Chapter 8- Hate-filled
YaY! An angst chapter! Mhm I thought I would try it out ^^ Don't worry my future chappys won't be filled with so much angst, unless you wish it to be ^^: I don't think it'll work out though...Oh and I saw Shadow Dance! And it was the first time and Kurt he said "I'm what you see" Gaspst! I had nooo...idea!
"Kurt please talk to me!" Kitty tried to reach me, pulling her hood over her head every few minutes.
"Yust leafe me alone!" I shouted clutching at my head "I'm fine! When hafen't I been? Please...yust leafe me alone..." I pushed myself into a stride, trying to get away. "It's not like it's the first time, Kitty!" I gave her a smile. Kitty frowned and shoved me.
"Don't give me your phony smiles Nightcrawler!" I glared at her but kept a steady grin on my face.
"Kitty, all my zmiles are true. I've learned that people will never..." I broke of confused on what I was saying. "Eh Kitty, I have to, um go...and...yea." Kitty gave me a quizzical look but I bamfed before she could say anything.
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Will people be able to accept me? Of course they will! Kitty managed and so did the rest of the X-Men. A little voice nagged in the back of my mind 'But they are mutants, it was easier for them.' I shook my head I was not going to this! I was not going to start separating humans and mutants! I was not going to turn out like...mother.
I shuddered involuntary at the thought. Part of me wanted to love her like a real mother, but the other part...
"Hope." The trees seemed to rustle. I shook my head, and made myself to *my* tree. It was on the grounds of the Institute of course. I clambered up the tree and watched the moon rise, people would start looking for me soon. I sighed and thought of the things people called me in the past when the first saw me: Rat, demon, devil, oh please don't hurt me! Monster, and my favorite-O MY F***ING SH*T WHAT THE F*** IS THAT!? That one happened on the subway, 'nuff said. (A/N I tried, but Kurt ain't like that! I'll keep tryin though ;_;)
"Elf?" I heard Herr Logan's voice cut through the forest and I tensed up, I did not want to be found. "Elf, no use hidin I've got your scent bub, com' back home. Can't hide forever, I know I've tried." I snorted and then cursed myself for giving myself away. I sighed and jumped off the tree, but not with my usual grace.
"Herr Logan! Vhy vhat are you doing here?" I bowed "I'm blezzed that you would come to look for me!" I gave him my best grin and straightened myself up. "Anything I can help you with?" I know I was pushing myself with him but I didn't care, I was tired...of everything.
"Elf." Logan warned, with an edge of concern in his voice.
"Oui?" Logan looked taken aback at that.
"That doesn't sound German." He said with a smile. I rolled my eyes and swung myself back on the tree using my tail.
"German izn't the only language I know...not like anyone cares." I muttered the last part under my breath, unfortunately 'The Wolverine' has very good hearing. Wolverine came up to my branch and I quickly shifted my weight, hoping he would just leave me be.
"Being alone won't help Elf."
"We are a team! We will never leave one behind!" I mocked Scott. "Please, zafe the BS for right now. I like being in a bad mood." Wolverine growled at that.
"Shut up kid, I'm the one that's supposed ta have the bad attitude." I looked at him from the corner of my eye and then smiled.
"When did I dizagree with you? Can't I hafe one bad mood?" I started to laugh. "Yust one? Please?" I laughed even harder. "YUST ONE!" I shouted still laughing. Logan looked confused and he looked like he was about to grab me. I dodged and wagged my finger at him. "No little Volfie! I'm fine!" My laughter started to fade and my eyes started to tear up. "I'm fine..." I coughed out. I then cleared my throat "Excuse me..." I muttered.
"Better?" I jerked my head towards his voice and nodded slowly. "Elf, we've all got to let our feelings out sometime, as much as I hate ta admit. We all have different ways of handling it." Logan raised his eyebrow and lit up a smoke. I watched the flames flicker in the darkness and turned back towards the moonlight. It seemed so much brighter. He sighed and blew out a puff of smoke.
"I'll leave ya alone fer now Elf, but I'll be looking for you at curfew!"
"Ja, ja. Thanks for trying...Volfie." Logan stopped walking away and froze in place. I gulped audibly and chuckled nervously "Vhat? Do volfies and elfes not get along?" He turned and gave me a smirk.
