Well, after another long period of waiting, here's the new chapter! Enjoy…
Final Breakdowns and Still Doubting
Chapter 23
The hours passed and Sango was getting worried. Would everything be all right?
"Ehm.. Kaede-sama… I was just wondering… " she heard Miroku say. All they ever did was wondering… Would this be…? Would that be…? Would they…? Can we…?
"Why isn't there anything we can REALLY do!!!" she suddenly shouted.
"Sango…"
"Sango… Kagome is getting better already. She's a really strong girl."
"But Inuyasha's went away again and- AH!! WHY did he HAVE TO be like this NOW!!!"
"Don't worry about it to much… He's just confused and will see his mistake in time."
"But, Kaede-sama… We don't have any idea where he is right now, ne? He can be miles and miles away by now…"
"He isn't, Miroku… Trust me, I bet he's somewhere just out of the village."
"But how do we know?"
"We don't… We can only guess…"
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Inuyasha sat at the riverside. It had stopped raining just moments ago and the sun came shining through the thick clouds. He sighed. To live like a good guy is hard…
Bad guys have an easy life…
*I don't want to be like that, do I? No…*
How could he correct his mistakes?
Go back… Inuyasha…
*But I can't go back… can I? They won't forgive me… Never ever!*
Could he try to pretend nothing had happened?
Inuyasha… There is only one way to find out… Go back and see…
"It's no use… There won't be any difference from before… There is nothing there…" he sighed.
But how can he be sure of that?
You are being careless again, Inuyasha. Don't pretend to, just go back and see…
*I don't need anyone…*
Feh… Doesn't need anyone… Do you really think that, Inuyasha…?
*Of course I do!*
But he doesn't…
You've got to quit pretending, Inuyasha… Remember why this whole thing started?
Because he was pretending…
*I know, I know… That's why I don't want to bother them anymore…*
Don't you think they got used to your actions…
"They won't have to get used to it if I don't go back there!!" he yelled.
But they've got a heart too… Don't you think they'll miss your stupidity?
*Quit that, okay…*
Would they miss him?
"They'll get over it…"
What about… Kagome?
"She'll go back to her time and be happy without me… She doesn't need a jerk around her…"
But is it fair for you to decide that?
*I don't care… As long as they are happy I'll be happy too…*
Full speed ahead… You changed a lot, Inuyasha…
*So what…*
Shouldn't he face reality then?
"I don't care… as before… I blew it and now I have to pay for it…"
But it's not fair to let them pay for it too…
*Damned conscious… Can't you shut up for a while?*
I will if you would listen to me once, Inuyasha!
But why should he go back then?
You should go back because you're only hurting them even more…
"It might hurt now… But if I go back it'll ache forever…"
That kind of wise words of you… You really did change! You should be understanding, Inuyasha… Just try to be them once!
*But… they are better of without me…*
Inuyasha… just try to-
"DON'T TRY TO CONVINCE ME!!!"
The birds flew out of the trees at his yelling. He looked down at his reflection in the water and sighed. He had made a decision, why'd he have to think it over again…
"I'm not going back. Get over it!"
He turned his back at the spot and tried to walk away but… He couldn't leave them behind, could he… leave them all and… be alone again?
Miroku… That hentai-priest… although his Kazana had disappeared…
*He won't change a bit…*
And Sango… She's such a strong girl…
*Always think of the feelings of the others and not of her own…*
Shippo… The little Kitsune…
*He's irritating… but he's lost his parents… and he's still so happy…*
Because he thinks of you and Kagome as his parents…
"Shut up."
And… What about Kagome… The girl from the future… Reincarnation of your first love…
*She's not anything like Kikyo…*
No… Inuyasha… She's…
*…Better than Kikyo…*
There… Now go back and be with them…
"I can't."
Can't he just go back?
Inuyasha… Don't think. Just do it…
"But I…"
Take a clear look at the facts and face it. You can't keep running away… You need them.
*Maybe… you've got a point… But it's better if I don't come back…*
Just go back… They'll be happy…
Would they? Would they be happy to see him?
Just face it…
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Well, the choice is all his… He can't be with or without them… Nice cliffhanger, ne…? I hope you're happy with this chapter, I'll really try to do it faster next time… You do want to read more… do you? I think I lost a couple of readers when I didn't write for 4 weeks… I WANT YOU GUYS BACK!!! Ehm… don't listen to my mindless rattle… Just review! I'm putting the next chapter up very soon, as I finished it this evening… I think in a couple of days that'll be up… So check my story soon!!!