Like Water
By Chibi-E
Disclaimer: I-do-not-own-Shaman-King(-characters-). Ok? The only thing I do own is this story ^-^ (and I'm happy about it!)
Me: Oooookay, people, here I am again! I´m your hostess one more time, in a new YohXAnna fic! *serious face* Ok, so I like YohXAnna stuff. Do you have any problem about it?.......Good. *happy mood again* This time I will take the risk with a story with chapters!!! I hope it comes out good..... ^________^ Soooo, it is Anna's POV once again (in this chapter, MAYBE it will be Yoh's next chapter, but I don't know yet....)
Boomi (appearing from nowhere): I like it to be Anna´s POV, it´s interesting to know what she thinks...
Me: Hey! Where were you? I was worried about ya, you know?!
Boomi: Well, I was being chased by Sofía for the last...I don't know... 32 minutes?!!!
Me: Oh, ok then. I thought something serious had happened to you, but well...*sighs* For those of you who don't know, Sofía is one of mah five cats (and I also have three dogs, two hamster-like creatures and two goldfishes!^-^ My house is a zoo, I know...). She is very intelligent and likes chasing Boomi around. *pets Sofía* Good girl.... Well, I think I'd better start writing now, soooo... On with the fic! (longer than "In My Dreams"!)
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------- Chapter 1: Snowflakes
"What's going on with her?" I've already heard that voice. It is Horo- horo's. That silly friend of him. I can't believe Yoh and he can be friends. He could never be my friend, we are different. Yoh's friends are always different from me, always smiling and helping other. Yoh and I are just destined for a forced marriage; we can never be friends, less girlfriend and boyfriend. No, that just can't happen.
"I don't know, she's been acting like that all day" Now it is Yoh's voice. I like his voice, so sweet and warm. He's worried about me, I know that. They think I'm acting strange; that's because I act like this when nobody sees me, so I can be sad alone. So HE can keep that nice, good-natured smile on his face all the time. But now his smile is gone, and that makes me even sadder. He is the only person that can cheer me up, without knowing it, of course, because I hide my emotions under a mask of indifference all the time. He always tries to make me smile, but I just don't do it, although he makes me so happy. Fear? Of what? I don't know; maybe I'm scared of what can happen if I smile. Proud? I don't think so. Maybe he doesn't love me as much as I love him, and only wants to make me smile to be surrounded by smiles, and not by my usual stone-cold expression.
I look at the sky; snow. Little snowflakes falling down from the sky. White snowflakes. Cold snowflakes. All so similar, all so different; like people. People are different, but some are pretty similar; you only need to look closer, close enough to see their thoughts and mind, and then you will realize that you found your match. Like Yoh and me. He probably doesn't know how similar we can be, just like the snowflakes. We are two little white snowflakes falling down from the sky together; only his warmness melted him first. He's like water, free in this world, and I'm still a snowflake. The warmness of love is inside me, but I keep too cold to melt and go with him. I want to be water, so we can be together in the river of love. But I cannot be water. Not yet.
I sit at the porch. It is so cold here; Winter cold. A cool breeze touches my face, and that makes me shiver. Suddenly, a warm coat is over my shoulders. I look at it and then at the person standing behind me. Yoh. Yoh, with his smile back on his face, grinning like if nothing happened. That makes me happy, but only for a second, because the fleeting thoughts I had before where back to my head, back with the sadness of my love. I incline my head to look at the floor; I don't want to look at his eyes, at those dark deep eyes. He sits next to me, and I think I can feel his warmness on my skin. But I am cold, and he can notice that.
"Anna..." He started to say something. Why did he stop? Maybe he has nothing to say, and just wants me to know that he is there. No, it is something else; I know it because of the tone of his voice. I won't raise my head. No; his eyes are staring at me, I can feel it, and I don't want to look at them. "...What happens to you?" Ok, now he finished the sentence. What happens to me? Too many things, too many feelings. I open my mouth, just to say "No, nothing", but words won't come out. They don't want to leave my inner warmness and go out to the cold winter air, so they just stay there. I close my mouth. Damn it! I just want to say something, doesn't matter if it has no sense; I just want to tell him something. But I can't, I know that even if I tried and tried, I wouldn't say a word.
