I watched him sitting there, so separated from the world, so . . different.
This was practically the biggest day of our lives, of every single senior
of Castle Rock High. This is the day we waited for since we all were mere
freshman. The day where we watched our parents cry and our siblings laugh
good-heartedly.
Graduation day.
It was a joke to me, of course. Me, the honor student, the "Good Girl." Sure, I was used to that label, the nice girl, the sweet girl, the crazy, whacky girl, the funny girl..but it was graduation day and I wanted to do something that was so totally un-like me.
I approached him cautiously. The guy had a reputation for being a jerk most of the time and had screwed most of the female population by junior year. He hardly looked twice at me, and I hadn't expected him to. He went for those blonde hair, blue eyes, size zero, tall, double D kind of girls. Me, yeah, that was a joke. Short, brunette, normal, not ugly, pretty I suppose, not a size zero. Grey eyes. Yeah, he wouldn't look at me.
So I was accustomed to the butterflies fluttering madly in my stomach as I got ever closer to him.
I was only inches away from him. He was seated right in front of me, on the bench in the courtyard. Completely oblivious to everything around him, all the families and students saying last minute good-byes, I departed from my own family for several moments to visit him. He seemed so lonely, and my heart discovered something new in him, something new in that crazy boy I had known all my life, the boy I had wanted to know, know HIM not just what was in his pants. But he . . no, he didn't give me the time of day.
"Hi."
My voice came out a scratchy whisper and I cursed the previous years I had spent smoking up with my best friend.
He looked up at me and gave me his trade mark look.
"Hey."
I felt suddenly guilty..why was I doing this? I had a boyfriend, and wonderful boyfriend whom I loved and cared about. Chris Chambers was always there for me and I wouldn't ever think of breaking his heart.
But as I saw Teddy DuChamp sitting there all by himself, I felt sorry and suddenly wanted to hold him and tell him it was all going to be alright. He looked so innocent, so much like a little boy.
"Hope you have a nice summer," I said bluntly. I grinned a bit at him and he returned the smile. I knew I didn't have to say anymore. I just wanted him to know that I would be there for him if he ever needed anything.
"You too," he said. His fly away blonde hair blew in the wind.
I turned to go around, but he got up and came over to me.
"It was nice knowing you, Mary."
I cursed him but smiled sweetly. Shame, my name was Marie, but why worry over trivial matters? As I turned to leave him, and saw Chris waiting for me with his friend Gordie, and pecked Teddy lightly on his cheek and squeezed his hand. I turned and walked away, and I never spoke to Teddy DuChamp again.
...This all was only wishful thinking.
Graduation day.
It was a joke to me, of course. Me, the honor student, the "Good Girl." Sure, I was used to that label, the nice girl, the sweet girl, the crazy, whacky girl, the funny girl..but it was graduation day and I wanted to do something that was so totally un-like me.
I approached him cautiously. The guy had a reputation for being a jerk most of the time and had screwed most of the female population by junior year. He hardly looked twice at me, and I hadn't expected him to. He went for those blonde hair, blue eyes, size zero, tall, double D kind of girls. Me, yeah, that was a joke. Short, brunette, normal, not ugly, pretty I suppose, not a size zero. Grey eyes. Yeah, he wouldn't look at me.
So I was accustomed to the butterflies fluttering madly in my stomach as I got ever closer to him.
I was only inches away from him. He was seated right in front of me, on the bench in the courtyard. Completely oblivious to everything around him, all the families and students saying last minute good-byes, I departed from my own family for several moments to visit him. He seemed so lonely, and my heart discovered something new in him, something new in that crazy boy I had known all my life, the boy I had wanted to know, know HIM not just what was in his pants. But he . . no, he didn't give me the time of day.
"Hi."
My voice came out a scratchy whisper and I cursed the previous years I had spent smoking up with my best friend.
He looked up at me and gave me his trade mark look.
"Hey."
I felt suddenly guilty..why was I doing this? I had a boyfriend, and wonderful boyfriend whom I loved and cared about. Chris Chambers was always there for me and I wouldn't ever think of breaking his heart.
But as I saw Teddy DuChamp sitting there all by himself, I felt sorry and suddenly wanted to hold him and tell him it was all going to be alright. He looked so innocent, so much like a little boy.
"Hope you have a nice summer," I said bluntly. I grinned a bit at him and he returned the smile. I knew I didn't have to say anymore. I just wanted him to know that I would be there for him if he ever needed anything.
"You too," he said. His fly away blonde hair blew in the wind.
I turned to go around, but he got up and came over to me.
"It was nice knowing you, Mary."
I cursed him but smiled sweetly. Shame, my name was Marie, but why worry over trivial matters? As I turned to leave him, and saw Chris waiting for me with his friend Gordie, and pecked Teddy lightly on his cheek and squeezed his hand. I turned and walked away, and I never spoke to Teddy DuChamp again.
...This all was only wishful thinking.