A/N: Hey, here the latest chapter. I hope you all liked it. Please let me know what you think. Thanks ~Morgan~
Disclaimer: I do not own any part of GH, ABC, or Disney.
Chapter 19
"It wasn't a dream," Jason said as he awoke that morning. Jason thought of waking her up but decided against it. She looked too perfect when she slept. And that's when it hit him Courtney couldn't be here. Sonny was coming over to have a meeting and he couldn't see that Courtney had stayed the night. And there had to have been a reason that Courtney showed up and he still didn't know what that reason was. And Jason than realized what he could do. "I'll carry her up to the spare bedroom. This way she can sleep and later we can talk. And on top of that Sonny doesn't have to know that she's here." With that thought Jason carried her up to the spare room and placed her on the bed.
Courtney laid in the bed with her hair a mess and covering her face. "God, your beautiful even when you're sleeping," Jason whispered as her moved her hair. That when he noticed something. There was something on her face. "That's why you didn't want me to turn on the lights last night," was all Jason could say when he heard Sonny come in downstairs.
"Jason! Jason! I'm here," Sonny hollered up the stairs.
"I'll be right down!" Jason yelled back as he wrote Courtney a little note. Once he finished he headed down stairs toward Sonny.
"Alright, we need to talk about a meeting you need to go to with the five families," Sonny began not noticing that Jason wasn't really listening.
Jason thoughts kept wandering to Courtney and that mark on her face. And why did Courtney come here last night? He had so many question taking over his mind that he couldn't listen to Sonny. He saw Sonny's lips move, but couldn't tell you what the hell he was talking about.
After about an hour of Sonny talking he finally realized that Jason didn't hear a word he said. "You are in love?"
"What? What are you talking about Sonny? I think Carly is getting to much of a hold on you," Jason stated as he came back to reality.
"Ok, Jase if you're not in love than what was I talking about for the last hour? You don't know because you were thinking about this mystery girl who we can't know nothing about."
"Sonny, I don't need to discuss my personal life with you. You are starting to sound more like Carly."
"Well I wouldn't mind sounding like her as long as she's right. But I won't ask you anymore questions, just don't let this girl interfere with your work," Sonny told him as he walked out of the penthouse. Sonny wished he knew who this girl was as he walked toward his penthouse.
"Carly!" Sonny holler as he entered the penthouse.
"Yeah, Sonny," Carly responded a she walked out of the kitchen. "What's going on?"
Sonny wanted to tell Carly that he thought she was right about Jason and the mystery girl, but he knew he couldn't. He didn't have any real proof, all he really had was Jason telling him the same thing he always told Carly. "I just wanted to see if you were home."
"Ok. Are you sure that's it?" Carly asked. She thought that something was up with Sonny, but she wasn't quite sure. And that's when it hit her right on the nose. Why she didn't see it as soon as he spoke, she didn't know. It wasn't that hard Sonny had just come from Jason's. and something happened and now he believed that she was right about the mystery girl.
"Carly I'm sure. And why are you smiling? What is up with you?" Sonny replied.
"It's nothing Sonny. Just the fact that you care makes me smile," she lied.
"Whatever you say. I'm going to go over to the warehouse. I have some business I need to take care of. So you be good," he said as he kissed her on the cheek.
"I always am," Carly told him as he left the penthouse. As soon as he was gone Carly wanted to run across the hall and question Jason. She wanted to know everything about this girl that Sonny now believed existed.
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Jason walked upstairs and stood in the doorframe of the guestroom that held Courtney's sleeping form. He wanted to wake her and talk to her, in fact didn't need her to talk back he just wanted her to listen to everything that he was holding inside. He wanted to hold her in his arms like he did last night and tell her everything about what she does to him. Jason watched her sleep for a little while until he finally pulled himself from the frame toward his bathroom, so he could go and take a shower.
"I have to tell her. And I have to tell her soon. I don't care what the ramifications are of my actions she deserves to know," Jason told himself as he hopped out of the shower. Jason than went into his room and threw on some clothes and headed toward the room where she lay.
