A/N: Okay this is a continuation have Nobody Knows It but Me. For the
people you read the first chapter and gave me this idea to make it a WIP
thank you so much. I have going to make it a work in progress and each
chapter will have a song, it'll be kind of like my fic There You'll be but
longer. I can see myself making this longer and it's great because since I
have totally run out of ideas for Charms I am stopping that fic for the
time being. I hope you like this fic; I 'm posting the beginning of it here
and the second chapter. Thank you so much. Love Ashley.
A/N2: ~*~ = Lyrics
A/N3: *~* = Change of POV
A/N4: I own nothing, not the characters or the song.
A/N5: Please Read and Review. Tell me what you think and if you want to see more.
ALL I'VE EVER WANTED
I sit here and watch her going around waiting on people. I could take her away from this. She would never have to work again. I sit here waiting for her to come up and take my order. Everything has been strained between us since that night 3 weeks ago. Every time we see each other, we look the other way. Every time we are in the same room, you can cut the tension with a knife. Every time we have to talk, we try to make conversation but always fail. I can't stand it. I want to be her friend again. I will take even that. I would take anything she would give me right now.
I watch how her body moves and I want to go grab her and hold he against my side and not let her go. I want to kiss her in front of every one and claim her mine. I had never been possessive or cave man like but she seems to bring that out in me.
~*~ If you only knew
What I feel for you
If you only lived for me
The way I live for you
I'd be in heaven
My dreams would come true ~*~
*~*
I feel his eyes on me, I always do this time of day. I keep meaning to change my shift but I always forget. Maybe I don't forget really. Maybe it's because I can't do with out seeing him. Looking at him is the best part of my day. Isn't that weird, I sound like I am back in high school ogling over my high school crush. It's pitiful.
I know I should go serve him, he's been waiting for over and half an hour but unlike other customers who would get mad, he just sits there waiting for me. I know I should be flatter and I am but I am more scarred then anything. Every time I see him, I can't look him in the eye. The pain that was there 3 weeks ago is still there. The pain in my heart, the lump in my throat. Everything about that replays over and over in my head. And every time the pain comes back.
I want to hate him but I can't. He left me and I still love him. He left me in that garage crying. Did he even feel the pain? Did he feel his heart breaking? Did he feel the tears falling down his cheeks? Did he feel anything?
~*~ 'Cause all I've ever wanted
Is you
And you alone
And I love you so
More than you could ever know
All I've ever wanted
Is you ~*~
*~*
The woman I love comes over. She's dress in a light blue top and tight jeans. Every time I see a man eyes roam over her I want to go hurt them. How dare they look at her, she was his. Even if she didn't know it. They were meant to be together but there was a problem. She belonged to someone else. She looks me over and I feel warm. When has a woman made me feel warm with her eyes. Never that was when. Keesha, well I can't even remember her. Robin was always trying to change me. Carly was the only one who came close to making me feel like this, but still only close. Liz made my skin crawl, with her creepy obsessive looks. Courtney was the only one who made me feel like this. Made feel like a good person.
~*~ If you were my own
To caress and hold
I would shower you with love
And drown within your soul
Because I live and breathe for you
And I really need to know ~*~
*~*
Okay I guess I have to get his order, if I don't I could get fired and me and A.J. need the money. I look at him, still avoding those blue orbes. When I get there I stand on the opposite of him. I need to stay far enough away from him. "hello Jason," he gives me a smile. He rarly smiles but every time I say hello he gives me one. Sometimes I feel so lucky.
I know I love him and I want nothing more then to be with him but I belong to A.J., a man I don't love. I want to be with him. I want to be the one he fall asleep, wakes up too, tells he loves. But I'll never be that person. Never.
~*~ That all I've ever wanted
Is you
And you alone
And I love you so
More than you could ever know
All I've ever wanted
Is you ~*~
*~*
I see her smile as to she talks to me. I love her smile. Then I know she's happy. Know that maybe he is making her happy. "Um, how you doing?" I ask her. For some reason that is all that matters to me, that she is happy. That she is okay. I live in hell and she is my little pices in heaven on earth. She makes me a better man by just being here. But just talking to me.
"I'm okay, you?" she asks me. How do I answer that question? Should I tell her I get no sleep because I am up thinking about her al night. Should I tell her I am living in hell, sinve I can't see her. Should I tell her my heart is so heavy from the love I can't share with no one.
But know I'll lie, "I'm fine," I tell her. I so far from fine it isn't funny. It isn't the time to to tell her my true feeling, at least not yet. It may never be, but at least I know I can watch her from afar and dream the sweetest dreams.
~*~ Everything I do is for you
You are every part of me
And I don't want to face
Another day
Alone
Without your love ~*~
*~*
I bring him his black coffee. I tell him I am fine when he asks and I know that I am lying through my teeth but I have too. What else can I tell him. That I can't stand my husbands touch now that I have felt his. That I can't kiss my husband beacause every time I do I think of his lips. No so I lie. I look at him and smile as I set the coffee and sit the coffee down. I know at least I will see him every day at this time and in my drea, and maybe even one day when I bring his coffee I will tell him I love him. I just hope I get the courage soon.
