MY NOTE: the first part was not the end, of course! And after this, are the
thoughts of.just guess ;P
Alanna-
I had fought it, of course. I had fought it for a long time. I argued. Said I wasn't fit to be queen. I told Jon that he needed to marry the princess of a country that was the enemy of Tortall to form peace. He needed to marry someone that would form an alliance, for Tortall, not a lady knight. He needed someone that would know to be a lady, not a warrior who wanted to be off on adventures. He needed a lady that knew how to be polite or gentle and is willing to bear his heir, not a woman who would turn Tortall upside- down. He needed this, he needed that, but did he listen to reason? No.
He insisted that all mattered was that he loved me, and that was enough for him. He said he didn't need or want all of the flirty court ladies who only cared about him because he was the heir of the throne. He said that I was all he wanted, al he needed. He said he loved me more than anyone else, and that he could never love anyone the way he loved me.
And I looked at his sapphire blue eyes, and I knew that was what I wanted.
Of course, I'm scared. I could ruin the whole country with my ignorance and stubbornness. But it didn't really matter. All that mattered was that I loved him more than anything, and I wanted to be his and his alone, and I wanted him to be mine. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.
My mind has changed so quickly. I remember not too long ago when not only had I never wanted children or a husband. But I didn't want love at all. I had been scared of having someone who cared about me. I had probably been afraid of being hurt, too. Jonathan had changed all that for me. All that I wanted was his love, and I'll do what ever it takes to keep it, even if it meant being married to him and becoming the queen. I was reluctant, and it wasn't really what I wanted, but Jon was, and I couldn't let him slip away. I know what tempers both he and I have, and if I had said no we would have said things we would have regretted and any chance of us staying together will be thrown down the drain. He had promised me that I could keep my shield that I would still be allowed to be a knight, and go off on adventures. He would even let me dress as I want most of the time, of course there would be formal dinners and balls and meetings where I would have to be dressed as a proper queen, but.
Mithros, I'm scared! I don't want to do anything stupid and get Tortall plunged into a war or perhaps more than one. I didn't want to say something wrong and end up making enemies for the country, but most of all I didn't want to be a disgrace. I didn't want to embarrass Jon, which was the last thing I want to do. That was why my initial impulse was to refuse the role of a queen.
But the again, I would die for Jon, and he would die for me. we understand each other, and we respect each other. But most of all, we love each other.
And like they say, love conquers all.
Alanna-
I had fought it, of course. I had fought it for a long time. I argued. Said I wasn't fit to be queen. I told Jon that he needed to marry the princess of a country that was the enemy of Tortall to form peace. He needed to marry someone that would form an alliance, for Tortall, not a lady knight. He needed someone that would know to be a lady, not a warrior who wanted to be off on adventures. He needed a lady that knew how to be polite or gentle and is willing to bear his heir, not a woman who would turn Tortall upside- down. He needed this, he needed that, but did he listen to reason? No.
He insisted that all mattered was that he loved me, and that was enough for him. He said he didn't need or want all of the flirty court ladies who only cared about him because he was the heir of the throne. He said that I was all he wanted, al he needed. He said he loved me more than anyone else, and that he could never love anyone the way he loved me.
And I looked at his sapphire blue eyes, and I knew that was what I wanted.
Of course, I'm scared. I could ruin the whole country with my ignorance and stubbornness. But it didn't really matter. All that mattered was that I loved him more than anything, and I wanted to be his and his alone, and I wanted him to be mine. I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him.
My mind has changed so quickly. I remember not too long ago when not only had I never wanted children or a husband. But I didn't want love at all. I had been scared of having someone who cared about me. I had probably been afraid of being hurt, too. Jonathan had changed all that for me. All that I wanted was his love, and I'll do what ever it takes to keep it, even if it meant being married to him and becoming the queen. I was reluctant, and it wasn't really what I wanted, but Jon was, and I couldn't let him slip away. I know what tempers both he and I have, and if I had said no we would have said things we would have regretted and any chance of us staying together will be thrown down the drain. He had promised me that I could keep my shield that I would still be allowed to be a knight, and go off on adventures. He would even let me dress as I want most of the time, of course there would be formal dinners and balls and meetings where I would have to be dressed as a proper queen, but.
Mithros, I'm scared! I don't want to do anything stupid and get Tortall plunged into a war or perhaps more than one. I didn't want to say something wrong and end up making enemies for the country, but most of all I didn't want to be a disgrace. I didn't want to embarrass Jon, which was the last thing I want to do. That was why my initial impulse was to refuse the role of a queen.
But the again, I would die for Jon, and he would die for me. we understand each other, and we respect each other. But most of all, we love each other.
And like they say, love conquers all.