Warning: Spoilers for book 5 and 4. You have been warned.
There will be sex in this part.
Go to first chapter for disclaimer.
Thanks to: My space-loving beta, joarain.
3. Love
I try to stop, I really do, but I know in my heart that I cannot.
I say to myself as I am slicing my arm in the bathroom: I will stop, I
will stop!
But, it never works.
Minutes fly by and I hear pounding on the door.
"HARRY?" BAM! "Harry, are you there?" BAM! BAM!
"Harry, I'm coming in!" Sirius slams down the door, looking deathly pale.
"Harry, please, just stop." He pulls me into a hug.
I feel tears in my eyes that I never knew existed. Sirius made me feel.
"Sirius, I'll-I'll try," I say in a hoarse whisper.
"I-I guess that I'll have to use magic to shave again," he says
nervously.
I don't respond.
"Harry, please talk. I need to know you're OK."
I move my lips but no words come out.
He pulls us to his sofa and I sit in his lap. "Harry, as your soul mate
and um. (... perhaps?) Godfather, I command you to talk."
Godfather?
"Sirius, I can't stop." I know that he'll kick me out.
"Why?" he says as he kisses me soundly on the lips.
I turn my head so I can't see him.
"I don't want to die." Really, I don't.
"Well, Harry, you certainly do not show it."
"I want to feel their pain. The pain that I've caused." I am barely
talking but he is on my every word.
"'Their'? What are you talking about?"
I look down at my lap. "Remember my 4th year?"
He tries to grin. "Harry, that was years ago."
"I still remember. I've had nightmares every night for the past 3 years."
"Harry, why haven't you told me?" He sounds betrayed.
"Because I thought that you would hate me," I whisper.
"Never would I hate you."
"I-I don't want to talk about it." I just want to go back and cut, cut
for you, for Cedric, and for every miserable soul.
He nods. "Yeah, it is getting late. Do you want to sleep on the sofa or
with me?"
I stare at him, willing him to say something.
"Um, I mean all we are going to do is sleep," he stammers.
I nod as he guides me into his bedroom. It is red and gold, decorated
with the Gryffindor mascot. He has a Queen sized four-poster bed with
big, fluffy comforters.
He turns his back and strips off his clothes.
"Harry, I don't bite. Come to-Wait!"
He runs out of the room.
He then comes back, bringing with him a towel and a velvet box.
"Come here," he murmurs gently.
He slowly wipes off my blood. I forgot I was bleeding.
I look at the box questioningly.
He opens it and I see a beautiful twin matching silver rings. They have a
serpent entwined with the Black motto: 'Toujours Pur'.
He smiles as he slips it on my finger. I suddenly feel warm.
"Harry, I would be honoured if you would be my bond mate."
I grin; I grin for him, for us.
"Of course, Sirius."
As I slip his ring on, he suddenly shudders. I draw back from him
quickly.
"S-Sirius, are you OK?" He scared me; I do not know what to do.
He opens his eyes (which I guess he closed) and smiled. "I am fine,
Harry. Remember when I said that your soul mate would help you?"
I nod. "You also said that he or she would understand, too."
He pulls me on the bed and we sit Indian style. "Now harry, when I was
about your age, before I ran away, I was just like you. I was surrounded
by evil. You know how my parents were. They kept telling me that I was
going to be just like Regulus. I never wanted to get the Dark Mark and
fortunately, I ran away before I could get it on me. I used to cut too.
It was James who found me in his bathroom, barely breathing." He takes a
deep breath and pauses.
"Sirius, I-I never knew. I-I'm so sorry." I honestly am.
"It's OK Harry. I know that you can't stop even if you wanted to. Azkaban
has helped me with that."
I gasp. Is he going to send me to Azkaban?
He smirks "No, Harry, I am not going to force you to be in prison. I want
you and I to work this out even if it takes forever."
"Good." I breathe.
"Now let's sleep, OK?"
I nod as I curl in the blankets.
"Good night," he whispers as he kisses me on the cheek.
4. Sex
"Mr. Potter stays after class, the rest of you may leave," calls
Professor Black.
As soon as he has locked the classroom door and put a silencing charm on it, he pulls me in his lap.
