HEY!! London was great! I've been to The Lion King (the musical) It was so
beautiful!! And of course I've been shopping which was really fun too! I
wrote this chapter in London and it took me really long, so I hope it was
worth it! Read it quickly! *X* cherish ...Oh by the way, I Heard this
terrible rumour about Tom Felton. Is he really GAY? If somebody knows the
answer, please TELL ME! I'm dying to know the truth!..
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Harry woke up, his mouth was dry and all his clothes were still on.
"Ugh, What happened to me?" Harry asked himself. Then he remembered everything. Draco being Rose, he kissing Draco instead of Rose, Draco asking him if he wasn't feeling any chemistry between them and he kissing Draco again to prove he wasn't feeling chemistry...But he was... He had to obey Draco tonight because he felt something...
Harry stood up, this was getting way to weird for him. It was so confusing!
After he showered for an half hour he stood in front of the mirror.
"I have to think straight here" Harry said to his reflection
"straight...am I straight? I've never felt something for a boy before... I'm not feeling anything for a boy! Get over it! It was a mistake, I wasn't sober. I was feeling things that aren't there" Harry said grabbing his head "What am I doing to myself? I don't like Draco, I don't. He means nothing to me, Nothing. It was just a game yesterday, I felt no chemistry at all. And even if I did... I'll never ever be with a boy like Draco! He's my enemy, he's the devil himself. He's a tool of his father, and his father is a took of Voldemort. He's nobody! I don't want to be with him! EVER!"
UGH this is not helping at all, Harry thought, putting on his clothes. It was time to talk to Ron. He had to ask Ron for some advise. He shivered as he opened his door and stiffened when he saw Draco sitting on the couch. He felt the strong inclination to kiss Draco. NO, you are not feeling this, Harry thought.
He felt Draco's eyes burn in his back as he walked to the portrait and opened it. Must I say something before I leave?, Harry asked himself.
"Bye" He muttered softly with a hoarse voice. Much softer than he intended.
But Draco didn't reply.
*
Harry went to the Gryffindor Tower. He knew Ron was there. It bugged him Draco didn't reply. Maybe he didn't hear me, I was talking so soft. Harry thought.
He walked into the common room. Ron was sitting before the fire, apparently doing nothing. And Hermione was sitting at the table, reading a book. No she wasn't her eyes weren't moving, she was staring to her book. None of them Noticed Harry came in.
Harry walked to Ron, he had to wave his hand before his face a couple of times before Ron noticed he was standing beside him.
"Can I talk to you?" Harry whispered, Ron nodded and they walked to the boys dorm.
"What is it?" Ron asked "How did it go, yesterday?"
"Well, it wasn't what I expected. Rose wasn't Rose" Harry said
"What do you mean? she turned into a wild animal when you were having sex?" Ron laughed.
"No, Rose was Draco... I mean Draco'd dressed himself as Rose" Harry smiled "I kissed Draco"
"UGH!" Ron yelled with a dirty look on his face "That is disgusting!"
"Well, that's the point... It wasn't" Harry said looking to the ground.
"Harry...what are you trying to say?" Ron asked shocked.
"I don't know Ron!" Harry said letting himself fall on one of the beds. "There was chemistry between us... It felt good..."
"Are you telling me you are gay? Are you telling me you like Draco?" Ron asked confused
"I don't know, maybe I felt it because I wasn't sober" Harry said "I really don't know"
"When exactly did you find out?" Ron asked, letting himself fall on his bed too.
"We were kissing on the couch and I pulled of his mask and hat. I saw it was Draco. He asked after I yelled at him if I wasn't feeling something. I said: no, he asked me to prove it by kissing him again. I did and lied that I wasn't feeling anything. he wal-"
"Wait a minute, your going to quickly" Ron said interrupting Harry "You lied? I mean... you were feeling something?"
"Yes!" Harry said "And I lost the bet"
"But it's not six yet" Ron said confused
"I know, but Draco said I was the winner if I wasn't feeling anything. And if I was he was" Harry said
"But you said you lied..."
"Yeah, but I wasn't finished. Before he walked to his door I said I lied and that I would be in his room at six" Harry confessed "And this morning I wanted to walk over him and kiss him"
"This is bad, Harry" Ron said. "Really bad"
"I know.. what must I do?" Harry asked
"Wait until tonight and find out how Draco's feeling" Ron answered.
"don't you... you know... find me strange?" Harry asked.
"No, but I have to get used to it though" Ron said.
"Thanks!" Harry said, hugging Ron for a few seconds "So what's up with you?"
"What do you mean?" Ron asked, trying not to blush
"I mean the way you and Mione were acting when I stepped into the common room" Harry laughed.
"Oh...well" Ron blushed, looking to his shoos "After you left the party Mione kissed me"
"What?" Harry yelled
"Yeah... and..." Ron blushed again
"There's an and?" Harry asked surprised
"And...we...um... didit" Ron said quickly as if was one word.
"You did it?" Harry asked, squeezing in Ron's arm.
"Shh.. Not so hard" Ron said angrily, walking to the window "Yes, but..."
"Oh...there's a but too" Harry said sitting down on the bed again.
"But we aren't talking... I woke up with Mione in my arms... Watched her wake up... It was really awkward, I didn't know what to say. She said she was going to take a shower and well, she disappeared. and we haven't talked about it" Ron said sitting down next to Harry.
"Oh...Well you should talk about it... you know that don't you?" Harry asked.
