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Alastor (Mad-Eye) Moody ~ Drunk 'n CrazyAlastor sat in his chair, his wooden leg propped up on the table. He was swinging from his hip flask, and his magical eye was swirling around in his head. Alastor felt depressed.
He didn't know why he felt that, because it just wasn't like him. Many people he knew would even be surprised to hear that he had a heart. Alastor knew this, and that was most likely why he was all petulant all the time. No one noticed him when he was nice! He never killed anyone, always brought them in alive, even the filthy Death Eaters.
And now… now Sirius was dead, and everyone was sure to blame it on him. "Oh yeah," they'd say. "Mad-Eye Moody's always cranky, and so selfish and mean! Let's use him for the scapegoat! We'll just tell everyone that it was Mad-Eye's fault that Sirius Black died!"
Alastor shook his head. He mind was going crazy again. Probably because he was drunk. He really needed to stop drinking. But Alastor couldn't help it. He felt like his booze was the only thing worth living for, now that Sirius Black had died. Alastor sighed, and his magical eye fell upon the letter that was opened up in front of him.
It was from Kingsley. Shacklebolt wanted him to go comfort Albus Dumbledore. How the hell was he supposed to do that? Didn't anyone realize that Alastor had feelings too? Did anyone respect them? No, no one did. No one realized that Alastor must be suffering the most. At least, besides Remus and Potter. But they had absolutely nothing to worry about. They just suffered. But Alastor? He was weighed down by grief, like everyone else. But, unlike everyone else, he was also weighed down by culpability.
Because, after all, it was his fault that Sirius had died.
All right, he had to admit. It might not be his entire fault. But he was part of the reason.
Wasn't it Alastor who told everyone to bugger off and let Sirius go to the Department of Mysteries on the day that Harry went there? Wasn't it Alastor who had passed out just because of a stupid Stunning Spell? He wasn't there to help out the others.
If…if Alastor had agreed with Remus in keeping Sirius at Grimmauld Place, then everyone would have been okay. Everyone would have been fine. Hurt, perhaps, but fine.
Or…if Alastor had dodged that Stunning Spell shot by Dolohov, then everything would have been okay. He could have cursed Dolohov, and then gone to help the others, to help Sirius.
Alastor shook his head. It was too late now. He couldn't do anything to stop the tragedy. He wished he could, but he couldn't.
And now…Dumbledore……he was supposed to help Dumbledore cope, when he himself was seconds away from tearing into his own soul.
Sighing, Alastor decided that he might as well go and talk to Dumbledore. Perhaps they could work everything out together. As he got up to leave, he noticed a picture that had fallen to the ground.
Picking it up, Alastor smiled. It was the picture of the new Order, taken just weeks before Sirius fell through the veil. Maybe…maybe one day, Moody would be pointing at every person in the picture again, telling some other young boy about the people, who they were, and how they were ripped apart from the world.
One person in particular caught Alastor's attention. It was Tonks. She was blowing a huge bubble, and it wouldn't pop. Soon…it filled a sixth of the picture, and people were edging away from her, giving her disgruntled looks.
Alastor smiled again. Tonks was so young, and carefree. She always was happy about everything, and tried to make the best of anything that came her way.
Alastor's head snapped up. He would write to Tonks! Tonks was so bubbly all the time, and Alastor envied that. Perhaps Tonks could help him in a way!
Quickly taking a piece of parchment, he wrote,
Tonks,
After what happened recently, I've been feeling a bit depressed. I am just about to go and talk to Dumbledore, but, I was thinking, maybe, sometime after, you would fancy a chat about Sirius. Thank you.
Mad-Eye
Looking at his work, Alastor grinned yet again. He always signed himself as "Mad-Eye", as everyone called him that anyway. Calling his owl down, he gave it the letter, telling him it was for Nymphadora Tonks.
After watching the owl flying away, Alastor took another draft of his booze, and sauntered out of the room, looking strange, as he wobbled around.
He knew he was wobbling, though, and he knew why. He was crazy and drunk, all from guilt.
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Okay, ummm…I guess I should say this, to any of you who have weird minds (lol, just kidding, but for people who think I'm weird…): Mad-Eye is NOT asking Tonks out on a date!! It's just a little talk about Sirius!! Lol…anyways……
Also: I need help!! I have suddenly been shocked in finding that I don't know anyone who should receive a "letter" now. So…does anyone have any ideas? I was thinking Molly Weasley, and I might, actually! But does anyone have anyone else in mind? Besides Sirius, I mean (hint, hint). Well, someone sensible. I suppose I could write about Draco Malfoy, because it sort of was his fault, but you know, it'll be weird, because I don't think he'd be feeling guilty. Anyways, suggestions are needed! I don't really care how weird the idea is!! Lol.
As you all know, updates will be a little slower. But, I'm definitely not giving up!! So stick to this like glue!! Lol. Anyways…yeah…lol.
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