A/N: This is it… The chapter I've been dying to write, the chapter you guys have been bugging me about… ^_^ It's all there. You thought that was rally fast huh? Well, to be honest I've written this scene ages ago, but I kept revising it. I can't wait any longer to post it though, hence the really fast update.
Before you go on and read the chapter, PLEASE read these notes first, it's important.
I know that there's a lot stuff down there, but please take the time to read them; I'd feel a lot better if you did, as you'll understand exactly the emotions I'm trying to give out. And sorry if I'm wasting your time.
First of all, this chapter is strictly rated R. I don't think it should be considered as an NC-17 for reasons that I'll explain now.
Well… This chapter is somewhat of a lemon… I don't know how you guys feel about such stuff (BTW for anyone who doesn't know, a lemon is a story with graphic sexual content). I'm not really a big fan of them myself, but when I started writing this, I just couldn't resist the temptation of giving out many details :-)
Some lemons I've read (mostly in other sites) are graphic in a pornographic way. Meaning, that they are way too graphic; they give out every single detail and are usually written in a bit… cheap way, if you know what I mean. I tried to avoid this at all costs. I tried to write this story giving out lots of details, but in a more tasteful way. I believe I've made it, but of course the final judges are always the readers…
If any of you are offended by these I really apologize for this chapter. However, I highly recommend that you read it. First of all because I think it's pretty tasteful and second, because if you think it's pornographic you can tell me so that I can re-write it. Seriously, I won't mind. I really want you guys to enjoy this chapter, so if you don't like it feel free to tell me so, but please explain exactly what you didn't like so that I can improve in writing such stuff. Sorry if I'm getting annoying by all these, but it's the first time I write something like that, so I want it to be good.
If you still feel that you don't want to bother reading it, read up to the part that they kiss and leave the rest out. You won't miss anything in the plot, just keep in mind that well… they had sex :-)
Now, on the way that I wrote this… I couldn't have Seifer be too romantic, because as you've understood from the story he's only trying to get Quistis in bed… at first ;-) But I haven't made him totally cold-hearted either, as you've noticed that he's starting to change a bit… There were many more things I wanted to include in this chapter, but then it would really get pornographic, so I left them out.
The songs that I've included in this chapter are the following (in the order they appear): Marilyn Manson – Fundamentally loathsome, Deftones – Change (in the house of flies), Deftones – Digital bath. The first one is from the album 'Mechanical Animals', while the other two are from the album 'White Pony'. And of course I don't own any of them… Now I know what you're thinking… Rock music for a night like that?! Still, you'll find that it fits perfectly. I always imagined Seifer as the type who listens to rock music and I thought that even in a situation like this, he wouldn't think of putting any other music on. However, the songs that I've picked out are really good, as they are soft to create the romantic atmosphere, yet they have the strong parts to fit with the passion of making love. If you can get these songs or already own them, I'd highly recommend that you put them on while reading this; it'll be a totally different sensation. I know, 'cause I wrote the chapter while listening to them ^_^
Now on how you'll read this chapter… At the parts where music is involved, read the lyrics and imagine the stuff that is written right below happening at the same time. I hope you got it right…
If you bothered to read this, thank you very much for you patience. The notes were way too many, I know, but they were really important not to mention…
And now you can read the chapter! ^_^ I really hope you like it…
Chapter 10: Ladies and Gents, I'd like to introduce… Mr. Cupid!
Seifer opened up the door after a minute or so. "Right on time." he said smiling "Come in…" Quistis walked inside to something she hadn't expected at all. Seifer's room was really tidy and he had decorated it just for that night in a way that could be at least described as 'romantic'.
The lights were off and the entire room was lit by candles. There was a wonderful smell lingering in the atmosphere. Quistis guessed it came from all the candles that were burning. "Aroma candles…" said Seifer reading the expression on her face. Soft music was sounding inside the room.
- "So… What do you think?" he asked.
- "It's… amazing…" said Quistis in awe.
- "It's not really my style, but I thought it'd be nice just for tonight…" he said rubbing the back of his head awkwardly. 'Man… The things I do to get her in bed…' he thought.
- "You went through all this trouble just for tonight?" asked Quistis moved.
- "It wasn't really trouble…" he began, but stopped when Quistis hugged him.
She put her hands around his waist and rested her head on his chest. Seifer was surprised at first, but then put his arms around her too. He caressed her back and rested his head on her own. He closed his eyes and smelled her hair. Quistis drew back a bit, still holding his waist.
- "It's really beautiful… No-one has ever done that for me before…" she said.
- "Oh c'mon, you're making me blush…" he said mockingly, taking an expression which made Quistis laugh "Care for a drink?" he asked.
- "Sure. What've you got?" she asked.
- "I've got red wine." he said raising an eyebrow.