"Yeah, but what if she didn't like it or she doesn't want me?" Ron asked insecure.
"I'm sure she did like it, Ron. You worry to much" Harry said "Just go to her"
"Mmm, Maybe I will... But first I have to find out what to say" Ron said.
"Well, you do that. I have to do some homework" Harry smiled, walking to the door. "Thanks for your advise"
"Your welcome" Ron smiled
**
Harry stood before Draco's door. He'd spent the whole day thinking and yelling to himself. He tried to do his homework, but that failed miserable. He'd putted the wrong things in his potion, making it blow up in his face.
He had the feeling that he never felt this nervous in his life. He really wanted to walk in and see Draco, but he was afraid what was happening to him. Two days ago he knew what he wanted when he left school; Find a good job, Marry, Have children. But now... he wasn't sure what he wanted. of course he could marry someone if he was gay and have children, but somehow it wasn't the same.
Harry knocked on the door.
"Come in. You are 2 minutes late" Draco's voice said
He opened the door and walked into the warm, cosy room. He saw Draco was sitting on the couch before the fire, smirking in his direction. Harry felt his heart skipping a beat as he saw Draco's face, which was lightened by the fire. Harry smiled, closing the door behind him
"Ready to lose your virginity, Potter?" Draco asked with one eyebrow in the air, giving him a really arrogant look on his face.
That must be a joke, Harry thought. He laughed weakly.
"Do you think that's funny, Potter?" Draco asked "I was being bloody serious"
Harry stiffened, his smiled disappeared. OHMIGOD, he's calling me Potter and he's serious....NO this cant be happening. "Just like that? You cant do that to me"
"Oh, but I can" Draco smirked "You have got to obey ME, so I can"
"That's not fair. I-"
"I warned you, Potter! I warned you enough times and yesterday you even had the chance to turn it all around" Draco said standing up, making Harry shiver.
"But I didn't want to lie" Harry panicked.
"YOU LIED! because you're not sure! You made me think this was going to work. But you know what? I heard you in the bathroom! So tell me what are you feeling?" Draco asked angrily.
"Weird, Draco I-" Harry tried to explain but Draco broke him off.
"That's all?" Draco asked walking towards Harry.
"Well No, but I want to explain what that was in the bathroom" Harry said walking towards Draco.
"You do?"
"Yes, I was trying to convince myself that I wasn't feeling anything. But it didn't work, because when I walked in I was feeling that feeling again" Harry said.
"..." Draco was stunned he walked towards the couch, followed by Harry. Harry sat down on the other couch.
There was a silence. Harry watched Draco who seemed to be completely lost in his thoughts. Harry didn't want to interrupt. This is going really wrong, Harry thought. He looks so gorgeous when he's thinking and staring like that. No wonder girls like him so much... This is getting really to weird. I've never looked at a boy like that. I'm actually judging him, I never do that with other boys like Ron or something... I wonder what Draco'll make me do. I explained what happened in the bathroom, but he seemed to be really serious about me losing my virginity. But if I don't want to, how could he? I don't want to right? well maybe I do but I always thought my first time would be with a girl. a boy didn't even cross my mind... Strange really, up until about a week ago I never thought about it. Strange how things can change so suddenly... OH this is taking way to long. he's been sitting there for 5 minutes, staring. I'm getting bored here. I should get him out of his thoughts...
Harry walked over to Draco and waved his hand before his eyes. It had effect, Draco blinked with his eyes and said
"What?"
"Well, I was getting a little bit bored with you lost in thoughts like that" Harry smiled sitting on the couch again.
"Really? Well what do you want to do?" Draco smiled.
"I don't know... What do you want to do?" Harry asked.
"Don't know. What do you want to do?" Draco asked
"I don't know. What do You want to do?" Harry smiled.
"I don't know. wh- Grr This is getting annoying, Potter" Draco growled.
"I know... So What do you want to do?" Harry laughed.
"You annoying little Brat" Draco yelled jumping up and pushing harry on the ground between the table and the couch. Draco quickly climbed on top of Harry, pushing Harry's hands on the ground above his head.
Their faces were really close to each other.
Harry looked into Draco's eyes. He felt Draco's warm breath on his face. He noticed Draco had a beautiful skin, pale and smooth. His eyebrows were shaped just perfect, not to hairy and they were dark which was perfect, because his hair was blond. His cheeks were flushed for some reason. Harry hoped it was because he knew Harry was observing him. Suddenly he felt he was flushing too, because he realised Draco was most probably observing him too. His eyes wandered to Draco's mouth, which was more than perfect. His lips were so inviting. Draco's tongue came out and wetted them, making them even more perfect to kiss.
"I want to kiss you, right n-" Harry said and it was out his mouth before he even noticed it. The flush turned into a blush. Harry turned his head, feeling really embarrassed.
"Why don't you?" Draco asked. he softly grabbed Harry's chin and turned it towards him again, catching Harry's eyes.
Harry panicked for a moment. He didn't know what to say. he asked himself that question and there was no answer. He didn't have any excuse.
"Because you don't order me to" was the only thing he could come up with.
"I want you to kiss me without me asking for it" Draco replied. His head leaned forward even more, making their noses touch. with one finger he trailed over Harry's lips.
"Your wish is my command" Harry smiled capturing Draco's lips in a kiss, but Draco broke off.
"My wish?" Draco asked confused.
