Chapter 19-The Love We Have
"Bosco?" Someone was trying to wake him but he really didn't want to wake up. "Bosco...wake up."
"I don't want to." He heard a laugh. Susan Lewis laugh.
"Please.....come on I got coffee." Bosco opened his eyes.
"What are you doing here?"
"Heard a friend needed a doctor." She handed him a cup of coffee and stood at the foot of Seajae's bed. "I looked at her chart. Seems this Dr Miller is.....really good. He knows Seajae."
"Inside and out."
"So you don't need a doctor. How about another friend?"
"Can never have too many of those." He looked at Seajae. She was pale and still on the resperator. "I'm glad your here Susan."
"Carter came with me. He wanted to help if he could."
"That's nice. Thank you both. Susie?"
"Sully took her to see the kids."
"Sully got out of the hospital? That's good. He needed to get out of here for awhile."
"Yeah. What about you. You've been here for awhile. Elliot and Katery are on thier way to relieve you for awhile."
"I don't want her to be alone if she wakes up. I wasn't here for her the last time."
"I know she doesn't blame you."
"I blame me." He looked down and stared at his coffee. "I let her down. I should of thought about putting someone at her door." Susan sat down next to him.
"Bosco don't do this to yourself. Seajae loves you and needs you. What happened yesterday was nobody's fault. No one knew. No one could of know. You and your friends are the best at what you do. But even the best can't know what may or may not happen." She took his hand. "Your wife loves you so much. People would give anything to have what you and Seajae have. Even half of what you have. She's going to pull though this like she does everything else."
"I just don't see that happening." Bosco stood up and went to the window. The snow was starting to melt. The sun was shining. "Nothing will ever be the same."
"Why not. Yes there's a chance she may have some brain damage. You lost your memory and went missing for a month. Did she stop loving you? Did she give up on you?" Bosco turned and looked at Susan.
"I'm not giving up and I'll be damned if I'll ever stop loving her but Susan......how can I ever let her out of my sight when every time she steps out of the door I'll be afraid she'll never come back."
"Isn't that what both of you are scared of?"
"I never was this scared before. She never.....she never......she always woke up. She always was ok."
"And she will again." Susan looked at him and smiled. "No one can keep Seajae Marie McBride Boscorelli down." She hugged Bosco then. "You need to get some rest. Doctor's orders." The door opened and Dr. Miller stepped in.
"I second that." He looked more tiered then Bosco.
"What about you. You almost look as old as I feel."
"I'll always be younger then you Boscorelli." Miller checked Seajea's shoulder and vital signs. "And rumer has it I missed your birthday." He pulled a donut out of his coat pocket and thew it at him. " Happy Birthday. Heard cops like these things...no wonder your always in my ER."
" Dr. Susan Lewis this ornery gentalman is Dr. Ken Miller. He's become the expert on putting Seajae back together again." Miller looked over his glasses and smiled.
"Ahhh Bosco you've been keeping another doctor on call. Should I be offended?"
"If it makes you feel threatened and makes you work harder...sure. She's our friend from Chicago."
"Susie's aunt. Nice meeting you Dr. Lewis." He held out his hand.
"You've got quite the bedside manner there Dr. Miller." Susan shook his hand.
"Works well with difficault patiance and their families." Miller smiled. "They haven't fired me yet." He looked at Bosco. "She's stable. Everything seems ok. Other then being uncounsious. Her CAT scan came back normal." He looked at Bosco. "We'll check her again when she wakes up,"
"You said when."
"I mean when. Bosco I don't ever make promises I can't keep. You know that. This isn't an 'if'. She will wake up." Miller looked at Susan and dared her to challange him. "I have to get back to the ER." He put away Seajae's chart. "Go home Maurice." He turned and left.
"He's a little intence." Susan turned to Bosco. "Is he always like that?"
"He has a thing with saving my wife. He's made it his life's work." He went to the side of the bed and took Seajae's hand. "Hey baby.....I'm going home to check on the kids and take a shower. Elliot and Katey just got here and they're going to sit with you." As if on cue Elliot and Katey Stabler came into the room. "Hey guys."
"Hey" Katey came and hugged Bosco.
"How are you holding up?"