As he entered the room he grabbed the chair that was in front of the desk and moved it over toward the bed. Jason wanted to wake her up so badly, but he couldn't. He just couldn't wake her she looked so peaceful.
Instead he decided to wait for her to wake. He figured he'd just sit there and wait for her to come to. "You know, I actually like watching you sleep. I'm not sure if I've ever enjoyed someone doing nothing while I just watched them. You look so at peace," he told her sleeping form. Jason continued to watch how she moved, the way the lines on her face went, and how low she talked when she mumbled in her sleep. He listen contently to that mumble never sure of what she was saying. Jason just sat and wait. He than waited some more. After over an hour of complete silence he finally spoke.
"You look like Sleeping Beauty. I've actually seen that movie believe it or not. And you look like the human version of her. And you sleep like her too," Jason giggled at Courtney's still sleeping form. "I wish you would wake up. I have something that I really want to tell you and I need to tell you soon or else I may burst," he told her as he pushed the hair that had fallen behind her ear.
"Why don't you tell her? Even though she's asleep once you tell her you'll know how to tell her when she awake. Practice makes perfect. And you always learn from your mistakes," Jason's conscience told him as he sat there. And he knew that his conscience was coming from his heart and not head.
Jason got off the chair and kneeled down beside her. His hand cupping her cheek. "I have to tell you this and I don't know how you may react but you need to know. Now I don't want you to say anything until I'm finished. But you only have to speak after if you want to. So here it goes," Jason let out a breath before he continued. "You do something to me. I mean it's not bad, in fact it's good it's really good. You make me feel. Whenever I see you I become alive, like this person that people don't see and when you leave apart of me leaves with you. That part that lives is my heart. That day that I took you to the cliff and we almost kissed I… I fell I fell hard, for this feeling of home. And don't think that I meant to fall for you because I didn't. I tried to play off these feelings and I couldn't. no matter how hard I tried. And when I'm not with you I'm thinking of you. You make me nervous, a good nervous. And I know that you're too good for me. Because you are this perfect human being whose kind to everyone and everything and yet has enough courage to stick up for those that mean the world to you by any means necessary. I can never feel alone when I'm with you, and I don't have to pretend that parts of my life don't exist because you see past my flaws. There never seems to be a damper day around you, the sun always shines. What would happen if I could have you? I wonder about that all the time and I wish that you could feel what I feel. And than there's the way you look at me. For some reasons the one thing that hasn't changed is me wanting you. I want to hold you desperately. And I know that that can never happen. But my feelings keep giving in, when my mind knows better. For a guy whose not good with words I sure ramble. The truth is only you can do. Get me to ramble. Rambling aside I don't want to waste another moment of you not knowing that… that… I need to breathe. I never thought I would be this nervous, but the truth is I've fallen in love with the person behind the sapphire eyes. I Jason Morgan, hit man who supposedly can't feel has fallen in the with Courtney Michelle Matthews. And I can't help it and the truth is I don't want to help it. I like loving you. And if I can only tell you this when your awake than maybe things would go good. But I do feel better about just airing out my feelings to you even though I'm not sure if you even sure if you did hear. But even if you didn't that's ok sleeping beauty I still love you."
Jason just sat there once he was finished and continued to stare at her. He couldn't help but stare there was something about her that he couldn't take his eyes away.
"Jason! Jason where are you?" Someone yelled and startled him.
Jason than got up and left toward the stairs. "Carly what do you want?" he asked when he arrived at the bottom step.
"I need to talk to you. It's very important and I tried to leave you alone. I did I really did. After Sonny left for the warehouse I sat in that penthouse for over three hours trying not to come here. And I just couldn't wait no more. Now who is she?"
"What the hell are you talking about? Who is who?" Jason asked confused.
"The mystery girl. And don't tell me she doesn't exist because that's a lie and I know it. You have this girlfriend out there that you have fallen for hard and I can see it in your eyes. Now I can only eliminate 5 people out of all of Port Charles. No wait make that 6. I can eliminate 6. Now you can tell me who. Please don't say Elizabitch. She doesn't deserved you."
"Well there is no mystery girlfriend. And who are the 6 people you've eliminate as to who this mystery girl is?" Jason humored her.
