Disclaimer: Oh... it hurts... No... I don't own DBZ... tear and the song I use in this one is by Evanescence... they are so cool ^-^ I don't own them either though.... sigh

A-Chan: Well, here's chapter three. I am hoping for some more review's, or I'm gonna have to slow down with my posting of new chapters! hehe. But, I admit, this fic is doing better than I expected... I didn't think it would do well at all... like my other fic... *cough cough* Don't remind me. Oh, and I add the song because It emphasizes how he feels somewhat... And it just fits with the story a little...It's depressing tho... sniff

I walk down my driveway for what seems like hours. Why does it seem like so much longer than before? I haven't walked it for a long time.. What is the point of leaving home anyway? Where is there to go.

It is still raining. My hair is soaking, and falling all in my face. I look at the sky and let it fall over my face. It douses me completely. My clothes feel like they weigh a ton. Kill me.... I wish there was someone who would.

I feel like a zombie. My body continues.. but my soul does not want to. Suicide... Rings in my head. The easy way out. But am I really that weak? Weak enough as to have to take the easy way out? Well.... yes.. but I am too much of a coward. I think.

I walk through a town. I see people staring at me. I ignore them, but I hear their words.

"Is he okay?"

" Get away from him son, he's a creep."

" Pneumonia is spreading... sir? Would you like an umbrella?"

I ignore them.. I walk through the town for what feels like an hour. What am I doing? Where am I going? I walk straight through a restaurant. The manager tries to stop me. But I ignore him.

"Sir, if you are not a costumer, I am going to have to ask you to leave. You are tracking mud on our brand new carpet sir!"

I ignore him and stand still in the middle of the room. My mind is not complying.. It won't do anything sensible...

I leave after I feel completely irritated. I continue in the direction I was walking. I end at the beach.

I stare at the sky. All thoughts seem to leave my mind as I sit. I cannot go on...

I'm so tired of being here

suppressed by all my childish fears.

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

cus' your presence still lingers here

and It won't leave me alone.

These wounds won't seem to heal

this pain is just too real

there's just so much that time cannot erase

You'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand for all of these years...

You still held ...on me...

I feel tears build up as a knot forms in my throat.

You used to captivate me by your resinating mind.

Now I'm bind by the life you left behind

Your face it holds..

my once plans and dreams

your voice it traced away

all the sanity in me...

I slowly open my mouth, preparing to speak.. but.. who would I talk to..?

These wounds won't seem to heal

this pain is just to real

there's just so much that time cannot erase.

You'd cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

I held your hand for all of these years...

You still held ...on me...

I pull of my shirt, It is weighing me down. Vegeta didn't wear shirts often. I think he liked to show off his chiseled muscles.. They aren't necessary anyway.

I tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone..

but though you're still with me

I've been alone all along...

"Vegeta..." I sigh. " Where are you? Are you doing okay? Are they treating you well?" I speak to the stars.

I smile slightly, though it is forced. " I'm sure you are in a better place.. though.. I still wish you were here with me. You were my only love; my only friend even."

Tears appear again. " Do you still remember the times we spent with each other? Do you remember what we used to do..? The places we went? The way we..." I swallow " Loved each other?"

" Do you still love me? Is it possible to love me after what.. I did...?"

" Oh Kami, I would do anything to make it up to you..." I feel like I am falling.. will I ever reach the bottom?

" Do you hate me for what I did?" Breathe... " Could you ever forgive me?"

I choke. I see his death in my head again. I see myself pulling the pillow from his face, and realizing what I had done.

He was not breathing.. something I don't even deserve to do.. He was dead.. He was dying the whole time.. and I was the one to end it for him...

I fall asleep in the sand.

" Vegeta?" No.. His lifeless body on his hospital bed. What have I done?! I scream aloud in pain. His empty eyes pierce deep in my heart. His lifeless body lay limp on the bed. His hands cold, and his face a pale gray.

I sit in shock still. Why did I do that? I ended the pain but.. what about mine.. It did not help that.. I thought not living with him suffering would make me feel better... but.. no...

I feel sick. His eyes stare straight through me. As if it is looking for something... looking for truth... for my true intention................

A-Chan: Don't worry, it will get better when 'Geta gets here! That'll come soon, so be patient! And while you're waiting.. why not review?! ^.^ And, it won't always be so depressing, trust me.