Author's Note: This story begins during the Second year at Hogwarts, during the Chamber of Secrets and will continue as time goes on. This is my first Harry Potter fanfic and along with my friend, ElfFlame, we are writing a series of four stories, which begins with ElfFlame's story- True Revenge. All four of these stories are interrelated and for the best understanding of the characters as we see them, they should be read in conjunction to each other. As always, I own none of this wonderful world that JK Rowling has created.
Author's Note: At this point in time I would just like to say that in telling events of this story from Lucius Malfoy's point of view, I am merely showing his frame of mind. I do not in any way condone or promote the things he does.
Spoiler Warning: This story contains spoilers, both minor and major from all five Harry Potter books.
Arsinoe50: Here's the next installment of the recovery. Hope you enjoy it!
TavingtonRose: I know it's sad that this is all coming to an end. But there is more to come. ElfFlame is writing the 4th story entitled, Dragon's Tears, about Draco's view on all these events. The first chapter is already posted so check it out! That story will end up going much further into Lucius and Adriana's relationship, and how Draco fits into all of that.
Wicked Lee: This new kind of pain is really just beginning. He still has a ways to go before he's completely recovered. Here's the next chapter, hope you enjoy it!
Little Boy Lost
Note: This chapter deals with events described in the story Dark Descent, the 2nd story of the True Revenge series, written by me. That story is only 3 chapters long, and if you haven't already read it, I recommend you check it out, because the events in it have shaped who Lucius is and how he's conducted his life in this story.
It was November, and Lucius still woke up almost every night in a cold sweat. His nightmares were terrible, and filled him with dread for the moment when the Dark Lord would return for him. He'd sit up in his bed, and pull his blanket around him for warmth, and try to block those thoughts out of his mind. Lucius found himself reading books during these early morning hours when he couldn't get back to sleep, just to think about something else. Adriana was getting used to seeing the dark circles under his eyes, and seeing his light on at odd hours of the night.
Adriana had charmed Renata's room to accommodate Lucius. She'd turned Renata's crib into a bed for him to sleep in. Everything else that had been Renata's had been turned into something suitable for an adult. The changing table was now a book shelf. Her wardrobe was now a leather arm chair.
Adriana spent at least two afternoons a week up at Hogwarts. Renata was now excited to see her whenever she came. One afternoon, Sev was very excited to see Adriana and told her about his evening with Renata the day before. He'd been reading potion instructions to her, as was his usual evening ritual, when he'd heard a small voice say, "Pothun!" Turning around to face Renata, he looked with wide eyes and grinned. Sev read for a while longer, and again, Renata said, "Pothun!" Sev was so excited, he went to the fireplace in his room, stuck his head in, and called out to Albus to come see the baby. Albus popped out of the fireplace and watched while Sev read to Renata again. After several minutes she said, "Pothun!" to Albus, who grinned and tickled her chin.
Adriana started to cry when she'd found out she'd missed her daughter's first word. Renata was also eating solid food now. She was missing all of Renata's milestone events in her first year. Her only consolation was hearing her daughter say "Pothun!" a few times during her visit.
Whenever Adriana returned from the school, she wasn't too interested in being around Lucius. Part of her resented him for having to keep her daughter up there. Adriana wondered if she even still loved Lucius. She'd wanted him for so long after he'd left, but so much had happened since, did she still feel that way? It was exhausting to take care of him. He was making good progress, and didn't need the cane to walk with anymore, but he wasn't sleeping much, and moped around the house all day long.
One night, Adriana was enveloped in a wonderful dream. She and Lucius were kissing as they lay on the hammock. It was a warm summer evening. They were naked after a swim in the pond, and lay in a tangle of arms and legs as they enjoyed each other's company. Lucius ran his hands lightly over her breasts, kissing them, nipping at them gently. Adriana sighed happily as he put his hands on her thighs and parted them, and moved inside of her. Lucius had his hands around her hips, lifting her up further with every thrust. After a long time, Lucius smiled and cried out as he released himself within her. A couple more thrusts, and Adriana came as well, her whole body writhing under his. As Adriana woke up, she could feel the waves of a very strong orgasm still coursing through her body. Panting in the dark room, she grabbed the sheets on the mattress, and held onto them as she tried to catch her breath. Adriana hadn't experienced anything like that since the night she'd conceived Renata. Sitting up, Adriana considered going into Lucius' room, but decided to let him sleep seeing as he wasn't getting that much sleep anymore. No longer able to sleep again herself, Adriana let the images of her dream fill her mind, and she relived that feeling of ecstasy several more times, before the day started.