"Naw, they get along just fine." He laughed gruffly. I grinned in confusion and gave him a thumbs-up. Logan was sure acting weird...
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Finally! Peace and qui-
MWROOWWLL!
I sighed. How is it that I always manage to speak to soon!?
"Ah I hate 'em durn cats!" I heard Rogue rustle through the bushes and birds flutter at her clatter. I stayed silent and prayed that she would just steer clear of me. I didn't need any more lectures "Kurt? Where are ya? I'm not leavin till I find ya, so might as well come out!" I took a deep breath and silently crept up behind her and tapped her on the shoulder. She jumped 50 feet in the air and turned to face me with an expression that made the world shudder.
"Jesus Kurt! Tryin' ta scare me ta death? I can hardly see ya right now and you do a thing like that!" Her expression seemed to calm down and I gestured with an apologetic twitch of my tail.
"I'm zorry, I----couldn't help my zelf." I gave her one of my famous grins and opened up my arms "Come, you're zo much zofter than Herr Logan is." She gave me an odd look and finally her face dawned with realization.
"But Kurt I can't-"
"I'll be careful." I gave her a lop-sided smile but she still wouldn't come. I put my arms back to my side and started to rock back and forth on my feet.
"Don't trust me, mein Schwester?" I asked smiling. Rogue looked at me with a horrified look on her face.
"No, it's not like that! It's just the Proffessor-"she flickered her eyes downward. I stopped my rocking and understood.
"The Profezzor!?" I could feel anger boiling inside of me, and started to chuckle once more. "He thinks that I-I vould do that? He zays he trusts me...but does he really!!? Oh, Kurt ve're a big family and ve trust one another! Bull! He can't even trust me vith my own zister!" I stopped my ranting and watched Rogue for a second and I blew out a puff of air. "I'm zorry, it's yust...to think that the Professor would even believe I vould do anything like that..." I broke off not knowing where I was going.
"It all right, I understand. The Professor, he can be a real jerk at times." She came up to me and hugged me. I wrapped my tail around her covered arm and squeezed it.
"Come on Kurt let's get ya inside. We need ta get you prepared for school tomorrow." My ears perked up at this.
"Z-zchool? They're still making me go to zchool? But-eferyone knows who I am! I'll be killed!" I whined. I didn't really enjoy school all that much before, but there was no way that I was going back now!
"Come on Kurt, I'll be with ya the whole way, and don't worry, everything will be just fine."
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Famous last words there Rogue. When does Kurt get to go California you're askin? Probably either next chapter or the one after ^^ Wow! Forty Reviews! I love you guys!
…I have a question, how old do you think I am? I'm just wonderin, 'cause people can't seem to guess my age ^^ (in real life) So if you guess right (and no cheatin)… I'll try to draw a special pic for ya, only one guess though. The pic can be of anything ya want, unless I have something against it XD I'm doing this because I want to say thank you and I want it to be done in a very special way ^^ If two people guess it a pic for each! It'll be good, don't worry ^^ Hopefully I'll get my scanner workin in time ^_^
Mutters: Gee what have I gotten myself into…
Onto review thanks!
jacombo: No problem! I'm glad you liked how his fur grew back darker ^^ Heh it seemed that people didn't guess that comin XD Thank you so much for everything!
Remedy: Thank you! I'm glad you liked ^^ I hope to see more of Christmas fic soon! Thanks again! Oh and this may sound really sad, but I loved your corny joke ^_^ My sense of humor is quite simple, but I still love the good stuff! Thanks again!
Translator: Danke! Sie sind sehr liebenswürdig! Heh he I'm glad I got that part right ^^ I wasn't sure where the negative went in the sentence, so I just followed the same rules from Spanish and French, I'm guessing it worked out! Thanks for being the translator ^^ Hope you like the fic as well ^_-
Duo Izumi: Hey you were mentioned before ^^ I'm positive, I try not to leave out anybody in my thanks! So thank you once again! And take your time on your fics, I'll be ready for 'em ^_^ Thanks again!!