"Well you're a liar and there is a mystery girl. So don't even try to tell me there isn't. and the 6 people who can't be this girl are me for one, Monica, Lila, Skye, and Emily. Oh, wait Em's not in Port Charles she in California. Well there's also Courtney because you guys haven't spoken in a while. And there's my mom please tell you didn't hook up with my mom."
"No Carly, I didn't hook up with anyone. You and your mom included. Now do you believe me that there's no mystery girlfriend."
"No, but if you really want I won't bother you as much. Now don't take that as I'm giving up. You listen to me Carly doesn't give and I will find out who this girl is, but please just tell me that it's not Elizabitch. That's all I ask and you have to be honest."
"Carly you know that Elizabeth and I have been over. I don't want to go down that road again. All it was was a dead end. So can we drop this whole thing now with me and some mystery girlfriend and me and Elizabeth."
"Jason, I will drop the whole you and Elizabeth thing, but as I said before I can't drop your mystery girl. And you know me, once I'm on to something you can't get me to leave it alone. But I'm willing to make a compromise I don't stop digging but I will lay off. For now," Carly smirked.
"Just get out. I happy with your compromise but not ecstatic. And you can look, but you won't find some mystery girlfriend because she doesn't exist," Jason said as he pushed Carly out of his penthouse. As soon as he got Carly in the hall he said bye and shut the door.
Meanwhile in the hallway a light popped off in Carly's head. "There is no mystery girlfriend. Jason always said girlfriend, all that means is this girl that he's fallen for isn't in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship and it's not about sex. It's just a girl who he's friends with that we don't know about. And since it's such a secret about everything that has to find loop holes to make it seem like there is no girl," Carly told herself as she walked into her penthouse. Right as she closed the door she screamed, "I got it! I got it!" and Johnnie came running in.
"Is everything ok Mrs. Cor…"
Before he could Carly told him, "Everything fine Johnny. I'm just a genius. Just a genius."
"Alright. If you need anything I'll be right outside," he said as he left and went back to his post.
"Well, well Jason Morgan you have a thing for a married woman or someone whose already in a relationship," Carly smile as she clapped her hands together.
Disclaimer: I do not own any part of GH, ABC, or Disney.
Chapter 19
"It wasn't a dream," Jason said as he awoke that morning. Jason thought of waking her up but decided against it. She looked too perfect when she slept. And that's when it hit him Courtney couldn't be here. Sonny was coming over to have a meeting and he couldn't see that Courtney had stayed the night. And there had to have been a reason that Courtney showed up and he still didn't know what that reason was. And Jason than realized what he could do. "I'll carry her up to the spare bedroom. This way she can sleep and later we can talk. And on top of that Sonny doesn't have to know that she's here." With that thought Jason carried her up to the spare room and placed her on the bed.
Courtney laid in the bed with her hair a mess and covering her face. "God, your beautiful even when you're sleeping," Jason whispered as her moved her hair. That when he noticed something. There was something on her face. "That's why you didn't want me to turn on the lights last night," was all Jason could say when he heard Sonny come in downstairs.
"Jason! Jason! I'm here," Sonny hollered up the stairs.
"I'll be right down!" Jason yelled back as he wrote Courtney a little note. Once he finished he headed down stairs toward Sonny.
"Alright, we need to talk about a meeting you need to go to with the five families," Sonny began not noticing that Jason wasn't really listening.
Jason thoughts kept wandering to Courtney and that mark on her face. And why did Courtney come here last night? He had so many question taking over his mind that he couldn't listen to Sonny. He saw Sonny's lips move, but couldn't tell you what the hell he was talking about.
After about an hour of Sonny talking he finally realized that Jason didn't hear a word he said. "You are in love?"
"What? What are you talking about Sonny? I think Carly is getting to much of a hold on you," Jason stated as he came back to reality.
"Ok, Jase if you're not in love than what was I talking about for the last hour? You don't know because you were thinking about this mystery girl who we can't know nothing about."
"Sonny, I don't need to discuss my personal life with you. You are starting to sound more like Carly."
