I DON'T OWN GUNDAM WING!!!
DO NOT READ UNLESS YOU CAN HANDLE BLOOD, GORE, AND THE DARKNESS OF THE
MIND!!! RATED R PEOPLE!!!
"FIGURE.09" By Linkin Park
Fan fic part by Terry Yuy
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[nothing ever stops all these thoughts
and the pain attached to them
sometimes I wonder why this is happening
its like nothing I can do will distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
cause from the infinite words I could say/ I
put all the pain you gave to me on display/
but what I didn't realize / instead of setting it free / I
took what I hated and made it part of me]
(it never goes away)
[hearing your name / the memories come back again
I remember when it started happening
is see you in every thought I had and then
the thoughts slowly found words attached to them
and I knew as they escaped away I was
committing myself to them / and every day I
regret saying those things / cause now I see / that I
took what I hated and made it a part of me]
Heero Yuy sat straight up in his bed, heart racing as sweat beaded and ran
down his pale skin. He had that same dream again. Scarred hands came up
to cup his face as his upper torso bent forward, his legs in a diamond
shape as he hid his face in his sheets. Not again. Why now? Why after
all this time of peace? The images of the dream flashed in his eyes once
again and he thrashed his arms, getting out of his bed. His child hood,
his missions, all the people he's killed coming out of an inky blackness
that surrounds him, hands grabbing and tearing at his clothing. He
screamed, not being able to tell the dream from reality anymore, suddenly
being thrown into a world of darkness. He'd followed all the orders from
Dr. J. These people had every right to hate him, to come after his life
and extract their revenge.
In his madness of thrashing, he slammed into his closet, it falling in
front of his bedroom door, pounding from outside soon following accompanied
by worried yells and shouts from the other pilots, whom were staying at
Relena's mansion after a mission with the Preventers. He didn't even hear
them, just the yells and cries of all he'd killed, all those that he'd
watched die! Dr. J's laughter filled his head. "Stupid boy! This is what
you wanted! This is your own hell! You wanted to kill! You yearned for
it!" The laughter continued as Heero gave a yell of horror, thrashing and
turning over his bed, blocking his door worse, the shouts from outside
getting louder and more concerned as loud bangs from furniture can be heard
as they try to break down the door.
(it never goes away)
[and now
you've become a part of me
you'll always be right here
you've become a part of me
you'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from what I've done
I've given up on a part of me
I've let myself become you]
[get away from me
gimme my space back / you gotta just go
everything comes down to memories of you
I've kept it in but now I'm letting you know
I've let you go]
He saw a reflection in the mirror of his room, although he didn't know it
was his reflection in a mirror, his mind believing he was in the ink of his
dream. He saw his reflection suddenly pull out a knife, the little girl
coming into view from his childhood. His face contorted to one of a
sinister smile, stabbing the girl in the head, dragging the knife down from
her temple to her lower abdomen, slashing outward, blood spraying. His
voice cracked as his screams issued forth, his body covered in the blood.
He struck out at his laughing reflection with it's knife dripping blood,
the girls dead and tortured form on the ground, a pool of her blood
growing. The reflection shattered, each piece holding a laughing self. He
didn't feel the cuts on his arms until he looked down, a large piece of
glass sticking out of his left wrist.
[GET AWAY FROM ME
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become lost inside these
thoughts of you
giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you]
His eyes darted from the girl, to his many reflections, to the shaft of
glass in his arm. In an urge of rage, he grabbed the glass and drug it up
his arm. It was the only way to end this! The only way to stop his
suffering and theirs! He gave a yell as she slashed his right wrist with
the same glass, cutting from the wrist up his arm to the elbow. He heard
the loud crash as his fellow pilots managed to break the door in, Relena's
scream as she caught site of Heero's room and himself. He gave an unstable
laugh. "It's over! It's finally over!" Before any of them could react, he
took the shard of mirror, holding it in both hands in front of him,
stabbing it into his stomach, slashing it to the left and out. He
collapsed forward, smile permanently on his face as his eyes clouded over
forever.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Well?
