Christmas Without You

By Emily Carol

Summary: A one-parter song fic about Syd and Vaughn thinking about the other on Christmas

I've used N*Sync's song I Don't Wanna Spend One More Christmas Without You for this fic. I normally am not an N*Sync fan but this song was on my NOW! That's what I call Christmas 2 CD and I thought it fit perfectly.

This is my first attempt at a song-fic, so I'm really hoping it doesn't suck and I really hope you enjoy it.

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This is the time of year, that we learn to give

And the greatest gift is learning to forgive

We will have the best that time we ever knew

If you forgive me and I forgive you

Sydney stared around her apartment from where she streached out on her sofa. Jack Bristow sat talking with Will, her best friend finally returned. Marshall and Carrie were happily curled up on the other sofa with their daughter Destiny asleep in Marshall's arms. Weiss stood by the stereo singing along to the Christmas CDs playing.

Sydney found herself wishing Vaughn was here. But he was spending Christmas with Lauren.

Sydney remember Vaughn telling her how he had been after her supposive death, but he never included Lauren in it.

But maybe, just maybe, she could forgive him for marrying her.

I don't want to light a fire

Unless it will warm your heart

I'm playin no holiday songs

I need you to sing your part

And baby if I could have just one wish come true

I don't wanna spend one more Christmas without you

They'd never had even one Christmas together as a couple.

Vaughn was startled at his sudden thoughts of Sydney.

This was the first Christmas he hadn't been with her since before her death.

They'd always had the CIA party together, the one normally crashed by some national emergency.

He looked across the room at Lauren and his mother talking about things they'd seen overseas and comparing the differences of living in France to living in London.

Vaughn quickly stood up and told Lauren and his mother he would be gone for just a little while, that he needed to pick up more eggnog.

It's so hard to believe

We're staring at the end

When all we think about is starting up again

Whatever we lost, when we were apart

We'll find it all alone in the dark

Vaughn found himself outside of Sydney's apartment and he looked in. Jack and Will were talking and Marshall held Destiny in his arms. Weiss was standing by the stereo and by the amused looks on everyone's faces and his expression he was singing along with the music, badly.

And then there was Sydney. She was streached out the couch looking around. She looked outside and her beautiful brown eyes locked with Vaughn's.

She said something to the room of people and walked out the door of her apartment.

I don't wanna light a fire

Unless it will warm your heart

I'm playin no holiday songs

I need you to sing your part

And baby if I could have just one wish come true

I don't wanna spend one more Christmas without you

Sydney wasn't sure of what she was doing. She had just seen him and her heart had lept. Why was he there? Why wasn't he with Lauren?

She walked out of her apartment and onto the street area where Vaughn stood.

No words were exchanged, but both read each other's eyes.

There's nothing more that I want from you

Then to lie here together

And stay here forever with you

There's no one I ever knew

That I wanted to spend Christmas with, more than you....

Sydney didn't remember what happened but she and Vaughn stood there with their arms around each other.

They hadn't said a word to each other, they didn't know how long they had been standing here like that.

They both wanted a Christmas together, and they got it. They were secretly with each other, both of their groups of family and friends thinking they had gone out to the store.

Vaughn broke the embrace and after kissing her passionately good-bye he ran off into the darkness.

I don't want to light a fire

Unless it will warm your heart

I'm playin no holiday songs

I need you to sing your part

And baby if I could have just one wish come true

I don't wanna spend one more Christmas without you

I don't want to light a fire

Unless it will warm your heart

I'm playin no holiday songs

I need you to sing your part

And baby if I could have just one wish come true

I don't wanna spend one more Christmas

I don't wanna spend one more Christmas

I don't wanna spend one more Christmas without you

They both sat back with their family and friends. Both thinking of the other and the short amount of time they had together.

They both knew, they would never stand being without each other for another year and that they would be together next Christmas.

They would never spend another Christmas without the other.