Konnichiwa, mina-san! This is the 13th chapter and as you all know, thirteen is the bad-luck number . . . But I'm not superstitious so don't mind. Still, this chapter isn't a happy one. But, just read and tell me what you think!!!

Final Breakdowns and Still Doubting

Chapter 13

Inuyasha was in the forest. He didn't hear nor smell Kikyo anywhere. She was not around here. She was somewhere else, doing something else. But if she had taken Kagome's soul, what would she be up to? He didn't know, and so he just strolled around the whole forest, hoping he would find Kikyo, or that she would find him.

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Kagome saw the person coming closer. It shined a bright purple light out . . . It was Kikyo!

What is Kikyo doing in my thoughts! What is she gonna do, laugh at me? If it really was Inuyasha who helped her get my soul, she doesn't have any use for me, does she? I mean, she would have Inuyasha . . .

Kagome almost started to cry. She was quite sure Inuyasha had helped Kikyo get her soul. She didn't even want to get her soul back. What use did it have? Meanwhile Kikyo came closer. Kagome tried to ignore her, but since she was the only thing that wasn't all black, she couldn't help looking at her.

"What's the matter . . . Kagome?"

"You know what's the matter, Kikyo, you know it!"

"I don't know anything, Kagome . . ."

"I know you used Inuyasha to take my soul!" she shouted.

Kikyo took advantage of her thoughts and her he did.

"It's true, Kagome. He took your soul for me. But it's not a secret is it, he loves me and not you . . ."

"I knew that all the time! You don't have to rub it in while I can't go back anyway!"

"But I can get you to live, Kagome. I can place your soul in back into you, you know!"

"And why would you do that!"

"Because I needed a soul to revive again . . . But my revival failed. It didn't work. Now I can only give you your soul back . . ."

"You wouldn't do that! Why would you give me my soul back when you can torture 4 people by holding it?"

"I'm not the person that stood by hatred anymore, Kagome. I'm just a ghost, a spirit. I just want to make up with you after the things I put you through."

Kagome found that hard to believe. But she had to give her a chance, ne? It wouldn't be fair if she didn't give her the chance to make up with her.

"And why would I go back . . . Do I have anything to live for?"

"Of course you have . . . Don't forget Inuyasha needs you."

"And that's it. I only want to go back to tell him I'm going home and that I'm never coming back because he took my soul . . . I'll never forgive him for that! Kikyo, I want my soul!"

Kikyo's purple glow became stronger and a blue shiny circle came floating by. Kikyo said something that heard like a spell and after that the soul and Kikyo both disappeared.

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Inuyasha had given up searching and went back to the village. He couldn't do anything if he wouldn't find Kikyo. But he had search everywhere he thought she could be and didn't find her. But it didn't make sense: Kikyo hated him forever, so she must come someday to kill him, or at least make him feel guilty . . . It just didn't make sense, and Inuyasha was confused by it.

*The one time you need her, you can't find her . . .*

He got to Kaede's home and barged in. His eyes searched in the room for Kagome, but didn't find her. Where has her body gone? He quickly waked the others.

"Miroku, get up! Sango, Kaede-baba! Kagome is missing!" Inuyasha yelled, while shaking Miroku out of bed.

"What did you say, Inuyasha? I was having a nice dream, why'd you wake me?"

"BECAUSE KAGOME IS MISSING YOU IDIOT!!!"

"What? Kagome-sama is missing? How can that be!"

"I don't know, I just got here!"

"Kagome can't be far away, Inuyasha. Maybe she had such a strong will she managed to get up and walk a couple of steps. But she can't be far. We have to look out for her." Kaede said and they all went outside to look for her. They split up. Sango went with Kaede and Miroku, 'cause they couldn't really defence themselves in the dark. Inuyasha went of on his own. He went on the way to the well, to see if Kagome went home by some reason. He found nothing in his way.

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Kagome was walking in the forest. But she wasn't controlling her body . . . Kikyo was! Kikyo had changed her into her clothes and had put her hair tied like Kikyo used to. Difference of the original Kikyo was hard to tell. Kagome's body was walking back towards the village . . .

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Inuyasha considered going through the well. If Kagome managed too get home, she probably would be discovered by her family and would be safe. If she was still out in the Feudal Era she would be in great danger. He had to go look for her in his own time. He went back to the village to see if the others had found her yet. He was walking towards the village when he heard something. He listened carefully and heard footsteps and twitching twigs. He suddenly saw a 'white and red something' appear.

"Kikyo . . . Is it you?" he said, suddenly remembering it couldn't be her. It would be Kaede of course, together with Sango Shippo and Miroku.

"Inuyasha . . . You did remember me . . ."