"Please, tell me, Anna. You've been acting strange lately and I..." Now I take a deep breathe and look at him. His eyes are staring into mines, and they make me feel like if they could know what I am thinking. Big, black eyes; warm, concerned eyes, looking at me. "...I was worried about you." I know that. I know you've been worried about me. I know you care; you always do, not just with me. You worry about everyone, and that's why I love you so much. Now I can talk. "Nothing happens to me, I'm fine." I look down to the floor once again. I want to cry. Desperately. But I won't, I don't want to worry him more.
I can hear he moving and standing up. He will go, finally, so I can be alone once again. Alone to suffer. Only me and my soul. Alone...
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~El Fin, The End or whatever you want~
Me: Soooo, what did you think of this one? Does it sound interesting? Maybe I will continue it, maybe not.... I don't know... it all depends on what YOU think... ^-^
Boomi: Good, good....*taking her "eyeglasses?!" off* ... to this part of what is trying to be a story, I will give....mhm...I'll give it 5 points over 10.
Me: 5 OVER 10 ???!!! *evil eyes* Ooooooh, Sooofíííaaaa !!!
Boomi: Oh, no, please not... I´m really tired. Ok, Ok, 9 over 10. Do you like that?
Me: Oh, it´s Ok. Well, after watching Boomi trying to act like a "Fic Critic" (a new profession !!!), I have to tell you something: Here, YOU are the Fic Critic, so... Go ahead! Review! Did you know that reviewing is good for your health? It is a Chibi-E Medical Fact! So do something good for your finger nails and review! *Dr. Chibi-E* is (Registered Trade Mark).
Boomi: Yeah, yeah.....Bye! And see you next time...if this damned cat doesn't kill me before! *runs away from Sofía*
Me: Yeah, bye, and thanks to the all the people that reviewed "In My Dreams" !!! ^-^ Oh and Unpredictable.l, I am very obsessive with keeping things just like they are written. So if I see an "l", I will write an "l" (that is NOT for "loser") ! ^-^ Thanks for reviewing that fic too!
I like dedicating my fics to someone, sooo:
*This (part of my) fic is dedicated to Boiya, who likes Anna thinking about Yoh, and also liked my last work. Thanks Boiya!*
Disclaimer: I-do-not-own-Shaman-King(-characters-). Ok? The only thing I do own is this story ^-^ (and I'm happy about it!)
Me: Oooookay, people, here I am again! I´m your hostess one more time, in a new YohXAnna fic! *serious face* Ok, so I like YohXAnna stuff. Do you have any problem about it?.......Good. *happy mood again* This time I will take the risk with a story with chapters!!! I hope it comes out good..... ^________^ Soooo, it is Anna's POV once again (in this chapter, MAYBE it will be Yoh's next chapter, but I don't know yet....)
Boomi (appearing from nowhere): I like it to be Anna´s POV, it´s interesting to know what she thinks...
Me: Hey! Where were you? I was worried about ya, you know?!
Boomi: Well, I was being chased by Sofía for the last...I don't know... 32 minutes?!!!
Me: Oh, ok then. I thought something serious had happened to you, but well...*sighs* For those of you who don't know, Sofía is one of mah five cats (and I also have three dogs, two hamster-like creatures and two goldfishes!^-^ My house is a zoo, I know...). She is very intelligent and likes chasing Boomi around. *pets Sofía* Good girl.... Well, I think I'd better start writing now, soooo... On with the fic! (longer than "In My Dreams"!)
---------------------------------------------------------------------------- --------- Chapter 1: Snowflakes
"What's going on with her?" I've already heard that voice. It is Horo- horo's. That silly friend of him. I can't believe Yoh and he can be friends. He could never be my friend, we are different. Yoh's friends are always different from me, always smiling and helping other. Yoh and I are just destined for a forced marriage; we can never be friends, less girlfriend and boyfriend. No, that just can't happen.
"I don't know, she's been acting like that all day" Now it is Yoh's voice. I like his voice, so sweet and warm. He's worried about me, I know that. They think I'm acting strange; that's because I act like this when nobody sees me, so I can be sad alone. So HE can keep that nice, good-natured smile on his face all the time. But now his smile is gone, and that makes me even sadder. He is the only person that can cheer me up, without knowing it, of course, because I hide my emotions under a mask of indifference all the time. He always tries to make me smile, but I just don't do it, although he makes me so happy. Fear? Of what? I don't know; maybe I'm scared of what can happen if I smile. Proud? I don't think so. Maybe he doesn't love me as much as I love him, and only wants to make me smile to be surrounded by smiles, and not by my usual stone-cold expression.