"Yes, your wish" Harry laughed
"But I didn't ask you to kiss me..." Draco said even more confused.
"Yes you did" Harry smiled "You said you Wanted me to kiss you without asking, so you asked"
"Oh shut up" Draco laughed. He kissed Harry again, but he didn't make any demands. He wasn't sure what Harry wanted. So he brushed his lips against Harry's and waited... Harry on his turn didn't know what Draco wanted and waited as well, making it a really long kiss without any demands.
"I'm sorry" Draco muttered, blushing
"For what?" Harry asked confused.
"Well, I'm kind of still lying on top of you" Draco laughed.
Harry smiled "I didn't notice with you being to skinny"
"I'm skinny? You are skinny!" Draco smiled, standing up and reaching out his hand to Harry "I'm just light, because I'm so muscular"
Harry grabbed Draco's hand and pulled himself up "Muscular? You wish!"
"You are really annoying, Potty!" Draco laughed "Just because you don't have any muscles, doesn't mean I haven't got any either"
"I have muscles!" Harry yelled.
"Really? What did you do? Put a spell on them to make them disappear?" Draco laughed running through his room with Harry behind him.
"UGH! You are so annoying!" Harry yelled trying to catch Draco.
"Not as annoying as you are" Draco laughed, letting himself fall on the couch.
Harry followed his example and fell on the other couch. They were both panting and after little while Harry asked.
"So, What do you want to do?"
"OH No, Potter. We are Not going to start that again. But to answer your question... Lets go flying" Draco said standing up, grabbing Harry's arm and dragging him from the couch. Harry who didn't expected it fell on the floor, making Draco laugh.
"You really need to do something about your clumsiness" Draco laughed. "Get your firebold"
Harry stood up, but before he walked away he tackled Draco. Draco fell on the floor, right on his ass. Harry laughed before running away to get his firebold.
***
Harry came into the room again, this time with his firebold in his hands. He saw Draco was ready too and walked to the door.
"Are you crazy, Harry?" Draco asked "It's much shorter this way" He stood on the edge of his window room and kicked off.
Harry got on his firebold too and flew through the window.
"Do you have a new broom?" Harry asked, seeing Draco with a brown broom instead of a black one.
"Yeah, my father insisted that I bought the same broom as you have" Draco smiled "He really wants me to win the next match against Gryffindor"
"I see..." Harry said "So where are we going?"
"Don't know. We could go to the Quidditch field, but there may be people there. And I don't want them to see us together. So lets go to the lake" Draco said, speeding up a bit.
"Good idea" Harry smiled, speeding up too. "Want to race?"
"I don't really see a point in doing that.. I'll win anyway" Draco smirked.
"You wish" Harry yelled speeding up a bit. He landed just before the lake. "From here to the other side and back" Harry smiled when Draco landed next to him.
"Fine!" Draco smiled.
"Ready...Steady...GO!" Harry quickly mounted his broom and kicked of. He putted his chin on his broom, making himself as small as possible. Draco was flying right behind him. catching up with him.
Harry speeded up even more when he saw Draco was flying next to him. He's really good, Harry thought. But I'm better!
He saw the other side of the lake come closer and closer. If he wanted to win he would have to stop and turn very quickly. Luckily Harry'd practised that really much last year. He slowed down a little bit, so Draco was flying next to him again. As soon as he saw green grass underneath him he stopped, turned and flew the opposite direction again.
Harry smiled, because he knew Draco wasn't able to turn as quickly as he did.
But to his surprise he saw Draco was flying right behind him again. At top speed he crossed the grass again, with Draco hot on his heels.
"I Won!" Harry panted, smiling.
"Bugger!" Draco muttered throwing his broom on the ground.
"I must say... you've improved really much" Harry smiled picking up Draco's broom and giving it back to Draco again.
"My dad is so going to kill me," Draco said, going through his hair "Please don't mention this to anyone. My dad has spies everywhere"
"I wont, speaking of your dad... what did you hear this morning when I was in the bathroom?" Harry asked shyly, not wanting to upset Draco.
"Enough to make me go crazy! And find out how your really feeling about me" Draco whispered hoarsely, before mounting his broom again and kicked of before Harry could stop him.
Quickly Harry did the same flying close behind him. I shouldn't have asked that question, This is my fault, Harry blamed himself. But he has to know!
Little by little he catched up and when he was flying next to Draco he saw Draco had his eyes closed.
He softly grabbed Draco's arm to get his attention. He signed Draco to land.
"What?" Draco asked when they were on the ground again.
"I didn't mean a thing I said" Harry said to the back of Draco's head (he'd turned around)
"Why would I have kissed you, if I did?" turning Draco around.
"To make me feel stupid and hurt" Draco muttered looking to the ground.
"You know as well as I do that I wouldn't do such a thing" Harry smiled searching for Draco's eyes, but they didn't want to be found. "I know you aren't the devil or anything else I said"
"But I act like one!" Draco yelled, walking away from Harry again. "Nobody knows the real me, Nobody!"
"I do a little bit" Harry said walking after Draco, who suddenly turned around
"You said I was a tool of my father and you know what? I Fucking AM" Draco yelled right into Harry's face.
"You don't have to be" Harry said trying to calm Draco down "Lets go inside. It's getting cold. We could drink tea"
"I don't want to drink tea. My father and I always drink that" Draco smiled weakly.
"We'll drink coffee" Harry smiled, glad Draco was smiling a bit.
"UGH, I hate Coffee" Draco said with a dirty face.
