Teaser: Soujirou attempts to show Aoshi how much he means to him. Major WAFF
Warning: Some shounen-ai (boy love). Much waffyness. A cutefic.
All respective rights belong to Nobuhiro Watsuki-sama.
***
Simple Affection
By April-san
***
I love you.
Those three words seemed to echo over and over in his mind.
I love you.
Spoken by the only person in the entire world he truly believed in.
I love you.
Said with such trust and conviction, the young man could not help but believe
him. p
I love you.
With those words, something so deep inside sprang alive. Feelings were still so
new but, instinctively, he knew the feeling.
I love you too, Shinomori-san...
And now, all that needed to be done was to tell him.
Soujirou blinked and a smile slowly crept upon his lips.
Or...show him.
***
Aoshi had openly declared his feelings to the young man and, instead of
demanding an immediate response, encouraged him to think about it.
And Soujirou had. For the last three weeks, almost every waking moment the blue
eyed ninja was in his thoughts. Sometimes, Aoshi even invaded his dreams.
Hiding the blush that immediately sprang onto his cheeks with a small smile,
Soujirou double checked the room one last time before slipping into his yukata
and crawling into his futon. He would show Aoshi how much he meant to him.
Tonight.
Aoshi had left the inn shortly after they arrived to find his contacts and
discover what was happening in the world. Aoshi met with them every time they
entered a town with more than a dozen buildings. The tall ninja insisted on
sharing Soujirou's journey, but also persisted in knowing what was happening
beyond their view.
The information had actually saved them from washed out bridges, storms on the
coast, and forest fires in remote areas. Aoshi was always worried about things
beyond his control.
Soujirou took everything in stride. At least, until Aoshi had muttered those
three words. The young man then found himself second guessing his every
decision, putting thoughts of his companion before his own welfare.
I've never been loved by anyone before.
Yet, he had seen the interactions between Shishio and Yumi. He saw how their
relationship had blossomed in his clueless presence, not really understanding
when Yumi clung at Shishio's side. He knew Yumi loved Shishio, and he truly
cared for her. But, Soujirou worriedly thought, their relationship was not
really 'normal'.
Soujirou nervously glanced to the other's futon, resting only an arm's reach
away, wondering if what he was about to do was appropriate.
What if he pushes me away? What if he's disgusted? I just have to steel
myself. Just in case.
The shoji softly opened and Soujirou met the tall man's gaze.
"I did not mean to wake you."
A broad grin hid the nervousness he felt. "No, Shinomori-san. I was
just...thinking."
Aoshi responded with a soft sound as he turned, setting his long sheath in the
corner and pulling of his coat, setting it next to his weapon.
Soujirou only watched, fascinated by the other's natural grace as he moved
across the room to his pack, pulling out his own sleeping garment. Aoshi
hesitated and turned, meeting Soujirou's gaze a fraction of a moment before the
young man buried his face into his blankets. The young man squirmed on his
futon, trying to appear he was attempting to find a comfortable sleeping
position. A minute later, Soujirou stole a glance up, only to see a yukata
donned Aoshi looking out a partly opened screen.
"Shinomori-san?"
"There's political disruption here. It's very volatile. Especially here,
in this inn. We will leave first thing in the morning."
"Aa." Why did Aoshi keep staring outside? Soujirou waited another
long moment but, when Aoshi made no move for his futon, slowly crawled from his
warm blankets to stand next to the ninja.
"Don't worry. I will keep watch. You should get some sleep."
Aoshi's words almost caused an irritated grumble to fall from Soujirou's lips.
Almost. "Shinomori-san, can I sit with you for a little while?"
Ice blue eyes once again met his and he nodded, long bangs swinging across
those eyes.
Soujirou stood close enough to the other to feel his body heat, but far enough
to keep from touching. He bit his lower lip and stole another glance to his
companion. "Shinomori-san?"
"Hmm?"
"Thank you for this room. It's very comfortable."
Aoshi made another half-hearted sound, his attention caught in the happenings
on the darkened street below.
Soujirou moved slightly closer. "And for everything you've bought me.
Thank you."
His watchful gaze did not move from the street. "We have spoken of this
before. You should not feel obligated. I did it because I wanted to."
"Aa." He couldn't believe how smoothly he wrapped his arms around the
other's neck, ignoring the rapid pace of his heart. A moment later, a strong
arm circled his waist and gently pulled him against the solid chest. He took a
soft breath, puckered his lips, and lifted his chin. To his utter
disappointment, Aoshi kept his gaze outside the window, and Soujirou found in
this position, he was unable to even touch the other's cheek no matter how his
lips were puckered. His face twisted, as if he had just eaten something
distasteful, and he relaxed against the warm figure.
He rested against Aoshi for a long moment, his calculating mind turning, the
blush hidden in the darkness growing deeper. "Aoshi?"
"Hmm?"
"There...there is...something..." Something I need to show you! He
took a deep breath. "There is something...in your hair."
Blue eyes finally flicked away from his watch to glance at the small face.
"Oh?" Was that a tiny flicker of a smile as he turned back to the
street or just a trick of the moonlight?
Soujirou released his grip around the other's neck before running one hand
through the ninja's black hair. The silky strands flowed through his small
hand, over and over. The gentle brushes, the soft flowing locks running like
water against his skin. He stared at the silhouette of this man, breath
catching as the eyes flickered to his own.