"Good. I just need her to wake up." Bosco brushed the hair off Seajae's cheek. "I'll be back in a little bit." He kissed her cheek. "I love you Sunshine." Susan and Katey both held back tears. Elliot turned to hide his emotion.
"We'll see you after you get something to eat and get some rest."
" Thanks Katey. See you guys a little while. Call if...."
"We will." Bosco looked at Seajae one last time and headed out the door and home to his kids. He needed them so much right now. Billy Walsh was waiting for him.
"Thanks for driving me home."
"Not a problem." The headed out to Billy's truck in a comfortable silence.
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Ty unlocked the front door and Savanah came running.
"Daddy!" The little girl lung herself into her fathers arms.
"Hey sweet pea. Where's mommy?"
"Cooking."
"Oh oh. What did mommy do now that she needs to cook?" Ty knew his wife only cooked when she was upset. He carried his daughter into the kitchen. "Hey blue eyes. What's up?" Alex looked up from the vegtables she was cutting. Her bright blue eyes rimmed red. "Alex?"
"How's Seajae?"
"She's in a coma. Doc Miller said she might be there for awhile." Tears fell from Alex's cheeks.
"Oh God I'm so sorry." Ty set Savanah down and took his wife in his arms.
"Sorry for what babe. You didn't put her there."
"Last night we were talking. Kim, Jimmy, and Billy...about the college funds Seajae set up. Everyone was....treating her like a god and I got funny about the way they look at her and the things that she does." Alex sobbed. "I do appriciate all she does for us.....I just......"
"You just what honey?"
"Get jelous."
"You tell her that she may deck you."
"I know. I shouldn't. But hell Ty, she's the perfect wife, the perfect mother, the perfect cop. And to top it off the perfect friend. I just feel inatiquit around her." She stepped back and wiped her eyes. "Its just the way I feel sometimes. I can't help it."
"Alex she does what she does because we're her family. Nothing more nothing less. She isn't doing the things she does to be the perfect anything. And if she was perfect she wouldn't be spending half her life in the ER." He kissed Alex's forhead and looked into her sad blue eyes. "Don't feel guilty about the way you feel. I know she does what she does for all the right reasons and for that we should be thankful. But that pedistal you say we put her on...well maybe we do to keep what we have or maybe its to keep others from taking her away."
"It hasn't helped."
"No. But a whole lotta people rally around when she's in trouble. But that's what friends and family are for. Right?"
"Yeah. She knows how to keep us all together."
"Then there's no reason to be jelous?"
"No. I guess not. She's going to be ok, isn't she Ty?"
"I hope so honey. I really hope so." Ty hugged his wife. And prayed Seajae would be ok.
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Jack sat and watched Bosco play with the three children on the floor. His smile was in a way sad. He watched Angle closely like he was looking for signs of Seajae in her. Mac crawled on his fathers lap with Hope not far behind. Angle brought him a book from the book case and he began to read. Twelve year old Susie Lewis sat watching them. Her aunt came behind Jack and set a cup of coffee on the table in front of him.
"He's a great dad." Jack looked at Susan as she sat down.
"Yeah. He must of had a great teacher."
"Not really. His dad was an abuser. Hit his mother, his brother and him. A lot from what Seajae's told me."
"We'll he sure didn't let it get in his way." Jack took a sip of coffee.
"No. But I think your niece had a lot to do with that."
"Yeah...me too." Jack looked at Susan. "What are the odds she's fully recover?"
"There's no telling really. Her body wasn't a hundred percent when she...when the drugs were put into her system." Susan looked down into her coffee cup. "But she's strong. She has alot going for her." Susan looked at Bosco. He was rolling on the floor witht the three little ones and he reached for Susie's hand and pulled her into the giggling pile. Seajae had so much. She couldn't quit now.
"I'm heading to the hospital. Can you make sure Bosco gets some sleep."
"Like anyone can make Bosco do anything. But yeah. I'll try." Jackson got up and headed out the door.
"Okay kids. All five of you, it's nap time." Susan got up and went to the living room. She picked up Hope and got her bottle off the table. Angle and Mac looked at thier father and then Susan. Bosco shrugged his shoulders.
"You heard aunt Susan. Daddy needs a nap."
