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Summary: Aizawa reflects on his obsession with his rival vocalist Shindou Shuichi.
Rated: PG 13 because, as you probably know if your reading this, it deals with rape issues. And mild language.
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Gravitation characters, only the dvds and graphic novels. ^.^
Thanks so much for the wonderful reviews guys! They made me so happy! Scroll down to the end of the chapter to see my replies to some of them. I was even able to get the second chapter out at a reasonably fast pace.
Warning: This chapter does deal with the rape, and although it's not OVERLY graphic, it is graphic enough that if you can't stand this sorta thing you shouldn't read this chapter. It was REALLY hard for me to write, and I've also never written anything like this before, so if it needs work then you can tell me. I tried to make it as tasteful as possible, and hope it turned out okay. Well, that's enough rambling for this chapter.
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Part 2: DeceitClick. I hang up the phone, smiling to myself. Preparations complete. I had received further proof that testified to that punk Shindou's love affair, once again in the form of Ma-kun and one of Yuki's former 'women'. I was certain. Nothing was going to stop me. I will destroy Shindou Shuichi and Bad Luck. It was only a matter of time. And that time was swiftly approaching.
I soon got my chance. There was a commotion and I saw Shindou running from a stampeding horde of fans. I pasted a genial smile on my face. This was it. It was time for me to make my move. Acting like I was helping him, I got him away from the crowd. Then what he said to me was like a slap in the face.
"Who are you?" he questions, looking at me relieved, yet confused.
Who was I, he asked. Who was I?! I wanted to place my hands around that thin delicate neck of his and wring the life from him. My hands twitched with the barely contained urge to silence that sought after voice of his. Here I am obsessing over him for months, and he doesn't even remember my face.
"I'm Aizawa Taki of ASK!!" I shout through gritted teeth, holding back my rage, determined not to lose control of the situation. After that statement, there was no way I would back down from what I was about to do. It only served to strengthen my determination to see this brat broken.
After we successfully escaped the crowd and gaining his trust, I invite him to a secluded apartment room for some drinks. After a few well-worded questions, which his alcohol induced loosened tongue accidentally answer, I grin with self satisfaction. He had admitted to his relationship with the famous novelist, Yuki Eiri. That was all I needed to know.
I snap my fingers and a couple of thugs appear behind me. They stare at the pink haired pop idol, smirking and licking their lips. Realizing what was happening, my prey's eyes widen in shock and fear. God I love that look of trepidation. I smile. Things were going just as I had planned.
One of the men I hired held the small pink haired fool down as another climbed atop him. I decided to give him a chance. I mentioned what publicity would make of him and his equally famous lover, Yuki Eiri. At the mention of his lover's name his entire disposition changed. He narrowed his eyes and with a semi-forced smile tells me that this has nothing to do with Yuki. I can do whatever I want with him so long as I leave Yuki out of it.
I take a step back in shock. Even though the man broke up with him because of a few rumors, Shindou would still go to such lengths to protect him? I don't get it. How can he be so fucking forgiving!
"C'mon boys, do it fast," he says with a taunting smile.
I couldn't believe my eyes, nor my ears for that matter. Where were the hysterical pleas for help? Where were the waterworks. Where was the fear and tears? I simply stood there, staring at him blankly. His eyes were filled with a fierce determination. I shake my head. This isn't how it was supposed to go! I could feel my control over the situation slipping. If there was one thing I hated more than Shindou, it was not being in control. My careful manipulations and machinations were wasted. I was no longer in control and I did not like it.
It was all HIS fault. Shindou now had the upper hand, whether he realized it or not. God I can't take this anymore. This has to end, and now! Snapping out of my thoughts I came back to the present. Enough thinking. It was time for action.
Shindou looks up at the man kneeling atop him, that deliciously seductive smile in place again. "So, nothing will happen to Yuki if I let you guys screw me, right?" he says. "Ha! That's too cheap."
"I'll decide whether it's cheap or not after paying the price… Shindou-kun," I reply, smirking. I smile again at his comments. Heh. So he's not just the bratty baby he acts like half of the time. He's got spunk, I'll give him that. But that won't save him. He has to pay. Bringing forth a camera and readying it for the event about to take place.
I snap pictures lazily as I watch the pink haired nineteen year old's expression as the thugs I hired rape him. He's much stronger than he appears, not physically, but emotionally. The entire time he grits his teeth to hold back the screams of pain and his eyes shine with unshed tears. There's more to this boy than meets the eye, I think, still smiling.
I couldn't take my eyes off of the scene before me. I stood back aways, my eyes not blinking. One fleeting thought ran in my head before being quickly dispelled. He's almost… beautiful. His pink hair matted to his head, damp with sweat. His smooth skin glistened with a thin layer of perspiration. His head thrown back, eyes shut tightly, mouth clamped shut, and body arching as his attacker thrust into him roughly. Bruises were already beginning to appear on his otherwise flawless skin. His face showed the obvious pain the assault was causing him, though he tried hard to hide it.
A feeling was filling my entire body as I watched him writhing beneath the much larger forms of his attackers. I can't put words to it… but it was something hot and wholly unfamiliar. I didn't have time to ponder this long, however, as a loud choked sob diverted my attention. It came from the boy I'd been longing for so long to break. Despite his tightly clamped eyes, a few tears escaped and trailed down his dirtied and bruised cheeks. Though he held back his screams, he could no longer remain silent. The silence of the parking garage was broken by choked sobs, loud gasps, and noisy grunts.
My smile grew and my eyes glinted. I had succeeded. He was beginning to crack, and would soon be broken.
After it had ended, I found myself strangely unfulfilled. This was what I had wanted… wasn't it?
