A/N: Hey everyone sorry, I was in kind of a depressed mood when I wrote
this so bear with me. Plus it's my first fic. I hope you don't hate it
too much! Review please^_^
Disclaimer: Unfortunately I don't own Final Fantasy 7 or anything in it.
Freedom
~~~~~
It doesn't seem fair that it hurts so much.
Then again, nothing is ever fair, is it?
All these years, I've waited by his side, always there for him no matter what. My sadness never reached him. But I would never let him see that, even if he was capable.
After Aeris died, I thought maybe he would notice me more.
But the complete opposite happened. He went into a depression. Became oblivious to my presence most times. He was always out somewhere alone, talking to her. I can't even compete with a dead girl for his feelings. But I hate myself for envying her. She didn't do anything but be herself. I just wish she wasn't so perfect.
I see now that I've never really had a chance. Although he had a small crush on me all those years ago when we were children, he never really felt anything but friendship towards me. It makes me feel so stupid for thinking there could ever be anything more between us.
I'm finally seeing this now, two years after risking my life to be by his side to save the Planet. It's taken me two years to stop fooling myself, to finally admit to myself that I'm not good enough.
I've never been good enough. I just didn't want to accept it. I couldn't accept it.
So I continued blindly loving him, blindly hoping that he would somehow realize his feelings for me, although none ever existed. It hurt too much to see the truth.
But the truth is so plain to me now.
Throughout all this time, throughout all my suffering and pain, he never noticed. Always assumed my happiness, always figured I'd just be there despite everything. So did everyone else. I just put up my cheery façade and toiled on. No one ever bothered to ask if I was all right, no matter how many hints I gave them.
They always came to me for help with their problems, but no one ever bothered to ask me if I needed help with anything. I needed someone, anyone, to just ask if I was okay. But I was too good at hiding my true feelings. So they all assumed I was happy.
I was far from happy.
All of my sadness, my longing, my pain, my hopelessness, and my rejection have reached a point where it's too hard. It's too hard to wake up every morning, knowing he'll only be thinking of her. It's too hard to bear this burden of worthlessness alone anymore. I can't keep pretending, can't hide any longer.
~~~~~
Tifa stared down into oblivion from the cliff top. She had always loved the Nibel Mountains as a child. They had been her hideaway from the world after her mother died. They had listened to so many of her sorrows and dreams, always keeping her secrets.
These mountains had been her only true friends as a child, and now, she was giving them her life.
Slowly, she neared the edge until her toes stood on air. Suddenly she felt free. Free from all of the pains she had been carrying around for all of her life. No longer did she mourn her parents' deaths. No longer did she envy Aeris for having Cloud's heart. No longer did she feel any obligation to make others happy while suffering herself. She was free now. Free forever.
With this one comforting last though, Tifa Lockhart, savior of the Planet, stepped off the cliff high up in the Nibel mountains that were once her home and became free.
Disclaimer: Unfortunately I don't own Final Fantasy 7 or anything in it.
Freedom
~~~~~
It doesn't seem fair that it hurts so much.
Then again, nothing is ever fair, is it?
All these years, I've waited by his side, always there for him no matter what. My sadness never reached him. But I would never let him see that, even if he was capable.
After Aeris died, I thought maybe he would notice me more.
But the complete opposite happened. He went into a depression. Became oblivious to my presence most times. He was always out somewhere alone, talking to her. I can't even compete with a dead girl for his feelings. But I hate myself for envying her. She didn't do anything but be herself. I just wish she wasn't so perfect.
I see now that I've never really had a chance. Although he had a small crush on me all those years ago when we were children, he never really felt anything but friendship towards me. It makes me feel so stupid for thinking there could ever be anything more between us.
I'm finally seeing this now, two years after risking my life to be by his side to save the Planet. It's taken me two years to stop fooling myself, to finally admit to myself that I'm not good enough.
I've never been good enough. I just didn't want to accept it. I couldn't accept it.
So I continued blindly loving him, blindly hoping that he would somehow realize his feelings for me, although none ever existed. It hurt too much to see the truth.
But the truth is so plain to me now.
Throughout all this time, throughout all my suffering and pain, he never noticed. Always assumed my happiness, always figured I'd just be there despite everything. So did everyone else. I just put up my cheery façade and toiled on. No one ever bothered to ask if I was all right, no matter how many hints I gave them.
They always came to me for help with their problems, but no one ever bothered to ask me if I needed help with anything. I needed someone, anyone, to just ask if I was okay. But I was too good at hiding my true feelings. So they all assumed I was happy.
I was far from happy.
All of my sadness, my longing, my pain, my hopelessness, and my rejection have reached a point where it's too hard. It's too hard to wake up every morning, knowing he'll only be thinking of her. It's too hard to bear this burden of worthlessness alone anymore. I can't keep pretending, can't hide any longer.
~~~~~
Tifa stared down into oblivion from the cliff top. She had always loved the Nibel Mountains as a child. They had been her hideaway from the world after her mother died. They had listened to so many of her sorrows and dreams, always keeping her secrets.
These mountains had been her only true friends as a child, and now, she was giving them her life.
Slowly, she neared the edge until her toes stood on air. Suddenly she felt free. Free from all of the pains she had been carrying around for all of her life. No longer did she mourn her parents' deaths. No longer did she envy Aeris for having Cloud's heart. No longer did she feel any obligation to make others happy while suffering herself. She was free now. Free forever.
With this one comforting last though, Tifa Lockhart, savior of the Planet, stepped off the cliff high up in the Nibel mountains that were once her home and became free.