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*looks up at what she just typed* I mean it you guys. I'm happy. I got some support and advice, good advice… And I'm gonna use it! So… I was told that I should

The story so far: Inuyasha-tachi split up after Kagome went away, to see if they'd miss each other. Actually it was set up by Miroku and Kagome just to see what Inuyasha would do. At home Kagome studied for a history test, about… The Sengoku Jidai. It contained information about the final battle with Naraku. When Inuyasha came to see what she was doing she pretended to be asleep and sleep-talking. Anyway, they got back to the Sengoku Jidai because Kagome got worried about the skeletons that were in her book, and Inuyasha and Kagome spent a fun time together, but when they get in a fight and Kikyo approaches Inuyasha, Naraku plans an attack. When Inuyasha smells Kikyo, he realises Naraku could be attacking. He went back to Kagome and back to the village with her. The battle had already begun, and the others were in bad condition. Inuyasha fights Naraku, but it's no use. When Inuyasha lies on the ground and Naraku makes his final attack, Kagome hit him with her arrow. Then they come to the conclusion that they still haven't got all of the shards. Kikyo appears, and almost takes Inuyasha with her to hell, but he decided he'd rather stay alive. But she didn't have any shards anymore. Kagome realises they need Kouga's shards. After a little argument they go to get them, but Kouga doesn't want to give his shards without a fight. Kagome tries to explain to Inuyasha why she doesn't want to get him killed but it's no use and she really breaks down, doesn't want to live anymore. Inuyasha finally manages to get her to stay, and after some quarrelling Inuyasha shot Kaze no Kizu at Kouga and they get his shards. Inuyasha thinks Kagome thinks too much of Kouga and wants to walk of without Kagome. After a little argument Kagome goes with him because she had to repair the Tama. When it was dark Inuyasha came to notice his feet hurt like hell and he was really tired. He found an open spot in the wood that looked safe enough. He tried to stay awake and listen if something wasn't right but eventually he still fell asleep. When he woke up Kagome's soul was taken. Kikyo… She wasn't gone. She gets into Kagome's thoughts making Kagome believe Inuyasha helped her with taking Kagome's soul and that she failed using it for revival. Then she states that Kagome should have her soul back because she feels sorry. Kagome thought it was strange, but still she agreed. Then Kikyo took over her body, Kikyo and Kagome are both in that body and Inuyasha doesn't realise it. Kikyo plays with their thoughts and gives Inuyasha the choice: Who should leave the body? But she twists the facts and Kagome doesn't want to live because she feels Inuyasha betrayed her. Then Inuyasha childishly denies he loves Kagome, and Kikyo tries to convince him Kagome was a replacement. Kagome has heard enough and doesn't struggle anymore. She lets Kikyo make her spell and leaves her body. Now Inuyasha gets real mad with Kikyo, but he can't kill her. He needs her to purify the Shikon no Tama. Else he'll never get Kagome back. He tells everything to the others and they come to the conclusion the Tama can also be reformed when it's absorbed by someone. So Inuyasha puts the Shikon in his arm. But the Shikon is playing tricks on his mind. He decides he should get some fresh air but walks towards the well where Kikyo is. Kikyo tries to talk him into loving her… But he says he hates her and Kikyo fires an arrow at him. Suddenly the arm with the Shikon moves in front of him and the arrow disappears in it. Kikyo starts yelling at the jewel and breaks down crying, screaming, desperate. Inuyasha goes back to Kaede's, thinking it over. At that time the Tama reformed and they would be able to get Kagome back. Inuyasha doubted if he'd do it right, to wish with all his soul but knows he'll have to try. He wishes her back but Kagome is furious, she only wants to go home. Inuyasha leaves and she sits on the edge of the well. She accidentally falls in but Inuyasha helps her up. He tells her the others don't know she's back and she rushes back to Kaede's. Kaede makes her think things over and in the storm she goes out to the riverside. Inuyasha is just one step behind her, but figures he'd better not interfere when she thinks. But Kagome gets too cold and eventually faints. Inuyasha rushes her to Kaede's hut but feels so guilty for everything that he walks out again and thought things over. He decides to go away, to lead his lonely life again. Kagome gets better in time to go look for him. When he sees her he tries to run away. Kagome runs after him but tripped over a rock and fell down. That did the trick. Kagome was still fragile and he couldn't just let her lay there. He had to get her back to Kaede's. He suddenly realised it was foolish to run away, and that they had accepted him and his mistakes. But just when you thought everything was solved… Kagome had to get back sometime. And that's where we were!