Meanwhile, in Lucius' room, he'd been awake, agonizing over the fact that the Dark Lord would be coming after him soon. He had come to the realization that he was a danger to Adriana. He should return to the Dark Lord to avoid worse punishment, and to keep him away from Adriana. The thought that hurt him most though, was the idea that Adriana wouldn't even care. She was clearly involved with Snape now, and he was invading her life by staying here. When he left, she'd be free to go to the school any time she felt like it to see him.
The next morning, Adriana was humming a tune in the kitchen as she prepared breakfast. Lucius walked into the room, standing by the refrigerator, watching Adriana for several minutes before sitting down to eat. He wanted to remember her like this, when he was back with the Dark Lord. He hated to have to tell her this way, but she deserved to hear it from his mouth, not some letter.
"Adriana," Lucius began slowly, his mouth dry, "I...I have to go back." He couldn't look Adriana in the face.
"Back where?" Adriana said absentmindedly, sitting back in her chair.
"To the Dark Lord. He'll be coming after me, and it's safer for you and me if I just go back to him. I'm so sorry," Lucius said. It broke his heart to have to leave her again.
"Honey, he's not coming after you. We made a deal, remember? I leave him alone, and he leaves us alone. It's a great arrangement. really. I was going to leave him alone anyway, so I got you thrown into the deal as a nice freebie!" Adriana replied, smiling at Lucius.
"He's a liar. He won't live up to his end of the deal. I have to go!" Lucius said, desperation in his eyes.
"You really want to go back to that man?" Adriana asked quietly.
"I have to," Lucius answered.
"He doesn't care about you Lucius. He no longer values you as a Death Eater. He told me he never saw you as anything more than a faithful servant, like one of your house-elves. He said you weren't able to do anything of import anymore and weren't even worth his efforts to kill you," Adriana said, standing up and clenching her fists as though preparing for a fight.
"He was lying to you. He needs me to help him win the war. He's going to hurt anybody who stands in his way, and I can't let him do that to you," Lucius said, obviously conflicted.
"He's not going to come after you, or me, or Draco or- ," Adriana cut herself off before she said "Renata".
"He wants you to think that. That's the way the Dark Lord works. I have to go, I'm so sorry Adriana. I love you so much. I'm doing this for you," Lucius said as he walked to the back door and opened it to leave.
Adriana walked onto the back porch with him, glaring at Lucius. "Don't go back to him for me. I don't need to be protected. If you're returning, it's because you want to, for yourself."
"I don't want to! I want to stay here, with you! More than anything!"
"Then stay! You don't have to go!"
"But he'll-"
"He hasn't come back yet! Why would he now?"
"That's the way he works!"
"You want to go back! You haven't changed at all!"
"Yes I have, I-"
"You want to go back! You still support that man! Do you know what I went through to get you back?"
"I don't support him!"
"Your sister-in-law Lucius! And her husband! They attacked me!"
"I-"
"Riddle groped me and cracked my skull against a wall!"
"But-"
"A dementor, Lucius, I had to fight one of those off!"
"But-"
"If you think I'm going to let you just leave me after all of that, you're either insane or incredibly stupid! They almost raped me Lucius! And I'm supposed to let you go back to him?" Adriana was screaming by now, coming up to Lucius aggressively.
"You let them touch you? You're more powerful than that! What did you do to him? Did you try to seduce him?" Lucius stopped yelling and became suddenly quiet.
Adriana looked shocked. "Excuse me?" She asked in barely more than a whisper.
"Did you sleep with him? Is that how you got me back?" Lucius spoke with a look of disgust on his face. He backed away from her.
Walking up to Lucius, Adriana tried to decide what to do to him. Looking into his eyes, she slowly shook her head, and slapped him hard across the face. "How dare you judge me? You of all people. You who cheated on your wife for your entire marriage. You who've killed people; tortured innocent Muggles. You dare to judge me?"
Lucius turned away from Adriana.
"What I did, I did to bring you back. I did it because I love you. What have you ever done for love? Every action you've ever taken in your life has been for power. And look at where that got you! Countless hours of torture. Prison sentences in Azkaban. Your power failed you Lucius! But my love hasn't! Love will always win out over power Lucius, keep that in mind."
"Did you sleep with the Dark Lord?" Lucius asked while looking at the ground.
"If I said yes, and told you how wonderful he was, would you be jealous because you didn't get to? Or perhaps you already have?"