"Daddy, you don't take naps."
"I do today. Aunt Susan and Susie are going to watch you." He winked at Susie. "Take care of them kiddo." Bosco got up and headed to the bedroom. He turned. "Thanks Susan."
"Anytime."
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Sully stood at the door of Seajae's room. The capitain had put a uniform on the door. Smart thinking a little to late. He hated seeing Seajae when she was weak. It scared the hell out of him. Taking a deep breath he walked into the room. Elliot and Katey Stabler sat quietly next to the bed.
"Any change?" Elliot looked up.
"No. Anybody here from the CIA?"
"Darren Black has disapeared. Seems this drug lord from Miami was on the worlds five most wanted and somehow got stuck in a pidaly drug war up here. He came to clear things up and Black started nosing around. The kids counsuler was dealing and the whole thing got out of hand."
"No shit." Elliot stood up. "You going to be here awhile?"
"Yeah. You need to get home?"
"I'm going to bring Katey home. The kids will be coming home soon."
"No problem." Katey and Elliot got ready to leave. Both said thier good-byes to Seajae and thne to Sully. Soon they were alone. Sully pulled up a chair and sat next to Seajae's bed. "You really out did yourself this time sunshine." He looked at her pale face. "You need to get better. Your kids need you. Bosco needs you. Hell I need you. Just because I have a daughter of my own doesn't mean I'm giving up the dad role in your life. You couldn't get that lucky." He kissed the top of her hand and started praying like he had never prayed before.
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Kim sat and rocked Ireland. She looked at her daughtes curls and smiled. So much like her father. When she had Joey she thought she had it all. Ten years later with Jimmy by her side she had a sweet baby girl who looked just like her daddy. If it wasn't for Seajae she would have niether. Now another baby on the way. Her life was becoming so special. So....complete. And Seajae's was coming apart. Kim swollowed hard and tried to hold back the tears. She couldn't bear loosing one of her best friends. Not now. Not when her life was on the right track. She heard keys in the door and wiped her tears. She didn't want Jimmy seeing her like this.
"Hey Kimmy...." One look at her and Jimmy knew she had been crying. "What's wrong? Is it Ireland....the baby? Kim......"
"We're fine Jimmy. All of us are fine. I was just thinking of....how much Seajae had done for us and how I can't do anything for her." Jimmy kneeled in front of his wife.
"Your doing everything for her. Being her friend is all she ever wanted from any of us. And we were that long before the college funds and the free rent. We're there when she needs us Kim thats all she wants. Just like she's there for us." He hugged his wife and sleeping daughter. "And she'll get though this and be there again." Jimmy closed his eyes and prayed he was right.
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John Carter watched the ventaltor breath for Seajae Boscorelli. She had always been so alive, so strong. Over the last year he spent alot of time with Susan, Susie and the Boscorelli's and he envied all they had. He thought at one time Susan might be the one he wanted to make his life with. Then Abby. But now he wasn't sure what he needed....or wanted for that matter. All he knew was that he wanted to help the people who helped Susan find her niece. He went over Seajae's chart and talked to Dr. Miller. The man was with no doubt doing all he could to save the woman. By the look at her medical records he had made a career out of saving this one peticular woman.
"You stare at that long enough you'll go blind." Joey Doyle and his wife Kelly came into the waiting room next to Seajae's room.
"Yeah so they tell me. How it going?"
"Good. You?"
"Not to bad."
"Find anything?"
"Nothing that gives a reason for her coma. For her disposition and attitude about doctor's...."
"She hates hospitals, yet she continues to find reason to be in them."
"Yeah, gun shot wounds, stab wounds, skull fractures, broken ribs."
"Your only on 2003. Wait till you get to the fall of 2005." Joey sat down. Kelly watched Sully though the small window.
"She's scared......"
"What?" Joey looked at his wife and then to Carter.
"She's afraid that she can't be who she used to be......" Kelly's voice drifted.
"Kelly....you shouldn't....." Joey looked at John. "She reads people. Her and Seajae have always had a connection."
"Joey, she's never been this scared." Kelly turned to look at her husband. "She's going to give up...." Carter and Joey stood up just as the moniters started going off. Sully stepped back, startled by the alarms. Carter pushed though the doors and went to Seajae's side.