"You are impossible, do you know that?" Harry laughed putting his arm around Draco's shoulder "We drink tea together too, so you could try it"
"I know, tea will be fine" Draco smiled giving Harry a little kiss on his cheek. they both blushed.
****
Inside again,
Draco and Harry were both sitting on the couch with a cup of tea in their hands. They were both drinking their tea in silence, until Harry couldn't bear the silence any longer.
"Aren't you afraid your dad is going to appear while we're sitting here?" Harry asked.
"No, he wont come again for about a month" Draco answered with an expressionless face. "I have a question for you too"
"Shoot" Harry smiled
"Could we become friends?" Draco asked looking into his teacup.
"Yeah, sure" Harry said, happy Draco was asking that question. "If we try"
"And more than that?" Draco asked looking even more into his teacup.
"I...I don't know. I really like you, but... I'm not sure if I'm straight or not" Harry stuttered, he didn't know what to say. He didn't want to hurt Draco, but to give him false hopes wasn't fair either.
"But what was that kiss you gave me, didn't it mean anything to you?" Draco asked hoarsely looking up.
"Yes..., no... yes it did...Grr" Harry grumbled "This is so confusing... What did it mean to you?"
"Everything and nothing" Draco smiled. "I don't think I ever had such a beautiful and loving kiss in my entire life... but if you don't feel that way... then there is nothing"
"But are you gay then? or are you still kind of finding out?" Harry asked, feeling a little bit confused.
"I think I'm gay... I'm not going to tell you why I think that, that would be to humiliating for me" Draco smiled. "But do you mind if I just find out a little bit more?"
"Sure" Harry smiled
"Great!" Draco practically yelled, jumping up and walking towards Harry.
"What are you doing?" Harry asked, watching Draco walking towards him and suddenly chance his direction
"I'm going on an expedition" Draco said with a mysterious voice. He walked towards the fire place, grabbed a tropical helmet and putted it on his head. Making Harry laugh.
He walked towards Harry again.
"And why are you going on expedition" Harry asked laughing.
"I'm doing some 'finding out'" Draco answered underneath the overlarge helmet. He was no standing before Harry, between his legs. "You said you didn't mind"
Harry took of the helmet and looked into Draco's eyes.
"Well you didn't mention I was the guinea pig" He laughed
"Oh didn't I?" Draco said histrionics slamming his hand before his mouth and acted as if he was going to faint. "Well you do now!" He smiled pushing Harry backwards
"And haven't I got anything to say about this" Harry asked, raising one eyebrow. and looking right into Draco's eyes.
"Nope" Draco smiled leaning forwards a little bit more, their lips were now only a millimetre apart from each other. "Unless you don't want to"
"Well, I don't want to interrupt your expedition. you may discover really important things" Harry smiled looking down to Draco's lips.
"Good" Draco said, biting on Harry's lip a bit. He wetted them with his tongue. Softy he took the teacup out of Harry's hand and putted it, without looking away from Harry's eyes, on the table
"What are you going to discover?" Harry asked shivering a bit.
"You'll see" Draco smiled. he moved his hands. With the fingertips of one hand and a feather-light touch, Draco reached up and brushed a few soft strands back, then let his fingers trail down the side of Harry's face. Draco leaned forward to kiss him. He hesitated for a fraction of a second, He could feel Harry's breath on his face. Then their lips met. Draco slipped his arm around Harry's waist, slowly drawling their bodies together, as he deepened the kiss.
Harry was a little bit surprised about the way he was feeling when the kiss ended, he'd felt the soft touch of Draco's tongue in his mouth and was longing for more.
"Mmm" Draco said with a faked thinking look on his face "I have discovered something, but I'm not quite sure... We'll have to do it again"
Harry smiled, "We'll have to do that in a comfortable position" pulling Draco on his lap. Draco laughed a little surprised.
"You liked it" Draco smiled back, sitting on Harry's lap.
"How could I not" Harry said "Well, go on... I don't have all night"
Draco raised his eyebrows "Oh yes you have!" And he kissed Harry again.
"I'm definitely gay" Draco smiled when the kiss was over "No girl can make me feel the way I feel when I kiss you...actually nobody can"
"I'm just a really good kisser" Harry smiled arrogant
"I was talking about the feeling, not the kiss darlin" Draco smirked.
"What's the time?" Harry asked to change the subject (he wasn't sure how he was feeling about the kiss. He liked it and it felt good, but he had to think about it. But he didn't want Draco to ask him what he was feeling. It would only disappoint him)
"10:10... 10:10!?" Draco yelled surprised "Time flies when your having fun"
Harry felt a little bit disappointed, he yawned.
"Getting tired?" Draco asked
"A little" Harry giggled.
Draco jumped of Harry's lap "Do you want to sleep... I mean you could stay over...not that there is any point in staying... but you could and... I would like it... and if you like to...I-" He muttered.
"Draco, it's ok... I'll stay, but where must I sleep?" Harry asked, smiling.
"Uh, on the other side of my bed?" Draco blushed. "If you don't mind"
"If you stay on your side I don't" Harry laughed.
*****
In bed:
"Harry are you asleep?" Draco asked lying on the other side of the bed, looking at Harry.
"Yes" Harry joked.
"Well, if that's the case" Draco smirked, moving towards Harry.
"Stay on your side, Malfoy" Harry warned.
