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*I have only seen five episodes of Inu Yasha (and the episodes I saw were out of order) and I barely know anything about the show except for the information that I gather from websites and stories that I've read so there might be slight OOC.
*Inu Yasha does not belong to me nor does the characters that are mention in the story.
*Ajika (a name that I heard on Tenchi something) is my own little character.
*Ajika sounds like Ah-ji-ka.
Words in italics are thoughts by the character(s).
Words that are in bold are flashbacks by the character(s).
Words that are in parenthesis ( ) are my thoughts.
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CAN IT EVER BE? – Chapter Eight ~ Love Lost, Never Found
Previously on CAN IT EVER BE, chapter seven
As I open the door, I was greeted with darkness. The only thing visible is the drapes flapping near the window. It was odd that that was all I could see since I have great vision in the dark, but this darkness is not any regular darkness. This darkness seems to be magically made.
I turn my head to the right when I heard slight footsteps. Once I caught a glimpse of what made that sound, Rin and I gasped.
All I could do was stare. What I saw before me was impossible, completely impossible.
"Sesshoumaru?"
"You are mistaken, young lady. I am not Sesshoumaru, but thank you for the compliment. It is good to know that my good looks can compare to that young pup."
Young pup? Did he just state that Sesshoumaru is a young pup? What the hell is going on here! If this man isn't Sesshoumaru, then why does he look so much like him? Rin jumps up and down with her hands clapping together."We have two Sesshoumaru sama's now?"
I stare at her and smile.
"No Rin, just one."
She pouts and holds my hand in hers.
I watch the man for a minute, wondering why he looks so much like Sesshoumaru. Why does he…he's…it can't be.
"You're Sesshoumaru's father?"
He stares at me and nods.
I'm shocked. Completely shocked. I thought that Sesshoumaru's father was dead.
Rin stares at the man in complete awe. He reminds her of Sesshoumaru so of course she would be interested in him.
"You're otousan's otousan?"
He smiles at Rin and nods.
I continue to look at him, no words forming in my mouth. I finally try to say something to him.
"Uh, I…that is…how did… you were suppose to…uh"
He grins at me and leans on the mantle near the fireplace.
"What's the matter young one? Cat got your tongue?"
I stare at him and give him a confused look. If he were Sesshoumaru's dad, then wouldn't he be more…um…Sesshoumaru like? This guy seems so open instead of closed off like Sesshoumaru.
What the hell is going on here!
"Have nothing to say young one?"
I sit down on the chair near the window and let Rin sit on my lap. I look at him and say the only thing that comes into my head.
"What the hell is going on here?"
He chuckles and stares at the unlit fireplace.
Rin looks at me and giggles.
"Okasan just said a bad word. Okasan should know better. Rin's angels are supposed to be holy, okasan, not naughty."
I laugh and hold her to my chest. She sure knows how to lighten up the mood.
I stare at him for a while, seeing his silver hair blowing due to the wind that came from the window. The more I look at him, the more I can see traces of Sesshoumaru. They both have the cute elf ears, the same pale skin, the same amber eyes and the same height. The only thing that separates them apart is the wrinkles on this man's face.
"So…what is your name? I can't just call you Sesshoumaru's dad all the time, right?"
He smiles and walks up to my chair. He sits in the chair in front of mine and crosses his legs.
"My name is Inutaisho young one. You can call me ojisan (uncle)."
"Since we are on a first name basis, can you not call me young one? Just call me Ajika or Aji or Aj or whatever you want, but not young one. That name is mostly fit for Rin, not I."
His eyes went to the little girl on my lap who was listening in on our conversation. He smiles at her and pats her on the head.
"Rin is it? She is such a kawaii child. She reminds me of someone I know. Anyway, Ajika, I think I will call you little kitten from now on. You did say I could call you anything. Being in the same room with you these last few minutes has shown me that you are like a cat, purring in your lap one minute, and scratching your eyes out the next.
I look at him with a surprised face. I guess that I can't really tell him not to say that foolish name. At least it's better than young one…I think.
"A kitten, am I? Does that mean that you don't like me, seeing as you are a dog demon and all?"
He stares at me for a few seconds and then throws his head back in laughter. Once he stopped laughing, he stares at me with unreadable eyes, completely ignoring my question. Rin looks up at me and gives me a big, goofy smile.
"Okasan is a kitty now? How come okasan has no tail or ears or whiskers?"
"Honey, he was just joking."
"But I do believe that your okasan has whiskers every other month. She just secretly gets rid of them before anyone can see them, right Little Kitten."
I don't know if I should laugh or not. I do not have whiskers! I wish he were like Sesshoumaru, that way he would be more refine than jerk like.
All kidding aside, he asks me a question that I never thought I would have to answer.
"So you are the one that has been changing so many of the people in my family. First my wife, then his daughter, and lastly him as well."
I didn't know what to say to that. How was I to know that Hitomi was his wife? How was I to know that Sesshoumaru was his son? I barely met this man a few minutes ago.
"I guess you can say that."
He looks out the window, the happiness that once shown on his face is now gone from sight. I look down at Rin and notice that she is sleeping. I wish I were like her. Sleeping in odd situations is truly a gift one should appreciate.
