TO ALL THE PEOPLE WHO ARE KIND ENOUGH TO READ MY FANFIC:

*Thank you for taking time out to read this story of mine (which is my first by the way, so please be kind).

*I have only seen five episodes of Inu Yasha (and the episodes I saw were out of order) and I barely know anything about the show except for the information that I gather from websites and stories that I've read.

*Inu Yasha does not belong to me nor does the characters that are mention in the story.

*Ajika (a name that I heard on Tenchi something) is my own little character.

*Ajika sounds like Ah-ji-ka.

Words in italics are thoughts by the character(s).

Words that are in bold are flashbacks by the character(s).

Words that are in parenthesis ( ) are my thoughts.

Have fun reading my fanfic!

CAN IT EVER BE? – Chapter Three ~ Getting Comfortable

Sesshoumaru left us at the entrance door without a glance at our direction.  It didn't surprise me that he would ignore us.  This is Sesshoumaru that we are talking about here.  It is not as if I expected him to say "welcome to my home" and give me a hug.  If he did that, I would have been disturbed.  He did not act or look like the type to show a great deal of affection to anyone.

When I looked down to my side, I notice that Rin was not there by my anymore.  I, however, did not worry at this.  This is Sesshoumaru-sama's home and no one was foolish enough to enter uninvited.  Rin is safe here by herself.

I could smell Sesshoumaru in the study.  He was probably relaxing after his battle today.  It surprised me that this warrior had only a few desires in his life.  One was the sword, but he gave up on that after he made a better one for himself.  The other was killing Naraku.  You would think that this demon lord would want to expand his land to the other territories, yet he had no desire to do so.  It was strange considering history and all.  All the lords wanted more land, more power, but Sesshoumaru did not.  It was probably do to his ego.  He felt that he is already a powerful demon.  He is please with the land that he already has; yet he doesn't want more.

I cannot label Sesshoumaru as a power hungry demon because he is not, but I cannot call him a harmless demon either, since he is far from it.

Sesshoumaru is the type of person that you cannot put a label on.  There is no word that can best describe him.  Some call him perfect, yet he is not.  Some call him an evil demon, but some of his actions say otherwise.  Some call him trouble, yet he does not attack you unless he has good reason to.  So what is really?

My head is starting to hurt.  The more I think, the more my thoughts refer back to the demon lord.

I stare outside the door to find Rin among the flowers, laughing and playing.  She is making a necklace out of the flowers; a task that I never learned how to do.  She looks up and beckons me to walk towards her.  When I reached her, she puts the necklace on my head instead of my neck.

"Okasan looks like more of an angel than before!"

I smile at her.  She always seem to make me smile.  Angel she said.  I didn't feel like an angel.  I didn't feel like anything at all, but if she wanted for me to be her angel, than an angel I would be.

She walks behind me and touches my back as if in search of something.  When she finishes, she walks back in front of me with a cute pout on her face.

"Okasan doesn't have wings."

I was shocked at first.  It must have been her assumption that I was an angel for her to think that I have wing.  I guess she will be happy when she finds out that I do have wings, since I am a goddess of the angels.

"Sweet pea, I do have wings.  I'm just hiding them when I don't use them."

Her pout went away and she gave me a cute little goofy smile.  "Rin wants to see!  Rin wants to see okasan's wings!"

I stood up and closed my eyes.  I could feel Rin watching me as I moved my hands in front of me.  I moved my hands slowly forwards, and quickly folded my arms and brought them back to me in front of my chess.  With a bright light, my wings escaped from my shoulder blades to flutter beautifully on my back.  I open my eyes and looked down at Rin.  She had the most adorable face I have ever seen.  She had her small hands under her chin and eyes that sparkle with each breath that she took.

"Okasan looks so purty!  Rin wants wings too!  Rin wants to fly!  Can Okasan fly?  Birds have wings and they fly.  Can Okasan fly?"

I didn't answer her questions.  I just took her in my arms and began to fly upwards.  I can hear Rin giggling beside me.  It was odd that she was surprised to be up in the air.  She road on that two headed demon all the time, but maybe it was my wings that fascinated her, not the height that we were in.

We flew around for a while.  When it got dark, he went back to the castle to get dinner.  As we were in the entrance, I remembered that Sesshoumaru did not tell me what room was where.  Honestly, that demon has no manners.