- "Hyne, that's so clichéd…" she said laughing, but she saw the mock-hurt expression on his face. "I'm kidding! Red wine's great…"
Seifer laughed as well and went to get the bottle and some glasses. Quistis sat down on his bed and looked around. Her eye fell on some posters on his walls. Seifer was soon back and sat down next to her, handing her a glass. He poured some wine in both glasses and put the bottle on the nightstand.
- "I didn't know you listened to rock music…" said Quistis taking a sip.
- "Yeah I do… How'd you guess?" he asked.
- "The posters on your walls…" said Quistis. "Tool, KoRn and… Manson…" she said taking a weird expression, which looked a lot like… disgust.
- "Why the grin?" he asked smiling.
- "Really… Manson?" she said taking the same expression.
- "What's wrong with him?" he asked amused.
- "Well… he's a… a freak!" she said.
- "A freak?" said Seifer laughing "Believe me; his appearance has nothing to do with his music. Besides, I think it's kinda cool…"
- "Don't they play hard rock?" asked Quistis.
- "Yeah, but they've got some songs I'm sure you'd like as well…" said Seifer drinking some wine.
- "I highly doubt that…"
- "Wanna bet?" he asked raising an eyebrow.
- "OK. If I listen to one single song and I like it, you've won…"
- "Good… You'll see later…" he said smiling.
- "What do you mean?" she asked puzzled.
- "You'll see…"
They spent some time drinking, looking at each other, listening to music.
- "Hey, we still haven't made a toast…" said Quistis at some point.
- "Hmmm, you're right…" said Seifer drinking the remainder of wine in his glass. "This calls for a refill…" he said filling their glasses.
- "To… the newest addition to the SeeD forces… finally…" said Quistis raising her glass.
- "To the reinstated Instructor…" said Seifer raising his own as well. "And…" he added "… to us…" he said smiling.
- "To us…" repeated Quistis
- "Cheers." they both said clinking their glasses. Seifer drank his wine at once.
- "Your turn…" he said.
- "Are you trying to get me drunk?" asked Quistis with a mischievous expression on her face.
- "Maybe…" he said with a similar expression. Quistis drank her wine as well. "Wanna dance?" he asked.
- "Thought you'd never ask…"
Seifer got their glasses and placed them on the nightstand next to the bottle. He walked over to the CD player and flipped a disk inside. He switched to the song he wanted and pushed the 'Pause' button. He walked over to Quistis and took her hand, pulling her close to him. He took her hands and put them around his neck, reached out to push the 'Play' button and put his hands on her waist. Just then, a waltz-like song began to fill the air and a familiar voice sounded in the room.
And I want to wake up in your white, white sun…
And I want to wake up in your world with no pain…
- "Hyne, is that…" said Quistis
- "Manson? Yes…" said Seifer smiling.
But I'll just suffer in a hope to die someday,
while you are numb all of the way…
- "It's… I think I like it…" she said grinning.
- "Told ya…" Seifer said grinning as well.
When I hate it, I know I can feel,
but when you love you know it's not real… No.
When I hate it, I know I can feel,
but when you love you know it's not real…
Quistis rested her head on Seifer's shoulder and he put his head against hers. They could both hear each other breathing. Quistis felt so safe being held in his strong arms, waltzing to a song of a band she never thought she would even try to listen to… Yet it all felt so right, is a so unorthodox way…
- "You look… great tonight…" Seifer said looking at her.
- "Thanks…" she said blushing. "You look really handsome in your uniform too…"
And I am resigned to this wicked, fucking, world
on it's way to hell…
The living are dead and I hope to join them too,
I know what to do and I do it well…
Quistis raised her head up from Seifer's shoulder and looked at him in the eyes. How could a guy so arrogant have such a gentle side in his character? It seemed so… not him, that she started worrying whether his behavior was genuine or not. Was he messing with her? Or was he finally showing his true self, the one he tried to hide from everyone else? The only person who'd gotten this close to him had been Rinoa and she always stood up for him when everyone else talked ill of him. Could it be that he actually had a sensitive heart after all? Seifer interrupted her thoughts when he took his right hand from her waist and caressed her cheek.
When I hate it, I know I can feel,
but when you love you know it's not real… No.
When I hate it, I know I can feel,
but when you love you know it's not real…
They kept on dancing slowly. At some point Seifer held her right hand tightly and pushed her gently into a dance figure (A/N: Like the one Squall and Rinoa did at the SeeD ballroom just before the fireworks). Quistis twirled away from him and then pulled his arm and twirled back in his arms. Seifer stopped the dance and looked at her, then slowly leaned in.