Lucius' face flushed, and he looked into Adriana's face with a pained look. "How dare you imply something like that! I have never..." His voice trailed off. "I'm not going to stay here and let you say such things about me!" Lucius began to walk away, and turned around the corner before Adriana yelled after him.
"Riddle killed your mother, Lucius! Did you know that? He got Janos to kill her so you'd join his side. I bet he never told you that, did he?"
Adriana heard no response, and after a few minutes, walked after him. As she turned the corner, she saw Lucius on his hands and knees on the cold damp ground. He'd been sick, and was looking about wildly, gasping for breath. "He killed her. He killed my mother," Lucius stuttered. He knew this had to be the truth, for Lucius had never uttered a word about his mother to Adriana before.
Adriana ran to him, put her arms around him, and said, "I'm so sorry you had to find out this way." Standing up, she helped Lucius to his feet, and together, they walked back into the house. Adriana apologized to Lucius all the way back, for she should never have said that in anger. It wasn't fair for him to find out like that.
Adriana settled Lucius into his bed, and stayed by his side. She brushed her fingers gently up and down his arm, trying to comfort him. Lucius never spoke anything other than, "He killed my mother...I turned to him...I served him...He killed my mother," over and over again. Adriana saw Lucius was in deep shock. She turned up the heat, because he was shivering violently. Writing a letter to Poppy, she sent Hitchcock off with it to Hogwarts. She helped Lucius drink a glass of water, to help re-hydrate him after being sick. Lucius was deathly pale, and his gray eyes looked glassy. He was sick several more times. Adriana wiped his fevered brow with a cold washcloth to help cool him off after these episodes.
Poppy arrived a couple hours later, and examined Lucius. She gave him a few draughts and potions, and he fell into a fitful sleep. Adriana remained at Lucius' side still while he slept. In hushed tones she explained to Poppy what had happened. Poppy looked concerned for Lucius. She told Adriana what to expect when he awoke, and warned that he might slip into a deep depression.
Adriana stayed by his side through the whole night. She ran her fingers through his white hair, and sang a lullaby to him:
Sleep my love, and peace attend thee
All through the night;
Guardian angels
God will lend thee,
All through the night,
Soft the drowsy hours are creeping,
Hill and vale in slumber steeping,
I my loving vigil keeping,
All through the night.
It was one of the longest nights of Adriana's life.
References: Song entitled All Through the Night, is a traditional Welsh song.
Author's Note: At this point in time I would just like to say that in telling events of this story from Lucius Malfoy's point of view, I am merely showing his frame of mind. I do not in any way condone or promote the things he does.
Spoiler Warning: This story contains spoilers, both minor and major from all five Harry Potter books.
Arsinoe50: Here's the next installment of the recovery. Hope you enjoy it!
TavingtonRose: I know it's sad that this is all coming to an end. But there is more to come. ElfFlame is writing the 4th story entitled, Dragon's Tears, about Draco's view on all these events. The first chapter is already posted so check it out! That story will end up going much further into Lucius and Adriana's relationship, and how Draco fits into all of that.
Wicked Lee: This new kind of pain is really just beginning. He still has a ways to go before he's completely recovered. Here's the next chapter, hope you enjoy it!
Little Boy Lost
Note: This chapter deals with events described in the story Dark Descent, the 2nd story of the True Revenge series, written by me. That story is only 3 chapters long, and if you haven't already read it, I recommend you check it out, because the events in it have shaped who Lucius is and how he's conducted his life in this story.
It was November, and Lucius still woke up almost every night in a cold sweat. His nightmares were terrible, and filled him with dread for the moment when the Dark Lord would return for him. He'd sit up in his bed, and pull his blanket around him for warmth, and try to block those thoughts out of his mind. Lucius found himself reading books during these early morning hours when he couldn't get back to sleep, just to think about something else. Adriana was getting used to seeing the dark circles under his eyes, and seeing his light on at odd hours of the night.
Adriana had charmed Renata's room to accommodate Lucius. She'd turned Renata's crib into a bed for him to sleep in. Everything else that had been Renata's had been turned into something suitable for an adult. The changing table was now a book shelf. Her wardrobe was now a leather arm chair.
