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Jealousy, Or Something More~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Summary: Aizawa reflects on his obsession with his rival vocalist Shindou Shuichi.
Rated: PG 13 because, as you probably know if your reading this, it dealt with rape issues. And mild language.
Posted: December 6, 2003
Author: TheSilentSenshi / Kirameki / Stephie P. [thesilentsenshi@Hotmail.com] (yes they are all one person… me! heh heh)
Disclaimer: I don't own any of the Gravitation characters, only the dvds and graphic novels, and this work of pure fiction. ^.^
Okay… The moment we've all been waiting for (except for me that is…) the appearance of Yuki! I hope I did okay and didn't destroy his total awesomeness. I decided not to play around with his speech and so everything he says is taken straight from the manga. Same goes for Aizawa. Maybe a few minor tweakings, but not on any of the important stuff. Mostly it's the same. Please give me assurances that he's portrayed okay. *sniffle* I need love.
And, at chapter 5, This is now officially the longest fanfic I've ever written! With the most reviews I've ever received as well! And absolutely no flames! 24 reviews! I feel so loved!
One more thing, this is very similar to the manga and during his encounter I have Aizawa angsting a bit and you can hear his thoughts… but if I saw Yuki like that… I'd be too terrified to think much of anything, too. So hope that the few thoughts he has doesn't ruin the scene. Oh and I am actually happy with a title for once, cliché though it may be! Pigs are flying!
Enjoy!
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Part 5: Dangerous EncounterDeep down I knew Ma-kun was right. About everything. I wasn't normal. And I should stop this before it went any further. But… even though I know this, I can't help myself. I don't know why… but I just can't stop. I can't!
My thoughts were interrupted by the sound of a few quick raps against the studio door. I ignore it, not caring about much of anything right now. I hear Ma-kun move to answer it. Then, suddenly I hear a loud noise and look up to see Ma-kun being beaten to a pulp by someone… someone with blonde hair.
Then it hits me. This isn't just anyone. It's Yuki Eiri, famous romance novelist and lover of Shindou Shuichi. My eyes narrow. This is the man who sleeps with Shindou every night… who gets to see and touch that smooth skin whenever he desires… the man who is willingly embraced by those thin soft arms. This is the man who… no, I won't dwell on it. I refuse to let my mind provide such sickening images in my mind. I stop… Why would I find that sickening? It's not a disgusted sickening either… it's something else…
I was brought back to the present by the sound of a moan. I look up as Yuki takes a final blow to my friend and bandmate, rendering him unconscious. My eyes widen in horror. Specks of blood…Ma-kun's blood… are on his hands and face. He is still holding Ma-kun. I look at my friend's unmoving form and shudder. His face is covered in blood. I was scared now. No… not scared. I was terrified. There was something unnatural and altogether frightening about the man standing before me covered in my friend's blood.
He just stood there… smoking a goddamn cigarette with those pale, blood spattered, hands. He was calm, nonchalant. Acting like he hadn't just beaten a man nearly to death. But the most frightening thing of all…was his eyes. Those amber orbs were cold as ice. They showed no remorse, no anger, nothing. They just… were. They held no feeling or emotion… They were blank. How could eyes of such a warm color look so cold?
"…Bastard… If you kill Ma-kun… I'll sue your ass!!!" I shout, terror coursing through my veins. "I'll make sure you can't write novels for the rest of your life." My threats have no effect. What should I do?
Yuki looks down, a small smile that doesn't quite reach his eyes in place. "Relax a bit… So that's his name… hey, Ma-kun…" he turns those blank deadly eyes to me, and I unconsciously take a step back. "Aww, looks like that just leaves you… that must make you… Aizawa Taki, right?"
His eyes narrow and a very brief flicker of emotion crosses them, but I catch it. It was pure unadulterated fury. Suffice it to say… Yuki Eiri was pissed. No…scratch that. Yuki Eiri was royally pissed. And I was the cause.
That thought combined with the look in his eyes was enough to freeze me to the core. If looks could kill, I would be dead…and that particular look told me that even if they couldn't kill, their owner most definitely could. The air around us seemed to crackle with emotions. I didn't dare even breathe.
