*Inu Yasha does not belong to me nor does the characters that are mention in the story.
*Ajika (a name that I heard on Tenchi something) is my own little character.
*Ajika sounds like Ah-ji-ka.
* A little OOC (well, it depends on how you describe little).
Words in italics are thoughts by the character(s).
Words that are in bold are flashbacks by the character(s).
Words that are in parenthesis ( ) are my thoughts.
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CAN IT EVER BE? – Chapter Thirteen ~ A Guest To Remember Sess P.O.V.
"Because, Sesshoumaru-sama, why would a stranger love me when my own family wouldn't?"
How was I to react when she said those words to me? Looking at the situation in her point of view, I can understand on her hesitation about letting people love her, but do I want her to hold on to her past with a death grip that might consume her? My sweet Ajika, how can someone like you be so tormented by those you love? You remind me so much of little Rin, so innocent, yet so brutally touched by society. Why is it that the most pure of us all is the one to be destroyed by what we call destiny?
I gaze at you now; you so lost in your memories to even know that I am here. Your eyes water, but no tears run down your face. You hold your pain deep inside, not letting people see your fears and your loneliness. Is this how I look to others? Do I distance myself from love like you do?
All I can do now is hold you tighter to me. I don't know what else to do. Being Sesshoumaru, I have never allowed myself to feel sympathy for anyone besides Rin. So, although I do not say it, I am sorry that I cannot do anymore for you. I hope that you know how I feel about you, my love. I hope you wait for me, so that you know that these words of love and affection will come out from my mouth soon.
You fall asleep in my arms, waiting for my reply to your question. I hope you do not think that I believe your theory. Even if your family hated you, it does not mean that I will also.
I wrap a blanket around your frame to keep the chill away from your body. It's funny how I react around you, my love, but I don't feel ashamed of it either. I know now that I should not hold my complete affection from you. You do not need someone who holds back his love because of his pride. I, Sesshoumaru, use to be that sort of youkai, but for a sweet woman like you, this youkai needs to change his ways, or you might leave him forever.
My Ajika. My okasan use to tell me that angel's will always bless you with their presence. No matter the time or day, they would watch you and protect you when you need them. She also told me that although strong, angels need help from us to become even stronger in both body and mind. If we ignore them, they will disappear, but how can anyone ignore an angel from up above? I don't want for you to disappear from my life. Now that I have found you, I will never let you go…well, actually, you found me.
If I could, I would erase your memories for you. What I don't understand is why you don't do it yourself. Do you want to hold on to these memories? Why, when they only bring you sadness? I guess I will have to wait until later to know the answers to my questions.
I look at your face and only see a woman whom I feel I do not deserve, but still I will hold on to you. When I want something, I always get it, and that includes you.
I brush my fingers across you eyelids, fingering the lashes there. Your eyes, so like gems to me. I never saw anyone with two completely different color eyes. Emerald and sapphire, that is what they look like to me. Two gems that remind me of the sky, the water, the wind, and life. Almost everything we need in order to live. Your eyes always sparkle when I look at them. They sparkle when you play with Rin; they sparkle when you smile; they sparkle when you get angry and they sparkle when you just glance at me shyly from afar. I hope that they never lose their sparkle, my Ajika. I hope that day never comes.
You stir in your sleep. You seem troubled. All I can do is ease you till tomorrow. I press my lips to your ear and whisper words of comforting to take away your worries.
"Sleep, my Ajika. All will be well. As long as this Sesshomaru lives, harm will never befall you. So rest, and cast away your worries, before this Sesshoumaru becomes reckless."
She calms down and smiles in her sleep. Now I will have to wait till morning before she awakens. I guess I'll allow myself to rest my body with hers.
How do I tell her that I love her? All of my life, I've never face this type of dilemma. Who can I talk about this sort of issue? Oh, no! Well, if I must, then I will have to do the unthinkable. Anyway, I'll do it tomorrow, while she's sleeping. Nothing is too good or too much for my Ajika.
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Now it will be Ajika's POV
When I woke up, I found myself in my bedroom on the futon. Sesshoumaru must have brought me up here after I fell asleep. Speaking of which, where could he be now?
Ah…my body feels horrible. Almost everything is aching. That is what I get for sleeping the wrong way. I guess there will be no training for me today.
My body stiffens when a cold wind blows across my body. I finally relax when I realized whose aura entered my room.
"I would like to have a little talk with you, little kitten."
"Why do you want to talk to me, Inutaisho?"
"Reasons, lets go."
"At least let me freshen up before I go with you."
"…Alright."
What's the matter with him? Why all of a sudden, he wants to talk to me? Well, I might as well wash up instead of asking myself questions.
When I was done, I followed Inutaisho to the room that I found him in. After settling in on one of his many chairs, I waited for him to explain why he needed to talk to me.
His face was set in a frown, but he didn't look angry at all. He looked at me and his frown went away. After sighing, he sat on the chair across from mine.