Adriana spent at least two afternoons a week up at Hogwarts. Renata was now excited to see her whenever she came. One afternoon, Sev was very excited to see Adriana and told her about his evening with Renata the day before. He'd been reading potion instructions to her, as was his usual evening ritual, when he'd heard a small voice say, "Pothun!" Turning around to face Renata, he looked with wide eyes and grinned. Sev read for a while longer, and again, Renata said, "Pothun!" Sev was so excited, he went to the fireplace in his room, stuck his head in, and called out to Albus to come see the baby. Albus popped out of the fireplace and watched while Sev read to Renata again. After several minutes she said, "Pothun!" to Albus, who grinned and tickled her chin.
Adriana started to cry when she'd found out she'd missed her daughter's first word. Renata was also eating solid food now. She was missing all of Renata's milestone events in her first year. Her only consolation was hearing her daughter say "Pothun!" a few times during her visit.
Whenever Adriana returned from the school, she wasn't too interested in being around Lucius. Part of her resented him for having to keep her daughter up there. Adriana wondered if she even still loved Lucius. She'd wanted him for so long after he'd left, but so much had happened since, did she still feel that way? It was exhausting to take care of him. He was making good progress, and didn't need the cane to walk with anymore, but he wasn't sleeping much, and moped around the house all day long.
One night, Adriana was enveloped in a wonderful dream. She and Lucius were kissing as they lay on the hammock. It was a warm summer evening. They were naked after a swim in the pond, and lay in a tangle of arms and legs as they enjoyed each other's company. Lucius ran his hands lightly over her breasts, kissing them, nipping at them gently. Adriana sighed happily as he put his hands on her thighs and parted them, and moved inside of her. Lucius had his hands around her hips, lifting her up further with every thrust. After a long time, Lucius smiled and cried out as he released himself within her. A couple more thrusts, and Adriana came as well, her whole body writhing under his. As Adriana woke up, she could feel the waves of a very strong orgasm still coursing through her body. Panting in the dark room, she grabbed the sheets on the mattress, and held onto them as she tried to catch her breath. Adriana hadn't experienced anything like that since the night she'd conceived Renata. Sitting up, Adriana considered going into Lucius' room, but decided to let him sleep seeing as he wasn't getting that much sleep anymore. No longer able to sleep again herself, Adriana let the images of her dream fill her mind, and she relived that feeling of ecstasy several more times, before the day started.
Meanwhile, in Lucius' room, he'd been awake, agonizing over the fact that the Dark Lord would be coming after him soon. He had come to the realization that he was a danger to Adriana. He should return to the Dark Lord to avoid worse punishment, and to keep him away from Adriana. The thought that hurt him most though, was the idea that Adriana wouldn't even care. She was clearly involved with Snape now, and he was invading her life by staying here. When he left, she'd be free to go to the school any time she felt like it to see him.
The next morning, Adriana was humming a tune in the kitchen as she prepared breakfast. Lucius walked into the room, standing by the refrigerator, watching Adriana for several minutes before sitting down to eat. He wanted to remember her like this, when he was back with the Dark Lord. He hated to have to tell her this way, but she deserved to hear it from his mouth, not some letter.
"Adriana," Lucius began slowly, his mouth dry, "I...I have to go back." He couldn't look Adriana in the face.
"Back where?" Adriana said absentmindedly, sitting back in her chair.
"To the Dark Lord. He'll be coming after me, and it's safer for you and me if I just go back to him. I'm so sorry," Lucius said. It broke his heart to have to leave her again.
"Honey, he's not coming after you. We made a deal, remember? I leave him alone, and he leaves us alone. It's a great arrangement. really. I was going to leave him alone anyway, so I got you thrown into the deal as a nice freebie!" Adriana replied, smiling at Lucius.
"He's a liar. He won't live up to his end of the deal. I have to go!" Lucius said, desperation in his eyes.
"You really want to go back to that man?" Adriana asked quietly.
"I have to," Lucius answered.
"He doesn't care about you Lucius. He no longer values you as a Death Eater. He told me he never saw you as anything more than a faithful servant, like one of your house-elves. He said you weren't able to do anything of import anymore and weren't even worth his efforts to kill you," Adriana said, standing up and clenching her fists as though preparing for a fight.
"He was lying to you. He needs me to help him win the war. He's going to hurt anybody who stands in his way, and I can't let him do that to you," Lucius said, obviously conflicted.
"He's not going to come after you, or me, or Draco or- ," Adriana cut herself off before she said "Renata".
"He wants you to think that. That's the way the Dark Lord works. I have to go, I'm so sorry Adriana. I love you so much. I'm doing this for you," Lucius said as he walked to the back door and opened it to leave.