"Well I wouldn't mind sounding like her as long as she's right. But I won't ask you anymore questions, just don't let this girl interfere with your work," Sonny told him as he walked out of the penthouse. Sonny wished he knew who this girl was as he walked toward his penthouse.
"Carly!" Sonny holler as he entered the penthouse.
"Yeah, Sonny," Carly responded a she walked out of the kitchen. "What's going on?"
Sonny wanted to tell Carly that he thought she was right about Jason and the mystery girl, but he knew he couldn't. He didn't have any real proof, all he really had was Jason telling him the same thing he always told Carly. "I just wanted to see if you were home."
"Ok. Are you sure that's it?" Carly asked. She thought that something was up with Sonny, but she wasn't quite sure. And that's when it hit her right on the nose. Why she didn't see it as soon as he spoke, she didn't know. It wasn't that hard Sonny had just come from Jason's. and something happened and now he believed that she was right about the mystery girl.
"Carly I'm sure. And why are you smiling? What is up with you?" Sonny replied.
"It's nothing Sonny. Just the fact that you care makes me smile," she lied.
"Whatever you say. I'm going to go over to the warehouse. I have some business I need to take care of. So you be good," he said as he kissed her on the cheek.
"I always am," Carly told him as he left the penthouse. As soon as he was gone Carly wanted to run across the hall and question Jason. She wanted to know everything about this girl that Sonny now believed existed.
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Jason walked upstairs and stood in the doorframe of the guestroom that held Courtney's sleeping form. He wanted to wake her and talk to her, in fact didn't need her to talk back he just wanted her to listen to everything that he was holding inside. He wanted to hold her in his arms like he did last night and tell her everything about what she does to him. Jason watched her sleep for a little while until he finally pulled himself from the frame toward his bathroom, so he could go and take a shower.
"I have to tell her. And I have to tell her soon. I don't care what the ramifications are of my actions she deserves to know," Jason told himself as he hopped out of the shower. Jason than went into his room and threw on some clothes and headed toward the room where she lay.
As he entered the room he grabbed the chair that was in front of the desk and moved it over toward the bed. Jason wanted to wake her up so badly, but he couldn't. He just couldn't wake her she looked so peaceful.
Instead he decided to wait for her to wake. He figured he'd just sit there and wait for her to come to. "You know, I actually like watching you sleep. I'm not sure if I've ever enjoyed someone doing nothing while I just watched them. You look so at peace," he told her sleeping form. Jason continued to watch how she moved, the way the lines on her face went, and how low she talked when she mumbled in her sleep. He listen contently to that mumble never sure of what she was saying. Jason just sat and wait. He than waited some more. After over an hour of complete silence he finally spoke.
"You look like Sleeping Beauty. I've actually seen that movie believe it or not. And you look like the human version of her. And you sleep like her too," Jason giggled at Courtney's still sleeping form. "I wish you would wake up. I have something that I really want to tell you and I need to tell you soon or else I may burst," he told her as he pushed the hair that had fallen behind her ear.
"Why don't you tell her? Even though she's asleep once you tell her you'll know how to tell her when she awake. Practice makes perfect. And you always learn from your mistakes," Jason's conscience told him as he sat there. And he knew that his conscience was coming from his heart and not head.
Jason got off the chair and kneeled down beside her. His hand cupping her cheek. "I have to tell you this and I don't know how you may react but you need to know. Now I don't want you to say anything until I'm finished. But you only have to speak after if you want to. So here it goes," Jason let out a breath before he continued. "You do something to me. I mean it's not bad, in fact it's good it's really good. You make me feel. Whenever I see you I become alive, like this person that people don't see and when you leave apart of me leaves with you. That part that lives is my heart. That day that I took you to the cliff and we almost kissed I… I fell I fell hard, for this feeling of home. And don't think that I meant to fall for you because I didn't. I tried to play off these feelings and I couldn't. no matter how hard I tried. And when I'm not with you I'm thinking of you. You make me nervous, a good nervous. And I know that you're too good for me. Because you are this perfect human being whose kind to everyone and everything and yet has enough courage to stick up for those that mean the world to you by any means necessary. I can never feel alone when I'm with you, and I don't have to pretend that parts of my life don't exist because you see past my flaws. There never seems to be a damper day around you, the sun always shines. What would happen if I could have you? I wonder about that all the time and I wish that you could feel what I feel. And than there's the way you look at me. For some reasons the one thing that hasn't changed is me wanting you. I want to hold you desperately. And I know that that can never happen. But my feelings keep giving in, when my mind knows better. For a guy whose not good with words I sure ramble. The truth is only you can do. Get me to ramble. Rambling aside I don't want to waste another moment of you not knowing that… that… I need to breathe. I never thought I would be this nervous, but the truth is I've fallen in love with the person behind the sapphire eyes. I Jason Morgan, hit man who supposedly can't feel has fallen in the with Courtney Michelle Matthews. And I can't help it and the truth is I don't want to help it. I like loving you. And if I can only tell you this when your awake than maybe things would go good. But I do feel better about just airing out my feelings to you even though I'm not sure if you even sure if you did hear. But even if you didn't that's ok sleeping beauty I still love you."
