Hello! I had some time so I made the fourth chapter right away. This is a long chapter, but there just happens a lot. As normal I couldn't cut it of. Too bad for you guys. Well, anyhow, this chapter has become a songfic chapter with 2.5 songs in it. Wanna know why .5? Well, only the chorus and the last lines fitted in, so that explains a lot, ne? Well, enjoy. The autor's notes tells you the name and band or artist who wrote the song. I hope that doesn't irritate you, but if it does you have to tell me, and I'll do something about it!
Final Breakdowns and Still Doubting
Chapter 4
As the sun rose Inuyasha got up. He gently laid Kagome resting against the tree and went of to the river nearby…
"Eh? Where's Inuyasha?" Kagome stood up to go looking for him. She searched in the branches of nearby trees, but didn't find him. She just decided to take a bath in the river when she spotted Inuyasha. He came walking out of the direction of the river. Kagome noticed that his hear was wet. Nani desu-ka? Inuyasha couldn't be bathing, could he?
"What is it, Kagome?"
"Ehm…I'm gonna take a bath! And DON'T peak!"
"Feh! Who do you think I am? Miroku?"
*I'm not picking up habits…*
Kagome walked to the river, suspiciously looking over her shoulder to see if Inuyasha wasn't following her. We sure don't want that, do we…?
*What does she think I am? Bathing is nice, by the way… ^_^*
Kagome was swimming in the river. The water was icy-cold, but she didn't mind. Her hair was so sticky! She looked around again, to see if Inuyasha wasn't peaking. When she saw no sign of him she got out and dressed. When she walked back she saw Inuyasha staring into the depth of the forest, his back against the same tree she had left him.
*Peaking really is something for that lechery Miroku…*
"Inuyasha… You weren't peaking, right?"
"Of course not! I'm no lecher!"
"Not even the temptation too?"
"I can handle temptation."
*Of course I can…*
"You know, I've been thinking stuff over…"
"You and… THINKING something over?!" she teased him.
"Yeah, for once I have…" he made some weird face, "I thought about the skeletons in that book of yours. Maybe those are from another time, another time age. People for who the story was a myth and dressed up like them, like Sango and Miroku, or something. In your time they do that, right?"
"Yeah, but still…I think it has to do with the real us… I don't wanna talk about it now, okay?"
"Alright. We'll see what happens."
"Oh, and ehm, Inuyasha? I didn't know you actually take baths…"
"I don't…"
"Why were you coming from the river then?"
"I was thinking."
*Baths really are nice…*
"Okay, what are we gonna do today? Go back to the village, I guess, huh?"
"We had a game going, right?"
"What game?"
*The game you told Miroku, stupid…*
"The game of being separated from your lover or something stupid like that! I'm not going to the village, they might think I missed Kaede or something…"
Kagome giggled. "Why did you go to me then?"
"I didn't! Remember, I got lost and fell in the well!"
She smiled at him, at his stupid lie.
"Come on, Inuyasha. You're not someone to get lost!" Kagome elbowed him. "Why did you come, really?"
"…Miroku and the others were annoying me, with that stupid game of theirs…"
*…Game of yours…*
"Hmmm…But okay, what shall we do today if they think I'm still studying and stuff?"
"Dunno…You'll figure something…"
"Okay! Let's play…Hide and seek!"
*WHAT did she say?*
"Please, Inuyasha? It's a bit childish, but it's fun!"
"Kagome, I never played hide and seek before."
"Why not?"
"Being a hanyou in a place full of humans, they feared me, disgusted me. They wouldn't let me play."
"Are you serious? What kind of jerks are that!" she said angrily.
"You should be afraid to, actually. I could rip you apart before you even try to say 'S'."
(AN: Here starts the song For Sure, Krezip, a Dutch rockband, made it.)
"Yeah, of course you can, but you won't! So if that's all…"
I know, it's impossible to think of, to think of all the pain that you are in
"How do you know I won't? You might not know what I am, what I feel on the inside. Hanyou aren't that reliable, you know."
"And what is that for an argument? Are you having that attitude with everything?"
"That's what they always said about me…Always, when I was a kid."
Kagome folded her arms around him.
