Okay………I got some reviews!! Yeah!!! Lol. Anyways, this is Albus Dumbledore's thought on the whole matter………ummm………Oh yeah, and let me answers the reviews:
kateydidnt: Thanks for the review!! And for the question about Snape………well………you'll see!! Lol.
A.Dee the Anglophile: Well, to tell you the truth, I really don't know how I can only have one review and four chapters. Lol. Anyways, I'm very glad you enjoyed it. Oh yeah, I read YOUR Sirius fic, and it's very good, only sad. I'm sure you saw my review………you really predicted the future!!
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Sirius: My Fallen Hero: I LOVE this name!! (Sirius: My Fallen Hero) it totally fits how I feel. He IS my hero, and he DID "fall". *SNIFF*(Actually, he did, you know, through the veil?? Lol. ) Anyways, Thanks for telling me how "great" you think it is!!
Okay, that was all the reviews. You know what's really surprising and sort of scary? For ALL my stories, there hasn't yet been a review that was a "bad" comment. Lol, they were all supportive and pleasant. Can you believe that? I would have thought that there was at least one person who didn't like at least ONE story………lol……
Albus Dumbledore ~ Age
Albus read the letter that Remus had sent him. He smiled, but only slightly. Hermione Granger was certainly a very clever girl. She almost understood how Remus and Harry felt. Almost. But she would never completely understand. No one would, no even Albus himself. Some people would be surprised at this. Practically everyone thought that "wise old Dumbledore" knew everything. Sometimes, it seemed like that. But it wasn't true. Albus just had his sources.
"Wise" would certainly not describe Dumbledore. Yes, maybe he looked wise. Yes, maybe he was clever. But clever and wise are two separate, different things. Clever is intelligence. It is how smart you are, how fast your mind works. And wise? Wise is experience. Wise is what you know, with nothing to do with intelligence. And Albus was not wise.
If he was, then many things would be different.
Sirius wouldn't be dead.
Harry and Remus would not be feeling all this pain.
Albus knew that Harry most likely didn't blame him for the loss of Sirius. He blamed himself. But Albus knew the truth.
It was, of course, his fault.
Albus had explained it to Harry before. But most obviously, Harry didn't listen. He was causing more pain for himself by not listening. Albus had felt so guilty. He still did. He wished that Harry had shouted more at him, he deserved it. Why didn't Harry do so? Why didn't he try to hurt him? But no, Harry had yelled for a few minutes, and then sat down, almost calmly.
If Albus had told Harry everything from the start, then Harry would have understood a lot of things. He probably, no, definitely wouldn't have gone to rescue Sirius. But Albus was a fool, and didn't tell Harry.
Albus also should have given Harry more support, shouldn't have ignored Harry all that time. Most likely, it wouldn't have made Harry feel so vulnerable. He should have given Harry Occlumency lessons instead of Severus. Harry trusted him more, and would have found it easier to close his mind than he did with Severus. And Severus………Severus had no intention of teaching Harry, giving him extra lessons. And yet, he had done it. Just because Albus had asked him to, no doubt.
Albus sighed. He felt so weighed-in. He felt that he would like nothing else than for the world to crumble on top of him. He truly wanted it to end. But he couldn't make it. That was in Fate's hands.
He did wish, however, that there was someone that he could talk to. Someone like him, who had not felt so much agony as Harry and Remus, but pain nerveless. Severus would not do. He was not affected at all about Sirius' death. Albus sighed. Childhood enmity could bring so many terrible things.
Who else? Minerva? But no, Minerva was at a meeting about Voldemort in London. Albus would have wanted to go, but he was still dazed by the events before. So Minerva had gone for him.
Minerva was gone, but not gone completely! Albus could write to her. For a moment, Albus considered this childish. Albus was desperate to talk to someone, but this desperate in writing a letter to explain his grief! But no, Albus needed to do this. Swiftly getting out a piece of parchment, quill, and ink, he wrote:
Minerva,
It may seem foolish for me to be writing to you, but I needed to confide in someone. Sirius' death had cause unnatural grief inside of me, and talking to someone seemed the best idea to cope. Please answer my letter. I do not care if it is short or long.
Albus
Albus looked at the letter that he had just composed in his hand. It was definitely childish. Very childish. If someone had seen this letter, they would not have believed it to be by Albus. It seemed so………comical. Albus sighed. He went to Fawkes, who woke up from his light doze, and gave the letter to him. With a flash, he had gone . He had already known that it was to Minerva.
Closing his eyes tiredly, Albus sank back into his chair.
He was getting too old. Age was sinking into him.
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YES!!! YES!!! FINALLY DONE THIS CHAPTER!!!!!! YES!!!!! Lol, anyways, I'm sorry that this took so long for me to write, I've been VERY busy. Also, I have three stories that people are waiting for me to update on, so……lol. Anyways, I hope you all keep on reviewing, because the reviews help me a lot. So………review!! lol.