"She's having another siezer." Nurses came in and Carter started shouting orders and without even asking who he was the nurses did as they were told. "Seajae.....come on.......not now...you have too much to live for my friend." The nurse had gotten a crash cart and had charged the paddles. Sully watched the younger man as he shocked her. "Nothing....charge to 200." He put the paddles to her chest just as Dr. Miller came running in." The moniters quieted and the ventalator started a steady hum. "Welcome back Seajae." Carter put the paddles in the crash cart.
"You having a party without me Dr. Carter?" Carter looked up at Miller.
"Yeah well you know....you always get to save her life. I thought I would give it a try." He looked at Sully. "Someone might want to get a chair for Sgt. Sullivan. He's looking a little pale." Kelly got Sully a chair and Joey sat him down. At that moment, with those people, John Carter realize that without this woman, a lot of people would be lost.
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Carlos and Doc sat in the ER waiting for the doctors to give them thier gurny. They were three deep in the rooms and running out of beds when Ken Miller got a page and went running to the nearest elevator.
"Seajae?" Carlos asked Doc.
"No other coustomer makes him move that fast."
"We should go up there."
"I can't be there. I've saved her ass too many times."
"She's not going to die. Come on Doc. It's Seajae. Bullets bounce off her."
"Apparently you didn't see the hole one put in her shoulder a week or so ago."
"She's going to be ok Doc. She's just too.....too......"
"She's human."
"Yeah but God.....he wouldn't do that to Bosco. I mean the man.......you know he's loose it. And where would those kids be without a mom and a dad."
"I don't know Carlos." Doc got up. "Let's go. They have our gurney." Doc didn't want to think of what would happen to Bosco or any of them if Seajae died. Without her in thier lives a lot of people would be lost.
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Faith sat in her van at the front of the hospital. She was tiered. With everything with Charlie and now this she was beat. She wished she knew how Seajae did it everyday. Her life was constant caos. Everyday was more hectic then the day before. Faith leaned back in her seat and closed her eyes. 'Just for a few minutes', she thought. Seajae would understand if she took a few minutes to herself. She understood so much. She had forgiven Faith for the way she treater her after Charlie was arrested. She and Elliot did so much to help him. All at the expence of her health. Faith had known that Seajae was working too hard but like always she never said anything. This time she wished she would have. A knock on her window brought her eyes open.
"You ok?" It was Caleb. Faith opened the window.
"Yeah. Just.........resting." He came around and got in the passangers seat.
"You should go home and get some rest honey." Caleb looked into hes wifes tiered eyes.
"I need to go see her Caleb."
"You've been though a lot the last couple of days. She'll understand." He took her face in his hands. "You found her Faith. She's home because you remebered something none of us would of even thought of." Tears welled up in her eyes.
"But we wern't soon enough." Caleb took his wife in his arms and hugged her tight.
"It's ok baby. We got there. That's all tha matters. She's home safe with her family and friends. "
"I just wish I would of remembered the warehouse sooner."
"It's not your fault sweety. Now lets get you home and get some rest." Caleb went around the car and helped Faith out and into the pasanger seat. Getting behind the wheel he noticed that Faith was already dozing off. How she got to the hospital without getting into an accident was a miricle. He already was loosing one of his best friends. He wasn't sure he could take anything else right now.
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Bosco had slept way to long. He promised himself an hour. Five had passed. Jumping in the shower he vagley remembered the dream that had haunted him while he slept. It was the dream he had everytime something happened to Seajae. The one where he spent his life alone. He couldn't bear it. Turning off the water he got out and wrapped a towel around him. He looked into the mirror above the sink. He looked like hell. Shaving for the last two days hadn't been an option. It was a wonder the kids even reconized him. He rubbed his face and got his razor and tried to look half way deasent so Miller wouldn't send him right back home the minute he walked into the hospital.
It was way after visiting hours when Bosco got to the hospital.. He slipped in the ER doors and up the back elevator. As he got out on the fourth floor his heart sunk as he saw Miller, Carter and Susan standing outside the door of Seajae's room. His chest tightened. His knees grew weak. She couldn't be gone......She was his life, his love, his everything. Holding back the tears he slowly walked toward his worst nightmere.
