Chapter 4
Spike woke up abruptly.
He looked around the room, hoping to see Buffy, as she had been in his dream, but nothing was in his room. He looked at the clock beside the table and realized it was only 10am.
He put his head down, in his hands.
She had been there, as beautiful as ever. She had touched him. What did she want him to do? Oh yeah, tell the others what he told Dawn.
No problem luv, he thought, I was gonna tell them anyway.
Thinking of Dawn, he got up and walked to Dawn's room...as he walked across the hallway, he felt that strange sensation again. He quickened his pace, but opened her door softly. Only to find Dawn sound asleep and Buffy standing over her, looking down at her lovingly.
If he had a beating heart, it would have stopped then.
Buffy sensed his presence...and turned his way.
She was still surrounded by that soft white light and rainbow colored fringes and he could still see somewhat through her.
He thought she had never looked more beautiful.
She smiled, as if she knew what he was thinking...and then she stepped forward to him.
He was afraid it was another dream, so he stepped back...to delay the message and keep her there longer.
She laughed silently. She knew what he was doing.
Spike looked a little sheepish for getting caught. But he never took his blue gaze off her.
She reached him using some supernatural speed that he couldn't counteract.
She glanced back at her sister on the bed, then walked past him, turning to tell him, "Follow me."
She led him back to his room/ Joyce's old room.
There she sat down on the bed and patted next to her for him to sit. He did slowly. If he was loosing his mind...he was happy, but he wanted this pleasure/torture to stay, plague him for his as long as possible, please. Just don't let her go anytime soon..
"I don't have all that much time William," she gave him a bright smile. "Sit."
Spike sat down. So overwhelmed, that he couldn't even pretend he cared about his name or Big Bad image.
"Thank you for looking after Dawn."
"I didn't do all that great, " he said dropping his head. "If I had done better, you wouldn't have had to die."
She leaned forward and touched him, bringing his chin up, so he would have to look her in the eyes.
Her touch was warm and caressing, even though she lightly held his chin.
"You. Did. Great."
"No, I didn't," he said tears welling up in his eyes as he pulled away from her, turning his head. " I couldn't save you."
"Spike..."
"I messed up. I was supposed to look after Dawn cause you told me too, and cause I love her and cause she's a part of you...and I was supposed to look after you because I love you so much. And I failed..."
"Spike, look at me."
Spike turned his head to look at her.
"You were wonderful, the way you stood up to Doc, for my sister and...for me. Thank you Spike," she said, leaning forward and giving him a light kiss on his lips.
Spike was in shock for a few minutes, then he tried to pull her closer...to feel her warmth again...only his hands went through her.
Spike was confused for a second...then he remembered...and sighed.
"I miss you all too," Buffy said silently.
He looked back at her.
"Everyone misses you, pet."
"Including the former Big Bad?"
"Don't joke pet...You know I miss you."
"Yeah Spike...I know. I...heard. And I got your last kiss on my way up."
Spike looked over at her.
"I wish I could kiss you now...I wish so many things Buffy."
"I wish...I came to tell you some things."
"Wait...what do you wish?"
"I can't get into that right now."
"Please, Slayer...Buffy...please."
"Let me tell you what you need to know...do first...then I promise I'll tell you."
"Okay. Shoot."
"One: Dawn is the Key..."
"Buffy, we already know that."
"Not to that...to me."
"Oh..."
"Don't interrupt. Now where was I...oh yeah. One: Dawn is the Key; Two: Tell Giles to look in the Codex, Three: This is where you'll probably have the most trouble, two things are needed, but I've given you too much already. Look in the Codex...or ask Angel about his scroll and Sean's shoes."
"Sean's shoes? Do you mean Shanshu?"
"Yeah...something funny sounding like that. Get Angel to let you look at the scroll that speaks about Shanshu and mentions a souled vampire. They both should have the two final things on it."
"Alright...will do, even though I'm so no looking forward to a visit with the Great Nancy poof."
"Behave Spike."
Spike chuckled.
"Now ducks...what did you wish?"
"Oh...I figured you might forget about that one."
"Not a chance...come on...you can tell me."
Buffy chuckled. She leaned closer to him and said simply...
"I wish that you could kiss me too."
Spike turned to look at her with shock on his face. Buffy winked at him and disappeared.
TBC…