Chapter 3
(To the lyrics of the song "Call The Man" by Celine Dion, So I don't own it!)a/n sorry in advance for the confusing line spacing. I got a new word processor and its much different than my old one, I really need to figure out how to use it. Well thanks again, and I will try to get this fixed soon!)
-He's Needed Here-
The night he left I had stared at the moon for about an hour, maybe more. I didn't even care that my eyes were burning from watching constantly, barely even blinking. I had gone back to my dormitory, freezing cold from standing outside, and I re-read the letter from him over and over until it was memorized. I talked to Ron for a little while longer after that. I didn't tell him about the letter, I'm not quite sure why. Ron was still assuring me that everything would be alright and that Harry would come home. We had also found out that night that Fred and George Weasley would be going to the battle as well. I will admit, Ron telling me that everything would be alright had helped me get a good nights rest with pleasant dreams. Little did I know that it would be my last for a while...
It was now the next day and I was sitting at a small table in front of the fire in the common room. I was trying to concentrate on my homework for potions, though I was sort of unsuccessful. My mind was caught up in a mix of happy daydreams thinking of my love letter, an apprehensions of the outcome of the war.
When I finally set my mind back on track for my homework, I heard footsteps stop next to me. I looked up into Ron's eyes.... And didn't like what I saw. Tears were sitting in his eyes, making them look glassy and full of sorrow. I could see where stray tears had slid down his cheeks but had been wiped away.
"The war is over..."
~Close the door
~Shut the world away
"Our side won, but...." He continued his voice cracking slightly and he was hesitant to go on. "Fred, Lupin, Charlie and Harry were killed in the war..." A solitary tear fell from his eye and I just looked at him, trying to take in his news. It wasn't sinking in. I didn't want it too.
"No..." I whispered in disbelief, I don't think he heard me.
"Fred, Charlie, and Lupin were murdered by Death-Eaters," As he gave the details, everything was becoming real, and the horror of the battle was playing like a movie in my head. "And Harry and Voldermort killed each other and that's how the war was won..." I began breathing heavily, and rage was building up inside me as he went on. "He knew it had to be him that did it..."
~All the fight is gone from this wounded heart
"NO!" I screamed suddenly, thrusting my arms across the table to shove all my parchment off the table, which sent my glass inkwell crashing to the wood floor, shattering it to pieces. I was so angry I didn't know what to do. I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream, I wanted to be alone, I wanted to see Harry again.... to kiss him again.
~Across the floor
~Dreams and shadows play
~Like wind-blown refugees
"He can't be!" I shouted again, now turning to Ron. He nodded solemnly. "You promised!..." I stood up to face him. There was no sight of tears in my eyes, only pure anger. "You promised he would come back!" He just stood there staring at me, not able to say anything back. "You said everything would be fine like always!" My voice starting to fill with hurt. The common room grew silent and suddenly everybody was listening. "Why?... You told me he would be ok!" I felt tears start to fill my eyes. 'How could he do that to me?' I kept thinking continuously, making myself angrier with each question.
~Call the man who deals
~in love beyond repair
"What did you want me to say..." He said in a low hurt tone, "Did you want me to tell you that he was most likely going to DIE?!" Tears were running from his eyes now, he didn't care about being strong anymore. His words struck me, like a rough slap would across someone's face.
~He can heal the world
~Of hearts in need of care
"So you just told me all that shit to give me false hope?!" I stepped closer, getting in his face. "Do you think this is some sort of.... some sort of a JOKE, playing with someone's feelings like that!"
"A joke? I don't know how you figure that, but I don't think you're considering how I'm feeling right now!" He was beginning to shout too. "I LOST TWO BROTHERS AND A BEST FRIEND, AND YOU THINK I'M TRYING TO MAKE JOKES ABOUT PEOPLE DYING?!" His rage now matched mine. "You've got to set your bloody priorities strait..." He growled, his face inches from mine.
~Shine a light ahead
~when the next step is unclear
I pulled back away from him and then slapped my hand across his cheek with all my strength. "Go to Hell!" I screamed at him and turned running toward portrait hole.
~Call the man...
~He's needed here.
I bolted straight to the only place I knew I could be alone. I ran up the stairs of the astronomy tower to where I had felt so safe and in love the night before. I looked up into the sky looking for the bright silver moon surrounded by all its diamond stars. The same moon that me and Harry used as comfort only a few hours ago. It wasn't there... The clouds completely covered it and not one star was visible. All the soothing cool breeze was gone and the air was now still and hazy. It helped drive the fact that he was gone further into my heart. I ran to the railing and frantically searched the blackness of night. For any sign of the moon or even a single star to help me through this night. It was no use. They were all gone.... and Harry was gone too.
