::A/N::
________ =Flashbacks/thoughts
(( ____ ))=Diary/Journal entries or just things one of them wrote **FYI: I wrote all of the poems, ect so please ask before you take and give me credit cuz copyin and pastin dont take skill.... **
*** _____ ***=Song lyrics- look at the song credits at the end of each chapter....
disclaimer: I don't own the HP series, yada yada...
Fic Info:
Title: Whispers of Suicide
Rating: R for violence, gore, suicide, drug use, heavy language, some sexual situations
Summary:
Draco is struggling with his life- his suicide attempts getting worse and worse...
Pansy is fighting with her all to keep him alive, but he is slowly dragging her down with him...
Other Info:
Told in different POVs, each time ** is put between text, the POV changes. Contains things like letters, diary entries, song lyrics, and the occasional "Daily Prophet" article. Told in a very interesting and capturing way....
******************************************************************************************************
...**Chapter 5**...
***Rain clouds come to play
again.
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello, I'm your mind-
giving you someone to talk to.
Hello.***
((Why she chose me- I do not know. Why she still holds on to me even as I fall faster and faster, deeper and deeper- I do not know. Pansy- her fragile soul and mind are caving in- and yet what do I do? I keep on hurting her. How does she still love me?))
**
"I can't take this anymore!" Pansy screamed, throwing another one of Draco's blades to the floor. "Do you realize the you are putting me through every time you do this shit?!" "I can't help it!" Draco yelled back. "I can't stop!" "Bull shit! How in the fucking world can you not stop yourself from tearing yourself to shreds?!" "You have no idea what it feels like to watch your entire life crumble before your eyes, Pansy!" Draco yelled, putting his hands out in defense. "All of your hope- love- just falls down. Have you ever felt that kind of pain?!?!" "Yes," Pansy said, glaring at him. "I see it everyday." Draco swallowed. "I see it every time I look into your eyes." Pansy stormed away, tears streaming down her plae cheeks.
**
"Pansy- look at me." Pansy ignored his words, casually packing up her books. The classroom slowly emptied out, and Pansy followed, ignoring him still. "Pansy, please. We need to talk." "What is there to say?" "I'm sorry." "You're sorry, huh?" Pansy said, glaring at him. "Sorry for what, exactly? Sorry for destroying yourself? Sorry for not even trying to save yourself? Or sorry for not even acknowledging everything I have tried to do for you?!?" Draco stood silent. He ran his fingers through his hair. "I'm just sorry." "Well, Draco, I'm afraid that's not gonna work this time. I've forgiven you one too many times- this is where I draw the line." Pansy walked out of the room- leaving him alone.
**
((Red tears fall across my skin-
bleeding all the pain that lies within.
I'm living in a nightmare,
no one here to wake me up,
no one here who cares.
The one I loved, the one I cherish-
our hearts torn, our love thrown to perish.
My precious....she screams.))
**
***Wake me up inside, wake me up inside.
Call my name and save me from the dark.
Bid my blood to run, before I come undone.
Save me from the nothing I've become...
Now That I know what I'm without,
you can't just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real,
Bring me to life....
....
Frozen in time,
without your touch, without your love.
Darling, only you are the life....
among the dead.***
**
Draco stared across the room at Millicent Bulstrode. He remembered the poem Pansy had found- describing the night he'd had- with her. Millie was a beautiful girl, one of the most popular Slytherins now taking Pansy's place as she slipped away from her social life- for him. Pansy hadn't shown up for class today. Draco was worried, but his thoughts dwindled away as he stared at Millie. Her long, brown hair, the blonde highlights in it reflecting in the sunlight from the sky windows. She smiled at him with a wink. *Meet me after class* he mouthed to her, and she nodded, giving him a sly grin.
**
Draco wrapped his arms around Millie, their lips meeting. He could taste her cherry lip gloss, bringing back memories of that night. He laid her across the table, making sure the door was shut. She pulled his cloak off, still kissing him.....
"Tell me you love me," Millie said, through heaving breaths. "What?" "Just say it, for me."......."I love you."
Draco buttoned his shirt back up, slipping his shoes back on. Millie was smoothing out her skirt and reapplying her lips gloss, refraining from buttoning her shirt up all the way, her green and silver Slytherin tie tied lossely around her neck. She wrapped her arms around his neck, kissing him passionately. "I'll see you." She said before giving him a quick smile and leaving the room.
**
Pansy watched in horror as Millicent Bulstrode exited the empty classroom, her shirt untucked, her shirt only buttoned halfway. What a slut. Pansy's heart ripped in two as she saw Draco exit behind her, securing his belt.
**
***Watching me, wanting me.
I can feel you pull me down.
Fearing you, loving you.
I won't let you pull me down.***
~*~
What's up with this quickie with Millie?!?! I confuse MYSELF sometimes....
It's getting better? REVIEWS.
Yay- I have a "fan"....