"I wanted to give you some advice about your…predicament."
"Predicament? What predicament?"
"Don't get mad, but I listen in on your conversation with Sesshoumaru yesterday night."
"You what?"
" I apologize, so please don't get angry. I really didn't mean to eavesdrop, but to tell you the truth, I'm glad I did."
My anger slipped away after his statement. Why be angry anyway? Everyone will find out about my past sooner or later.
"Why, pray tell do you believe that it was right to eavesdrop on my conversations with Sesshoumaru-sama?"
"You believe that love does not exist, am I not correct?"
I nod and look away.
"Little kitten, I don't want for you end up unhappy like Hitomi. I was foolish enough to ignore her love for me due to my stupidity, but you are smarter than that. Sesshoumaru isn't the type of man to show affection, but all of us here can see how much that youkai adores you. He loves you as much as that little girl that follows you around. What was her name…Rin, I believe. Please, don't pass it up."
"You are the last one that I would expect advice from."
"Yes, I know. Little kitten, I regretted my decision once Hitomi died. I don't want for you to do the same thing. Do you want to give up on what you have with Sesshoumaru and wonder what it would have been like if anything did happen between you? When you get older, you will always wonder about what could have been, and it will tear you up inside. Little kitten, I understand why you don't want to try, considering that you tried to be loved by your family and the one human, but it's better to have loved, then to have not. Sesshoumaru never lies, especially to one he loves."
"How would you know?"
"I know I haven't been there for him, but I know a liar when I see one. You and I both know that he isn't lying."
"……………………"
"I have so many regrets, little kitten. I don't what you to have any regrets in this lifetime. You allowed yourself to love Rin and you seem very happy since then, so why not allow Sesshoumaru to love you?"
"I see."
I looked at him after he gave me his advice. I can't believe how much sense he is making. Do I want to have regrets of what could have been between Sesshoumaru and I? Probably not. I do…care for him very deeply. I guess it wouldn't hurt to try.
"Inutaisho, arigato."
"Hai."
I get up from the couch and leave through the door. As I walk down the hallway, heading towards the garden, I notice that Sesshoumaru's scent isn't in the air. Right when I reached the garden, Hitomi walks up to me.
"Sesshoumaru had to leave. He didn't tell me why, but he seemed determined for some reason."
"I wonder where he went. It's not like him to get up and leave so quickly."
"Whatever it is, it is not life threatening. He took Rin and he would never take her along if there were danger. He also seemed calm and cool."
"But when is
Sesshoumaru-sama not calm and cool?"
"…You make a good point."
"Well, where is Jaken?"
"He followed Sesshoumaru and Rin. They might not be back today."
"That's alright, but what are we going to do to pass the time?"
"We could always play that game that you and Rin play."
"What game is that?"
"The one where you both put peas in your nose and shoot it at each other."
"…You were there?"
"No. Rin told me. I must say, I never expected for you two to do such an unladylike thing. It is quite humorous if you ask me."
"Lets change the subject."
"Ha ha ha. All right, if you insist. What do you want to do?"
"I asked you first remember?"
"Oh, so you did. How about staying in this very spot and talking all night long?"
"That seems tiring. How about sitting down in this very spot and talking all night long?"
"It's sounds great to me. Lets sit."
"Yes, lets."
Is it just me or do we sound so stupid right now? Well, it can't be helped. We both sit on the ground and talked about anything that comes to mind. I asked her about Inutaisho while she asked me about Sesshoumaru. Long story short, we had a very short conversation between each other. Once we got into other subjects, the time flew by very quickly.
As the sunset, we began to finally get hungry. We both got up to go to the kitchen when I suddenly caught a scent in the air, a very familiar scent. That can only be one person.
"Ajika. It looks like we have an intruder."
"Actually, it's not an intruder. It's a friend of mine. Can I let her in?"
"Why not?"
We both walked towards the gate to greet our unannounced visitor. Once we were there, the gate opened on Hitomi's command. There before us stood a half fire, half water demon named Jellybean. I was about to hug her when she suddenly launched herself at me, toppling us both to the ground.
"Ajika! I finally found you! I miss you so much! Did ya miss me? Huh, did ya, did ya?! Ya know you did! Who wouldn't miss me? I'm lovable! Oh, who's this pretty lady? Is she your friend? How did ya meet?"
"One question at a time, Jellybean."
"Ajika. Who is this…energetic girl?"
"Her name is Naomi Kido. I call her Jellybean due to the fact that she always walks around with a bag of it whenever I see her. She's 160 years old, which is 16 in human years. We met when I was looking for Rin. She allowed me to stay with her on occasions when I needed shelter."
"What are jellybeans?"
"They are little oval shaped candies with many flavors. They are made in the future."
"Then how did Naomi get a hold of them?"
"Oh, well we both met up with a strange girl who was in trouble. We both killed the two snake demons that were after her, and she gave us jellybeans as a thank you. I gave my bag to Naomi, since she wouldn't give up asking me for it."
