guess you're just going to have to take my word for it"
His plain words hit her like razor blades, before she even had time to react he was out the door and she was left alone
*
All this time I can't believe I couldn't see
Kept in the dark but you were there in front of me
*
Erik woke up to the sound of someone pounding on his door - hard. He made his way to the front door, trying to rub the sleep away from his eyes. The person on the other side of the door was not taking any chances - the pounding was so loud, the whole building must be up by now - he thought to himself - they were nearly breaking down the door.
"how dare you!?"
Calleigh was through the door and in his apartment before he even had time to fully open the door, her face was red and it seemed like she's been crying, but her eyes were filled with anger and rage.
"Call, What the hell..?"
"How dare you go to John and tell him anything about us? I had a good thing Erik! I was finally. Just who the hell do you think you are?"
"Wow, wow. Call, hang on a second" he was really trying to understand what she was saying but it was way to late and he was way too tired "what are you talking about? What did I tell John?"
"I don't know what you told him Erik!" She hissed back "I don't know what you did.. but it worked! It worked! Are you happy now? Did you get what you wanted?"
Suddenly he was angry - angrier then he had been in a long time "Did I get what I wanted? Are you kidding me Calleigh? No! I didn't get what I wanted! I wanted you Call' - do you get that? I'm inlove with you! And I know it's not comfortable for you right now - and believe me I'm sorry! I tried not to be, believe me I tried, but I can't ok? And for you to think that I would go behind your back and do something - anything - to brake up you and John, to do anything that would make you unhappy.."
"I wasn't.." her voice was so quiet he hardly heard her in his rage
"I did my best to stay away, because..wait a minute - what did you say?"
"I wasn't.. happy that is."
*
I've been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything
*
"I wasn't happy Erik, I was comfortable.. I was peaceful, I guess"
"What are you trying to tell me here Call'?"
"John asked me tonight if I was inlove with you.and I couldn't answer him, because I didn't know, but I do know something - I know that I'm not inlove with John, I'm comfortable with him, he makes me feel safe - but that isn't love - or at least I don't think it is....I think this is.."
*
Without a thought without a voice without a soul
Don't let me die here
There must be something more
Bring me to life
*
For one dreadful moment he didn't say anything and for that single long moment she thought maybe she was already too late - maybe he had already moved on - her mind was already searching for excuses to take everything back.
The next thing she knew, he was crossing the short distance between them and then his arms were around her and his lips were on hers.
The kiss was soft at the beginning but soon became more intense, more passionate, years and years of pent up sexual tension finally braking free. Their bodies were pressed tight against each other - and she could feel every inch of her body starting to react to his.
His lips started moving down her neck and she seized the opportunity to say something - but the moment she started uttering words he brought his head back up and looked her straight in the eye "Don't. You don't have to say anything - let's just have right now... this moment...and then the next one, and the next one. You never have to say anything..."
*
(wake me up) wake me up inside
(I can't wake up) wake me up inside
(save me) call my name and save me from the dark
(wake me up) bid my blood to run
(I can't wake up) before I come undone
(save me) save me from the nothing I've become
*
It was dawn when they finally fell asleep, or at least he did. Calleigh lay there , in his arms, and suddenly she realized what John was talking about, what he saw between them.
It was just like he told her - Erik was the one she was supposed to be with. Maybe not forever, maybe not even next week - but right now, for now - this was where she belonged.
* * *
Ok. Well, this is the end of life by a tune - there are just two things I want to say. First - I know it took me a long time to write the ending, and I really hope you like it - I know it came out a little too fluffy, believe me I tried to avoid it as much as I could, I hope it wasn't too much! Second - I know a lot of you hate Hagen, and you were probably hoping I'd either get Calleigh to dump him or turn him into the bad guy - Sorry! But I happen to love Hagen! I think he's cute as hell - and even though he didn't get the girl this time - which you'll have to admit is punishment enough - I couldn't turn him into a villain.. SORRY
Anyway. Hope you like the ending. I'm probably going to right a sequel some time soon but right now I'm trying to finish some of my other stories as well as not get kicked out of the university !!!