Terminatrix T-X: Heh yea, German is becoming clearer to me too ^^ I don't use the internet translator for my phrases, and so it takes longer for me to write them out ^_^ Thank you sooo much for being there from the very beginning! I think you're the only one left…
YaY! An angst chapter! Mhm I thought I would try it out ^^ Don't worry my future chappys won't be filled with so much angst, unless you wish it to be ^^: I don't think it'll work out though...Oh and I saw Shadow Dance! And it was the first time and Kurt he said "I'm what you see" Gaspst! I had nooo...idea!
"Kurt please talk to me!" Kitty tried to reach me, pulling her hood over her head every few minutes.
"Yust leafe me alone!" I shouted clutching at my head "I'm fine! When hafen't I been? Please...yust leafe me alone..." I pushed myself into a stride, trying to get away. "It's not like it's the first time, Kitty!" I gave her a smile. Kitty frowned and shoved me.
"Don't give me your phony smiles Nightcrawler!" I glared at her but kept a steady grin on my face.
"Kitty, all my zmiles are true. I've learned that people will never..." I broke of confused on what I was saying. "Eh Kitty, I have to, um go...and...yea." Kitty gave me a quizzical look but I bamfed before she could say anything.
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Will people be able to accept me? Of course they will! Kitty managed and so did the rest of the X-Men. A little voice nagged in the back of my mind 'But they are mutants, it was easier for them.' I shook my head I was not going to this! I was not going to start separating humans and mutants! I was not going to turn out like...mother.
I shuddered involuntary at the thought. Part of me wanted to love her like a real mother, but the other part...
"Hope." The trees seemed to rustle. I shook my head, and made myself to *my* tree. It was on the grounds of the Institute of course. I clambered up the tree and watched the moon rise, people would start looking for me soon. I sighed and thought of the things people called me in the past when the first saw me: Rat, demon, devil, oh please don't hurt me! Monster, and my favorite-O MY F***ING SH*T WHAT THE F*** IS THAT!? That one happened on the subway, 'nuff said. (A/N I tried, but Kurt ain't like that! I'll keep tryin though ;_;)
"Elf?" I heard Herr Logan's voice cut through the forest and I tensed up, I did not want to be found. "Elf, no use hidin I've got your scent bub, com' back home. Can't hide forever, I know I've tried." I snorted and then cursed myself for giving myself away. I sighed and jumped off the tree, but not with my usual grace.
"Herr Logan! Vhy vhat are you doing here?" I bowed "I'm blezzed that you would come to look for me!" I gave him my best grin and straightened myself up. "Anything I can help you with?" I know I was pushing myself with him but I didn't care, I was tired...of everything.
"Elf." Logan warned, with an edge of concern in his voice.
"Oui?" Logan looked taken aback at that.
"That doesn't sound German." He said with a smile. I rolled my eyes and swung myself back on the tree using my tail.
"German izn't the only language I know...not like anyone cares." I muttered the last part under my breath, unfortunately 'The Wolverine' has very good hearing. Wolverine came up to my branch and I quickly shifted my weight, hoping he would just leave me be.
"Being alone won't help Elf."
"We are a team! We will never leave one behind!" I mocked Scott. "Please, zafe the BS for right now. I like being in a bad mood." Wolverine growled at that.
"Shut up kid, I'm the one that's supposed ta have the bad attitude." I looked at him from the corner of my eye and then smiled.
"When did I dizagree with you? Can't I hafe one bad mood?" I started to laugh. "Yust one? Please?" I laughed even harder. "YUST ONE!" I shouted still laughing. Logan looked confused and he looked like he was about to grab me. I dodged and wagged my finger at him. "No little Volfie! I'm fine!" My laughter started to fade and my eyes started to tear up. "I'm fine..." I coughed out. I then cleared my throat "Excuse me..." I muttered.
"Better?" I jerked my head towards his voice and nodded slowly. "Elf, we've all got to let our feelings out sometime, as much as I hate ta admit. We all have different ways of handling it." Logan raised his eyebrow and lit up a smoke. I watched the flames flicker in the darkness and turned back towards the moonlight. It seemed so much brighter. He sighed and blew out a puff of smoke.
"I'll leave ya alone fer now Elf, but I'll be looking for you at curfew!"
"Ja, ja. Thanks for trying...Volfie." Logan stopped walking away and froze in place. I gulped audibly and chuckled nervously "Vhat? Do volfies and elfes not get along?" He turned and gave me a smirk.
