(To the Beatles song 'In my life' I don't own it, and I don't own the characters! Enjoy)

Chapter 6

I Love You More

I was lying down in bed, staring at the ceiling of my small apartment. I was thinking.... Just thinking, about everything and nothing in particular. I had been so busy and my life was just beginning to slow down. It was about six years since Harry died, and I can't say I ever fully recovered. After my "incident" on top of the astronomy tower Ron never left my side. He helped me through everything and was always my shoulder to cry on. I don't know what I would've done without him. As I was sitting there I realized that I hadn't seen him in such a long time, though we wrote letters to each other at least once a week.

Then I realized that I had received a letter from him early that morning and never opened it. I pulled it off my dresser, opened it, and began to read. I smiled warmly as my eyes read over the words, "I miss you so much." When I was almost done reading the letter I noticed something he wrote and quickly looked at my calendar. I gasped, looked at my clock, and rushed to get out of my sweat pants and into normal clothes. I was doing this because for the first time in five years... I would go back to Hogwarts.



~There are places I remember

~All my life

~Though some have changed



In about an hour I found myself walking through the halls of the place I had spent seven years of my life. It looked exactly the same as it used to, but the feeling of it was completely different. The halls were no longer filled with the familiar faces I had grown to love... and some that I had come to hate... like Malfoy's. Ron was at Hogwarts on business and was going to meet me up in the astronomy tower in about a half an hour, but I decided to go up there anyway and wait for him.

It was late and already dark out. The ice cold winter wind whipped my hair around my face. I walked over to the spot where I had tried to take my own life. It made me flash back to that day and it sent uneasy shivers up my spine.



~Some forever, not for better

~Some have gone, and some remain



I ran my fingers over the rough concrete floor where I laid dying. I thought about how Dumbledore made me go to therapy after the incident, and how once they found out about my dream paradise they forced me to drink a dreamless sleep potion every night. Doing so did me more harm than good because it made me more depressed. When they realized this about a month later they took me off it. I had to stop thinking about this. "Those times are over now." I said firmly in my head.

I stood up and then glanced up into the sky. I saw it. The moon that gave me comfort the night before Harry died. It was full just as it was the night he was killed. It gave me this eerie feeling... like he was there, watching. Ever since he died I felt as if I could not let him go. I'd been afraid of love and relationship, holding the fear of losing someone above all affections I felt. But, that night I think I finally let go.





~All these places have their moments

~With lovers and friends

~I still can recall



This place... I had come up here so often the rest of the time I was at school. I came up alone when I wanted to talk to Harry... Praying that he was watching over me. Or, I would come up with Ron when I was feeling really alone and in need of a friend. Either way I always felt loved... in some way.



~Some are dead and some are living

~In my life

~I love them all



I looked at my watch, realizing Ron would be there any minute. I was so anxious to see him, nervous of what to say or how to act. Why did I feel like this? I had seen him so many times before... but tonight felt different. As I sat thinking and planning out what to say I heard the door open. There he was standing in the doorway, My Ron. All of a sudden everything I had decided to say flew away from my mind...



~But of all these friends and lovers

~There is no one compares with you



He looked so different, and so much wiser than he used to. His flat red hair now spikey, and his once thin build now looked strong. But his smile... hadn't changed one bit. The memories I had of him raced through my mind as I stared at him and he returned my gaze. It felt as if I was staring for hours but it was only a matter of seconds. Why hadn't I always felt like this?



~And these memories lose their meaning

~When I think of love as something new



My surprise stricken face curved into a smile as he walked toward me. I ran up to him and he lifted me up in his arms, spinning me around. He set me back down, squeezing me with the tightest hug I've ever had. He pulled back and looked at me. Taking in my appearance just as I had his.

"I didn't think it was possible for you to get any more beautiful," he said in awe. 'He always was a charmer' I thought, but why did that make me feel like the most beautiful girl in the world.

He took both of my hands and then said, "Merlin! Mione, You're freeezing, how long have you been up here?"

"A half an hour."

"Do you want to go inside?" He asked me concerned putting a hand on my ice cold cheek. His hand was so warm.



"No" I looked up at the moon, thinking of Harry, "I like it out here."



~Though I know I'll never ever lose affection

~For people and things that went before

~I know I'll often stop and think about them



"So how have you been lately?" he asked. But I didn't quite hear him. I was too busy thinking about something. "'Mione?" I realized I wasn't answering him and turned back to him.

"I've been alright, really busy you know." I stated. "Ron?"

"Yeah"

I took a step closer to him and looked up into his eyes. "There's been something I've been wanting to tell you..." I said and bit my lip. This was it...

"What," he said softly.

My heart was pounding faster then ever as I took one step closer and leaned in. I kissed his lips softly and put my arms around his neck.

We pulled apart and he looked me in the eye, "Do don't know how long I've been waiting for you to do that..." He put his hand on my waist and pulled me into a deep kiss. His tender kiss filled me with the warmth of love that I had never felt before.



~But in my life...



And when we pulled apart again I had to add a comment to his last statement. "Not as long as I have been waiting to tell you that I love you..."



~I love you more



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(A/n- Hey! Howd You like it! I know that was a short one, but I was going to put this whole other part into it, and then that would make it too long and it ran out of song lyrics anyway, so... I'm just gonna have to do another Chapter! So make sure to check back for the next (and last) chapter! It should be coming fairly soon!)

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~Jenna~