"But I'm cold" Draco said with a tiny voice
"Why didn't you say so" Harry laughed, turning around and putting one arm around Draco's waist.
Draco turned over, so that his back was against Harry's chest. Draco felt safe for the first time in his life...
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Did you like it? I sure hope you did! Please review *X* Cherish
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Harry woke up, his mouth was dry and all his clothes were still on.
"Ugh, What happened to me?" Harry asked himself. Then he remembered everything. Draco being Rose, he kissing Draco instead of Rose, Draco asking him if he wasn't feeling any chemistry between them and he kissing Draco again to prove he wasn't feeling chemistry...But he was... He had to obey Draco tonight because he felt something...
Harry stood up, this was getting way to weird for him. It was so confusing!
After he showered for an half hour he stood in front of the mirror.
"I have to think straight here" Harry said to his reflection
"straight...am I straight? I've never felt something for a boy before... I'm not feeling anything for a boy! Get over it! It was a mistake, I wasn't sober. I was feeling things that aren't there" Harry said grabbing his head "What am I doing to myself? I don't like Draco, I don't. He means nothing to me, Nothing. It was just a game yesterday, I felt no chemistry at all. And even if I did... I'll never ever be with a boy like Draco! He's my enemy, he's the devil himself. He's a tool of his father, and his father is a took of Voldemort. He's nobody! I don't want to be with him! EVER!"
UGH this is not helping at all, Harry thought, putting on his clothes. It was time to talk to Ron. He had to ask Ron for some advise. He shivered as he opened his door and stiffened when he saw Draco sitting on the couch. He felt the strong inclination to kiss Draco. NO, you are not feeling this, Harry thought.
He felt Draco's eyes burn in his back as he walked to the portrait and opened it. Must I say something before I leave?, Harry asked himself.
"Bye" He muttered softly with a hoarse voice. Much softer than he intended.
But Draco didn't reply.
*
Harry went to the Gryffindor Tower. He knew Ron was there. It bugged him Draco didn't reply. Maybe he didn't hear me, I was talking so soft. Harry thought.
He walked into the common room. Ron was sitting before the fire, apparently doing nothing. And Hermione was sitting at the table, reading a book. No she wasn't her eyes weren't moving, she was staring to her book. None of them Noticed Harry came in.
Harry walked to Ron, he had to wave his hand before his face a couple of times before Ron noticed he was standing beside him.
"Can I talk to you?" Harry whispered, Ron nodded and they walked to the boys dorm.
"What is it?" Ron asked "How did it go, yesterday?"
"Well, it wasn't what I expected. Rose wasn't Rose" Harry said
"What do you mean? she turned into a wild animal when you were having sex?" Ron laughed.
"No, Rose was Draco... I mean Draco'd dressed himself as Rose" Harry smiled "I kissed Draco"
"UGH!" Ron yelled with a dirty look on his face "That is disgusting!"
"Well, that's the point... It wasn't" Harry said looking to the ground.
"Harry...what are you trying to say?" Ron asked shocked.
"I don't know Ron!" Harry said letting himself fall on one of the beds. "There was chemistry between us... It felt good..."
"Are you telling me you are gay? Are you telling me you like Draco?" Ron asked confused
"I don't know, maybe I felt it because I wasn't sober" Harry said "I really don't know"
"When exactly did you find out?" Ron asked, letting himself fall on his bed too.
"We were kissing on the couch and I pulled of his mask and hat. I saw it was Draco. He asked after I yelled at him if I wasn't feeling something. I said: no, he asked me to prove it by kissing him again. I did and lied that I wasn't feeling anything. he wal-"
"Wait a minute, your going to quickly" Ron said interrupting Harry "You lied? I mean... you were feeling something?"
"Yes!" Harry said "And I lost the bet"
"But it's not six yet" Ron said confused
"I know, but Draco said I was the winner if I wasn't feeling anything. And if I was he was" Harry said
"But you said you lied..."
"Yeah, but I wasn't finished. Before he walked to his door I said I lied and that I would be in his room at six" Harry confessed "And this morning I wanted to walk over him and kiss him"
"This is bad, Harry" Ron said. "Really bad"
"I know.. what must I do?" Harry asked
"Wait until tonight and find out how Draco's feeling" Ron answered.
"don't you... you know... find me strange?" Harry asked.
"No, but I have to get used to it though" Ron said.
"Thanks!" Harry said, hugging Ron for a few seconds "So what's up with you?"
"What do you mean?" Ron asked, trying not to blush
"I mean the way you and Mione were acting when I stepped into the common room" Harry laughed.
"Oh...well" Ron blushed, looking to his shoos "After you left the party Mione kissed me"
"What?" Harry yelled
"Yeah... and..." Ron blushed again
"There's an and?" Harry asked surprised
"And...we...um... didit" Ron said quickly as if was one word.
"You did it?" Harry asked, squeezing in Ron's arm.
"Shh.. Not so hard" Ron said angrily, walking to the window "Yes, but..."
"Oh...there's a but too" Harry said sitting down on the bed again.
"But we aren't talking... I woke up with Mione in my arms... Watched her wake up... It was really awkward, I didn't know what to say. She said she was going to take a shower and well, she disappeared. and we haven't talked about it" Ron said sitting down next to Harry.
"Oh...Well you should talk about it... you know that don't you?" Harry asked.
"Yeah, but what if she didn't like it or she doesn't want me?" Ron asked insecure.