"Bosco?" Someone was trying to wake him but he really didn't want to wake up. "Bosco...wake up."
"I don't want to." He heard a laugh. Susan Lewis laugh.
"Please.....come on I got coffee." Bosco opened his eyes.
"What are you doing here?"
"Heard a friend needed a doctor." She handed him a cup of coffee and stood at the foot of Seajae's bed. "I looked at her chart. Seems this Dr Miller is.....really good. He knows Seajae."
"Inside and out."
"So you don't need a doctor. How about another friend?"
"Can never have too many of those." He looked at Seajae. She was pale and still on the resperator. "I'm glad your here Susan."
"Carter came with me. He wanted to help if he could."
"That's nice. Thank you both. Susie?"
"Sully took her to see the kids."
"Sully got out of the hospital? That's good. He needed to get out of here for awhile."
"Yeah. What about you. You've been here for awhile. Elliot and Katery are on thier way to relieve you for awhile."
"I don't want her to be alone if she wakes up. I wasn't here for her the last time."
"I know she doesn't blame you."
"I blame me." He looked down and stared at his coffee. "I let her down. I should of thought about putting someone at her door." Susan sat down next to him.
"Bosco don't do this to yourself. Seajae loves you and needs you. What happened yesterday was nobody's fault. No one knew. No one could of know. You and your friends are the best at what you do. But even the best can't know what may or may not happen." She took his hand. "Your wife loves you so much. People would give anything to have what you and Seajae have. Even half of what you have. She's going to pull though this like she does everything else."
"I just don't see that happening." Bosco stood up and went to the window. The snow was starting to melt. The sun was shining. "Nothing will ever be the same."
"Why not. Yes there's a chance she may have some brain damage. You lost your memory and went missing for a month. Did she stop loving you? Did she give up on you?" Bosco turned and looked at Susan.
"I'm not giving up and I'll be damned if I'll ever stop loving her but Susan......how can I ever let her out of my sight when every time she steps out of the door I'll be afraid she'll never come back."
"Isn't that what both of you are scared of?"
"I never was this scared before. She never.....she never......she always woke up. She always was ok."
"And she will again." Susan looked at him and smiled. "No one can keep Seajae Marie McBride Boscorelli down." She hugged Bosco then. "You need to get some rest. Doctor's orders." The door opened and Dr. Miller stepped in.
"I second that." He looked more tiered then Bosco.
"What about you. You almost look as old as I feel."
"I'll always be younger then you Boscorelli." Miller checked Seajea's shoulder and vital signs. "And rumer has it I missed your birthday." He pulled a donut out of his coat pocket and thew it at him. " Happy Birthday. Heard cops like these things...no wonder your always in my ER."
" Dr. Susan Lewis this ornery gentalman is Dr. Ken Miller. He's become the expert on putting Seajae back together again." Miller looked over his glasses and smiled.
"Ahhh Bosco you've been keeping another doctor on call. Should I be offended?"
"If it makes you feel threatened and makes you work harder...sure. She's our friend from Chicago."
"Susie's aunt. Nice meeting you Dr. Lewis." He held out his hand.
"You've got quite the bedside manner there Dr. Miller." Susan shook his hand.
"Works well with difficault patiance and their families." Miller smiled. "They haven't fired me yet." He looked at Bosco. "She's stable. Everything seems ok. Other then being uncounsious. Her CAT scan came back normal." He looked at Bosco. "We'll check her again when she wakes up,"
"You said when."
"I mean when. Bosco I don't ever make promises I can't keep. You know that. This isn't an 'if'. She will wake up." Miller looked at Susan and dared her to challange him. "I have to get back to the ER." He put away Seajae's chart. "Go home Maurice." He turned and left.
"He's a little intence." Susan turned to Bosco. "Is he always like that?"
"He has a thing with saving my wife. He's made it his life's work." He went to the side of the bed and took Seajae's hand. "Hey baby.....I'm going home to check on the kids and take a shower. Elliot and Katey just got here and they're going to sit with you." As if on cue Elliot and Katey Stabler came into the room. "Hey guys."
"Hey" Katey came and hugged Bosco.
"How are you holding up?"