My other band mate, Ken, broke the silence. He tried to defend me, but in fact confirmed my identity.
I was roughly shoved against the wall, wincing in pain as my back hits the hard studio wall. Before I can even blink, Yuki is right up in my face, that blank look devoid of emotion back in place. My eyes widen and a few beads of sweat form on my brow, slowly trickling down my cheek. The acrid smell of Yuki's cigarette assailed my senses. It was only a few inches away from my face.
"Well, hello there… Aizawa Taki-kun," Yuki drawled languidly. Without warning he punches his fist hard into the wall beside my head. I glance at his clenched fist and have to force myself from falling to my knees. His hand had managed to crack and punch the wall in.
I'm worried now. This is no mere man before me. It's a monster. A cold hearted beast who has no compunction when it came to killing. It was the look of a murderer.
"So, how did Shu-chan taste, hm?" Yuki continues, "I put a lot of hard work into training him."
I stare at him nervously and shrink away from that terrifying gaze. But he resumes relentlessly. "Do you think it's over?" he smirks. "So, the ridiculous reason you took pictures was for blackmail, right?"
"I… I don't know what you're talking about…" I deny trying to take a step back, but I freeze when I see the look in his eyes. It brooked no argument.
Ken once again goes to defend me, but I put up my arm, stopping him. "…Here's the film…" I take it out, shocking Ken. "It's the only one. There's no other evidence besides that! I hired some thugs off the street to come to the place with me to do the job! I don't know their names!" I explain nervously, handing the small plastic film container to the outstretched hand of the man standing before me.
His piercing gaze never falters from me as he plays with the roll of film, a smug, satisfied smile on his face. "That's my obedient little Taki. Y'know," he says, indicating the film container, "I could break your ribs with this if I hit you…"
Finally overcoming my fear I kneel down beside Ma-kun before regarding his words. I give a small smile that doesn't reach my eyes. "I value my life more than my bones." I gently place my hand against my friends face and neck. "Why are you going easy on me?" I question. "You clearly had no qualms about nearly killing an innocent man." Yuki stops his playing and looks at me. "Isn't that right, Yuki Eiri-san?" I'm regaining my confidence with each word I speak. I take advantage of Yuki's pause to continue. I won't back down. If I go down, I'll take him with me. "I can tell by your eyes that you're not just a novelist. You're a killer." Yuki just looks at me, his gaze unwavering. His cold eyes have yet to show any reaction to my statement, though he is no longer smiling. Before I can say more we're interrupted by a knock on the door. Shindou's voice could be heard through the door as he looks for Yuki.
Yuki gives me a dangerous look as he licks blood off of his arm. "That's not very nice." He says, his voice now as cold and deadly as his eyes. "You could say that not very often do people get to see these eyes like this." I shudder.
By now, Shindou's screeching voice can be heard even louder and more insistent than before, banging loudly on the door, repeatedly calling Yuki's name.
"Well then, I'm off." Yuki says, smiling lightly, turning to leave. Before he goes he calls back, "Oh, and take care of Ma-kun."
The door shuts behind him and I'm left to think about what just happened. I look back to my bloodied friend and glare. There is no way I'm going to let that bastard get away with this.
Oh yes. He will definitely pay for what he's done.
~End Part 5~
TBC… (Hopefully)
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Chapter Notes: As I said, all quotes were by Maki Murakami (pretty much)! This scene is my favorite next to Shuichi's rape scene. (I really am a sadist aren't I… at least when it comes to anime…) Anyways, Yuki is sooooooooooo cool in this scene and in the anime the voice actor did such an excellent job. He has a sort of seductive lazy deadly type of voice. Oh, that's a bad description, If you haven't seen it, go watch! It's too bad Aizawa doesn't get to see Shuichi's cross dressing excursion, that would have been really amusing. The anime versus manga scenes are really quite similar. Except for some of Yuki's words. Ohhhhhh if only they had used the manga script with that sexy voice! Ah well. In my dreams.