Pfew… That long??? Fans: It's supposed to be a SUMMARY! That means SHORT! San-chan: I'm sorry… But now you have a story that's a little more compact… SOOOO I'll continue now with the story!

Final Breakdowns and Still Doubting

Chapter 27

Sango got to her feet again and reached her hand to Kagome. She gladly took it and pulled herself up. First up was breakfast. No need to worry on an empty stomach. She and Sango walked slowly up to the village, sometimes squeezing each other's hand. Sango really was her best friend, she realised, and the only one who really understood her. After breakfast she'll ask. Definitely. It's better to know for sure soon than worry all day long… Still she was a bit nervous about it. But, first up breakfast. Don't worry… Don't worry…

They reached Kaede's place and noticed Kaede preparing breakfast and Miroku just waking up.

"Where did these beautiful ladies go at such an," *yawn*, "early time..?" Miroku asked.

"We just went to take a walk. Sunrises are beautiful…" Sango told him.

"Mmm… I agree…" Miroku said, "but I can think of other beautiful things early in the morning…" he murmured, his hand reaching off to Sango's butt…

BAF

"And I can think of a use for my Hiraikotsu early in the morning, houshi!"

"I guess he'll never learn…" Kagome sighed.

"Breakfast is ready…" Kaede said.

"I smell something… Gimme something to eat!" Inuyasha entered the hut.

"Yeah, yeah… Don't be so impatient, Inuyasha…" the wise old woman told him.

They all sat and had breakfast. Kagome got more and more nervous as they almost finished. Sango squeezed her hand sometimes when she saw Kagome's face frown, deep in thought.

When they were finished Kagome felt her heart beating in her throat. If only she'd get this thing over with…

"Kagome has something to ask all of you…" Sango began, knowing it was hard for Kagome.

"Ano… Well… Actually I have. I've been thinking, and I… I should be heading home sometime… And I was wondering…" Kagome hesitated. Now she had started she had to finish, right? She looked up from staring at her feet and saw them all looking at her. This is it… "I wondered if… Would you guys… mind… to come with me?" she finally ended.

The first thing she heard was her own deep sigh… Then Miroku's voice.

"Depends, Kagome-sama. Of course we have to get used to life in your time, if we go with you. Another thing is that all of our memories…" he looked into Inuyasha's eyes, "All our lives we've been here. I don't know if we can leave that behind…"

"I…- I understand. I'll be going tomorrow then. I hope you… I hope you'll all be happy…"Kagome said, close to tears… Didn't she already predict that?

"Don't rush things, Kagome-chan. All our lives we've been here, that's true. But it's also true that we really got to know each other as close friends and when we come with you, most of our memories here… Most of MY memories aren't good ones. I'd rather go with you to leave them behind me and start over." Sango told her close friend.

"I agree, Sango. Now that that Kazana is removed from my hand, Naraku is destroyed and my family's bloodline is freed from the curse… I can leave that all behind and come with you. It's just that we don't only have bad memories here. It's to us to decide which weighs stronger on our minds."

"I will come with you, Kagome-okaasan! I'll never leave your side… You are my mommy!!"

Kagome sighed again, but now it was one of relief. It didn't turn out too bad… But what did Inuyasha think? He had only stood there, no emotion on his face… she couldn't guess what he thought now…

"So, Inuyasha… What is your opinion…?" Sango asked him.