"Good. I just need her to wake up." Bosco brushed the hair off Seajae's cheek. "I'll be back in a little bit." He kissed her cheek. "I love you Sunshine." Susan and Katey both held back tears. Elliot turned to hide his emotion.
"We'll see you after you get something to eat and get some rest."
" Thanks Katey. See you guys a little while. Call if...."
"We will." Bosco looked at Seajae one last time and headed out the door and home to his kids. He needed them so much right now. Billy Walsh was waiting for him.
"Thanks for driving me home."
"Not a problem." The headed out to Billy's truck in a comfortable silence.
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Ty unlocked the front door and Savanah came running.
"Daddy!" The little girl lung herself into her fathers arms.
"Hey sweet pea. Where's mommy?"
"Cooking."
"Oh oh. What did mommy do now that she needs to cook?" Ty knew his wife only cooked when she was upset. He carried his daughter into the kitchen. "Hey blue eyes. What's up?" Alex looked up from the vegtables she was cutting. Her bright blue eyes rimmed red. "Alex?"
"How's Seajae?"
"She's in a coma. Doc Miller said she might be there for awhile." Tears fell from Alex's cheeks.
"Oh God I'm so sorry." Ty set Savanah down and took his wife in his arms.
"Sorry for what babe. You didn't put her there."
"Last night we were talking. Kim, Jimmy, and Billy...about the college funds Seajae set up. Everyone was....treating her like a god and I got funny about the way they look at her and the things that she does." Alex sobbed. "I do appriciate all she does for us.....I just......"
"You just what honey?"
"Get jelous."
"You tell her that she may deck you."
"I know. I shouldn't. But hell Ty, she's the perfect wife, the perfect mother, the perfect cop. And to top it off the perfect friend. I just feel inatiquit around her." She stepped back and wiped her eyes. "Its just the way I feel sometimes. I can't help it."
"Alex she does what she does because we're her family. Nothing more nothing less. She isn't doing the things she does to be the perfect anything. And if she was perfect she wouldn't be spending half her life in the ER." He kissed Alex's forhead and looked into her sad blue eyes. "Don't feel guilty about the way you feel. I know she does what she does for all the right reasons and for that we should be thankful. But that pedistal you say we put her on...well maybe we do to keep what we have or maybe its to keep others from taking her away."
"It hasn't helped."
"No. But a whole lotta people rally around when she's in trouble. But that's what friends and family are for. Right?"
"Yeah. She knows how to keep us all together."
"Then there's no reason to be jelous?"
"No. I guess not. She's going to be ok, isn't she Ty?"
"I hope so honey. I really hope so." Ty hugged his wife. And prayed Seajae would be ok.
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Jack sat and watched Bosco play with the three children on the floor. His smile was in a way sad. He watched Angle closely like he was looking for signs of Seajae in her. Mac crawled on his fathers lap with Hope not far behind. Angle brought him a book from the book case and he began to read. Twelve year old Susie Lewis sat watching them. Her aunt came behind Jack and set a cup of coffee on the table in front of him.
"He's a great dad." Jack looked at Susan as she sat down.
"Yeah. He must of had a great teacher."
"Not really. His dad was an abuser. Hit his mother, his brother and him. A lot from what Seajae's told me."
"We'll he sure didn't let it get in his way." Jack took a sip of coffee.
"No. But I think your niece had a lot to do with that."
"Yeah...me too." Jack looked at Susan. "What are the odds she's fully recover?"
"There's no telling really. Her body wasn't a hundred percent when she...when the drugs were put into her system." Susan looked down into her coffee cup. "But she's strong. She has alot going for her." Susan looked at Bosco. He was rolling on the floor witht the three little ones and he reached for Susie's hand and pulled her into the giggling pile. Seajae had so much. She couldn't quit now.
"I'm heading to the hospital. Can you make sure Bosco gets some sleep."
"Like anyone can make Bosco do anything. But yeah. I'll try." Jackson got up and headed out the door.
"Okay kids. All five of you, it's nap time." Susan got up and went to the living room. She picked up Hope and got her bottle off the table. Angle and Mac looked at thier father and then Susan. Bosco shrugged his shoulders.
"You heard aunt Susan. Daddy needs a nap."
"Daddy, you don't take naps."
