I was really uncomfortable with the whole thing. Oh, sure, the movie was good. It was great actually. I was surprised, considering Spinner had picked it out. I could even handle hanging out with Paige and some of her gang, considering how much we disliked each other. But Marco putting his arm around me every time Spinner looked over at us? That was making me uncomfortable.
Ever since Marco stopped being confused, and told me he was gay, "dating" him didn't hold its old appeal to me. When he was confused, at least I could pretend in my mind that he was straight. But now, now that he knew for sure that he's gay, pretending has gotten a lot harder.
And now, on this group date Marco had roped me into, I was feeling really stupid about the whole thing. Sure, Marco was a great guy, but he wasn't my great guy, and how long could I keep pretending for him?
Suddenly, Paige and Spinner started making out. Marco glanced at them, and looked at me. With only a moment's thought, he leaned over and kissed me too. And then again. What was he going to do, make out with me?! This wasn't fair to me at all.
I pushed him away, hard. "Stop it!" I hissed. Spinner and Paige stopped kissing and looked over at me and Marco.
"Uhhh," Spinner said, ackwardly.
"Come on Ellie," Marco said, and pulled me out of the theater.
When we got out of the doors I yelled, "What the hell was that about?"
"Ellie, I just…I…" Marco trailed off, looking ashamed.
"You went to far this time. I can't do this for you anymore. I'm not your girlfriend. Go find another girl to hide behind. This whole charade, this whole lie, its over."
"Ellie, I…"
I didn't hear the rest of Marco's word. I ran out of the theater, crying. Sure, I knew it wasn't like a real breakup. We were never really going out. But all that security I had, of having Marco as a very low-maintenance boyfriend, was gone.
Ever since Marco stopped being confused, and told me he was gay, "dating" him didn't hold its old appeal to me. When he was confused, at least I could pretend in my mind that he was straight. But now, now that he knew for sure that he's gay, pretending has gotten a lot harder.
And now, on this group date Marco had roped me into, I was feeling really stupid about the whole thing. Sure, Marco was a great guy, but he wasn't my great guy, and how long could I keep pretending for him?
Suddenly, Paige and Spinner started making out. Marco glanced at them, and looked at me. With only a moment's thought, he leaned over and kissed me too. And then again. What was he going to do, make out with me?! This wasn't fair to me at all.
I pushed him away, hard. "Stop it!" I hissed. Spinner and Paige stopped kissing and looked over at me and Marco.
"Uhhh," Spinner said, ackwardly.
"Come on Ellie," Marco said, and pulled me out of the theater.
When we got out of the doors I yelled, "What the hell was that about?"
"Ellie, I just…I…" Marco trailed off, looking ashamed.
"You went to far this time. I can't do this for you anymore. I'm not your girlfriend. Go find another girl to hide behind. This whole charade, this whole lie, its over."
"Ellie, I…"
I didn't hear the rest of Marco's word. I ran out of the theater, crying. Sure, I knew it wasn't like a real breakup. We were never really going out. But all that security I had, of having Marco as a very low-maintenance boyfriend, was gone.