::A/N::
________ =Flashbacks/thoughts
(( ____ ))=Diary/Journal entries or just things one of them wrote **FYI: I wrote all of the poems, ect so please ask before you take and give me credit cuz copyin and pastin dont take skill.... **
*** _______ ***= song lyrics, read song credits at end of each chapter for song info
disclaimer: I don't own the HP series, yada yada...
Fic Info:
Title: Whispers of Suicide
Rating: R for violence, gore, suicide, drug use, heavy language, some sexual situations
Summary:
Draco is struggling with his life- his suicide attempts getting worse and worse...
Pansy is fighting with her all to keep him alive, but he is slowly dragging her down with him...
Other Info:
Told in different POVs, each time ** is put between text, the POV changes. Contains things like letters, diary entries, song lyrics, and the occasional "Daily Prophet" article. Told in a very interesting and capturing way....
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...**Chapter 3**...
I can't let him do this to himself....not again...
**
Pansy walked into the Slytherin common room, expecting to see Draco sitting on the couch, writing in the same little black notebook he always had his nose in. But he was no where to be found, and she began to worry. He was always there when she got back from her study hall, waiting for her. Pansy peeked up into the boys' dormitory. "Crabbe? Goyle? Is Draco up there?" "Nope, sorry, Pans." Crabbe called back down the stairs to her. "I haven't seen him much today."
Pansy ran from the room, hurdling down the stairs. She ran past classrooms, fright building up in her. One classroom was empty, the door shut and the light off. Pansy opened the door, peeking inside. Draco was laying on the floor, blood dripping from numerous cuts on his arms. A small blade shined on the floor beside him, and Pansy shut the door and kneeled down beside him, her expression one of exhaustion. She held up the blade in front of his eyes. "Why?"
**
Draco looked up at Pansy. He didn't know why. "This hurts me, Dray," Pansy said, tossing the blade into the trashcan. "You promised me you wouldn't do this anymore." Draco sat up, pulling his shirt sleeves down over his cuts. "You don't have to worry about me, Pans," he said softly. "I'm alright." "No, you aren't. You've got to stop doing this to yourself. I am trying to help you, Dray, you've got to learn to help yourself." Draco looked down at the floor. "You're right," he said, not looking up. "I do need you." Pansy stood up. "Now that you've figured that out," she said, pulling open the door. "All you've got to learn is that what you're doing is leading you no where. No one can teach you how to live your life but yourself. I can't help you there." Pansy left the room, leaving him alone in the dark room, the stillness of it all resembling the stillness of his empty soul.
**
((Am I the only one who sees the pain he does? Am I the only one who is trying, or even willing to help him? He's slipping- he's falling. I've held onto him so long- but soon he's gonna let go of me.))
**
((I'm off in a world all my own....
Don't scream precious I'm here.))
***In my field of paper flowers,
and candy clouds of lullaby.
I lie inside myself for hours.
And watch my purple sky fly over me.***
**
((This is me- Pansy. The one who seems so perfectly content. This is me- the real Pansy. The one who's always screaming inside.))
((Can't take you any further,
this is where my strength runs out.
It's your turn to figure out your future-
If there is one...what the hell's all this pain about..?
Can't you see I'm gettin deeper,
deeper in this sea of yours.
I'm swimming deeper and I'm dying.
My soul can't take this shit no more....))
**
***You used to captivate me,
by your resonating light.
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face haunts my once pleasent dreams,
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me...***
~*~
Let all those songs and poems sink in....
::Song Credits::
Evanescence- Imaginary
Evanescence- My Immortal
sara
***
________ =Flashbacks/thoughts
(( ____ ))=Diary/Journal entries or just things one of them wrote **FYI: I wrote all of the poems, ect so please ask before you take and give me credit cuz copyin and pastin dont take skill.... **
*** _______ ***= song lyrics, read song credits at end of each chapter for song info
disclaimer: I don't own the HP series, yada yada...
Fic Info:
Title: Whispers of Suicide
Rating: R for violence, gore, suicide, drug use, heavy language, some sexual situations
Summary:
Draco is struggling with his life- his suicide attempts getting worse and worse...
Pansy is fighting with her all to keep him alive, but he is slowly dragging her down with him...
Other Info:
Told in different POVs, each time ** is put between text, the POV changes. Contains things like letters, diary entries, song lyrics, and the occasional "Daily Prophet" article. Told in a very interesting and capturing way....
******************************************************************************************************
...**Chapter 3**...
I can't let him do this to himself....not again...
**
Pansy walked into the Slytherin common room, expecting to see Draco sitting on the couch, writing in the same little black notebook he always had his nose in. But he was no where to be found, and she began to worry. He was always there when she got back from her study hall, waiting for her. Pansy peeked up into the boys' dormitory. "Crabbe? Goyle? Is Draco up there?" "Nope, sorry, Pans." Crabbe called back down the stairs to her. "I haven't seen him much today."
Pansy ran from the room, hurdling down the stairs. She ran past classrooms, fright building up in her. One classroom was empty, the door shut and the light off. Pansy opened the door, peeking inside. Draco was laying on the floor, blood dripping from numerous cuts on his arms. A small blade shined on the floor beside him, and Pansy shut the door and kneeled down beside him, her expression one of exhaustion. She held up the blade in front of his eyes. "Why?"
**
Draco looked up at Pansy. He didn't know why. "This hurts me, Dray," Pansy said, tossing the blade into the trashcan. "You promised me you wouldn't do this anymore." Draco sat up, pulling his shirt sleeves down over his cuts. "You don't have to worry about me, Pans," he said softly. "I'm alright." "No, you aren't. You've got to stop doing this to yourself. I am trying to help you, Dray, you've got to learn to help yourself." Draco looked down at the floor. "You're right," he said, not looking up. "I do need you." Pansy stood up. "Now that you've figured that out," she said, pulling open the door. "All you've got to learn is that what you're doing is leading you no where. No one can teach you how to live your life but yourself. I can't help you there." Pansy left the room, leaving him alone in the dark room, the stillness of it all resembling the stillness of his empty soul.
**
((Am I the only one who sees the pain he does? Am I the only one who is trying, or even willing to help him? He's slipping- he's falling. I've held onto him so long- but soon he's gonna let go of me.))
**
((I'm off in a world all my own....
Don't scream precious I'm here.))
***In my field of paper flowers,
and candy clouds of lullaby.
I lie inside myself for hours.
And watch my purple sky fly over me.***
**
((This is me- Pansy. The one who seems so perfectly content. This is me- the real Pansy. The one who's always screaming inside.))
((Can't take you any further,
this is where my strength runs out.
It's your turn to figure out your future-
If there is one...what the hell's all this pain about..?
Can't you see I'm gettin deeper,
deeper in this sea of yours.
I'm swimming deeper and I'm dying.
My soul can't take this shit no more....))
**
***You used to captivate me,
by your resonating light.
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
Your face haunts my once pleasent dreams,
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me...***
~*~
Let all those songs and poems sink in....
::Song Credits::
Evanescence- Imaginary
Evanescence- My Immortal
sara
***