Adriana walked onto the back porch with him, glaring at Lucius. "Don't go back to him for me. I don't need to be protected. If you're returning, it's because you want to, for yourself."
"I don't want to! I want to stay here, with you! More than anything!"
"Then stay! You don't have to go!"
"But he'll-"
"He hasn't come back yet! Why would he now?"
"That's the way he works!"
"You want to go back! You haven't changed at all!"
"Yes I have, I-"
"You want to go back! You still support that man! Do you know what I went through to get you back?"
"I don't support him!"
"Your sister-in-law Lucius! And her husband! They attacked me!"
"I-"
"Riddle groped me and cracked my skull against a wall!"
"But-"
"A dementor, Lucius, I had to fight one of those off!"
"But-"
"If you think I'm going to let you just leave me after all of that, you're either insane or incredibly stupid! They almost raped me Lucius! And I'm supposed to let you go back to him?" Adriana was screaming by now, coming up to Lucius aggressively.
"You let them touch you? You're more powerful than that! What did you do to him? Did you try to seduce him?" Lucius stopped yelling and became suddenly quiet.
Adriana looked shocked. "Excuse me?" She asked in barely more than a whisper.
"Did you sleep with him? Is that how you got me back?" Lucius spoke with a look of disgust on his face. He backed away from her.
Walking up to Lucius, Adriana tried to decide what to do to him. Looking into his eyes, she slowly shook her head, and slapped him hard across the face. "How dare you judge me? You of all people. You who cheated on your wife for your entire marriage. You who've killed people; tortured innocent Muggles. You dare to judge me?"
Lucius turned away from Adriana.
"What I did, I did to bring you back. I did it because I love you. What have you ever done for love? Every action you've ever taken in your life has been for power. And look at where that got you! Countless hours of torture. Prison sentences in Azkaban. Your power failed you Lucius! But my love hasn't! Love will always win out over power Lucius, keep that in mind."
"Did you sleep with the Dark Lord?" Lucius asked while looking at the ground.
"If I said yes, and told you how wonderful he was, would you be jealous because you didn't get to? Or perhaps you already have?"
Lucius' face flushed, and he looked into Adriana's face with a pained look. "How dare you imply something like that! I have never..." His voice trailed off. "I'm not going to stay here and let you say such things about me!" Lucius began to walk away, and turned around the corner before Adriana yelled after him.
"Riddle killed your mother, Lucius! Did you know that? He got Janos to kill her so you'd join his side. I bet he never told you that, did he?"
Adriana heard no response, and after a few minutes, walked after him. As she turned the corner, she saw Lucius on his hands and knees on the cold damp ground. He'd been sick, and was looking about wildly, gasping for breath. "He killed her. He killed my mother," Lucius stuttered. He knew this had to be the truth, for Lucius had never uttered a word about his mother to Adriana before.
Adriana ran to him, put her arms around him, and said, "I'm so sorry you had to find out this way." Standing up, she helped Lucius to his feet, and together, they walked back into the house. Adriana apologized to Lucius all the way back, for she should never have said that in anger. It wasn't fair for him to find out like that.
Adriana settled Lucius into his bed, and stayed by his side. She brushed her fingers gently up and down his arm, trying to comfort him. Lucius never spoke anything other than, "He killed my mother...I turned to him...I served him...He killed my mother," over and over again. Adriana saw Lucius was in deep shock. She turned up the heat, because he was shivering violently. Writing a letter to Poppy, she sent Hitchcock off with it to Hogwarts. She helped Lucius drink a glass of water, to help re-hydrate him after being sick. Lucius was deathly pale, and his gray eyes looked glassy. He was sick several more times. Adriana wiped his fevered brow with a cold washcloth to help cool him off after these episodes.
Poppy arrived a couple hours later, and examined Lucius. She gave him a few draughts and potions, and he fell into a fitful sleep. Adriana remained at Lucius' side still while he slept. In hushed tones she explained to Poppy what had happened. Poppy looked concerned for Lucius. She told Adriana what to expect when he awoke, and warned that he might slip into a deep depression.
Adriana stayed by his side through the whole night. She ran her fingers through his white hair, and sang a lullaby to him:
Sleep my love, and peace attend thee
All through the night;
Guardian angels
God will lend thee,
All through the night,
Soft the drowsy hours are creeping,
Hill and vale in slumber steeping,
I my loving vigil keeping,
All through the night.
It was one of the longest nights of Adriana's life.
References: Song entitled All Through the Night, is a traditional Welsh song.