Jason just sat there once he was finished and continued to stare at her. He couldn't help but stare there was something about her that he couldn't take his eyes away.
"Jason! Jason where are you?" Someone yelled and startled him.
Jason than got up and left toward the stairs. "Carly what do you want?" he asked when he arrived at the bottom step.
"I need to talk to you. It's very important and I tried to leave you alone. I did I really did. After Sonny left for the warehouse I sat in that penthouse for over three hours trying not to come here. And I just couldn't wait no more. Now who is she?"
"What the hell are you talking about? Who is who?" Jason asked confused.
"The mystery girl. And don't tell me she doesn't exist because that's a lie and I know it. You have this girlfriend out there that you have fallen for hard and I can see it in your eyes. Now I can only eliminate 5 people out of all of Port Charles. No wait make that 6. I can eliminate 6. Now you can tell me who. Please don't say Elizabitch. She doesn't deserved you."
"Well there is no mystery girlfriend. And who are the 6 people you've eliminate as to who this mystery girl is?" Jason humored her.
"Well you're a liar and there is a mystery girl. So don't even try to tell me there isn't. and the 6 people who can't be this girl are me for one, Monica, Lila, Skye, and Emily. Oh, wait Em's not in Port Charles she in California. Well there's also Courtney because you guys haven't spoken in a while. And there's my mom please tell you didn't hook up with my mom."
"No Carly, I didn't hook up with anyone. You and your mom included. Now do you believe me that there's no mystery girlfriend."
"No, but if you really want I won't bother you as much. Now don't take that as I'm giving up. You listen to me Carly doesn't give and I will find out who this girl is, but please just tell me that it's not Elizabitch. That's all I ask and you have to be honest."
"Carly you know that Elizabeth and I have been over. I don't want to go down that road again. All it was was a dead end. So can we drop this whole thing now with me and some mystery girlfriend and me and Elizabeth."
"Jason, I will drop the whole you and Elizabeth thing, but as I said before I can't drop your mystery girl. And you know me, once I'm on to something you can't get me to leave it alone. But I'm willing to make a compromise I don't stop digging but I will lay off. For now," Carly smirked.
"Just get out. I happy with your compromise but not ecstatic. And you can look, but you won't find some mystery girlfriend because she doesn't exist," Jason said as he pushed Carly out of his penthouse. As soon as he got Carly in the hall he said bye and shut the door.
Meanwhile in the hallway a light popped off in Carly's head. "There is no mystery girlfriend. Jason always said girlfriend, all that means is this girl that he's fallen for isn't in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship and it's not about sex. It's just a girl who he's friends with that we don't know about. And since it's such a secret about everything that has to find loop holes to make it seem like there is no girl," Carly told herself as she walked into her penthouse. Right as she closed the door she screamed, "I got it! I got it!" and Johnnie came running in.
"Is everything ok Mrs. Cor…"
Before he could Carly told him, "Everything fine Johnny. I'm just a genius. Just a genius."
"Alright. If you need anything I'll be right outside," he said as he left and went back to his post.
"Well, well Jason Morgan you have a thing for a married woman or someone whose already in a relationship," Carly smile as she clapped her hands together.