I'll try, to be there for the better to just be there for the worse
"Why didn't you rip them apart then, if they talked about you like that, I would be in a mood that if I had claws like you, they wouldn't be safe!"
"I couldn't. That isn't me. My mother still always thought they would accept me after a while. They didn't of course. She herself was rejected too…"
I know for sure that you'll laugh again, someday
I know for sure, she's looking at you know, and she says, look what you got left
Look what you got left
"I know you aren't like that Inuyasha…When we first met, you didn't fight me for REAL, did you? You were much stronger. You aren't some bad guy, or else I wouldn't be sitting here!"
I could try to tell you that time will heal it all
"Just pretending to be one, right…"
"You really are cute you know, sometimes." She scratched him behind his ears.
It probably will be soothing but it won't get it out
"I hate it when you do that..."
"No you don't…You really like it, don't you…"
*EH?*
"How'd you know that?"
"Woman's intuition…I can see it from your face too."
"Really? I thought I grew over that."
Look what you got left
"How can you grow over a thing as showing emotions on your face?"
Look what you got left
"I just…It was a negative thing to do, your enemy shouldn't know how you feel!"
"I'm not your enemy, Inuyasha. Besides, I can tell how you feel sometimes."
And there's enough to go on
(AN: The end of the song)
"Really?"
"What's wrong? You don't like it when others know how you feel, right?"
"I'm not used to share my feelings."
"Did you never tell anyone, not even a friend?"
"I didn't have friends."
*Do I have friends now, actually?*
"Now you've got friends, ne? But you still don't tell anyone!"
"I'm not used to it."
"You can get used to it."
"You'll only laugh at me, I'm not in to something like that."
"No I won't, I'd never laugh at you! Except when you fall out of your tree, of course…"
"See? You'll laugh at me…"
"Oww, come ON! You laugh at me too!"
"I don't!"
"Not loudly, maybe, but on the inside…"
"Mmm… Maybe…"
"See? Told you…"
"Alright, you've got a point here…"
*I don't want you to laugh at me. I'm different from you… Way different…"
"You wanna be laughed at, Kagome."
"Of course not. Did you really think that?!"
"Well, it almost seems as if you don't care!"
"ALMOST, yeah. It hurts me to, you know!"
"Alright! I'm definitely not good at telling feelings. Not from me neither from someone else!"
"Okay, Inuyasha! What am I thinking RIGHT now!"
"No idea."
"Oww, I know you can guess, Inuyasha!"
"I'm not good at this, Kagome."
"You don't have to be good at it."
"I can't guess your thoughts, Kagome. Never will, too."
*This is pathetic*
"I know what you're thinking."
" Yeah, right."
"You think this is rather pathetic, ne?"
"Eh?"
"I'm right, am I not?"
"Feh…"
"I think you can guess my thoughts too, Inuyasha. With a little practice."
"Really?"
"You must understand how I think."
"I don't think I'll EVER understand THAT…"
"Oww, come on, I'm serious. You're being stubborn!"
"I'm not! I just think it's rather stupid, because…"
"…YOU couldn't do it without practice…"
" Geez! This is getting real dumb!"
"Alright…But I still now what you're thinking…"
*Stupid wench*
"…Stupid wench…"
"Alright! I'm convinced. How do you DO that?"
"I guess with you it's quite simple, you think a certain way. You're being predictive. Also you can see from your face."
"You're not predictive I guess. I'll never know what you actually think."
"I'm predictive too. But you really have to know the way I think, else you won't understand."
"And how do I know that?"
"We can do some sort of game. I do it with my friends a lot, it's quite fun, but also very confronting."
*This is weird…*
"Okay. You say a word in the beginning. Then I say the word that comes right in my head when you say that word. Then you say the last word I said, and so on."
"Get it. But which word should I start with?"
"That's your choice."
"Ehm…Shikon no Tama…"
"The search for shards."
"Shards…"
"Very important."
"Important…"
"Friendship and love."
"Love…"
"…Inuyasha."
"…"
"Go on."
"Inuyasha…"
"Cute."
"Cute…am I cute?"
"I think so, yeah. But this is how it works. I'll try it on you now."
"Okay."