"Did you find what you were looking for?" his deep voice whispered.
His hand quickly fell and he felt the blush across his entire face. "Yes.
No. I...I mean...It must have been a...reflection."
Aoshi's chest slightly shook and those icy eyes closed. "Sometimes...they
trick the eyes. And the senses."
"Oh?" Soujirou nuzzled his nose against the other's chest, his hands
once again clasped behind the strong neck, but not an inch closer to his face.
"And, what are you feeling right now?"
Aoshi's grip around his waist loosened and Soujirou did not hesitate. He
puckered his lips and lunged for the exposed cheek, only to have Aoshi's arms
move to protectively encircle the young man's back. Soujirou found his lips
pressed against the soft material over Aoshi's shoulder. His face still pressed
against Aoshi, Soujirou let out a deep sigh, almost grinding his teeth in
annoyance. Moving his head, he had a clear view of Aoshi's neck merely inches
away and a broad smile appeared on his lips.
With pursed lips, he allowed a small breath to innocently escape and gently
brush the older man's skin. His fingers made tiny circles in the yukata, gently
massaging tight muscles underneath, patiently waiting for some reaction.
Still, those frosty eyes remained on the streetlights, on every figure that
passed in the dim light. A tiny frown was between his brows, his obvious
concern over any threat from beyond these walls.
He continued his ministrations until Aoshi seemed to relax under his gentle
touch. With one ear pressed against Aoshi's chest, he heard his breath catch
and slowly release. Finally, with a heavy heart, he stopped his touches and
weakly surrendered to the frigid figure in his arms. "I...I should get some
sleep."
Aoshi did not move, his arms tight against the young man's back, holding him
close, his gaze still captured outside, as if he did not hear Soujirou's words.
All I wanted was to show him how much he means to me. All I wanted was to
see if he truly feels the same way. He worries so much. All I wanted was to
take his mind from those troubles, even for just a moment. But...
But I can't. Even for a moment, I cannot turn his thoughts. I cannot make him
smile, even though he has done so much for me. If I cannot do such a small
thing, then...what use am I here? He deserves someone who can break his focus,
who can make him smile, who can make him believe he the center of the world. I
now know that person is not me. I...I will be gone by morning. Alone.
And, with those thoughts, he felt despair wash over him, a warm tear rolled
down his cheek. He could no longer look at the tall ninja, and he just waited
for the arms to relax. Finally, one of Aoshi's arms fell, but, as Soujirou
moved to pull away, Aoshi's other arm tightened and held him in place.
Warm fingers brushed underneath his chin and slowly raised his head. Ice blue
eyes captured his reality a moment before closing the gap. Soujirou felt his
eyes grow extremely large then quickly shut as a soft warmth pressed against
his lips.
It was a chaste kiss, one set of lips pressed against another, but the quick
rush to the ends of his body was something he had never experienced. It felt so
good, Soujirou was lost in the moment. He was then distracted as Aoshi's hand
began to play in his hair, running strands through his fingers.
A shout on the street below disrupted the mood, breaking the kiss as both heads
turned to the noise outside, just in time to see a flash of white light and an
explosion beneath the window.
Soujirou did not realize he had blinked until he felt thrown to the ground with
a warm bodyweight on top of him. Aoshi's eyes were only inches away, clear
worry in those blue depths.
"Are you okay?"
Those three words were spoken by two pairs of lips at the same time, causing
Soujirou to smile his response and Aoshi to just nod his head.
"Gather your things," Aoshi spoke urgently as he rolled off the young
man. "I will not have the police find you here." Soujirou only
watched as Aoshi visibly scowled at the damage to their room from the explosion
below before turning to his discarded clothing, shaking the dust from his gi.
Soujirou kept staring out the now damaged outside wall, emotions fluctuating
from disappointment to rage, masked by the smile on his lips. He did not move
even as police whistles came closer, the shouts of people down below, calls to
see if everyone was alright. His hand rose to touch his lips, trying to engrave
the feeling into his mind, trying to hold back the tears threatening to fall.
"Soujirou."
A strong hand gripped his shoulder and gently shook him.
"Are you truly okay?"
His companion's words drew him back to reality. He swallowed down his tight
throat before smiling at Aoshi, finding him already changed to his dark gear.
"Aa."
The back of the calloused hand brushed at Soujirou's cheek, causing the smile
to fall.
"I...I just..." His gaze was caught once again by the damage to the
room, and another well of frustration was stubbornly kept in check.
"Soujirou." Aoshi's whisper captured his gaze. The tall ninja's look
was almost of amusement. "We will continue our
discussion...tomorrow...where we left off."
The frustration fell away like a cloak and Soujirou visibly brightened.
"Promise?"
Aoshi quickly turned to his pack a moment before an unmistakable chuckle could
be heard, but gone as soon as he stood. "We'll talk about it later."
Soujirou scratched the back of his head and laughed, gathering his clothing in
his arms, yearning for the first sign of the new day.
*Owari*
Author's notes:
Once again, thanks Akai for the corrections. Like I said, this is probably as
graphic as I'm going to get with these two. I really thought I was going to get
Aoi Yuki done first, but my Muse had other ideas.
Thank you XD. It was your Aoshi and Sou pic that gave the inspiration for this
one (even though you'll probably never read it...Sou is naughty in here). And a
huge thank you to everyone who leaves a review. More are still in the works.
^_^