*What is my opinion? Good question… I'd really like to go with Kagome but… All my life I have lived here, all things that happened to me… Happened right here. Will I be able to leave that behind? My whole life? Would I be able to give that up for… For what actually? For Kagome of course… I really love her because of HER don't I? I really love her for what SHE is right? I don't compare her to Kikyo anymore, right? Right? I don't know… I don't know but… everyone is going… Shouldn't I come with them?*

"Hello?? Inuyasha?" Miroku waved his hands before Inuyasha's eyes.


"Huh… what?"

"Are you coming or what?" the houshi asked.

"I… I don't… I don't know…" he said, and walked straight out the door when he saw their faces. Miroku's face, a disagreeing look because he thought he'd finally give in. Sango's face, mad because he hadn't said "YES!!" to Kagome's request. Shippo's face, mad too, and prepared to launch a comment on his love-life. Kaede's face, old and wise, looking at him with sympathy, knowing he would've wanted to say otherwise. And finally Kagome's, sad, longing eyes that stared holes through his head. He had to think, goddamnit!

He came to the Goshimboku tree without noticing. He climbed up into it and sighed heavily. Why was he being hesitant again? He thought he was over that!

*Why am I thinking of Kikyo again? I had wished for Kagome to come back when she was gone, didn't I? You only realise what you're missing when you're gone… but why can't I remember how lonely I felt when she was gone? I should come with her, 'cause I can't live without her. I know I can't. But why am I bringing up Kikyo again. Why am I thinking of her again? That part of my life is over isn't it? I should leave it behind me, start over again. Moving to Kagome's time would be perfect, wouldn't it? I wouldn't have to think of her again, all the places we had been fifty-something years ago. I left that part behind me. They differed, Kagome and Kikyo… But haven't I recently discovered that they didn't differ that much? That Kikyo was exactly like Kagome… Only less open? Why haven't I left her for what she was! Goddamnit… she now rested in peace… She did, right? I wished Kagome back into her body. So Kikyo should be gone. She had to be. So I should leave it behind me… I had to move on. Move on… but why was it so hard to leave everything behind? Naraku easily broke our friendship. Too easy, really too easy. That meant something didn't it? It did. Of course it did! But still… Still there was this feeling…This nagging feeling…*

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Kagome cried silently in Sango's arms. She just KNEW it! He'd never come with her without doubt.

"Shh… He said he didn't know yet, Kagome… Don't shed so many tears for that…"

"But… When he says he doesn't know, I DO know, Sango… He can't leave his life with Kikyo her. He can't leave that… never ever…."

"Shh… come on. Even IF he's like that, we'll come with you. I think he knows he'll regret if he doesn't come. He'll be all alone. No memory can keep him company like you kept him company, Kagome. No memory of who ever on this world can replace that."

Kagome just sobbed and cried. She knew already: he wouldn't come. If he had doubts, he wouldn't come. Simple as that is. He'd think and think and would want both. But that's impossible. Why wouldn't he see that? Why wouldn't he realise that for once? You got two choices: Choose the one, or choose the other option. If you want to choose both… it's the third option that always ends up being wrong. It's no use choosing that third option. It never ends up like you wanted it to be. It's only shoving your problems forward. It'll never give any solutions. It'll never turn out the right way. He'll just loose both, won't he? When she's gone… Would his memories with Kikyo live when she wasn't around?

That hit her.

Would he be happy about the good memories with Kikyo while her look a like wasn't around? When there was no doll that he could pretend was Kikyo? Wouldn't he have a hard time thinking about the good times with Kikyo… When there was no one around that looked like her… Was there any good about Kikyo in his memories then…

Would it?

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I'm giving you another cliffhanger. I'm sorry. It's just that I think I've got back to the usual length of my chapters and that it's enough. I think this'll end around Chapter 30, and then without the authors note and poem and stuff. So when it says:

Final Breakdowns and Still Doubting

Chapter 30

Like that. Then I think it'll be over. Too bad actually… I'm getting used to write this story now. I'll miss you all when it's over. But let's not think of that. Let's just think of how I'm gonna end this story. It could end up dark or bright. Tell me what you'd like!

And ever thanks for supporting me!!! I really appreciate it!