[Guitar solo]
They both closed their eyes and longed for what had been on the verge of happening for weeks. Seifer's upper lip touched her bottom one. She heard him take a deep breath and touch it with both lips. Quistis' half-open mouth, suddenly felt the interfering presence of his own. After barely touching her lips, he drew back just an inch. He took another deep breath, kept one hand on her waist, moved the other on her neck and kissed her once more. This time it was much more forceful and deep. His lips where pressing her own hard, his tongue was inside her mouth twirling around with hers. She felt her mind blur, her consciousness leaving her behind… She'd never been kissed like that before… She found herself getting totally into it, and put her hands on the back of his head, playing with his hair; it felt wonderful. After a while Seifer drew back and put his forehead against hers.
Shoot myself to love you…
If I loved myself I'd be shooting you
Uh, uh, uh… oh yeah…
Shoot myself to love you…
If I loved myself I'd be shooting you
Uh, uh, uh… oh yeah…
- "Finally…" he whispered.
- "Finally…" she repeated in a whisper as well, and holding the back of his head, she pulled him back into a kiss.
That last kiss seemed to have lasted for ages… The song ended and another soft tune filled the atmosphere.
I watched you change
Into a fly
I looked away
You were on fire
I watched a change in you
It's like you never had wings
Now you feel so alive
I've watched you change
Her hands were on his neck, his were on her waist, slowly moving everywhere, caressing her body. He gently dragged his mouth over to her neck and sucked hard on it. Quistis let out a small moan of pleasure. When he drew back she grabbed his back hair and pushed his face on hers, kissing him hard. His hands searched her back and her neck. When he found the knot of her straps, he untied it and pulled the dress down just a bit. He started kissing the revealed part of her chest, holding her thighs in his hands. Quistis undid the shirt of his SeeD uniform and started kissing his neck. Seifer pulled his shirt off and let it slip on the floor, then grabbed her waist again kissing her on the lips. This time, his hand moved onto the zipper of her dress.
I took you home
Set you on the glass
I pulled off your wings
Then I laughed
I watched a change in you
It's like you never had wings
Now you feel so alive
I've watched you change
She drew back from the kiss, and pulled up the sleeveless T-shirt he was wearing underneath. She threw it on the floor and put both hands on his chest. She started caressing his abs, carefully avoiding his bandages and looked at him. He moved her close to him and pulled her dress down to her waist. His hands went from there to her bra, where be started caressing her breasts, kissing her at the same time. Quistis let her dress slip all the way down and form a black circle on the floor. She put one leg behind Seifer's waist, which he greedily grabbed and then put her other one behind his waist as well. He held her up from the thighs and swiftly moved her towards the wall, pushing her back against it. She kissed his neck and sucked hard on it, just like he had done before. Seifer let out a small moan and moved one hand on the back of her bra.
It's like you never had wings…
Ahh – ah – aaah
With a quick move, he undid it and threw it on the floor. He moved his lips on her breasts and kissed them tenderly. Quistis put her arms around his neck and leaned her head back on the wall to enjoy it. She could feel 'something' bulging into the crotch of his pants. She removed her black slippers using her heels and let them fall on the floor. Seifer grabbed her thighs again and moved her to the bed.
I look at the cross
Then I look away
Give you the gun
Blow me away
He laid her with her back on it and got up. He took off his boots and lied onto her. He cupped her face with both hands and kissed her softly. Quistis caressed his back with her fingers lightly. She then slid her hands down to his pants, undoing his belt and zipper. Seifer pulled them down with one hand, while holding her neck with the other, kissing it.
I watched a change in you
It's like you never had wings
Now you feel so alive
I've watched you change
And you feel alive
You feel alive
I've watched you change
He moved his hands to her panties and pulled them down. He kissed her chest bone and slowly made his way down to her belly-button. He licked it playfully and gave it a peck. Quistis pulled him back up from his arms and kissed him hard. Seifer released his hands and pulled down his boxers. He took a moment to look at her, cherishing every inch of her beautiful naked body and gave her a meaningful look. Quistis bit her bottom lip gently and held his cheek with one hand.
It's like you never had wings…
Ahh – ah – aaah
You change
…I'm over…
He held her hand inside his own and leaned in again to kiss her. Another song began to play, after that one had ended as well…
You move - like I want to
To see - like your eyes do
We are…downstairs
Where no one can see
New life - break away
Tonight…
Seifer put his hands against the bed and raised his torso a bit. Then he moved down to kiss her neck and entered her. Quistis felt a sharp pain at first and dug her nails on his back hard, letting out a moan of mixed pain and pleasure. Seifer groaned a bit in pain, but didn't stop; he began thrusting slowly. Quistis held him tightly from the back, closing her eyes. With one hand, he lifted one of her legs on the back of his waist. Quistis lifted the other one as well and crossed them behind his back. As Seifer went on, the pain began to gradually lessen and the pleasure began to increase.
I feel like more
Tonight I…
Seifer started thrusting a bit harder while kissing her at the same time. He drew back from the kiss and looked at her.
