I'M BACK!
So I'll first give you the chapter, then I'll tell you about my vacation!
Final Breakdowns and Still Doubting
Chapter 29
The woods seemed so quiet and peaceful at first sight… When you'd take a closer look you'd see a running Kitsune in the tall grass aiming for a big and old tree. A Kitsune with a target…
"Inuyasha! INUYASHA!"
"WHAT now?"
"I can't find Kagome anywhere!"
"She was here the other minute. S'pose she's at Kaede's. Now go!"
"But…"
"What! That's the place she should be, don't you think!"
"But I just came from Kaede's!"
"Whatever! She's not here."
"What if… What if…" Shippo started, his words followed by a sob.
"Geez, don't be so friggin upset! I smell her, she's still here!"
And that's not something the little Kitsune had counted on... But little kids have creative minds. He climbed up the tree to the branch Inuyasha was sitting on, in the shadow of the green leaves.
"I wish I smelled her… What does she smell like?"
"Don't be stupid. You smelled her a dozen times."
"I have a cold and am a little kid. I don't remember…"
"Yeah… Sure!"
"Inuyasha… Are you going say goodbye to us when we go?"
"Sure…"
"I think I'm gonna miss you…"
"Whatever…"
"Aren't you gonna miss me…"
"No… By the way…"
"..or anyone else?"
"…what are you still doing here…"
"I just wanted to talk to you now that I am still here…"
"You said you were looking for Kagome, you little brat!"
"I was, but you said she was still here… and I thought I'd spend some 'last moments' with you…" Shippo said dramatically, his right paw resting on his chest, his left waving in the air, " I might not see you again before we say goodbye tomorrow… And I guess you'd say your good-byes to someone else…"
"Now what's that supposed to mean?"
"You know exactly what I mean…" the little Kitsune said, sticking his elbow in Inuyasha's side. He moved his hand in front of his mouth and whispered, "You know…
Your girl…"
"Whatever…" Inuyasha mumbled, Shippo noting a hint of sadness in his voice.
"Say Inuyasha… Who are you gonna miss most?"
Inuyasha turned his head and looked straight at the Kitsune. He moved closer, narrowing his eyes, "That's quite simple. That would be you of course, you annoying little BRAT! Fuck off and let me be, will ya!"
"I was just wondering… If I'd stay here all on my own… I'd know who I'd miss most…"
"Fuck off!" Inuyasha said while kicking him out of the tree.
"Kyaaaaaa!"
POOF
"He won't bother me anymore…" Inuyasha mumbled. He was just about to lay back when he saw this odd pink thingy drift by…
"Say, Inuyasha… that wasn't very nice… Do you want me to remember you like that?"
"I already told you to fuck off! Go find Kagome, cry with her and be sad, then tomorrow you'll all just go home and I'll have my REST!"
"… Inuyasha…" Shippo sobbed, "You're not meaning a single word of what you just said…"
"Believe what you want to believe! Keep dreaming… You might be more lucky than I was!"
Inuyasha had a hard time keeping up his attitude. Why'd the stupid little Kitsune have to go and have a talk with him! Annoying little kid…
"Well then… I'll go find Kagome… She might sit you… For the very last time…" he said dramatically, turning into a fox again and running off.
"Keh… Whatever…" he mumbled.
*For the very last time… Is this what I want it to be… Is this what's it supposed to be…? I don't know… But I can't go crawling back now can I… Also it's not a smart thing to do… only weak. I already showed too much weakness… It's no good. Is it? It's not me and never will be to show what I feel… Kagome would only be hurt if I came with her. Now she will forget about everything that happened here. Only her friends will come with her… I don't fit in there…*
~*~
A flash of Kagome's smiling face…
…Miroku's smacked head, a fuming Sango next to him.
…A crying Kitsune and a mad Kagome. Her lips motioning the word 'sit'.
And then there was… Kikyo… Graceful… Pale… And dead. But still as beautiful as if she were alive...
Kagome again… Mad and sad eyes, running… 'I'm going home…'
Kaede, her wise eyes, sad and understanding… 'Go get her.'
Another flash of memories rushed through his head. All they had gone through… All they had laughed about, had been sad about… All the youkai they had fought successfully…
The arrow he saw coming at him when Kikyo shot him… Kagome, dressed as Kikyo, forced to shoot him, being controlled by Menomaru… Her crying eyes…
'Inuyasha… Run…'
Her eyes when he first got human and she had to save him… When she grabbed his hand and kept Kikyo from taking him to hell… When she looked at him, pleadingly, wanting Kouga to stay alive…
The little Kitsune, with his serious face… 'Kouga… Your love-rival…'
… Your love-rival…
With a shock he opened his eyes. It was dark, the wind playing with the leafs on the tree, the moon shining a weak, white light down on him.
All these memories…
Kagome
…flashed through…
Kikyo
…his mind. No knowing what to do, feeling more doubt than ever, feeling more and more undecided.
The guilt
Kikyo… showing him the Tama, motioning 'It can be used for good or bad purposes'
The surprise
Kagome, climbing up to him, narrowing her eyes, saying 'My name is Kagome, Ka-go-me'
The connection
The Shikon no Tama… All the scattered pieces flying everywhere…
Kagome
Kikyo
"…Shikon no Tama… I'll take you with me to the other world…"
Coming to the conclusion…
*Everything has to end.*
~*~
So there you have it. The only thing left now is the epilogue, sad or happy. Read both when I post them and tell me which you liked best… But for now this is up and I hope you liked it!
Wanna hear about my vacation? Then read this part… Else just skip it. ^_^
Ok so I went to the south of France. It was FRIGGEN hot there, 35 degrees Celsius… So around noon the swimmingpool was the only option actually. Evenings were for table tennis. I don't know what you other people do, but Dutchies always go and play table tennis. So there were a lot of Dutch people there (after a couple of days I found out that other people were RARE… Really there were almost only Dutch people…) Well anyway, that was fun. I ended up with a group, a nice group… And I got a BOYFRIEND!! And now I'm just happy. ^_^ Too bad almost everyone of that group went home a week before me… -_- That really sucked. But oh well… It was the best vacation ever and from now on I won't bother you anymore with my annoying depressive Author's Notes. Everything's okay now, I got my confidence back and I hope I'll never fall in such a dark hole again… -_-' So anyway I made a lot of pictures… And then I found out that half of them is ruined because the film didn't wind up or something 'cause these little holes on top and bottom were torn… So instead of 36, I had 18 pictures… I really hate my camera for that, also because it has done that 2 times before… Fuck my camera. Next year I'll trade it with a digital camera. I'll ritually burn it and may it rest in hell when the time is right…
Ok so that was a little sadistic… Whatever. Just review. ^_^ You'd make me even happier than I already am!