I silently opened my tear-stained eyes and looked around the room, I was still lying on the bed where Rei had bandaged my back but I couldn't see him in the room. Sighing I came to the conclusion, I was alone again. I couldn't think of where he would've gone and it upset me that he had left, had I done something wrong? Or was it that me being weak was getting to him. I decided not to think about that I was already depressed enough with trying to figure out how to tell Rei my feelings for him.
I am afraid. I am afraid to tell him, I am not usually someone who is afraid of anything but it is true I am afraid of Rei's possible rejection because he means so much to me. I keep trying to tell my self that he feels the same way trying to build up my courage to tell him but I don't know how. What Tyson had said really got to me, I do care about him, more then can be imagined I just couldn't show him my gratitude then, I was to broken.
I sigh, I didn't mean to make him worry and I truly appreciate that he never gave up on me no matter how much I tried to push him and the others away he still looked out for me and for that alone I am truly grateful. In the end I guess it was lucky for me to wake up when Rei wasn't here it has given me some time to think things through but I would give anything to be back in his arms. I don't know how to tell him exactly how I feel but I want to tell him tonight.
Its cold lying on our bed without him and I can feel the loneliness creeping up on me and I decide to go out to the lounge room to wait for hie return. Lucky for me the fire was still going and the warmth was welcoming on my beaten body, lying on the couch in front of the fire I begin to relax wishing that Rei would soon come back to me.
Normal POVWhen Rei reached their hotel room, he silently sneaked in not wanting to wake Kai and made his way down towards their room but he didn't get that far. He rounded a corner and saw Kai lying awake on the couch in front of the fire; he walked around and kneeled down on the floor in front of Kai so he was eye level with him staring into Kai's pained eyes.
"What are you doing out here?" Rei questioned caringly, Kai slowly sat up and leaned on one arm.
"The question is where have you been?" He asked with a sigh, "I woke up and you weren't here and I was cold so I came out hear to get warm by the fire and wait for you," Kai finished, thinking that he might as well answer Rei's question.
Rei smiled, "well I'm here now," he said, scooping Kai up in his arms and carrying him down towards their room.
"And if you stay out here any longer you'll have Tyson and the others asking you one hundred and one questions at once," Rei said laughing.
"And your not going to question me?" Kai asked managing a smirk and allowed Rei to carry him back to their room.
Rei in response dropped Kai who cried out in pain as he landed on his butt not having expected Rei to drop him. He looked up at Rei in an expression of pain and rejection. Rei smirked back at Kai who looked so cute when his pride was injured, Rei picked him back up stroking Kai's cheek with one of his fingers and placed him on their bed and then went off to get changed, he came back to find Kai lying on the bed staring at the ceiling, again he had been crying. Rei sighed as he sat down beside him and ran a hand through Kai's blue hair.
"So are you going to tell me how all this happened?" Rei asked, softly running a finger softly over the gash above Kai's left eye, Kai sighed and looked up at the raven-haired boy, he hesitated not knowing exactly where to start.
"...ok," he said in the end looking back at the ceiling. He had decided that he was going to tell Rei so he might as well start now.
Kai told Rei everything about the past few nights, the nightmares and his beating that afternoon along with how Voltair wanted to see him in a few days. When he had finished Kai realised he had been crying again; it hurt to remember these things when the pain was still real. He sat up and bowed his head so Rei couldn't see the tears streaming down his cheeks. Rei just sat there stunned that someone could be so cruel, then Kai spoke again this time he actually looked at the raven haired boy.
"Rei...I," Kai hesitated as if deciding on whether or not he should be saying this then he spoke the three words Rei had been waiting so long to hear.
"... I love you," Kai whispered, bowing his head again waiting for Rei to reject him as tears filled his eyes, but It didn't happen. Instead, Rei pulled Kai up into his lap again running his hand through Kai's hair to calm him down.
"I love you too," Rei whispered into Kai's ear, then tilting Kais chin up with one hand and looked into his crimson eyes, smiling Rei gently wiped away the tears that had escaped with his thumb. Kai nuzzled his head in the nape of Rei's neck as an unkown feeling of happiness washed over him and after awhile Rei could hear the soft steady breathing of Kai asleep in his arms.
When Rei awoke that morning the sun was shinning through the window, he looked up at the ceiling and sighed happily. Rei then turned his attention to the blue haired boy who was curled up next to him his head lying on his chest still sleeping peacefully as if nothing had ever happened. Rei ran his fingers gently along Kai's triangle less face as he heard their bedroom door slowly open as Kenny poked his head around it, Kenny's eyes scanned the room and came to rest on Rei who had moved Kai into his lap so he could sit up and hold his koi close to him at the same time.
Rei smiled at Kenny and motioned that he could come in but Kenny just shook his head.
"I just came to see if you two were up yet, you know its 9:30 in the morning," he whispered.
"Oh ok..." Rei sighed, looking at the clock on the bedside table, 'I guess I should get up soon' Rei thought, but when he turned to face Kenny, he was gone. Rei smiled and pulled the sleeping Kai closer to him nuzzling his face in Kai's soft blue hair he didn't want to get up just yet.