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Ok, whatcha think? Did I do my Yuki justice? Yeah, I'm still not done my projects but I just had this sudden inspiration and had to write it before another writer's block. Especially with an already difficult to portray scene such as this. Dunno when the next will happen. Maybe another angsty Aizawa session with little to no plot? What do you think? Oh and Volume 3 of Gravi is in stores now! Weee! I just got my copy Wednesday! Some of the translations are iffy compared to my scanslated chapters so if volume 4 comes out and the text is totally different than what is in this or future chapters it's not my fault. Wish me luck in my finals. Oh God! I just know I'm going to fail and my future is so riding on this project! I found out that there is a scary meeting next year with a bunch of teachers that view this project and tell you whether or not you totally suck and should leave the major! But, they can't FORCE me out, right? I absolutely refuse to give up! Even though I had to chuck almost half of the sequence cause it wasn't working and now it's incomplete. Waaaa. That's enough of my ramblings for one chapter. Thanks for reading guys. I love you! And if you review like the guys below I'll love you even more!!!
Oh yeah, be easy on this chapter if you find any errors. It's almost 2 a.m. here and I'm already suffering lack of sleep. So, I couldn't give this chapter the attention I gave to the others… If I find any errors later on I'll fix em but I have too much on my plate already right now. Thanks for the consideration. ^.^
One final thing… I have no clue when the next chapter will be out. I have to think about it, and I also have a new idea for another fic I'm thinking of writing. It's sorta a Scrooge Gravi style ( I mean it is the Christmas season already –ack where did the year go--). Not sure how I'll do it yet though. But next chapter should be out some time this month, hopefully before Christmas…probably… See ya next chapter.
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To you guys who reviewed, I love you all and give you hugs and kisses till you shove me off. Here are my replies to a few of them. And I'm glad to hear your opinion. There was a really good response that makes me actually want to finish this story. An overwhelming amount of you supported the warped crush theory so I will continue on that vein…
Note: If your not listed here it's because you a) reviewed after this chapter was posted or b) didn't put anything that needed a personal response. It doesn't mean I love you any less! ^,,^ Honest!
Reviewers from Gurabiteshiyon.net:
No new ones yet. *sob sniffle* I give up! Oh well. You guys should definitely check it out. Especially if you like naughty stuff ^.~ It's where the NC-17 fics that ff.net has taken down, go. Not that I read them… [looks down guiltily] honestly…
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Anyways… the full link is in my profile….
Reviewers from Fanfiction.net:
mirai aria: I just love your reviews! They're always so inspiring! As for the ending… it's not yet in sight so I can't know for sure, but I'll try! ^.^ You are so right! Taki in the manga is way cooler than anime version. Oops… did I really just say Taki was cool? Ack! I didn't mean it, NOOOO! He's growing on me. I better finish this quick before I become a fan! Yeah, it is a shame Shu-chan is a guy! I have my doubts about the Shuichi in the anime. Sometimes he's so much like a girl it makes me sick! The manga Shuichi is way cuter… well until he gets his hair cut in volume… what was it, 6 or 7? That hair cut just creeps me out. He looks girlier with short hair than he did with long hair… and that's just NOT right. And sometimes him and Hiro seem to have a very unconventional friendship. Maybe it's just me. Male bonding… I'll never understand it.
Kadzuki Fuchoin: I'm glad you liked my story! Writing in Aizawa's point of view scares me sometimes. I think… "My god… where the hell is this stuff coming from!" But since everyone is enjoying it I'll just smile and accept the fact that I am completely insane. It's not so bad, really…
Silvermagess: Oh that's a great idea! Maybe I'll use that in future chapters! I won't "create a past" for him but I can allude to one.
Anonymous : Yes… Tohma is scary. In manga Yuki's words…"He may look nice, but he's really a shark".
Rose: Yuki's my fave character too… well, he's tied with Hiro. Depending on the scenes. They are both so glompable, ne? We all know Shuichi thinks so ^.~ I'm glad you like my story!
Everyone Else: Thanks so much for the support! I love you guys. Without you this chapter would've taken months to get up ^.^ Hope you enjoyed it! *glomp*