"I'm sure she did like it, Ron. You worry to much" Harry said "Just go to her"
"Mmm, Maybe I will... But first I have to find out what to say" Ron said.
"Well, you do that. I have to do some homework" Harry smiled, walking to the door. "Thanks for your advise"
"Your welcome" Ron smiled
**
Harry stood before Draco's door. He'd spent the whole day thinking and yelling to himself. He tried to do his homework, but that failed miserable. He'd putted the wrong things in his potion, making it blow up in his face.
He had the feeling that he never felt this nervous in his life. He really wanted to walk in and see Draco, but he was afraid what was happening to him. Two days ago he knew what he wanted when he left school; Find a good job, Marry, Have children. But now... he wasn't sure what he wanted. of course he could marry someone if he was gay and have children, but somehow it wasn't the same.
Harry knocked on the door.
"Come in. You are 2 minutes late" Draco's voice said
He opened the door and walked into the warm, cosy room. He saw Draco was sitting on the couch before the fire, smirking in his direction. Harry felt his heart skipping a beat as he saw Draco's face, which was lightened by the fire. Harry smiled, closing the door behind him
"Ready to lose your virginity, Potter?" Draco asked with one eyebrow in the air, giving him a really arrogant look on his face.
That must be a joke, Harry thought. He laughed weakly.
"Do you think that's funny, Potter?" Draco asked "I was being bloody serious"
Harry stiffened, his smiled disappeared. OHMIGOD, he's calling me Potter and he's serious....NO this cant be happening. "Just like that? You cant do that to me"
"Oh, but I can" Draco smirked "You have got to obey ME, so I can"
"That's not fair. I-"
"I warned you, Potter! I warned you enough times and yesterday you even had the chance to turn it all around" Draco said standing up, making Harry shiver.
"But I didn't want to lie" Harry panicked.
"YOU LIED! because you're not sure! You made me think this was going to work. But you know what? I heard you in the bathroom! So tell me what are you feeling?" Draco asked angrily.
"Weird, Draco I-" Harry tried to explain but Draco broke him off.
"That's all?" Draco asked walking towards Harry.
"Well No, but I want to explain what that was in the bathroom" Harry said walking towards Draco.
"You do?"
"Yes, I was trying to convince myself that I wasn't feeling anything. But it didn't work, because when I walked in I was feeling that feeling again" Harry said.
"..." Draco was stunned he walked towards the couch, followed by Harry. Harry sat down on the other couch.
There was a silence. Harry watched Draco who seemed to be completely lost in his thoughts. Harry didn't want to interrupt. This is going really wrong, Harry thought. He looks so gorgeous when he's thinking and staring like that. No wonder girls like him so much... This is getting really to weird. I've never looked at a boy like that. I'm actually judging him, I never do that with other boys like Ron or something... I wonder what Draco'll make me do. I explained what happened in the bathroom, but he seemed to be really serious about me losing my virginity. But if I don't want to, how could he? I don't want to right? well maybe I do but I always thought my first time would be with a girl. a boy didn't even cross my mind... Strange really, up until about a week ago I never thought about it. Strange how things can change so suddenly... OH this is taking way to long. he's been sitting there for 5 minutes, staring. I'm getting bored here. I should get him out of his thoughts...
Harry walked over to Draco and waved his hand before his eyes. It had effect, Draco blinked with his eyes and said
"What?"
"Well, I was getting a little bit bored with you lost in thoughts like that" Harry smiled sitting on the couch again.
"Really? Well what do you want to do?" Draco smiled.
"I don't know... What do you want to do?" Harry asked.
"Don't know. What do you want to do?" Draco asked
"I don't know. What do You want to do?" Harry smiled.
"I don't know. wh- Grr This is getting annoying, Potter" Draco growled.
"I know... So What do you want to do?" Harry laughed.
"You annoying little Brat" Draco yelled jumping up and pushing harry on the ground between the table and the couch. Draco quickly climbed on top of Harry, pushing Harry's hands on the ground above his head.
Their faces were really close to each other.
Harry looked into Draco's eyes. He felt Draco's warm breath on his face. He noticed Draco had a beautiful skin, pale and smooth. His eyebrows were shaped just perfect, not to hairy and they were dark which was perfect, because his hair was blond. His cheeks were flushed for some reason. Harry hoped it was because he knew Harry was observing him. Suddenly he felt he was flushing too, because he realised Draco was most probably observing him too. His eyes wandered to Draco's mouth, which was more than perfect. His lips were so inviting. Draco's tongue came out and wetted them, making them even more perfect to kiss.
"I want to kiss you, right n-" Harry said and it was out his mouth before he even noticed it. The flush turned into a blush. Harry turned his head, feeling really embarrassed.
"Why don't you?" Draco asked. he softly grabbed Harry's chin and turned it towards him again, catching Harry's eyes.
Harry panicked for a moment. He didn't know what to say. he asked himself that question and there was no answer. He didn't have any excuse.
"Because you don't order me to" was the only thing he could come up with.
"I want you to kiss me without me asking for it" Draco replied. His head leaned forward even more, making their noses touch. with one finger he trailed over Harry's lips.
"Your wish is my command" Harry smiled capturing Draco's lips in a kiss, but Draco broke off.
"My wish?" Draco asked confused.
"Yes, your wish" Harry laughed
"But I didn't ask you to kiss me..." Draco said even more confused.