I look at the sky; snow. Little snowflakes falling down from the sky. White snowflakes. Cold snowflakes. All so similar, all so different; like people. People are different, but some are pretty similar; you only need to look closer, close enough to see their thoughts and mind, and then you will realize that you found your match. Like Yoh and me. He probably doesn't know how similar we can be, just like the snowflakes. We are two little white snowflakes falling down from the sky together; only his warmness melted him first. He's like water, free in this world, and I'm still a snowflake. The warmness of love is inside me, but I keep too cold to melt and go with him. I want to be water, so we can be together in the river of love. But I cannot be water. Not yet.
I sit at the porch. It is so cold here; Winter cold. A cool breeze touches my face, and that makes me shiver. Suddenly, a warm coat is over my shoulders. I look at it and then at the person standing behind me. Yoh. Yoh, with his smile back on his face, grinning like if nothing happened. That makes me happy, but only for a second, because the fleeting thoughts I had before where back to my head, back with the sadness of my love. I incline my head to look at the floor; I don't want to look at his eyes, at those dark deep eyes. He sits next to me, and I think I can feel his warmness on my skin. But I am cold, and he can notice that.
"Anna..." He started to say something. Why did he stop? Maybe he has nothing to say, and just wants me to know that he is there. No, it is something else; I know it because of the tone of his voice. I won't raise my head. No; his eyes are staring at me, I can feel it, and I don't want to look at them. "...What happens to you?" Ok, now he finished the sentence. What happens to me? Too many things, too many feelings. I open my mouth, just to say "No, nothing", but words won't come out. They don't want to leave my inner warmness and go out to the cold winter air, so they just stay there. I close my mouth. Damn it! I just want to say something, doesn't matter if it has no sense; I just want to tell him something. But I can't, I know that even if I tried and tried, I wouldn't say a word.
"Please, tell me, Anna. You've been acting strange lately and I..." Now I take a deep breathe and look at him. His eyes are staring into mines, and they make me feel like if they could know what I am thinking. Big, black eyes; warm, concerned eyes, looking at me. "...I was worried about you." I know that. I know you've been worried about me. I know you care; you always do, not just with me. You worry about everyone, and that's why I love you so much. Now I can talk. "Nothing happens to me, I'm fine." I look down to the floor once again. I want to cry. Desperately. But I won't, I don't want to worry him more.
I can hear he moving and standing up. He will go, finally, so I can be alone once again. Alone to suffer. Only me and my soul. Alone...
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~El Fin, The End or whatever you want~
Me: Soooo, what did you think of this one? Does it sound interesting? Maybe I will continue it, maybe not.... I don't know... it all depends on what YOU think... ^-^
Boomi: Good, good....*taking her "eyeglasses?!" off* ... to this part of what is trying to be a story, I will give....mhm...I'll give it 5 points over 10.
Me: 5 OVER 10 ???!!! *evil eyes* Ooooooh, Sooofíííaaaa !!!
Boomi: Oh, no, please not... I´m really tired. Ok, Ok, 9 over 10. Do you like that?
Me: Oh, it´s Ok. Well, after watching Boomi trying to act like a "Fic Critic" (a new profession !!!), I have to tell you something: Here, YOU are the Fic Critic, so... Go ahead! Review! Did you know that reviewing is good for your health? It is a Chibi-E Medical Fact! So do something good for your finger nails and review! *Dr. Chibi-E* is (Registered Trade Mark).
Boomi: Yeah, yeah.....Bye! And see you next time...if this damned cat doesn't kill me before! *runs away from Sofía*
Me: Yeah, bye, and thanks to the all the people that reviewed "In My Dreams" !!! ^-^ Oh and Unpredictable.l, I am very obsessive with keeping things just like they are written. So if I see an "l", I will write an "l" (that is NOT for "loser") ! ^-^ Thanks for reviewing that fic too!
I like dedicating my fics to someone, sooo:
*This (part of my) fic is dedicated to Boiya, who likes Anna thinking about Yoh, and also liked my last work. Thanks Boiya!*