::Song Credits::
Evanescence- Hello
Evanescence- Bring Me To Life
Evanescence- Haunted
sara
________ =Flashbacks/thoughts
(( ____ ))=Diary/Journal entries or just things one of them wrote **FYI: I wrote all of the poems, ect so please ask before you take and give me credit cuz copyin and pastin dont take skill.... **
*** _____ ***=Song lyrics- look at the song credits at the end of each chapter....
disclaimer: I don't own the HP series, yada yada...
Fic Info:
Title: Whispers of Suicide
Rating: R for violence, gore, suicide, drug use, heavy language, some sexual situations
Summary:
Draco is struggling with his life- his suicide attempts getting worse and worse...
Pansy is fighting with her all to keep him alive, but he is slowly dragging her down with him...
Other Info:
Told in different POVs, each time ** is put between text, the POV changes. Contains things like letters, diary entries, song lyrics, and the occasional "Daily Prophet" article. Told in a very interesting and capturing way....
******************************************************************************************************
...**Chapter 5**...
***Rain clouds come to play
again.
Has no one told you she's not breathing?
Hello, I'm your mind-
giving you someone to talk to.
Hello.***
((Why she chose me- I do not know. Why she still holds on to me even as I fall faster and faster, deeper and deeper- I do not know. Pansy- her fragile soul and mind are caving in- and yet what do I do? I keep on hurting her. How does she still love me?))
**
"I can't take this anymore!" Pansy screamed, throwing another one of Draco's blades to the floor. "Do you realize the you are putting me through every time you do this shit?!" "I can't help it!" Draco yelled back. "I can't stop!" "Bull shit! How in the fucking world can you not stop yourself from tearing yourself to shreds?!" "You have no idea what it feels like to watch your entire life crumble before your eyes, Pansy!" Draco yelled, putting his hands out in defense. "All of your hope- love- just falls down. Have you ever felt that kind of pain?!?!" "Yes," Pansy said, glaring at him. "I see it everyday." Draco swallowed. "I see it every time I look into your eyes." Pansy stormed away, tears streaming down her plae cheeks.
**
"Pansy- look at me." Pansy ignored his words, casually packing up her books. The classroom slowly emptied out, and Pansy followed, ignoring him still. "Pansy, please. We need to talk." "What is there to say?" "I'm sorry." "You're sorry, huh?" Pansy said, glaring at him. "Sorry for what, exactly? Sorry for destroying yourself? Sorry for not even trying to save yourself? Or sorry for not even acknowledging everything I have tried to do for you?!?" Draco stood silent. He ran his fingers through his hair. "I'm just sorry." "Well, Draco, I'm afraid that's not gonna work this time. I've forgiven you one too many times- this is where I draw the line." Pansy walked out of the room- leaving him alone.
**
((Red tears fall across my skin-
bleeding all the pain that lies within.
I'm living in a nightmare,
no one here to wake me up,
no one here who cares.
The one I loved, the one I cherish-
our hearts torn, our love thrown to perish.
My precious....she screams.))
**
***Wake me up inside, wake me up inside.
Call my name and save me from the dark.
Bid my blood to run, before I come undone.
Save me from the nothing I've become...
Now That I know what I'm without,
you can't just leave me.
Breathe into me and make me real,
Bring me to life....
....
Frozen in time,
without your touch, without your love.
Darling, only you are the life....
among the dead.***
**
Draco stared across the room at Millicent Bulstrode. He remembered the poem Pansy had found- describing the night he'd had- with her. Millie was a beautiful girl, one of the most popular Slytherins now taking Pansy's place as she slipped away from her social life- for him. Pansy hadn't shown up for class today. Draco was worried, but his thoughts dwindled away as he stared at Millie. Her long, brown hair, the blonde highlights in it reflecting in the sunlight from the sky windows. She smiled at him with a wink. *Meet me after class* he mouthed to her, and she nodded, giving him a sly grin.
**
Draco wrapped his arms around Millie, their lips meeting. He could taste her cherry lip gloss, bringing back memories of that night. He laid her across the table, making sure the door was shut. She pulled his cloak off, still kissing him.....
"Tell me you love me," Millie said, through heaving breaths. "What?" "Just say it, for me."......."I love you."
Draco buttoned his shirt back up, slipping his shoes back on. Millie was smoothing out her skirt and reapplying her lips gloss, refraining from buttoning her shirt up all the way, her green and silver Slytherin tie tied lossely around her neck. She wrapped her arms around his neck, kissing him passionately. "I'll see you." She said before giving him a quick smile and leaving the room.
**
Pansy watched in horror as Millicent Bulstrode exited the empty classroom, her shirt untucked, her shirt only buttoned halfway. What a slut. Pansy's heart ripped in two as she saw Draco exit behind her, securing his belt.
**
***Watching me, wanting me.
I can feel you pull me down.
Fearing you, loving you.
I won't let you pull me down.***
~*~
What's up with this quickie with Millie?!?! I confuse MYSELF sometimes....
It's getting better? REVIEWS.
Yay- I have a "fan"....
::Song Credits::
Evanescence- Hello
Evanescence- Bring Me To Life
Evanescence- Haunted
sara