Big Authors Note
Sorry guys that I haven't been uploading for a while. It's just that I had so many things to do, my life got all scrued up etc. so I just couldn't find time or I just didn't want to put some effort to it... And I don't think you'll like the crap I'll write at these times. So that's why. And I'm writing this biggie-big Author's note because I'm jealous of everybody's reviews... I know... it's not good to be jealous. It's just that I get two or three reviews per chapter. I'm just not satisfied. When I see that some stupid fic I reallllly hate (not a particular fic, just when I scroll around and read and think: Geez the crap that people write these days... -_-') and it got like 4 crappy chapters... AND like THIRTY (!!!) reviews... And you don't want to meet me then... You really DON'T! I work SO hard to get you a nice story which I'm really fond of myself... and I get like close to NO reviews. And I sulk and read the reviews of that crappy story and I wonder how the hell they could say such nice things about a fic that SUCKS like that... Mooooo I want reviews... I thank my frequent readers though! ChristyKay, Stormstar, Ritoru Kani and if I forgot you, fill in your own name. You guys make me write some more. The only thing is that I hardly get any reviews other than reviews from you guys. Not that I don't like YOUR reviews... But if I don't get more readers I suppose I will get less and less readers and I'll die because of a shortage on reviews... ;_; You know, I really hate it when people say: Yeah you dudes give me 20 reviews and I'll continue... It sounds like blackmail. I won't do that... But I'm DESPERATE!!! I've got pride and I WON'T go begging like that. It's just that i write something i really like and I think you guys will like it. Not cliche, I think and nice and lovely and twisting and thoughtfull... And then I fall down the hill when i check my reviews. I'll tell you the statistics...
27 Chapters
54 Reviews
So that means TWO reviews per chapter. I can't LIVE like that!!! I've been thinking about re-posting it on another account so that I'd get more reviews. I thought about WHEN to post to get the most reviews. I thought about everything I guess... Nothing works really. And my social life is scrued up... Might as well tell you the whole story... Ok my social life's like this: I got friends and we got sort of a gang. Four girls, four boys. Real fun. Then I fell in love with one of the boys. Me: quiet, shy person. Him: player, every week another girl, like that. I told him. He was like: yeah ok sorry, I don't like you that way. Then we had a party at my friends and we all got a little drunk. I kissed him and we did like *close* things (no I didn't have sex, goddamnit I'm hardly fourteen!!!) The day after: attitude like nothing happened. Handy, 'cause I don't like rumors. But on the other side... I talked less, I was really ashamed of what I did on that night (Maybe you should think of him as Miroku, that'll help you in visualising...-_-) and now, when I have overthought things, I came to the conclusion it was stupid what I did. I never kissed anyone, and that night he told me several times: I don't want to be a jerk to steal your first kiss... But I had to be a little drunk and didn't care. So I did it. Now I really regret it. It was a really screwed, kiss, believe me... But hey, finally I came to the conclusion that I shouldn't care weither he ever thought of that night like I did, and I was pretty enough to get anyone I wanted... So we had a school dance. I went in my hotpants (woooo... Did I get comments or WHAT ^___^) and I thought: I'll show him... He wasn't even there. The jerk had to go BBQing with teh other three friends. So I danced with almost every boy of my class just to get my problems away (you know, it really bothered me) but they got real real REAL close and I was like: SHIT FUCK what AM I gonna doooooo... I don't like them. I like HIM and he's not even there and and and and... Well i was staying with my friend that night and talked a little about things. I really felt bad about how SLUTTY I had been on that schooldance. I hated myself... And ALL I thought about was that boy... I only thought about him. And he probably didn't even thought one second about me... And now... We are being split up. The guys don't like the girl I slumberparty'd with anymore and that girl aslo has troubles with her best friend in that group. I get comments that I'm being to quiet, but I just don't think I got something interesting to say. I like all of them and I don't want to be split up and school's over except for the report we get and I don't want to get vacation like this!!! I want my friends, I want to be like we were half a year ago... When everything was cool, normal, relaxed and not scrued up... When I was still green and sweet and talked alot. When I liked my life, when I wrote alot and I wasn't unsatisfied with my reviews... When my life was great.
Enough of my troubles. I'm surprised you're still reading this. Anyway, what I actually wanted to say: please help me to become a better writer, tell me what you think I'm doing wrong why I get so few reviews. Just help me. I need some distraction of my miserable life. Anything... Just something. Make me happy... Or at least try. I'm scrued, really. So hit the button.