~I close my eyes
~I remember when
~His sweet love filled this empty room
It was then that the truth fully set in. I collapsed onto my knees, and they scraped on the cement of the tower floor. The pain didn't affect me at all. He was actually gone! And there was nobody to comfort me, because nobody understood, not even Ron. I began to cry hysterically and the tears were now falling like rain.
~The tears I cry
~Won't bring him back again
~Unless the lonely star should fall
I hated the world right then. I was angry that it had to be us that was torn apart. We had just found our love for each other and now I wouldn't see him ever again. It made me so angry that Oliver Wood and Percy would be coming home to Katie and Penelope tomorrow. I wouldn't be able to stand to see them so happy. And I knew that if Harry had made it, he would have come home with them, and we would celebrate with the happy couples.
~Call the man who deals
~In once upon a time,
~Maybe he can mend
~This broken heart of mine
"Harry...W-why did you have to leave me?" I talked to the sky. "I can't be strong Harry. You told me to be strong for you... I can't... I can't!" I cried into the night. Wherever he was, I wondered if he heard me. I wondered if he's seen the way I had treated Ron, and if he was disappointed in me.
~Shine a light ahead
~Now the future isn't clear...
"I love you, Harry." I said hoping he heard me. I couldn't bare to sit upright anymore, I felt sick and I could barley breathe. I laid down on the rough ice cold cement burying my head in my arms. Sobs shook my entire body uncontrollably. I don't know how much longer I would be able to stand life like this. A life without Harry.
~Call the man,
~He's need here....
(A/n– *Sniff* That was rough to write.... Hold on *Wipes eyes* Alright I'm better now. So what did you think? Let me know please :^) And I'm really sorry for any mistakes. I'm not exactly supposed to be writing,(I Explain it all in my little profile thingy) because I'm grounded from story writing right now. So its like 1:00 am right now and everybody is sleeping. *Shhh* don't tell my mom! Well anyways thanks for those who reviewed so far, keep the reviews coming. And, for those who didn't review yet.... please do! Thanks a bunch!)
(To the lyrics of the song "Call The Man" by Celine Dion, So I don't own it!)a/n sorry in advance for the confusing line spacing. I got a new word processor and its much different than my old one, I really need to figure out how to use it. Well thanks again, and I will try to get this fixed soon!)
-He's Needed Here-
The night he left I had stared at the moon for about an hour, maybe more. I didn't even care that my eyes were burning from watching constantly, barely even blinking. I had gone back to my dormitory, freezing cold from standing outside, and I re-read the letter from him over and over until it was memorized. I talked to Ron for a little while longer after that. I didn't tell him about the letter, I'm not quite sure why. Ron was still assuring me that everything would be alright and that Harry would come home. We had also found out that night that Fred and George Weasley would be going to the battle as well. I will admit, Ron telling me that everything would be alright had helped me get a good nights rest with pleasant dreams. Little did I know that it would be my last for a while...
It was now the next day and I was sitting at a small table in front of the fire in the common room. I was trying to concentrate on my homework for potions, though I was sort of unsuccessful. My mind was caught up in a mix of happy daydreams thinking of my love letter, an apprehensions of the outcome of the war.
When I finally set my mind back on track for my homework, I heard footsteps stop next to me. I looked up into Ron's eyes.... And didn't like what I saw. Tears were sitting in his eyes, making them look glassy and full of sorrow. I could see where stray tears had slid down his cheeks but had been wiped away.
"The war is over..."
~Close the door
~Shut the world away
"Our side won, but...." He continued his voice cracking slightly and he was hesitant to go on. "Fred, Lupin, Charlie and Harry were killed in the war..." A solitary tear fell from his eye and I just looked at him, trying to take in his news. It wasn't sinking in. I didn't want it too.
"No..." I whispered in disbelief, I don't think he heard me.
"Fred, Charlie, and Lupin were murdered by Death-Eaters," As he gave the details, everything was becoming real, and the horror of the battle was playing like a movie in my head. "And Harry and Voldermort killed each other and that's how the war was won..." I began breathing heavily, and rage was building up inside me as he went on. "He knew it had to be him that did it..."
