The sixteenth chapter! I can't believe it! Anyway, back to the story: I think I'll put in a lyric for Kagome at the beginning of every chapter. She deserves to be referred to! By the way, the song's of Iron Maiden.

Final Breakdowns and Still Doubting

Chapter 16

Unchain the colours before my eyes,
Yesterday's sorrows, tomorrow's white lies.
Scan the horizon, the clouds take me higher,
I shall return from out of fire.

Tears for remembrance, and tears for joy,
Tears for somebody and this lonely boy.
Out in the madness, the all Seeing Eye,
Flickers above us, to light up the sky.

Unchain the colours before my eyes,
Yesterday's sorrows, tomorrow's white lies.
Scan the horizon, the clouds take me higher,
I shall return from out of fire.

Inuyasha went outside. He saw Kagome's backpack thrown against the wall and got a sting in his heart. It looked just like she would come back. As if nothing had happened, and everything was all right. It wasn't. It would never be. Things were worse than they should be able to get. The future was as black as never before. But in the black was a little point of white. If they could get the Shikon no Tama to reform without the help of Kikyo, there was a small chance. A very small chance. But a real chance. And it was all they got to hang on to. He had to do it. He had to proof he cared about her. He had to admit his mistake. He found the shards in her bag and went back inside. He had to discuss this with everyone, and they would have to figure every exact detail. Else their little chance would be gone. Kikyo would find them busy and then everything was ruined. Gone…

He went back into the hut and saw them sitting just as usual. He saw the empty spot again. Kagome's place. Empty forever… if they ruined this chance.

"So ehm… What are we gonna do exactly, Kaede-baba?" he finally said.

"I suggest you put the shards of the jewel somewhere, or swallow them, but that would be hard to get out. I don't think it's good to put them inside your head, your brain might be controlled."

"Alright. How long will it take it to reform again?"

"I don't know. But I think you should be able to feel it. I don't think it'll be painless, or without feeling. Have you ever used a shard, Inuyasha?"

"No. I never used any of its power. Houshi, how does it feel?"

"It'll feel different with you, Inuyasha. First, I am human, and second am I not as strong as you are. You have to try it. But don't ever let it take over you. I don't know how powerful it'll be."

"Okay… so here we go…" he said as he pushed the shards in his arm. He suddenly felt a huge power flowing in him.

*Kagome… I hope this'll work… I really do… I'll do anything for you…*

"Inuyasha… Is everything okay?"

"Yeah, yeah… I just need to breathe. These shards can take over your brain if you take them to fast." Inuyasha said, looking at the shards in his arm. They weren't reforming. Nothing happened.

*Aren't we forgetting something? The Tama was reformed when… when Hiten was killed. He was dead, and the shards were all that remained of him. Maybe they only reform when… when the carrier is killed!*

"Chikusho! Shippo, you forgot that Hiten was killed when the shards formed a big piece together. I think it only reforms when the carrier dies! Don't you think?"

"Inuyasha, calm down. It may take awhile before it is reformed. Don't expect it to happen so fast."

"But, Kaede-baba, if this doesn't work, we can't get Kagome back! And this doesn't seem to work! I've messed things up! I've ruined everything! I should die! I should! Then the Tama will reform and Kagome can return! Then I can finally do something to get everything back to normal! Before I messed everything up! Before everything went wrong!!!"

"Calm down, Inuyasha. Calm down. Look at your arm. What do you see?"

"I see fucking shards of a jewel I was supposed to be reforming! It didn't work! Kill me, Sango! It needs to be done for the sake of Kagome!"

"What! You expect me to kill you?! No way, you can solve your problems differently!"

"Sango is right, Inuyasha. You didn't look closely enough. Don't you see they move towards each other? It just needs time, Inuyasha. Just time. If you wait a couple of days it'll be reformed. Just be patient and don't let the shards take over you."

"But… But what if it doesn't work?"

"Then we'll think of something else. But you don't have to worry about that now."

"But…"

"No buts, Inuyasha. If you want to get Kagome back, this is the way. That's what you want, right?"

"Of course it is!"

"Then be patient and wait."

*I can feel that the shards influent me… They want me to kill myself… Or is it me who really wants that deep down inside and do the shards just bring it up? I don't know… I really don't…*

You need to be punished for what you've done, Inuyasha…

"Huh, what?"

"I said you should be patient and that you should wait."

"No, no… after that!"

"I didn't say anything after that."

"Please stop bugging me, okay! Who said that!"

"None of us said anything, Inuyasha."

You need to be punished for what you've done, Inuyasha…

"There! Now who said that!"

"It was completely quiet, Inuyasha. Are you going crazy?"

*Am I going crazy? Am I? I can't go crazy at the moment everyone needs me the most! But I need to be punished for what I've done*

"I need to be punished for what I've done…"

"Huh? What do you mean, Inuyasha?" Miroku said.

"I need to be punished for what I've done…" Inuyasha said. His eyes were empty and his hands reached for Tessaiga. It was obvious what he was trying to do…

"Inuyasha! Stop it!" Sango yelled, while grabbing his arm, the arm, the one with all the shards in it, the one that was hoping to grab Tessaiga. "You can't kill yourself! You aren't gonna get out of this one, buddy!"

"But I need to be punished for what I've done!"

"We'll punish you later. Kagome will, indeed. But you can't back out on us now!"

"But I need to punish myself!"

"DO IT LATER!!!"

Suddenly Inuyasha fell back down on the ground. He didn't twitch. His arm started to glow…

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What will happen next? What had gotten into Inuyasha? And how will San-chan ever continue this story when she doesn't even has time to do nice thing with her friends??? The last question is one I can't answer, but the other ones are all soon to be answered… if I find some time to do it!