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Final Breakdowns and Still Doubting

Chapter 20 (!!!)

Inuyasha woke up. He saw it was still night, as it was dark all around him. Tomorrow would be the New Moon. He would get human. He'd probably miss Kagome more then ever. Would he try to… to wish her back right now? Could he? It sure was what he needed right now… But would he dare to do it without the others knowing? He held the Shikon in his hand. Would he try to do it right now? His heart said yes… and his brain actually did too. He closed his eyes and just tried to think of only Kagome.

*Kagome… I want you to return to your body. Kikyo must go… She doesn't belong there. She should go. I want you back. I want you to return… I want to…*

The jewel in his hands started to glow. Inuyasha kept on wishing, knowing if he thought of something else, he'd screw up.

*Kagome… Please come back to your body. That is what I wish. I want that wish to be granted by the Shikon no Tama. I want it with all my heart and soul. I want to be with you… I want you to return to this time. I want your soul to return…*

He felt the jewel rising out of his hands and wished as hard as he could. He felt a breeze brush his face. The jewel was granting his wish. He didn't open his eyes yet, afraid of what had happened. When the wind stopped, he opened his eyes. The jewel was gone… Could that be meaning… Kagome was back? He had to find her! Inuyasha jumped out of the tree and ran towards the place he had last seen Kikyo: the well. The well Kagome always had used to go through… The place he hated because of that. He wanted her more then ever to stand next to it! He ran… he didn't fly. He was too scared to know what had happened. But still he wanted to know.

*Kagome… I hope I got you back. I hope you're standing here… I hope I did the right thing…*

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Kagome opened her eyes. She looked at herself, tried to think of what happened. Oww yeah. Inuyasha had let her down. He had chosen Kikyo. How come she was in her body again? Couldn't she just stay a lost soul? Inuyasha would like her to stay that way. What happened to Kikyo? 'Cause this was her own body… Suddenly she heard somebody stop behind her. She turned around, only to see the face of the hanyou that caused her to be soul-dead.

"Kagome! You're back!"

"Bummer, ne[ just for my information, was do "ne" and "kawaii" mean]? Get away from me! I'm going home! I'm not ever gonna come back!" Kagome stood up. She didn't want to waste her time at this. It was obvious she didn't have a reason to stay here anymore.

"But… Kagome!"

"Stop it! I don't want to hear it!"

"But I…"

"Get lost! I'm going!"

"Please don't go home!"

"What other choice do I have? You want me to believe I can stay here? Stop dreaming!"

"I'll be waiting for you. It was all a big mistake and I hope you'll understand that. If you want to know, I'll be at Kaede's."

"You'll never see me again! I'm going!"

"If you're going through you'll never know what happened. Stay in this time and think about it. I hope you can forgive me…"

Kagome stood up and walked away. She noticed she wasn't far away from the Goshimboku tree. The well should be around here…

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Inuyasha walked back to Kaede's. He could see the sky turn red as the sun rose. How he would've wanted to see it with Kagome. How he wanted her to forgive him. She was probably already back in her time. He would never see her again. How could he have thought it would all be better when she would be back? Too simple-minded… Was that true? Didn't he think about others than himself?

He got to Kaede's hut and got in. Kaede was already up and saw the dismayed look on his face.

"What is it, Inuyasha? What's wrong?"

"I wished Kagome back. She doesn't want to talk to or see me. She tells me to get lost. She's probably already home by now…"

"I don't think so, Inuyasha. She needs time to think. It's pretty much you've done to her."

"I know… But I didn't want it to happen! I didn't want it to go this way!"

"Kikyo probably didn't want things to go the way it went, fifty years ago. But that doesn't change the feelings you have about it. Kagome feels betrayed. She probably doesn't understand why she's been brought back. You chose Kikyo. You just let Kikyo have it her way. That's not something to be easy on."

"But I really apologised and I really want to start over again."

"Then make it clear to her. She should know…"

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(AN: This is a song fitting Kagome at the moment, it's from Wheatus, called A Little Respect)

I tried to discover
A little something to make me sweeter
Oh baby refrain, from breaking my heart


I'm so in love with you
I'll be forever blue
That you give me no reason, you know you're making me work so hard
That you give me no, that you give me no, soul


I hear you calling
Oh baby please, give a little respect, give a little respect to me

And if I should falter, would you open your arms out to me?
We can make love not war, and live in peace in our hearts


I'm so in love with you
I'll be forever blue
What religion or reason could drive a man to forsake his lover?
Don't you tell me no, don't you tell me no
Don't you tell me no, don't you tell me no soul


I hear you calling
Oh baby please, give a little respect, give a little respect to me

I'm so in love with you
I'll be forever blue
That you give me no, that you give me no, soul


I hear you calling
Oh baby please, give a little respect, give a little respect to me
I hear you calling
Oh baby, please give a little respect to me

Kagome sat at the edge of the well. With one move she could be away from here. Away from Inuyasha… He betrayed her. For real, he betrayed her. She was nothing to him. But why would she be back then? Somebody must have used the Tama for her. Never would Inuyasha do that. He'd get fully demon or human. If he'd get his hands on it, that is. It probably must've been Kaede who reformed it, since she was the only suitable Miko. Then one of her friends must've brought her back. Would they be glad to see her? They probably would… But that didn't ease the pain Inuyasha caused by letting Kikyo take care of her. And what did they do when she wasn't there? Just sit on their ass and wait for Kikyo and Inuyasha to get married or something? And wasn't it perhaps Inuyasha who wished her back… He was the one that found her… Are the others looking for her? Do they even know she's back? She wanted to know that, but the well was more inviting…What would be the best thing to do?

She felt the rain coming down at her… It felt as if she would collide with the rain if she stayed long enough in it. Kikyo's clothes were warmer then her own… But still it was cold… By a streak of wind she suddenly lost her balance, and felt herself falling down the wrong side… into the well…

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So… Isn't that sad? Kagome doesn't know or want to know what really happened because of the accidental choice Inuyasha had made before. And then the choice was made for her! Do you wanna know what'll happen? I don't even know myself… o_0 I don't know what I'll do next… Smart huh… Well, anyway, as in the previous chapter: REVIEW!!!