"Naw, they get along just fine." He laughed gruffly. I grinned in confusion and gave him a thumbs-up. Logan was sure acting weird...
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Finally! Peace and qui-
MWROOWWLL!
I sighed. How is it that I always manage to speak to soon!?
"Ah I hate 'em durn cats!" I heard Rogue rustle through the bushes and birds flutter at her clatter. I stayed silent and prayed that she would just steer clear of me. I didn't need any more lectures "Kurt? Where are ya? I'm not leavin till I find ya, so might as well come out!" I took a deep breath and silently crept up behind her and tapped her on the shoulder. She jumped 50 feet in the air and turned to face me with an expression that made the world shudder.
"Jesus Kurt! Tryin' ta scare me ta death? I can hardly see ya right now and you do a thing like that!" Her expression seemed to calm down and I gestured with an apologetic twitch of my tail.
"I'm zorry, I----couldn't help my zelf." I gave her one of my famous grins and opened up my arms "Come, you're zo much zofter than Herr Logan is." She gave me an odd look and finally her face dawned with realization.
"But Kurt I can't-"
"I'll be careful." I gave her a lop-sided smile but she still wouldn't come. I put my arms back to my side and started to rock back and forth on my feet.
"Don't trust me, mein Schwester?" I asked smiling. Rogue looked at me with a horrified look on her face.
"No, it's not like that! It's just the Proffessor-"she flickered her eyes downward. I stopped my rocking and understood.
"The Profezzor!?" I could feel anger boiling inside of me, and started to chuckle once more. "He thinks that I-I vould do that? He zays he trusts me...but does he really!!? Oh, Kurt ve're a big family and ve trust one another! Bull! He can't even trust me vith my own zister!" I stopped my ranting and watched Rogue for a second and I blew out a puff of air. "I'm zorry, it's yust...to think that the Professor would even believe I vould do anything like that..." I broke off not knowing where I was going.
"It all right, I understand. The Professor, he can be a real jerk at times." She came up to me and hugged me. I wrapped my tail around her covered arm and squeezed it.
"Come on Kurt let's get ya inside. We need ta get you prepared for school tomorrow." My ears perked up at this.
"Z-zchool? They're still making me go to zchool? But-eferyone knows who I am! I'll be killed!" I whined. I didn't really enjoy school all that much before, but there was no way that I was going back now!
"Come on Kurt, I'll be with ya the whole way, and don't worry, everything will be just fine."
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Famous last words there Rogue. When does Kurt get to go California you're askin? Probably either next chapter or the one after ^^ Wow! Forty Reviews! I love you guys!
…I have a question, how old do you think I am? I'm just wonderin, 'cause people can't seem to guess my age ^^ (in real life) So if you guess right (and no cheatin)… I'll try to draw a special pic for ya, only one guess though. The pic can be of anything ya want, unless I have something against it XD I'm doing this because I want to say thank you and I want it to be done in a very special way ^^ If two people guess it a pic for each! It'll be good, don't worry ^^ Hopefully I'll get my scanner workin in time ^_^
Mutters: Gee what have I gotten myself into…
Onto review thanks!
jacombo: No problem! I'm glad you liked how his fur grew back darker ^^ Heh it seemed that people didn't guess that comin XD Thank you so much for everything!
Remedy: Thank you! I'm glad you liked ^^ I hope to see more of Christmas fic soon! Thanks again! Oh and this may sound really sad, but I loved your corny joke ^_^ My sense of humor is quite simple, but I still love the good stuff! Thanks again!
Translator: Danke! Sie sind sehr liebenswürdig! Heh he I'm glad I got that part right ^^ I wasn't sure where the negative went in the sentence, so I just followed the same rules from Spanish and French, I'm guessing it worked out! Thanks for being the translator ^^ Hope you like the fic as well ^_-
Duo Izumi: Hey you were mentioned before ^^ I'm positive, I try not to leave out anybody in my thanks! So thank you once again! And take your time on your fics, I'll be ready for 'em ^_^ Thanks again!!
Terminatrix T-X: Heh yea, German is becoming clearer to me too ^^ I don't use the internet translator for my phrases, and so it takes longer for me to write them out ^_^ Thank you sooo much for being there from the very beginning! I think you're the only one left…