"Yes you did" Harry smiled "You said you Wanted me to kiss you without asking, so you asked"
"Oh shut up" Draco laughed. He kissed Harry again, but he didn't make any demands. He wasn't sure what Harry wanted. So he brushed his lips against Harry's and waited... Harry on his turn didn't know what Draco wanted and waited as well, making it a really long kiss without any demands.
"I'm sorry" Draco muttered, blushing
"For what?" Harry asked confused.
"Well, I'm kind of still lying on top of you" Draco laughed.
Harry smiled "I didn't notice with you being to skinny"
"I'm skinny? You are skinny!" Draco smiled, standing up and reaching out his hand to Harry "I'm just light, because I'm so muscular"
Harry grabbed Draco's hand and pulled himself up "Muscular? You wish!"
"You are really annoying, Potty!" Draco laughed "Just because you don't have any muscles, doesn't mean I haven't got any either"
"I have muscles!" Harry yelled.
"Really? What did you do? Put a spell on them to make them disappear?" Draco laughed running through his room with Harry behind him.
"UGH! You are so annoying!" Harry yelled trying to catch Draco.
"Not as annoying as you are" Draco laughed, letting himself fall on the couch.
Harry followed his example and fell on the other couch. They were both panting and after little while Harry asked.
"So, What do you want to do?"
"OH No, Potter. We are Not going to start that again. But to answer your question... Lets go flying" Draco said standing up, grabbing Harry's arm and dragging him from the couch. Harry who didn't expected it fell on the floor, making Draco laugh.
"You really need to do something about your clumsiness" Draco laughed. "Get your firebold"
Harry stood up, but before he walked away he tackled Draco. Draco fell on the floor, right on his ass. Harry laughed before running away to get his firebold.
***
Harry came into the room again, this time with his firebold in his hands. He saw Draco was ready too and walked to the door.
"Are you crazy, Harry?" Draco asked "It's much shorter this way" He stood on the edge of his window room and kicked off.
Harry got on his firebold too and flew through the window.
"Do you have a new broom?" Harry asked, seeing Draco with a brown broom instead of a black one.
"Yeah, my father insisted that I bought the same broom as you have" Draco smiled "He really wants me to win the next match against Gryffindor"
"I see..." Harry said "So where are we going?"
"Don't know. We could go to the Quidditch field, but there may be people there. And I don't want them to see us together. So lets go to the lake" Draco said, speeding up a bit.
"Good idea" Harry smiled, speeding up too. "Want to race?"
"I don't really see a point in doing that.. I'll win anyway" Draco smirked.
"You wish" Harry yelled speeding up a bit. He landed just before the lake. "From here to the other side and back" Harry smiled when Draco landed next to him.
"Fine!" Draco smiled.
"Ready...Steady...GO!" Harry quickly mounted his broom and kicked of. He putted his chin on his broom, making himself as small as possible. Draco was flying right behind him. catching up with him.
Harry speeded up even more when he saw Draco was flying next to him. He's really good, Harry thought. But I'm better!
He saw the other side of the lake come closer and closer. If he wanted to win he would have to stop and turn very quickly. Luckily Harry'd practised that really much last year. He slowed down a little bit, so Draco was flying next to him again. As soon as he saw green grass underneath him he stopped, turned and flew the opposite direction again.
Harry smiled, because he knew Draco wasn't able to turn as quickly as he did.
But to his surprise he saw Draco was flying right behind him again. At top speed he crossed the grass again, with Draco hot on his heels.
"I Won!" Harry panted, smiling.
"Bugger!" Draco muttered throwing his broom on the ground.
"I must say... you've improved really much" Harry smiled picking up Draco's broom and giving it back to Draco again.
"My dad is so going to kill me," Draco said, going through his hair "Please don't mention this to anyone. My dad has spies everywhere"
"I wont, speaking of your dad... what did you hear this morning when I was in the bathroom?" Harry asked shyly, not wanting to upset Draco.
"Enough to make me go crazy! And find out how your really feeling about me" Draco whispered hoarsely, before mounting his broom again and kicked of before Harry could stop him.
Quickly Harry did the same flying close behind him. I shouldn't have asked that question, This is my fault, Harry blamed himself. But he has to know!
Little by little he catched up and when he was flying next to Draco he saw Draco had his eyes closed.
He softly grabbed Draco's arm to get his attention. He signed Draco to land.
"What?" Draco asked when they were on the ground again.
"I didn't mean a thing I said" Harry said to the back of Draco's head (he'd turned around)
"Why would I have kissed you, if I did?" turning Draco around.
"To make me feel stupid and hurt" Draco muttered looking to the ground.
"You know as well as I do that I wouldn't do such a thing" Harry smiled searching for Draco's eyes, but they didn't want to be found. "I know you aren't the devil or anything else I said"
"But I act like one!" Draco yelled, walking away from Harry again. "Nobody knows the real me, Nobody!"
"I do a little bit" Harry said walking after Draco, who suddenly turned around
"You said I was a tool of my father and you know what? I Fucking AM" Draco yelled right into Harry's face.
"You don't have to be" Harry said trying to calm Draco down "Lets go inside. It's getting cold. We could drink tea"
"I don't want to drink tea. My father and I always drink that" Draco smiled weakly.
"We'll drink coffee" Harry smiled, glad Draco was smiling a bit.
"UGH, I hate Coffee" Draco said with a dirty face.
"You are impossible, do you know that?" Harry laughed putting his arm around Draco's shoulder "We drink tea together too, so you could try it"
"I know, tea will be fine" Draco smiled giving Harry a little kiss on his cheek. they both blushed.
