Hey everyone! I hope this story will be getting somewhere someday… Because this is the seventeenth chapter of a story that could be 101 stories… -_-' Again, I tell you this, this story was supposed to be a ONE-SHOT (can you imagine it???) from Inuyasha's POV (I'm getting more and more Kagome's POV… -_-') I failed to make that story, but this is cool too… Anywayz, on with the story… The lyric is Nothing Else Matters of Metallica.
Final Breakdowns and Still Doubting
Chapter 17
So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters
Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know
So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know
So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No nothing else matters
Kikyo sat with her back against the well. This was the place Kagome always came out… Would she be able to go through it now? It didn't matter. What use is it to know where the girl came from? She doesn't exist anymore… Kikyo smirked. Now, Inuyasha missed Kagome, but soon he'll have forgotten her. The real thing always wins over the fake. This kind of wisdom is always true… For Kikyo.
She figured Inuyasha would fall back to her. Inuyasha would forget about the reincarnation. Didn't he himself say he didn't love her? He wouldn't have said such a thing about herself, Kikyo. Kikyo, who he always longed for…
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Inuyasha lay in the hut. His arm hurt and he was dizzy. He wanted to know what was going on, and so he tried to get up.
*Dammit! These shards are supposed to give me power! They're supposed to make me the strongest youkai in the entire world! Why do they hurt me so much!*
"What the…" he said in a sigh.
"So you're awake. You've got more willpower than I thought…"
"What do you mean, Kaede-baba? And why does it hurt so much?"
"The shards were taking over your feelings. They made them far more longing. You wanted to kill yourself. And it's hurting so much because you don't do this for yourself. That means you hold the shard without the desire to be powerful, or just to live. You do this for Kagome. The jewel always rises some power of you. Now it's not physically, but mentally. It hurts because you won the battle inside, you wanted to kill yourself, but didn't."
"And how would you know that…"
"I've learned my little something. And it's not hard to figure."
"Keh! Could figure it myself too… I just wanted to if you weren't fake smart!"
"Yeah, yeah…"
Inuyasha shoved the sleeve of his arm. He gasped at the site of it.
"Kaede-baba! Look!"
"Ah, that's interesting… The shards are getting closer to reform…"
"Yeah… How long do you think it will take?"
"Not too long, but not very quick, Inuyasha. You've got to be patient."
Without saying a word, Inuyasha stood up and walked to the door.
"I don't think that's smart, Inuyasha."
"Why not, houshi? If I have to be patient I'm gonna be, but not in company."
"Do you think you'll be left alone with the whole Tama in your arm…"
"Sango, I can take care of myself!"
"He wants to be alone so he can think about Kagome!!!" Shippo suddenly said.
~BAF~
"Shippo!!! Just fuck off okay!!!" he said, and walked out of the door.
*Stupid Kitsune! If I say I'm gonna wait, I'm gonna wait. And why would go and think about Kagome… It's not that I wanna bring her back, is it? I do it for them… I do it for THEM… Not for me… She doesn't mean anything to me… No, she means everything to me…*
He wanted to go to the well. He didn't know why (or did he?) he wanted to go there, but he couldn't think of another place to go. When he got almost up there, he suddenly smelled something… Kagome?
*Is it Kagome? Stupid! Of course not… It's Kikyo… I'd better go back to the others*
"Inuyasha. Do you think you can sneak away from me while you got so much shards in your arm…"
"Kikyo…"
*Shit, forgot. She must have felt me coming…*
"What are you doing with those shards, Inuyasha…?"
"I… Non of your business, Kikyo!"
"You can be honest with me, Inuyasha… After all, " she said as she got up, "That's what we're supposed to… As every couple…"
*NANI?!! COUPLE??*
"We're not a couple, Kikyo. I wonder if we ever were."
"Of course we were… And we are, Inuyasha. It's fait…"
"It isn't fait. It's you. I don't think you're fait."
"Don't you wanna be with me… Inuyasha?"
Kikyo wrapped her arms around him. She still didn't think Inuyasha would've had the guts to tell his friends, or that his 'friends' could forgive him.
"Kikyo…"
Inuyasha looked into her eyes, but didn't saw Kikyo. He saw Kagome. It were Kagome's eyes… Not Kikyo's…
"I hate you, Kikyo." he suddenly said.
"What did you say, Inuyasha?"
"I said I hate you, Kikyo." he said while getting her arms of him.
"WHAT did you say… INUYASHA?" she said, and her eyes almost flamed. How could this possibly be? Inuyasha should forget about Kagome and stay with her. Apparently not…
"I hate you, Kikyo. You destroyed my whole life. At first we were friends. Close friends… But Naraku misled you… If we were a couple you would've maybe thought it wasn't me. You really believed it was me… So you shot me. When I finally got something of a life, you get here, and take Kagome's soul. You took her away from me… Why do you want to destroy me?"
"I hate you too, Inuyasha! You should never have fallen in love with my reincarnation! If you didn't really fall in love with me… How can you fall in love with a fake! You betrayed me, Inuyasha… You'll make me die for the third time… I know what you're trying to do! But your not gonna live to do it!"
*Shit… She's got her bow with her… She… She can and will kill me if I don't do something…*
"Kikyo… How can I let you die for the third time if I didn't let you die the first time. I really didn't mean to break up in such a way. If you said we had something…"
"Inuyasha! You'll be at the same spot, but now forever!"
"Inuyasha looked behind him and saw the Goshinboku-tree… And when he turned he saw a pink light coming at him…
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Cliff-hanger! What will happen to Inuyasha? And will he ever get Kagome back if he survives. Will he no longer deny to himself that he loves Kagome? And will that stupid Kitsune finally shut up? If I post soon, you'll know soon… If I post slow… You might never know ^.~ Nah.. I'll post!