*I am SO gonna say something stupid. Really, I know it already!*
"Alright, I'll start the same way you did. Shikon no Tama…"
"Becoming a full youkai."
"Youkai…"
"Danger."
"Danger…"
"Protecting Kagome."
"Kagome…"
"Kikyo."
"…" Kagome swallowed, "Kikyo…"
"The past."
"Past…"
"Unbearable."
"Unbearable…"
"Losing Kagome."
"Okay. That's it."
"Why's that?"
"Because we've had me already."
"O, yeah, that's right."
*REALLY! That is the stupidest thing that you can say to Kagome! Comparing her to Kikyo. As if she is her. But it really was the first thing I thought of…I'm in trouble…*
(AN: Another song: Avril Lavigne's song Tomorrow)
"Oi, Kagome?" he said when he saw her turning away from him, "What is it, Kagome?"
"Kikyo…I knew it."
And I wanna believe you, when you tell me that it'll be okay
"Kikyo is the past."
Yeah I try to believe you
"But I'm Kikyo. That doesn't mean I'm the past too, does it?"
But I don't
"You aren't Kikyo!"
When you say that it's gonna be, it always turns out to be a different way
Yeah I try to believe you- not today, today, today
"No, I'm ONLY her reincarnation!"
"You are the beautiful Kagome from the future, definitely not Kikyo."
I don't know how I'll feel tomorrow, tomorrow
And I don't know what to say, tomorrow, tomorrow
Tomorrow is a different day
"Leave the beautiful…"
"The lovely Kagome then…"
"Or the stupid wench, Kagome…"
"OR the sweet, caring, thoughtful Kagome!"
"My ass! You're just saying that because you won't let me go home!"
"Your ass is beautiful…"
"Why won't you let me go home, Inuyasha?"
"I need you…"
"…To get the shards. I already knew that, Inuyasha. I'm going to Kaede's!"
*…because I love you…*
It's always been up to you, it's turning around, it's up to me
I'm gonna do what I have to do
Just don't
"Kagome, wait! Inuyasha grabbed her wrist before she could run further, "Why go to Kaede's?"
Give me a little time, leave me alone a little while
Maybe it's not to late
Not today
"BECAUSE I wanna go THERE! Let me go of me, Inuyasha. I'll…I'll 'S' you!"
"I'll take you with me to the ground, ya know!"
"ARGH! You selfish, stupid HANYOU!"
"Ah," he let her go, "So THAT'S the point here, really. You're good at lying, Kagome. Letting me believe you take me for what I am."
"Oh, so now I've done it!"
"I'm just a hanyou. That's me, alright! And if you don't like it, drown in that stupid well of yours, okay!"
"Inuyasha…"
"Inuyasha, this…Inuyasha, that! Inuyasha, you said Kikyo to my name, now I'm mad and going home! What do you think I am? Kikyo was worthier holding the Shikon! Get home and please don't get near to the well ever!" Inuyasha said, and with his anger he left to the forest.
*Stupid wench! She doesn't deserve to be the reincarnation of Kikyo! Kikyo was a real miko, who would give her life to protect it. Kikyo took me as a hanyou! She doesn't have the right to feel miserable about being Kikyo's reincarnation! She should be honoured! SHE really took me as a hanyou…Or did she…She was the one that told me to get human with the shikon. Kagome never asked me to get human…But still, Kikyo never told me that I was a stupid, selfish hanyou…*
If you're trying to turn me into something else, it's easy to see I'm not down with that
'Cause I'm nobody's fool
And if you're trying to turn me into something else, I've seen it enough and I'm over that
'Cause I'm nobody's fool
If you wanna bring me down, go ahead and try! Go ahead and try!
(AN: The last part of Avril's song Nobody's Fool fitted in perfectly so I placed it in)
"Inuyasha!!!" Kagome fell down to her knees. She had done it now…"Inu…Yasha…
Go ahead and try, try to look me in the eye, but you'll never see inside, until you realise
Things are trying to settle down, just trying to figure out
Exactly what I'm about, if it's with or without you, I don't need your doubt in me!
~*~
Well that was the fourth chapter. Tell me what you thought about the songs and pleazzz review! 'Cause you all know I live on those small texts… ^.^