~*~ 'Cause all I've ever wanted
Is you
And you alone
And I love you so
More than you could ever know
All I've ever wanted
Is you ~*~
A/N2: ~*~ = Lyrics
A/N3: *~* = Change of POV
A/N4: I own nothing, not the characters or the song.
A/N5: Please Read and Review. Tell me what you think and if you want to see more.
ALL I'VE EVER WANTED
I sit here and watch her going around waiting on people. I could take her away from this. She would never have to work again. I sit here waiting for her to come up and take my order. Everything has been strained between us since that night 3 weeks ago. Every time we see each other, we look the other way. Every time we are in the same room, you can cut the tension with a knife. Every time we have to talk, we try to make conversation but always fail. I can't stand it. I want to be her friend again. I will take even that. I would take anything she would give me right now.
I watch how her body moves and I want to go grab her and hold he against my side and not let her go. I want to kiss her in front of every one and claim her mine. I had never been possessive or cave man like but she seems to bring that out in me.
~*~ If you only knew
What I feel for you
If you only lived for me
The way I live for you
I'd be in heaven
My dreams would come true ~*~
*~*
I feel his eyes on me, I always do this time of day. I keep meaning to change my shift but I always forget. Maybe I don't forget really. Maybe it's because I can't do with out seeing him. Looking at him is the best part of my day. Isn't that weird, I sound like I am back in high school ogling over my high school crush. It's pitiful.
I know I should go serve him, he's been waiting for over and half an hour but unlike other customers who would get mad, he just sits there waiting for me. I know I should be flatter and I am but I am more scarred then anything. Every time I see him, I can't look him in the eye. The pain that was there 3 weeks ago is still there. The pain in my heart, the lump in my throat. Everything about that replays over and over in my head. And every time the pain comes back.
I want to hate him but I can't. He left me and I still love him. He left me in that garage crying. Did he even feel the pain? Did he feel his heart breaking? Did he feel the tears falling down his cheeks? Did he feel anything?
~*~ 'Cause all I've ever wanted
Is you
And you alone
And I love you so
More than you could ever know
All I've ever wanted
Is you ~*~
*~*
The woman I love comes over. She's dress in a light blue top and tight jeans. Every time I see a man eyes roam over her I want to go hurt them. How dare they look at her, she was his. Even if she didn't know it. They were meant to be together but there was a problem. She belonged to someone else. She looks me over and I feel warm. When has a woman made me feel warm with her eyes. Never that was when. Keesha, well I can't even remember her. Robin was always trying to change me. Carly was the only one who came close to making me feel like this, but still only close. Liz made my skin crawl, with her creepy obsessive looks. Courtney was the only one who made me feel like this. Made feel like a good person.
~*~ If you were my own
To caress and hold
I would shower you with love
And drown within your soul
Because I live and breathe for you
And I really need to know ~*~
*~*
Okay I guess I have to get his order, if I don't I could get fired and me and A.J. need the money. I look at him, still avoding those blue orbes. When I get there I stand on the opposite of him. I need to stay far enough away from him. "hello Jason," he gives me a smile. He rarly smiles but every time I say hello he gives me one. Sometimes I feel so lucky.
I know I love him and I want nothing more then to be with him but I belong to A.J., a man I don't love. I want to be with him. I want to be the one he fall asleep, wakes up too, tells he loves. But I'll never be that person. Never.
~*~ That all I've ever wanted
Is you
And you alone
And I love you so
More than you could ever know
All I've ever wanted
Is you ~*~
*~*
I see her smile as to she talks to me. I love her smile. Then I know she's happy. Know that maybe he is making her happy. "Um, how you doing?" I ask her. For some reason that is all that matters to me, that she is happy. That she is okay. I live in hell and she is my little pices in heaven on earth. She makes me a better man by just being here. But just talking to me.
"I'm okay, you?" she asks me. How do I answer that question? Should I tell her I get no sleep because I am up thinking about her al night. Should I tell her I am living in hell, sinve I can't see her. Should I tell her my heart is so heavy from the love I can't share with no one.
But know I'll lie, "I'm fine," I tell her. I so far from fine it isn't funny. It isn't the time to to tell her my true feeling, at least not yet. It may never be, but at least I know I can watch her from afar and dream the sweetest dreams.
~*~ Everything I do is for you
You are every part of me
And I don't want to face
Another day
Alone
Without your love ~*~
*~*
I bring him his black coffee. I tell him I am fine when he asks and I know that I am lying through my teeth but I have too. What else can I tell him. That I can't stand my husbands touch now that I have felt his. That I can't kiss my husband beacause every time I do I think of his lips. No so I lie. I look at him and smile as I set the coffee and sit the coffee down. I know at least I will see him every day at this time and in my drea, and maybe even one day when I bring his coffee I will tell him I love him. I just hope I get the courage soon.
~*~ 'Cause all I've ever wanted
Is you
And you alone
And I love you so
More than you could ever know
All I've ever wanted
Is you ~*~