I see Rin run to the double doors to the right, so I followed her.  As I entered, she was seated next to someone at the end of the table.  As I looked at Rin's right, I finally notice that she was sitting next to Sesshoumaru.

"It took you long enough to get here.  I was waiting."

He pointed to the seat to his right, directing me on where I should sit.  I was surprised that he would allow me to sit that close to him, but I did not tell him that.  I sat down and sniff the air for a while.

"By the scent in the room, I know that you only waited for a few short minutes, Sesshoumaru-sama."

He stared at me, his face unreadable.  "One second is one second too long for this Sesshoumaru to wait."

I looked away.  He had this spell on me every time we are near each other.  His voice is so sexy and deep (just the way I like it).  His eyes are clear and beautifully colored amber.  And his body is well muscled.  Who wouldn't be distracted by him?

I can feel his gaze on me.  Was he trying to read my expression?  Was he wondering what I was thinking?

The door to the kitchen open to reveal the green toad carrying a tray of food.  As if reading my mind, Sesshoumaru looked at me to explain why the toad was here instead of in the forest, dead.

"It's hard to find a good servant these days.  I guess the ugly toad has some uses to me."

I see now.  He didn't want to get his fingers dirty with household chores so he revived his servant to do the domestic work.  I notice that the toad was giving me an odd stare.

"What are you looking at?"

"Who are you wench!  How dare you sit by-"

He was cut off by Sesshoumaru-sama.

"She is here because I invited her.  Jaken, put the food and serve it to the both of them before I get angry."

"But my lord, she is-"

Sesshoumaru turned his head slowly to where Jaken was.

"You dare disobey this Sesshoumaru?"

The toad swallowed nervously.  I actually felt sorry for the small youkai.  Although he is rude, he is truly loyal to his master.  You have to respect a servant who will follow his master to the ends of the world.

Jaken put the tray down and began to serve the three.  When he was finish, he began to leave, so I stopped him.

"Jaken, aren't you going to come and eat with us?"

Jaken and Sesshoumaru seemed surprised at my statement.  Rin didn't react due to the fact that she was focus on eating her dinner.  Sesshoumaru glance at me with a questioning look.  I returned his gaze and explained why I asked.

"He seems to be hungry and tired so of course I thought that it would be easier for him to just eat here."

The two youkais continued to stare at me as if I grew another head.  When I didn't glance away, Sesshoumaru surprisingly agreed with me.

"If it will allow me to eat and not have to converse anymore then I guess I will allow it."

Jaken looked as though he was giving a badge by Sesshoumaru.  He glance my way and after a while, he gave me a nod as if saying that I earned his respect.  When I began to eat, Jaken sat down beside Rin.

The room was disturbingly quiet but no one except I notice it.

I had a feeling that Sesshoumaru was staring at me a few times, but I just told myself that it was just my imagination since I am so infatuated by him.

I notice that I would steal glances at him, but when he looked up, I would quickly look away.  When he did not say anything, I felt that he probably did not notice how I was ogling him.

When we all finish dinner, I was about to clear the table until Sesshoumaru's arm reached out and grabbed my wrist.

"What do you think you are doing, wench?"

"I was just going to clear the table.  What is the problem with that?"

He release my arm but held me down with his eyes.

"You shouldn't do those type of chores."

I looked at him oddly.

"Why not?"

"Just do as I say."

He left the dining area and went outside to get some fresh air.

I felt a tug on my kimono and looked down at my beloved, adopted daughter.

"Can Rin sleep with okasan tonight?"

"Did you already bathe?"

"Rin bathe!  Rin bathe!"

"Alright, sweet pea.  You can sleep with me.  Do you know where my room is?"

She shook her head.  Well, this is another issue that the demon lord did not make clear since I came.

"I'll sleep in your room then, honey pie."

We both walked up the stairs and towards the bathroom to brush our teeth with our fingers and do our private business.  We then walked through many halls to get to her bedroom.  I was surprise at how beautiful and large her bedroom is.  It was fit for a queen.

We walked to where her futon (Japanese style bed) is and laid down on it.  She snuggled against my side and fell asleep.  I turned my head to kiss her temple. I stroke her hair and put the blankets securely around her so that she won't get cold.

 I felt content.  I felt loved, but there was something that is still missing.  Something that I cannot put my finger on.  I just wonder what it is that I am missing.

I looked out the window beside us and see the moon shining brightly.  After listening to the wind for a while I fell asleep, not knowing that Sesshoumaru was standing in the shadows watching us the whole time.