"I do today. Aunt Susan and Susie are going to watch you." He winked at Susie. "Take care of them kiddo." Bosco got up and headed to the bedroom. He turned. "Thanks Susan."
"Anytime."
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Sully stood at the door of Seajae's room. The capitain had put a uniform on the door. Smart thinking a little to late. He hated seeing Seajae when she was weak. It scared the hell out of him. Taking a deep breath he walked into the room. Elliot and Katey Stabler sat quietly next to the bed.
"Any change?" Elliot looked up.
"No. Anybody here from the CIA?"
"Darren Black has disapeared. Seems this drug lord from Miami was on the worlds five most wanted and somehow got stuck in a pidaly drug war up here. He came to clear things up and Black started nosing around. The kids counsuler was dealing and the whole thing got out of hand."
"No shit." Elliot stood up. "You going to be here awhile?"
"Yeah. You need to get home?"
"I'm going to bring Katey home. The kids will be coming home soon."
"No problem." Katey and Elliot got ready to leave. Both said thier good-byes to Seajae and thne to Sully. Soon they were alone. Sully pulled up a chair and sat next to Seajae's bed. "You really out did yourself this time sunshine." He looked at her pale face. "You need to get better. Your kids need you. Bosco needs you. Hell I need you. Just because I have a daughter of my own doesn't mean I'm giving up the dad role in your life. You couldn't get that lucky." He kissed the top of her hand and started praying like he had never prayed before.
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Kim sat and rocked Ireland. She looked at her daughtes curls and smiled. So much like her father. When she had Joey she thought she had it all. Ten years later with Jimmy by her side she had a sweet baby girl who looked just like her daddy. If it wasn't for Seajae she would have niether. Now another baby on the way. Her life was becoming so special. So....complete. And Seajae's was coming apart. Kim swollowed hard and tried to hold back the tears. She couldn't bear loosing one of her best friends. Not now. Not when her life was on the right track. She heard keys in the door and wiped her tears. She didn't want Jimmy seeing her like this.
"Hey Kimmy...." One look at her and Jimmy knew she had been crying. "What's wrong? Is it Ireland....the baby? Kim......"
"We're fine Jimmy. All of us are fine. I was just thinking of....how much Seajae had done for us and how I can't do anything for her." Jimmy kneeled in front of his wife.
"Your doing everything for her. Being her friend is all she ever wanted from any of us. And we were that long before the college funds and the free rent. We're there when she needs us Kim thats all she wants. Just like she's there for us." He hugged his wife and sleeping daughter. "And she'll get though this and be there again." Jimmy closed his eyes and prayed he was right.
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John Carter watched the ventaltor breath for Seajae Boscorelli. She had always been so alive, so strong. Over the last year he spent alot of time with Susan, Susie and the Boscorelli's and he envied all they had. He thought at one time Susan might be the one he wanted to make his life with. Then Abby. But now he wasn't sure what he needed....or wanted for that matter. All he knew was that he wanted to help the people who helped Susan find her niece. He went over Seajae's chart and talked to Dr. Miller. The man was with no doubt doing all he could to save the woman. By the look at her medical records he had made a career out of saving this one peticular woman.
"You stare at that long enough you'll go blind." Joey Doyle and his wife Kelly came into the waiting room next to Seajae's room.
"Yeah so they tell me. How it going?"
"Good. You?"
"Not to bad."
"Find anything?"
"Nothing that gives a reason for her coma. For her disposition and attitude about doctor's...."
"She hates hospitals, yet she continues to find reason to be in them."
"Yeah, gun shot wounds, stab wounds, skull fractures, broken ribs."
"Your only on 2003. Wait till you get to the fall of 2005." Joey sat down. Kelly watched Sully though the small window.
"She's scared......"
"What?" Joey looked at his wife and then to Carter.
"She's afraid that she can't be who she used to be......" Kelly's voice drifted.
"Kelly....you shouldn't....." Joey looked at John. "She reads people. Her and Seajae have always had a connection."
"Joey, she's never been this scared." Kelly turned to look at her husband. "She's going to give up...." Carter and Joey stood up just as the moniters started going off. Sully stepped back, startled by the alarms. Carter pushed though the doors and went to Seajae's side.