"God, Harry, I missed you so much." He says in my hair.
I try not to laugh. I don't deserve him, soul mate or not.
"Sirius, I just saw you this morning!"
"I know love, but I never want to loose you. I never know what could
happen?" he says, as in is the most obvious thing in the world.
"Now have to tell you something. We have to, um, complete the bond soon.
It is only for your protection."
I turn red as I remember slicing my arm in Potions earlier. Snape, the
srupid git, did not even notice.
"OK, Sirius. Whatever you think is best," I say.
"OK, now I'll write you up a note for your next class." When I entered
Sirius' rooms, he immediately pulled meinto a hug.
"Now Harry," he whispers in my ear. "I haven't done this in a while but
we have to have intercourse."
Maybe my saviour will help me take my mind off the guilty faces in my
dreams, and somehow make me stop cutting.
I nod , and he drowns me with kisses as he skilfully takes off our
clothes. I think that I cut too deep and now I am in Heaven.
He carries me to our bedroom and gently puts me on our bed. I try to hide
my arm behind my back. I am ashamed.
"Harry, let me see." He traces my scars with gentle hands. I shiver as he
murmurs, "Beautiful."
"Now turn around," he commands after kissing me everywhere I could
imagine. I groan. I can not believe how wonderful this is.
I hear a drawer open then suddenly a warm, lubricated finger findsmy
hole. It feels odd at first, then I wriggle to get more. I gasp as I feel
sharp pain as when he adds another finger.
"Did I hurt you?" I can hear the worryin his beautiful voice.
"No," I say as I try to get him deeper.
When he a third one, the pain turns into passion and I know I can hear my
cries bouncing off the walls. I hope he put silencing charms on this
room.
Suddenly, his fingers disappear, and I cry in frustration.
"Don't worry love." Sirius kisses down my spine, making the hair on my
back stand on edge.
"Oh my God!" I cry as his hard prick slowly enters me.
My surprised gasps turns into lust-filled moans.
As he thrusts in, we moan together in perfect harmony.
I never notice that he stokes my hard cock as he thrusts in one final
time as we climaxed together, shouting each other's name.
There will be sex in this part.
Go to first chapter for disclaimer.
Thanks to: My space-loving beta, joarain.
3. Love
I try to stop, I really do, but I know in my heart that I cannot.
I say to myself as I am slicing my arm in the bathroom: I will stop, I
will stop!
But, it never works.
Minutes fly by and I hear pounding on the door.
"HARRY?" BAM! "Harry, are you there?" BAM! BAM!
"Harry, I'm coming in!" Sirius slams down the door, looking deathly pale.
"Harry, please, just stop." He pulls me into a hug.
I feel tears in my eyes that I never knew existed. Sirius made me feel.
"Sirius, I'll-I'll try," I say in a hoarse whisper.
"I-I guess that I'll have to use magic to shave again," he says
nervously.
I don't respond.
"Harry, please talk. I need to know you're OK."
I move my lips but no words come out.
He pulls us to his sofa and I sit in his lap. "Harry, as your soul mate
and um. (... perhaps?) Godfather, I command you to talk."
Godfather?
"Sirius, I can't stop." I know that he'll kick me out.
"Why?" he says as he kisses me soundly on the lips.
I turn my head so I can't see him.
"I don't want to die." Really, I don't.
"Well, Harry, you certainly do not show it."
"I want to feel their pain. The pain that I've caused." I am barely
talking but he is on my every word.
"'Their'? What are you talking about?"
I look down at my lap. "Remember my 4th year?"
He tries to grin. "Harry, that was years ago."
"I still remember. I've had nightmares every night for the past 3 years."
"Harry, why haven't you told me?" He sounds betrayed.
"Because I thought that you would hate me," I whisper.
"Never would I hate you."
"I-I don't want to talk about it." I just want to go back and cut, cut
for you, for Cedric, and for every miserable soul.
He nods. "Yeah, it is getting late. Do you want to sleep on the sofa or
with me?"
I stare at him, willing him to say something.
"Um, I mean all we are going to do is sleep," he stammers.
I nod as he guides me into his bedroom. It is red and gold, decorated
with the Gryffindor mascot. He has a Queen sized four-poster bed with
big, fluffy comforters.