We make the water warm
You taste - foreign
And I know - you can see
The cord - break away
'Cause tonight…
She had her eyes closed and she was moaning harder now. He kissed her forehead and pulled away a lock that was on her face. She opened her eyes and looked at him, reaching up to kiss him. His mouth tasted warm and welcome, his scent was that of mixed sweat and cologne. He drew back and put his forehead against hers, going on thrusting.
I feel like more
Tonight…I feel like more
Feel like more
Tonight…
She felt his heavy breath falling hot and steamy on her face and she was sure he could feel hers the exact same way. He moved his lips on her earlobe and licked it lustily, sending the sound of his moans directly into her ear, driving her crazy.
You breathed - then you stopped
I breathed - and dried you off
Suddenly, Seifer stopped and looked at her. He took her arms from his back, laid them on the bed and drove his palms on them until they met hers.
[Guitar screech]
And tonight I… feel
Feel like more
Oh! Tonight I feel like…
I feel like more
Tonight I feel like more
I feel like more
He grasped them, stretched her arms and began thrusting hard now. Quistis tightened the grasp as she felt her insides erupting. They were both sweaty and their bodies were sliding onto one another. They were on fire and Seifer kept thrusting harder and harder… Moans, sighs and heavy breaths sounded in the room. They were reaching their own kind of ecstasy, faster and faster and faster…
Tonight…
Quistis felt an explosion taking place inside her, then Seifer suddenly stopped and so did the music.
He pressed his arms against the bed and slid out of her. He reached down to kiss her once more. Quistis held the back of his wet from the sweat hair and played with them. He fell heavy onto her chest and rested his head on it. They were both breathing fast and were drenched in sweat. Quistis put one hand on the back of his neck, while the other caressed his back.
- "Was this…" said Seifer between heavy breaths "… your first time?" he asked her.
- "Mmm…" mumbled Quistis closing her eyes; she felt exhausted.
- "You should have told me…" he said "Did it hurt?"
- "Just a little bit at first…" she replied softly "Speaking of pain… What about your wound on the ribs? Didn't that hurt?" she asked.
- "Like a bitch…" he said laughing lightly "But I think your nails did the most amount of damage …" he said closing his eyes as well.
- "Aw, you poor baby…" said Quistis sliding a hand through his hair.
Seifer sat up with his back on the wall. Quistis moved over next to him and hugged him from the waist, resting her head on his chest. Seifer pulled a sheet from underneath them and covered themselves up. Then he reached over to the nightstand and grabbed his cigarettes. He lit one and took a big whiff. Quistis closed her eyes, ready to fall asleep and sighed deeply.
- "So…Did you like it?" he asked, exhaling smoke.
- "Very much…" she said "Did you?"
- "Very, very much…" he replied giving her a light peck on her hair.
- "Can you do me a favor and set the alarm to ring in an hour or so? I don't want to fall asleep… Unless you want me to go now…" said Quistis.
- "Nah, stay…"
Quistis gave him a kiss on the chest and slowly drifted off to sleep. Seifer took a moment to look at her. She was really beautiful. I almost hurt him having to let her go… Hurt? What was he talking about? Women couldn't hurt him… Not anymore at least… But did Quistis really have to pay for it? What if he left in the morning? He was a SeeD now, he could get a job anywhere… However, he felt something keeping him there…
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The time was past 2:30 after midnight when the door of Seifer's dorm opened. Seifer poked his head outside and looked around to see any sign of movement. No-one was there. Then, he emerged to the door wearing his boxers only and signaled Quistis to come out. She came out fully dressed, holding her heels in one hand. She looked around cautiously as well.
- "It's all clear, you can go." whispered Seifer "Are you sure you don't want me walking you there?" he asked.
- "No, we'll be in much more trouble if they see us together." she replied "Besides, my room's not far away."
- "OK. Good night, sleep well…" said Seifer holding her face, kissing her.
- "Good night…" she said smiling at him.
Quietly, she walked on the tip of her toes down the corridor and soon disappeared from sight.
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A/N: So… What did you think? :-/ I know I'm being really picky on this certain chapter, but as I've already told you it was the first time I wrote something like this… Please let me know what you thought, good or bad. I'll say again; if you didn't like it I can always re-write it. I don't know if you liked the way Seifer behaved after the… deed, but I really want to make his change gradual. I mean, it's more than obvious that he's staring to see things differently, but he's still confused about what he feels and doesn't want to show any emotion.
And BTW the story is far from reaching an end. I'm saying that 'cause I always read about Seiftis stories that end just when they get together, but I really wanted to read about how things are afterwards. So there's plenty more to write!
ON THE NEXT CHAPTER OF 'LOVE CONQUERS ALL':
It's the next day for our two heroes… They have to keep their relationship a secret though… Let's see how they'll do…
Also… The first mission for Seifer as a SeeD comes up…