"She's having another siezer." Nurses came in and Carter started shouting orders and without even asking who he was the nurses did as they were told. "Seajae.....come on.......not now...you have too much to live for my friend." The nurse had gotten a crash cart and had charged the paddles. Sully watched the younger man as he shocked her. "Nothing....charge to 200." He put the paddles to her chest just as Dr. Miller came running in." The moniters quieted and the ventalator started a steady hum. "Welcome back Seajae." Carter put the paddles in the crash cart.
"You having a party without me Dr. Carter?" Carter looked up at Miller.
"Yeah well you know....you always get to save her life. I thought I would give it a try." He looked at Sully. "Someone might want to get a chair for Sgt. Sullivan. He's looking a little pale." Kelly got Sully a chair and Joey sat him down. At that moment, with those people, John Carter realize that without this woman, a lot of people would be lost.
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Carlos and Doc sat in the ER waiting for the doctors to give them thier gurny. They were three deep in the rooms and running out of beds when Ken Miller got a page and went running to the nearest elevator.
"Seajae?" Carlos asked Doc.
"No other coustomer makes him move that fast."
"We should go up there."
"I can't be there. I've saved her ass too many times."
"She's not going to die. Come on Doc. It's Seajae. Bullets bounce off her."
"Apparently you didn't see the hole one put in her shoulder a week or so ago."
"She's going to be ok Doc. She's just too.....too......"
"She's human."
"Yeah but God.....he wouldn't do that to Bosco. I mean the man.......you know he's loose it. And where would those kids be without a mom and a dad."
"I don't know Carlos." Doc got up. "Let's go. They have our gurney." Doc didn't want to think of what would happen to Bosco or any of them if Seajae died. Without her in thier lives a lot of people would be lost.
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Faith sat in her van at the front of the hospital. She was tiered. With everything with Charlie and now this she was beat. She wished she knew how Seajae did it everyday. Her life was constant caos. Everyday was more hectic then the day before. Faith leaned back in her seat and closed her eyes. 'Just for a few minutes', she thought. Seajae would understand if she took a few minutes to herself. She understood so much. She had forgiven Faith for the way she treater her after Charlie was arrested. She and Elliot did so much to help him. All at the expence of her health. Faith had known that Seajae was working too hard but like always she never said anything. This time she wished she would have. A knock on her window brought her eyes open.
"You ok?" It was Caleb. Faith opened the window.
"Yeah. Just.........resting." He came around and got in the passangers seat.
"You should go home and get some rest honey." Caleb looked into hes wifes tiered eyes.
"I need to go see her Caleb."
"You've been though a lot the last couple of days. She'll understand." He took her face in his hands. "You found her Faith. She's home because you remebered something none of us would of even thought of." Tears welled up in her eyes.
"But we wern't soon enough." Caleb took his wife in his arms and hugged her tight.
"It's ok baby. We got there. That's all tha matters. She's home safe with her family and friends. "
"I just wish I would of remembered the warehouse sooner."
"It's not your fault sweety. Now lets get you home and get some rest." Caleb went around the car and helped Faith out and into the pasanger seat. Getting behind the wheel he noticed that Faith was already dozing off. How she got to the hospital without getting into an accident was a miricle. He already was loosing one of his best friends. He wasn't sure he could take anything else right now.
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Bosco had slept way to long. He promised himself an hour. Five had passed. Jumping in the shower he vagley remembered the dream that had haunted him while he slept. It was the dream he had everytime something happened to Seajae. The one where he spent his life alone. He couldn't bear it. Turning off the water he got out and wrapped a towel around him. He looked into the mirror above the sink. He looked like hell. Shaving for the last two days hadn't been an option. It was a wonder the kids even reconized him. He rubbed his face and got his razor and tried to look half way deasent so Miller wouldn't send him right back home the minute he walked into the hospital.
It was way after visiting hours when Bosco got to the hospital.. He slipped in the ER doors and up the back elevator. As he got out on the fourth floor his heart sunk as he saw Miller, Carter and Susan standing outside the door of Seajae's room. His chest tightened. His knees grew weak. She couldn't be gone......She was his life, his love, his everything. Holding back the tears he slowly walked toward his worst nightmere.