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"The only person who makes me truly happy is her."
And that's the way it always is. Gotta rush home so you can see her. Can't do that because, she's coming home. She's the most important thing in your life and I'm...second prize. She has to work to work tonight, so you call me up. "Let's hang out. I'll buy you dinner. We can talk. It'll be nice."
We get dinner. We talk. It's far from nice. All you talk about is herand herproblems. You get pissed off when I say anything against her. She can do no wrong. She's Mother Fucking Teresa and I had better not forget it. As if I could. With her perfect face and her pretty smile. Oh, yeah. I'm constantly reminded why your with herand not with me. That little reminder makes itself known everytime you look at me, or smile at me. Everytime you say my name, or touch my hand, or if you just fucking blink, my cock rises to the occasion and I have to excuse myself. You don't know, and you don't care. She'sin your life so everything is sunshine and roses.
Part of me is happy for you. Why shouldn't I be? You have found what the rest of us strive for most of our lives. Some of us never find it. I'm sure I'll find some one. That's what you keep telling me. He better be a fucking diety to make up for the hell I'm going through now. I want to blame you. I want to kick you and scream at you and put the blame all on your shoulders, because IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT I HURT LIKE THIS! But it's not your fault that I love you. It's not your fault you love some one else. It's not your fault and that's what fucking kills me.
"Hatsuharu-kun? Honda-san gets off work soon. Would it be all right if I end the night early so I can walk her home? Kyou is staying with Kazuma-sensai, otherwise I'd ask him."
"Sure, Yuki-kun. I don't mind. I'll just let myself out..."
"You're more than welcome to stay."
And watch you two all night? No thank you. I'm going home to the quiet stillness of my room. Where I can drown my sorrows. Where I can pretend you love me. Where I can pretend she'sdoesn't fucking exist.
Where I can be alone.