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Inside again,
Draco and Harry were both sitting on the couch with a cup of tea in their hands. They were both drinking their tea in silence, until Harry couldn't bear the silence any longer.
"Aren't you afraid your dad is going to appear while we're sitting here?" Harry asked.
"No, he wont come again for about a month" Draco answered with an expressionless face. "I have a question for you too"
"Shoot" Harry smiled
"Could we become friends?" Draco asked looking into his teacup.
"Yeah, sure" Harry said, happy Draco was asking that question. "If we try"
"And more than that?" Draco asked looking even more into his teacup.
"I...I don't know. I really like you, but... I'm not sure if I'm straight or not" Harry stuttered, he didn't know what to say. He didn't want to hurt Draco, but to give him false hopes wasn't fair either.
"But what was that kiss you gave me, didn't it mean anything to you?" Draco asked hoarsely looking up.
"Yes..., no... yes it did...Grr" Harry grumbled "This is so confusing... What did it mean to you?"
"Everything and nothing" Draco smiled. "I don't think I ever had such a beautiful and loving kiss in my entire life... but if you don't feel that way... then there is nothing"
"But are you gay then? or are you still kind of finding out?" Harry asked, feeling a little bit confused.
"I think I'm gay... I'm not going to tell you why I think that, that would be to humiliating for me" Draco smiled. "But do you mind if I just find out a little bit more?"
"Sure" Harry smiled
"Great!" Draco practically yelled, jumping up and walking towards Harry.
"What are you doing?" Harry asked, watching Draco walking towards him and suddenly chance his direction
"I'm going on an expedition" Draco said with a mysterious voice. He walked towards the fire place, grabbed a tropical helmet and putted it on his head. Making Harry laugh.
He walked towards Harry again.
"And why are you going on expedition" Harry asked laughing.
"I'm doing some 'finding out'" Draco answered underneath the overlarge helmet. He was no standing before Harry, between his legs. "You said you didn't mind"
Harry took of the helmet and looked into Draco's eyes.
"Well you didn't mention I was the guinea pig" He laughed
"Oh didn't I?" Draco said histrionics slamming his hand before his mouth and acted as if he was going to faint. "Well you do now!" He smiled pushing Harry backwards
"And haven't I got anything to say about this" Harry asked, raising one eyebrow. and looking right into Draco's eyes.
"Nope" Draco smiled leaning forwards a little bit more, their lips were now only a millimetre apart from each other. "Unless you don't want to"
"Well, I don't want to interrupt your expedition. you may discover really important things" Harry smiled looking down to Draco's lips.
"Good" Draco said, biting on Harry's lip a bit. He wetted them with his tongue. Softy he took the teacup out of Harry's hand and putted it, without looking away from Harry's eyes, on the table
"What are you going to discover?" Harry asked shivering a bit.
"You'll see" Draco smiled. he moved his hands. With the fingertips of one hand and a feather-light touch, Draco reached up and brushed a few soft strands back, then let his fingers trail down the side of Harry's face. Draco leaned forward to kiss him. He hesitated for a fraction of a second, He could feel Harry's breath on his face. Then their lips met. Draco slipped his arm around Harry's waist, slowly drawling their bodies together, as he deepened the kiss.
Harry was a little bit surprised about the way he was feeling when the kiss ended, he'd felt the soft touch of Draco's tongue in his mouth and was longing for more.
"Mmm" Draco said with a faked thinking look on his face "I have discovered something, but I'm not quite sure... We'll have to do it again"
Harry smiled, "We'll have to do that in a comfortable position" pulling Draco on his lap. Draco laughed a little surprised.
"You liked it" Draco smiled back, sitting on Harry's lap.
"How could I not" Harry said "Well, go on... I don't have all night"
Draco raised his eyebrows "Oh yes you have!" And he kissed Harry again.
"I'm definitely gay" Draco smiled when the kiss was over "No girl can make me feel the way I feel when I kiss you...actually nobody can"
"I'm just a really good kisser" Harry smiled arrogant
"I was talking about the feeling, not the kiss darlin" Draco smirked.
"What's the time?" Harry asked to change the subject (he wasn't sure how he was feeling about the kiss. He liked it and it felt good, but he had to think about it. But he didn't want Draco to ask him what he was feeling. It would only disappoint him)
"10:10... 10:10!?" Draco yelled surprised "Time flies when your having fun"
Harry felt a little bit disappointed, he yawned.
"Getting tired?" Draco asked
"A little" Harry giggled.
Draco jumped of Harry's lap "Do you want to sleep... I mean you could stay over...not that there is any point in staying... but you could and... I would like it... and if you like to...I-" He muttered.
"Draco, it's ok... I'll stay, but where must I sleep?" Harry asked, smiling.
"Uh, on the other side of my bed?" Draco blushed. "If you don't mind"
"If you stay on your side I don't" Harry laughed.
*****
In bed:
"Harry are you asleep?" Draco asked lying on the other side of the bed, looking at Harry.
"Yes" Harry joked.
"Well, if that's the case" Draco smirked, moving towards Harry.
"Stay on your side, Malfoy" Harry warned.
"But I'm cold" Draco said with a tiny voice
"Why didn't you say so" Harry laughed, turning around and putting one arm around Draco's waist.
Draco turned over, so that his back was against Harry's chest. Draco felt safe for the first time in his life...
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