Okay, been a while since I wrote anything so I figured I might as well write something. My other fics will take a while to update as I'm lazy.
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Love's Pains
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It really wasn't his fault this all happened, but he blamed himself nonetheless. It all happened so fast, so very fast.
How could he have ever done that?
How could he have lost control?
How could he have fallen in love?
And in love with that person…He wasn't supposed to. He wasn't allowed to. He didn't allow himself, and yet, he has. He has subconsciously and inevitably fallen in love. He couldn't get back up. No matter how hard he tried, it all ended in failure.
He tried desperately to come to terms with what he felt and at the same time, tried just as hard to rid him of such emotions.
Emotions…
Also something he wasn't allowed to possess. Especially not one as ridiculous as love.
But, did he really find it ridiculous? Stupid? Worthless? Useless?
No… He didn't. It strengthened him in battle and has saved him many times. The strength of love is amazing yet, at the same time, it pained him to look in his loved one's eyes. His forbidden love. Forbidden, just like him.
Of course he would never tell the secret of his desires of his feelings, his weakness, his strength, and pain. Love was all at that and possibly more. He could no longer refuse to believe his heart. He's tried and failed.
His desired one would forever be out of reach. At arm's length. But, he would make sure to watch over that very person.
How he wanted to hold his love, caress his love, kiss his love.
He knew he would never have his feelings returned. Who would want one such as himself? He was disgusted with himself. What would make others not recoil at the mere sight of him?
But, making sure he was well and safe gave him enough satisfaction.
Maybe, just maybe one day he would actually confess his feelings to that very special person and say…
'Aishiteru, kitsune. Aishiteru.'
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Okay, this is my first attempt at a Hiei/Kurama fic. TT; If you don't like it, please tell me. But you really can't expect this to be great considering the time of day I am writing this. It's 4:10 AM. Tell me what you think though. It would make me very happy.