A/N: Okay the --- represents when Sirius' flashbacks change. I wrote this simply to try and find Sirius' character for what it really is. JK Rowling changed his character a few times, throughout the last three books.
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Oh God.
I know now.
What it's like to die.
I almost can't describe it.
They say your life flashes before your eyes.
It does.
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"You stupid boy!" my mother yells. I am huddling in a corner. Again. Hoping she won't hit me with her broom. Again. "How dare you destroy this families reputation?"
It is Christmas. I was put in Gryffindor. Not Slytherin, like I was supposed to. "I didn't do it on purpose Mom!"
"Don't you cheek me boy!" My mother raises her broom again.
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"Hey! Snivellus!" I yell down the hall. A young Severus Snape turns towards me, greasy as ever, with a characteristic look of hatred. I wave my wand. "Petrificus Totalus!" It is my second year, and I've only just learned the leg-locker curse.
Snape falls to the floor, and I burst into laughter, along with my best friends: James, Remus, and Peter.
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"Hey Sirius." I hear someone say. It's Melinda Krentz.
"What's up?" I answer, not really caring. Melinda is not particularly attractive.
She blushes a bit. "I was wondering if you'd help me study sometime?"
I lift an eyebrow, aware of James' gaze from across the table. "Why Melinda! Are you asking me on a date?"
She cocks her head to one side, even redder than before. "Sort of."
I grin. "I can't go out with you! I'm not even sure you're a girl."
James is snickering, I can hear him. Melinda's eyes fill with tears. "You're disgusting." She whispers.
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"Congratulations, all." Albus Dumbledore says, standing at his place at the staff table. "We've made it through another year. This has proven difficult for some students, especially some in the graduating year." I could swear he is looking straight at me with that regular glint of amusement in his eyes.
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"I do." Lily Evans whispers, barely audible. James grins broadly at her. The two of them are finally getting married; I'm James' best man.
Then: "You may kiss the bride."
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"His name is Harry James Potter." James tells me, depositing a tiny baby boy in my arms.
"We want you to be his godfather." Lily says, smiling at me, even though she looks exhausted. I have no idea how she does it.
"I'd be delighted."
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"Let me take him." I tell Rubeus Hagrid. "I'm his godfather."
"Nope." Hagrid growls sadly. "Dumbledore's orders. Harry's gonna have to go to his aunt and uncle's."
Tears spring to my all ready blood shot eyes. "Take my bike then." I tell him, handing the half-giant the keys to my flying motorbike. "I won't be needing it anymore."
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The Dementors march me to my cell in Azkaban, and I all ready feel ready to scream. I remember every horrible thing that ever happened to me…
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We have Peter. I'll be proven innocent, and Harry can come live with me. If he wants to, that is. I ask him, mentioning that I'll understand if he wants to stay with the Dursleys'.
"Of course I want to live with you!" He says.
A strange happiness fills me. The last time I felt that was when I was named Harry's godfather. Everything is going to work out….
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"Is that the best you can do?" I taunt Bellatrix.
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Suddenly, I regret my life. I haven't done many things to be proud of. As a boy, I was nasty to others, which makes me no better than the Slytherins that I hated so much. As an adult, I spent fifteen years in prison. For something I didn't do, yes, but I spent the years there all the same. The only thing in my life that was worth living for was Harry, and now I've died for him…
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Oh God.
I know now.
What it's like to die.
I almost can't describe it.
They say your life flashes before your eyes.
It does.
---
"You stupid boy!" my mother yells. I am huddling in a corner. Again. Hoping she won't hit me with her broom. Again. "How dare you destroy this families reputation?"
It is Christmas. I was put in Gryffindor. Not Slytherin, like I was supposed to. "I didn't do it on purpose Mom!"
"Don't you cheek me boy!" My mother raises her broom again.
---
"Hey! Snivellus!" I yell down the hall. A young Severus Snape turns towards me, greasy as ever, with a characteristic look of hatred. I wave my wand. "Petrificus Totalus!" It is my second year, and I've only just learned the leg-locker curse.
Snape falls to the floor, and I burst into laughter, along with my best friends: James, Remus, and Peter.
---
"Hey Sirius." I hear someone say. It's Melinda Krentz.
"What's up?" I answer, not really caring. Melinda is not particularly attractive.
She blushes a bit. "I was wondering if you'd help me study sometime?"
I lift an eyebrow, aware of James' gaze from across the table. "Why Melinda! Are you asking me on a date?"
She cocks her head to one side, even redder than before. "Sort of."
I grin. "I can't go out with you! I'm not even sure you're a girl."
James is snickering, I can hear him. Melinda's eyes fill with tears. "You're disgusting." She whispers.
---
"Congratulations, all." Albus Dumbledore says, standing at his place at the staff table. "We've made it through another year. This has proven difficult for some students, especially some in the graduating year." I could swear he is looking straight at me with that regular glint of amusement in his eyes.
---
"I do." Lily Evans whispers, barely audible. James grins broadly at her. The two of them are finally getting married; I'm James' best man.
Then: "You may kiss the bride."
---
"His name is Harry James Potter." James tells me, depositing a tiny baby boy in my arms.
"We want you to be his godfather." Lily says, smiling at me, even though she looks exhausted. I have no idea how she does it.
"I'd be delighted."
---
"Let me take him." I tell Rubeus Hagrid. "I'm his godfather."
"Nope." Hagrid growls sadly. "Dumbledore's orders. Harry's gonna have to go to his aunt and uncle's."
Tears spring to my all ready blood shot eyes. "Take my bike then." I tell him, handing the half-giant the keys to my flying motorbike. "I won't be needing it anymore."
--
The Dementors march me to my cell in Azkaban, and I all ready feel ready to scream. I remember every horrible thing that ever happened to me…
---
We have Peter. I'll be proven innocent, and Harry can come live with me. If he wants to, that is. I ask him, mentioning that I'll understand if he wants to stay with the Dursleys'.
"Of course I want to live with you!" He says.
A strange happiness fills me. The last time I felt that was when I was named Harry's godfather. Everything is going to work out….
---
"Is that the best you can do?" I taunt Bellatrix.
---
Suddenly, I regret my life. I haven't done many things to be proud of. As a boy, I was nasty to others, which makes me no better than the Slytherins that I hated so much. As an adult, I spent fifteen years in prison. For something I didn't do, yes, but I spent the years there all the same. The only thing in my life that was worth living for was Harry, and now I've died for him…
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