No, you didn't remember me. You don't recognise me . . . You should be able to tell the difference between us!!! You should be able to tell that it's me just in her clothes!!! Why can't you see it's me . . . And why did you help her get my soul . . . WHY!!!

"So it is you, Kikyo . . . I thought you vanished back then. I thought you said it was the end?"

"But I didn't say I'd rest in peace Inuyasha . . . "

"You've stolen Kagome's soul, ne? It's you . . ."

What? What's this game you're playing now, Inuyasha? What kind of trick is this all? Do you know it's me and try to let me believe something?

"Of course not, Inuyasha . . . YOU stole her soul . . ."

"What are you telling me? I know best what I did, Kikyo. You can't let me believe I took her soul . . ."

What is this? Why is this? What is the whole idea behind this, Inuyasha?

"I think you took my soul, Inuyasha . . ."

"YOUR soul? Your soul ain't missing! Quit the bullshit, Kikyo!"

I ain't Kikyo!!!

"Am I Kikyo, Inuyasha?"

"Of course you are! I've got eyes in my head! What is the whole idea behind this, Kikyo?"

"Again . . . Are you sure I'm Kikyo . . . And is it real, all the things you see . . ."

"What are you meaning by that! I don't get you. Give Kagome back her soul!"

"I've already given back her soul, Inuyasha . . ."

"Where is she, Kikyo?"

"She's right in front of you, Inuyasha . . . And she really wants to know why you took her soul for me . . ."

She's able to read my thoughts in here?

"Stop kidding, Kikyo. Where is she?"

"Like I said, right in front of you . . ."

"YOU are right in front of me. You ain't Kagome!"

I AM! I AM Kagome! Were not starting over again, ne? Do I have to tell you again?

"Looks can be deceiving, Inuyasha . . . Do you fully rely on your eyesight?"

"I'm not blind, Kikyo! If you want to mislead me, you gotta do better then this!"

Apparently not . . . Why can't you see? Have you already forgot how I look? How I differ from Kikyo?

"Do I have to do better then this? I don't think so, Inuyasha!"

"Look, you smell like Kagome, 'cause you took her soul from her! I'm not falling for anything, Kikyo! Tell me where Kagome is, now!"

"You KNOW where Kagome is . . . But do you want to see her? Or do you long to see me?

What is this, Kikyo? What are you up to? What do you want with my body?

"What is this crappy bullshit! Quit it now, Kikyo. I need to find Kagome, and I need her soul from you. Give it back!"

"She already has it back, Inuyasha. She's safe. You don't have to worry about her anymore . . ."

Of course you have to worry about me! I'm not safe, Kikyo has taken over me!!!

"She's safe? Really? I need to go check on her!"

"There's no need to go anywhere, Inuyasha. Kagome is here already . . ."

"But . . . Here's only you . . . Does that mean that . . ."

Finally getting it . . .

"Inuyasha. I'm Kikyo . . . But am I Kagome . . .?

"You are! You've taken her body!"

"With her permission. She didn't feel like living anymore, Inuyasha. She didn't feel as if she needed to come back. I'll live in her body. We can be happy . . ."

Of course I didn't gave you permission. I only said that I didn't feel I had to go back because you helped her get my soul . . . But did you?

"She gave you permission to be happy with me?"

Of course not!!!

"She did. Now choose, Inuyasha . . . You can still choose for Kagome . . . But she'll go back to her time and you'll see neither of us in your life again . . . It's your decision!"

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What will Inuyasha do? It's up to him, now! What can Kagome do to stop Kikyo . . . Absolutely nothing . . . She can only watch Kikyo get Inuyasha now . . . Sorry if this was a bit to down for you guys, my life's a mess. I don't have time for anything but school, this week I've got six huge tests and I still got lessons 'till three or four o'clock. I'm good at school, but not in learning tests. It takes a lot of time if I don't get the thing it's about. Then I've got hobbies like this, and Wednesday and Thursday afternoon I'm not at home. That means studying in the evening! And then the boy of my dreams doesn't fall for me, nor does anyone EVER! In all of the thirteen and a half years I exist no one ever liked me good enough as a girlfriend . . . Is it just because I'm not so tall? I'm not fat, and they say I've got a pretty face but I'm just 1.55 meters. Worse is that boy falls for my friend! I don't blame her for being attractive, but . . . She already has a boyfriend. AND HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO STUDY WHEN I'M SO DOWN!!! Oops, sorry, I shouldn't bother you nice readers with my stupid, pathetic life. I hope you find this fanfic less pathetic than my life . . . Anyway, if you review, I might continue doing this fanfic, I feel so totally down that I feel like breaking down and never get up again!