"How is she?"
I stare at him once he asked that question. I knew that he was talking about Hitomi, not Rin.
I remember that day when I found Hitomi. She was running away from this man. The reasons why she left, she never told me. As I look at him now, I do not know why Hitomi wanted to leave him. He seems so sweet, so lively, so cute, but of course that is probably the image that he wants me to see. He could be a man full of anger, hate and prejudice. I've seen many men like this who wear sheep's clothing.
I stay quiet for a while. I do not know if I should tell him anything about Hitomi, but once I saw the melancholy look in his eyes, I couldn't stay quiet for long.
"She is just fine."
He continues to stare at me. After a few minutes, he turns his head back to the window.
"She's here, isn't she? I can smell her sweet scent."
He turns back to me and gives me a half-hearted smile.
"She means the world to me, but I never acknowledge her. I never even realized that I loved her until the day she died."
He gets up from the chair and sits on the windowsill.
"I pushed her away, thinking that I never needed her. You see, our marriage was one of convenience, not love. Well, to me it wasn't love, but to her it was. I was angry. Furious really. I wanted to find my own mate, but my family picked a woman for me. I hated her from the very beginning and all she ever did when she was here was try to love me, but I couldn't love her. I couldn't love a woman meant for my family instead of for me."
He stares at his lap and lets his chin land on his chest.
"When she got pregnant, I ignored her like the plague. She was of no use to me. Time and time again she would follow me around, but I just left her behind. The day she gave birth to Sesshoumaru, I was not there. I was hundreds of miles away…committing adultery for the very first time. That was the day that everything changed. I grew to love the human woman named Akane, but my wife, the mother of my child changed. She wasn't unloving to her family, she wasn't unfaithful to me, she was just different. She seemed distant. Lost. Being the man that I was, I didn't care. When I brought Akane to my home, pregnant with my child, Hitomi did not say a word. All she did was take Sesshoumaru outside to play."
He puts his hands to his face as if he was holding back tears. I didn't know if I should hug him or hit him.
"She wandered the mansion every night when Sesshoumaru was sleeping. She wandered, and wandered, never really going into any rooms. Just wandering. This became a routine for her. She would wake up, take care of Sesshoumaru, play with him, feed him (when he needed it), sleep with him, and wake up to wander the mansion. When Akane gave birth to Inuyasha, Hitomi would wander even more. Each day she grew paler. Each day her smiles became less frequent. Each day her eyes would lose their golden glow, but I never approached her. The day she died was the day that I realize that I was a fool, a complete fool. Although I loved Akane, Hitomi was the only one to love the hateful side of me as well. It was because of me that she died so young. If I only gave her a chance, maybe I could have loved her more than I did Akane. To know that I hurt the woman whose only crime was loving me truly destroyed me."
I see his body shake with each word that he mutters. My heart clinches with pain just thinking about what Hitomi must have gone through.
"I left. My body destroyed itself as punishment for what I did to Hitomi. Although I look alive, I am truly dead. My spirit just wanders in this room, just like how Hitomi use to wander around the mansion. As more punishment, I barricaded the door, not allowing myself to leave. I can hear others, but they cannot hear or see me. This room and the door to it is suppose to be invisible to the naked eye. When you entered, I was shocked. You must not be human."
He looks at me with unshed tears. All I could do was look away. His pain was too painful for me to bare.
"Now that you've open the door, the others will be able to see it."
"I'm sorry, ojisan. I didn't know. The door just called to me."
"I know. I called you here. It is time for me to right my wrongs."
I stare at him with a questioning look.
"How are you going to do that?"
"Yes, how are you going to do that," said a cold, emotionless voice.
We both stare at the door to find Sesshoumaru and Hitomi leaning on the doorframe. Hitomi looked at Inutaisho with an unhappy look, while Sesshoumaru glared at his father with hate and disgust. Rin wakes up from her nap once she heard Sesshoumaru's voice. He later stares at me and begins to walk towards me. Reaching out his hands, he gently grabs Rin by the waist and the other grabs my wrist. He lifts us both out of the chair, pushing us behind his back. Inutaisho stares at Sesshoumaru with an expressionless face.
"I'm not going to hurt the girls, son."
He growls and bares his fangs at his father.
"Do not call me that!"
He directs Rin and I to Hitomi and begins to walk out the door. He looks back at his father and glares at him once again.
"Where ever you came from, go back now. I don't want you to bother me, my mother, my daughter or my mate!"
We all stare at Sesshoumaru when he said the last word. Mate? When did I become his mate? When did we even start dating? This youkai has a lot of explaining to do. How was I supposed to feel? He made a claim on me that I didn't even know about!
Inutaisho just stood near the window without moving an inch.
"I'm afraid I can't do that Sesshoumaru."
Sesshoumaru growls in anger.
"Why not?"
Inutaisho turns around and stares out the window towards the moon.
"Because son, we have a lot of catching up to do."
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******************I borrowed the name Inutaisho from the story called Hot Springs. It's a very good story with lots of lemons. If you ever find it, read it (if you're old enough)!************************