"I can't help it. I love jellybeans!"
"What I don't know is how she gets more of these jellybeans."
"Oh, well I taught myself how to make them out of fruit juice, sugar, and a whole bunch of other stuff."
"Well, anyway, we are getting off the subject. What are you doing here Jellybean?"
"Me, well, I was lonely once you left so I figured that I could help you look for Rin. I guess you already found her, right Aji?"
"Hai."
"Well, since you came all this way, why not stay here? I would like to get to know you better. You don't see a lot of blond haired, green-eyed youkai's around here."
"That is because I'm special. Is it alright for me to stay considering who this mansion belongs to?"
"Oh don't worry about that. By the way, my name is Hitomi. I'm the okasan of the youkai who lives here."
"Your son is Sesshoumaru?"
"Hai. I'm very proud of my son. Handsome, intelligent, calm Sesshoumaru. Just the perfect type for you, isn't he Ajika?"
"What?!"
"Ohhhhhhhhhhh, you mean that Sesshoumaru likes our Ajika?"
"That he does."
"That's great. I told you that you were going to meet someone on your journey Aji! See, I was right! I'm always right! You owe me a meal for our bet, Aji! Yeah, I get to eat Aji's food again. This is going to be great!"
"My, that girl is quite loud."
"Hai, but she is a breath of fresh air."
"Aw, arigato Aji. I didn't know that I was that special."
"Well, lets go inside. We need to prepare a room for Jellybean."
So the three of us entered the mansion and aired out on of the guess rooms for Jellybean. I keep asking Hitomi if Sesshoumaru will be angry having someone he doesn't know staying here, but she just tells me to not worry. All Jellybean does is stares in awe of the mansion. I guess living in a cave does that to you. Why do I feel like my life is going to be more hectic with Jellybean here?
"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! This room is so huge! Wow! What a big bed! The room has windows! Windows! Ahhhhhhhhhhhh! Look how big the closet is!"
…Yes, life is going to be livelier with Jellybean here.
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~Well, first off I would like to say that I'm sorry that I could not update as quickly as I wanted to. I'm also sorry that this chapter is so short. I'll make up for it in the next chapter. A month has pass already and I cannot believe that I didn't update. This pass month has been hectic for me. I have midterms left and right, quizzes up to ying yang, and term papers up to wazoo. I never got the chance to write my story. That's why I hate school so much. Anyway, the good news is that I only got one week left before my winter break starts so that means that I have two weeks to write anything I want for this fic! Doesn't that sound grand? I have two whole weeks to write more chapters for this fic. The last time I wrote four chapters in two weeks so I think I can do that again this month. I bet all of you are happy to hear that!
~ As for the characters that were given to me from the reviewers, I have good news and bad news. The good news is that I already know what to do with the ones that I received. All of you will be part of my story from this point on. The bad news is actually for anyone who is late with the character descriptions. As of today, I'm not accepting any more characters from my reviewers. I have all that I can handle already. I didn't think that so many people would want to be part of my cast. I feel so special. So please don't think me mean because of this.
~ I've notice that so issues in the story might be confusing for my readers so please, if you have questions, don't hesitate to ask me questions when you review. From now on, I'm going to comment on the reviews given to me.
-Reiji-Ah, my most faithful reviewer. Thank you for your concern about the fire thing. It's all contained right now, so there are no more problems here for me. Yes, I know that the chapters have been depressing lately, but that is intentional. It's supposed to be a story about people in pain who eventually find true happiness. I'm conflicted about the ending. The ending will probably be happy endings so don't worry about it. If find that I write better with sad dilemmas, so I'll try to write some happy ones to balance the story out. Thank you so much for your kind complements. Your reviews always bring a smile to my face.
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-An Anti-Sheep Cheese Muffin- Thank you, I try to make my flashbacks interesting and emotional. I'm pleased that you liked it.
-animebaby08060- As you can see, I've updated. I'll try to update more.
-HRHPrincessAri- You skipped chapter 1-3? I do that sometimes too (we are so bad). Anyway, I pleased to know that you enjoyed it as much as everyone else did. I know for sure that there will be more moments where Sess and his parents talk or argue some more. About Sess going in and out of character, that is intention. If you read carefully, Sess gets out of character only around people he loves like Ajika, Rin and his mother (notice that it is only around the women). When he is with his dad or Jaken, he becomes the same old Sess that we all know and love. You might also notice that when Sess is thinking, he never states himself in third person. It makes it easier that way, and anyway, no one really knows how he pronounces himself when he is thinking. Thanks for reading.
-Lunatic Pandora1- Don't worry, it all works out eventually.
~ Well, that's all of the reviewers J. Thanks for reviewing! I enjoy reading them all. Remember that after next week (maybe the 13th), I'll be updating more and more. Hope you enjoyed it. I got to go. Sayonara!