As I turn to go I glance back one last time, to see him doubled over in pain, harsh sobs wracking his small frame. A fleeting feeling of guilt surfaces, but I stuff it back down quickly and make my exit. There will be no more Bad Luck. I guarantee it.
~End Part 2~
TBC… (Hopefully)
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Chapter Notes: In the manga, Ma-kun was in fact seeing one of Yuki's previous girlfriends (small world eh?) and calls Aizawa to tell him about a phone call she made to Yuki's house, and someone else answered the phone (you know who I mean don't you) and the idiot actually gave his name too… so… that's the further proof he got… just letting you know if you haven't read the manga yet. Also, neither the manga nor the anime indicate Aizawa actually physically raping Shuichi himself, only taking pictures and watching… but watching can be enough to make him want more… maybe? One more thing… Though I'm following the manga more, the garage scene was only in the anime. They didn't change locations in the manga. But I thought the silence in a garage might be more profound than that of an apartment room. Oh yeah and all of the quoted text is actually stuff said in my translation of the manga-chapter 13 to be exact. So I didn't just make that up! For those who haven't seen the manga, doesn't Shu sound soooo cool. You also don't see the camera in the manga, only the roll of film later on… not that that is all that important really…
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Yay! All done! And longer than the first chapter too! So what'd you guys think of chapter 2? Love it? Hate it? Want more? It was really difficult for me to write the rape scene (as I said earlier) so I hope it sounds natural enough. Was it convincing? I'm having some trouble thinking up what I should put in the next chapter. I can say Taki will have a semi-wet dream. Teeheehee. I'm such a tease… what a way to make him suffer, though, ne. And yeah I'm aware that he smiles WAY too much in this chapter, but since he's technically not completely sane, I think that's okay. Besides, he thinks everything is going how he planned it, blissfully unaware of what the future holds, so I suppose he's got reason enough to smile.
Oh yeah… I wasn't sure about the title to this chapter, so if you guys have any better ideas, send 'em my way. Also you can e-mail me any ideas for later chapters. I'm faltering now so any help would be appreciated (and credited). ^.^ Like especially what he makes of Yuki. I have some ideas but would love some more, especially since that first encounter occurs in the next chapter. ^.^
God… I ramble WAY too much don't I. Hope you guys don't mind. [smiles sheepishly]
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To you guys who reviewed, I love you all and give you hugs and kisses till you shove me off. Here are my replies to a few of them. And I'm glad to hear your opinion. There was a really good response that makes me actually want to finish this story. An overwhelming amount of you supported the warped crush theory so I will continue on that vein… as is apparent when chapter three comes out.
Note: If your not listed here it's because you a) reviewed after this chapter was posted or b) didn't put anything that needed a personal response. It doesn't mean I love you any less! ^,,^ Honest!
Reviewers from Gurabiteshiyon.net:
To Janette: As I said early, I never got the indication of Taki raping Shu personally. Also, there will be no real lemon for several reasons… I would suck at writing them, and the only real lemony part would have been the rape scene, and I just don't get off on rapes, sorry. There will be some teaser, as I said earlier, in chapter three, though it won't be much more than what you saw in this chapter… maybe a little more but not much. I also won't focus on Taki's intimate relationship with Ma-kun cuz the only indication that there is one was in the Remixes and those weren't really plot savvy anyways. Thanks for your opinion though. Maybe I'll try a lemon… someday… though it's doubtful. I would rather write something that will be successful, so the only lemon I am likely to take part in would have to be a joint with someone who CAN write the lemony scenes. I'm much too innocent (though getting into anime and manga has made me considerably more perverted) heh heh.
Reviewers from Fanfiction.net:
atarii: Thanks for being my first signed reviewer! Yay! ^.^ You know, I'm not really an Aizawa fan either… so why did I write this… I have no clue. It just popped in my head and I had to write it down. And Taki is a rather compelling character… I dunno, maybe cuz he's so fucked up?(excuse my language) And yes Shu-chan was sooo great in that scene in the manga. He was pretty cool in the anime, too, but it's different in the manga. And that saying was part of what gave me this idea… you know how guys often like to torment the ones they love. I'd say Aizawa would take that saying to a whole new level, ne. Yeah, it did sound decent as a oneshot, but I had already put down most of chapter two to paper and just needed to elaborate on it and type it, so since so many wanted it to be continued… here it is.
Fish1: I'm glad that you can see great things for this fic, and I hope I fulfill your expectations. ^.^ And as for it coming from the POV of a madman… I have no clue where I got any of this and it kind of scares me. heh heh. Glad I got it down perfectly though. That just makes it all the scarier. Though I'd never do something so down right evil. How did a good girl like me get into this, hnn. Ah well, glad you liked it.
mirai aria: I know isn't he! ^.~ I read that story you recommended and it was really good. Even I wouldn't wish such a thing on anyone, even Aizawa. Still it was a really interesting read. I totally agree. That's what brought this story about. He obsesses way more than one who was simply jealous would. I mean, he doesn't feel anything for Ryuichi (Nittle Grasper hasn't reformed yet, but still if it's really only because they are vocalists…) Also after the rape, Aizawa seems to target Yuki way more than Shuichi… at least that's how it looks to me. ^.^ God this guy has issues, ne.
Silvermagess: I know isn't Shu-chan just so lovable. It seems like EVERYONE from the gravi cast loves him… well, nearly everyone. ^.~ It's not such a stretch to think a jealously insane Taki might too. Hmmm…. Maybe that's what drove him over the edge.
rose: It's one of my favorites too.
Felara: I will do my best to finish it. ^.^ Hope you liked this chapter
Everyone Else: Thanks so much for the support! I love you guys. Without you this chapter would've taken months to get up ^.^ Hope you enjoyed it!