DO NOT READ UNLESS YOU CAN HANDLE BLOOD, GORE, AND THE DARKNESS OF THE
MIND!!! RATED R PEOPLE!!!
"FIGURE.09" By Linkin Park
Fan fic part by Terry Yuy
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
[nothing ever stops all these thoughts
and the pain attached to them
sometimes I wonder why this is happening
its like nothing I can do will distract me when
I think of how I shot myself in the back again
cause from the infinite words I could say/ I
put all the pain you gave to me on display/
but what I didn't realize / instead of setting it free / I
took what I hated and made it part of me]
(it never goes away)
[hearing your name / the memories come back again
I remember when it started happening
is see you in every thought I had and then
the thoughts slowly found words attached to them
and I knew as they escaped away I was
committing myself to them / and every day I
regret saying those things / cause now I see / that I
took what I hated and made it a part of me]
Heero Yuy sat straight up in his bed, heart racing as sweat beaded and ran
down his pale skin. He had that same dream again. Scarred hands came up
to cup his face as his upper torso bent forward, his legs in a diamond
shape as he hid his face in his sheets. Not again. Why now? Why after
all this time of peace? The images of the dream flashed in his eyes once
again and he thrashed his arms, getting out of his bed. His child hood,
his missions, all the people he's killed coming out of an inky blackness
that surrounds him, hands grabbing and tearing at his clothing. He
screamed, not being able to tell the dream from reality anymore, suddenly
being thrown into a world of darkness. He'd followed all the orders from
Dr. J. These people had every right to hate him, to come after his life
and extract their revenge.
In his madness of thrashing, he slammed into his closet, it falling in
front of his bedroom door, pounding from outside soon following accompanied
by worried yells and shouts from the other pilots, whom were staying at
Relena's mansion after a mission with the Preventers. He didn't even hear
them, just the yells and cries of all he'd killed, all those that he'd
watched die! Dr. J's laughter filled his head. "Stupid boy! This is what
you wanted! This is your own hell! You wanted to kill! You yearned for
it!" The laughter continued as Heero gave a yell of horror, thrashing and
turning over his bed, blocking his door worse, the shouts from outside
getting louder and more concerned as loud bangs from furniture can be heard
as they try to break down the door.
(it never goes away)
[and now
you've become a part of me
you'll always be right here
you've become a part of me
you'll always be my fear
I can't separate myself from what I've done
I've given up on a part of me
I've let myself become you]
[get away from me
gimme my space back / you gotta just go
everything comes down to memories of you
I've kept it in but now I'm letting you know
I've let you go]
He saw a reflection in the mirror of his room, although he didn't know it
was his reflection in a mirror, his mind believing he was in the ink of his
dream. He saw his reflection suddenly pull out a knife, the little girl
coming into view from his childhood. His face contorted to one of a
sinister smile, stabbing the girl in the head, dragging the knife down from
her temple to her lower abdomen, slashing outward, blood spraying. His
voice cracked as his screams issued forth, his body covered in the blood.
He struck out at his laughing reflection with it's knife dripping blood,
the girls dead and tortured form on the ground, a pool of her blood
growing. The reflection shattered, each piece holding a laughing self. He
didn't feel the cuts on his arms until he looked down, a large piece of
glass sticking out of his left wrist.
[GET AWAY FROM ME
I've let myself become you
I've let myself become lost inside these
thoughts of you
giving up a part of me
I've let myself become you]
His eyes darted from the girl, to his many reflections, to the shaft of
glass in his arm. In an urge of rage, he grabbed the glass and drug it up
his arm. It was the only way to end this! The only way to stop his
suffering and theirs! He gave a yell as she slashed his right wrist with
the same glass, cutting from the wrist up his arm to the elbow. He heard
the loud crash as his fellow pilots managed to break the door in, Relena's
scream as she caught site of Heero's room and himself. He gave an unstable
laugh. "It's over! It's finally over!" Before any of them could react, he
took the shard of mirror, holding it in both hands in front of him,
stabbing it into his stomach, slashing it to the left and out. He
collapsed forward, smile permanently on his face as his eyes clouded over
forever.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Well?