He turns his back and strips off his clothes.
"Harry, I don't bite. Come to-Wait!"
He runs out of the room.
He then comes back, bringing with him a towel and a velvet box.
"Come here," he murmurs gently.
He slowly wipes off my blood. I forgot I was bleeding.
I look at the box questioningly.
He opens it and I see a beautiful twin matching silver rings. They have a
serpent entwined with the Black motto: 'Toujours Pur'.
He smiles as he slips it on my finger. I suddenly feel warm.
"Harry, I would be honoured if you would be my bond mate."
I grin; I grin for him, for us.
"Of course, Sirius."
As I slip his ring on, he suddenly shudders. I draw back from him
quickly.
"S-Sirius, are you OK?" He scared me; I do not know what to do.
He opens his eyes (which I guess he closed) and smiled. "I am fine,
Harry. Remember when I said that your soul mate would help you?"
I nod. "You also said that he or she would understand, too."
He pulls me on the bed and we sit Indian style. "Now harry, when I was
about your age, before I ran away, I was just like you. I was surrounded
by evil. You know how my parents were. They kept telling me that I was
going to be just like Regulus. I never wanted to get the Dark Mark and
fortunately, I ran away before I could get it on me. I used to cut too.
It was James who found me in his bathroom, barely breathing." He takes a
deep breath and pauses.
"Sirius, I-I never knew. I-I'm so sorry." I honestly am.
"It's OK Harry. I know that you can't stop even if you wanted to. Azkaban
has helped me with that."
I gasp. Is he going to send me to Azkaban?
He smirks "No, Harry, I am not going to force you to be in prison. I want
you and I to work this out even if it takes forever."
"Good." I breathe.
"Now let's sleep, OK?"
I nod as I curl in the blankets.
"Good night," he whispers as he kisses me on the cheek.
4. Sex
"Mr. Potter stays after class, the rest of you may leave," calls
Professor Black.
As soon as he has locked the classroom door and put a silencing charm on it, he pulls me in his lap.
"God, Harry, I missed you so much." He says in my hair.
I try not to laugh. I don't deserve him, soul mate or not.
"Sirius, I just saw you this morning!"
"I know love, but I never want to loose you. I never know what could
happen?" he says, as in is the most obvious thing in the world.
"Now have to tell you something. We have to, um, complete the bond soon.
It is only for your protection."
I turn red as I remember slicing my arm in Potions earlier. Snape, the
srupid git, did not even notice.
"OK, Sirius. Whatever you think is best," I say.
"OK, now I'll write you up a note for your next class." When I entered
Sirius' rooms, he immediately pulled meinto a hug.
"Now Harry," he whispers in my ear. "I haven't done this in a while but
we have to have intercourse."
Maybe my saviour will help me take my mind off the guilty faces in my
dreams, and somehow make me stop cutting.
I nod , and he drowns me with kisses as he skilfully takes off our
clothes. I think that I cut too deep and now I am in Heaven.
He carries me to our bedroom and gently puts me on our bed. I try to hide
my arm behind my back. I am ashamed.
"Harry, let me see." He traces my scars with gentle hands. I shiver as he
murmurs, "Beautiful."
"Now turn around," he commands after kissing me everywhere I could
imagine. I groan. I can not believe how wonderful this is.
I hear a drawer open then suddenly a warm, lubricated finger findsmy
hole. It feels odd at first, then I wriggle to get more. I gasp as I feel
sharp pain as when he adds another finger.
"Did I hurt you?" I can hear the worryin his beautiful voice.
"No," I say as I try to get him deeper.
When he a third one, the pain turns into passion and I know I can hear my
cries bouncing off the walls. I hope he put silencing charms on this
room.
Suddenly, his fingers disappear, and I cry in frustration.
"Don't worry love." Sirius kisses down my spine, making the hair on my
back stand on edge.
"Oh my God!" I cry as his hard prick slowly enters me.
My surprised gasps turns into lust-filled moans.
As he thrusts in, we moan together in perfect harmony.
I never notice that he stokes my hard cock as he thrusts in one final
time as we climaxed together, shouting each other's name.