~All the fight is gone from this wounded heart
"NO!" I screamed suddenly, thrusting my arms across the table to shove all my parchment off the table, which sent my glass inkwell crashing to the wood floor, shattering it to pieces. I was so angry I didn't know what to do. I wanted to cry, I wanted to scream, I wanted to be alone, I wanted to see Harry again.... to kiss him again.
~Across the floor
~Dreams and shadows play
~Like wind-blown refugees
"He can't be!" I shouted again, now turning to Ron. He nodded solemnly. "You promised!..." I stood up to face him. There was no sight of tears in my eyes, only pure anger. "You promised he would come back!" He just stood there staring at me, not able to say anything back. "You said everything would be fine like always!" My voice starting to fill with hurt. The common room grew silent and suddenly everybody was listening. "Why?... You told me he would be ok!" I felt tears start to fill my eyes. 'How could he do that to me?' I kept thinking continuously, making myself angrier with each question.
~Call the man who deals
~in love beyond repair
"What did you want me to say..." He said in a low hurt tone, "Did you want me to tell you that he was most likely going to DIE?!" Tears were running from his eyes now, he didn't care about being strong anymore. His words struck me, like a rough slap would across someone's face.
~He can heal the world
~Of hearts in need of care
"So you just told me all that shit to give me false hope?!" I stepped closer, getting in his face. "Do you think this is some sort of.... some sort of a JOKE, playing with someone's feelings like that!"
"A joke? I don't know how you figure that, but I don't think you're considering how I'm feeling right now!" He was beginning to shout too. "I LOST TWO BROTHERS AND A BEST FRIEND, AND YOU THINK I'M TRYING TO MAKE JOKES ABOUT PEOPLE DYING?!" His rage now matched mine. "You've got to set your bloody priorities strait..." He growled, his face inches from mine.
~Shine a light ahead
~when the next step is unclear
I pulled back away from him and then slapped my hand across his cheek with all my strength. "Go to Hell!" I screamed at him and turned running toward portrait hole.
~Call the man...
~He's needed here.
I bolted straight to the only place I knew I could be alone. I ran up the stairs of the astronomy tower to where I had felt so safe and in love the night before. I looked up into the sky looking for the bright silver moon surrounded by all its diamond stars. The same moon that me and Harry used as comfort only a few hours ago. It wasn't there... The clouds completely covered it and not one star was visible. All the soothing cool breeze was gone and the air was now still and hazy. It helped drive the fact that he was gone further into my heart. I ran to the railing and frantically searched the blackness of night. For any sign of the moon or even a single star to help me through this night. It was no use. They were all gone.... and Harry was gone too.
~I close my eyes
~I remember when
~His sweet love filled this empty room
It was then that the truth fully set in. I collapsed onto my knees, and they scraped on the cement of the tower floor. The pain didn't affect me at all. He was actually gone! And there was nobody to comfort me, because nobody understood, not even Ron. I began to cry hysterically and the tears were now falling like rain.
~The tears I cry
~Won't bring him back again
~Unless the lonely star should fall
I hated the world right then. I was angry that it had to be us that was torn apart. We had just found our love for each other and now I wouldn't see him ever again. It made me so angry that Oliver Wood and Percy would be coming home to Katie and Penelope tomorrow. I wouldn't be able to stand to see them so happy. And I knew that if Harry had made it, he would have come home with them, and we would celebrate with the happy couples.
~Call the man who deals
~In once upon a time,
~Maybe he can mend
~This broken heart of mine
"Harry...W-why did you have to leave me?" I talked to the sky. "I can't be strong Harry. You told me to be strong for you... I can't... I can't!" I cried into the night. Wherever he was, I wondered if he heard me. I wondered if he's seen the way I had treated Ron, and if he was disappointed in me.
~Shine a light ahead
~Now the future isn't clear...
"I love you, Harry." I said hoping he heard me. I couldn't bare to sit upright anymore, I felt sick and I could barley breathe. I laid down on the rough ice cold cement burying my head in my arms. Sobs shook my entire body uncontrollably. I don't know how much longer I would be able to stand life like this. A life without Harry.
~Call the man,
~He's need here....
(A/n– *Sniff* That was rough to write.... Hold on *Wipes eyes* Alright I'm better now. So what did you think? Let me know please :^) And I'm really sorry for any mistakes. I'm not exactly supposed to be writing,(I Explain it all in my little profile thingy) because I'm grounded from story writing right now. So its like 1:00 am right now and everybody is sleeping. *Shhh* don't tell my mom! Well anyways thanks for those who reviewed so far, keep the reviews coming. And, for those who didn't review yet.... please do! Thanks a bunch!)