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The headmasters office looks a bit different, from last time a new dark detectors. Severus ' heart is beating so fast I'm afraid he might have a stroke, maybe its because, after all, I'm inside his head but I'm feeling his anxiety so I say to myself "calm down, everything will be okay Dumbledore will sort this out, there's nothing wrong , you know how this ends...
There he is Albus Dumbledore, I stop my muttering and approach Severus, he seems calmed now and I am as well.
"well, Severus, what are you going to tell me now? Your letter seemed confusing..."
Now that I think about it I don't know what happened what did Riddle tell him so I turn to him interested. He takes a sip of water and starts:
"there's a man out there, his name is Tom Riddle he was a member of the house, perhaps you remember him?" there's a bit of hope in his voice, and he smiled confidant when the headmaster nods.
"well he is creating a "Slytherin 's society" Lucius Malfoy invited me to join, and..." Severus blushed ashamed.
"and?" Dumbledore asks, with a soft parental tone.
"well, when he starts talking about the ideals of Salazar Slytherin it's fine, as such we've been sorted into that house for some reason, but...he's using it to manipulate and , well, this isn't just a society I can tell."
The headmaster looks as puzzled as I do when he says "what do you mean Severus?"
"Yes, what do you mean, Severus?" I get caught in the moment.
"Well.." Severus turns pale I would love to let him know no one is judging him, but since he cant hear me what's the sense? However, he keeps talking "He told me about how he admired me for dealing with my father and for the way I humiliated him but he made me feel all the anger I was feeling again, the anger and loath my father inspires me" he says turning sad, I would love to touch him, since I cant I just place my hand next to him.
"he says that magic must be the key to prove the world we are blessed, not a phenomena and that we are better and keep the pride of wizardry, he wants the power, the control, but he's not like taking a political path. " He swallows "He doesn't think he need to be elected, he is willing to do as he needs or pleases to get to the power"
"Tom Riddle was always ambitious" Dumbledore recalls
Severus just shakes his head "He doesn't want to be known by that name anymore, he calls himself Lord Voldemort, and wants us to call him the dark lord"
I turn my head and Look at Dumbledore, he nods "He used to call himself that since he was in here, when I was his teacher. " I should calm down, but I detect certain anxiety in the potions master to be, and surely does Dumbledore because he locks eyes with him and gives him a special "go on" look. Severus nods and says: "He forced me, well can't say he forced me, but I didn't mean to I swear" he turns sad and looks to where I am, in order to avoid the headmaster's look, I feel the well known need to comfort him still unable to do it, I take his hand, even when he can't hear me or feel me for that matter, I do it more for me, than for him. "Forced you to do what, Severus?" Dumbledore 's voice pulls me back to the situation and Severus takes a deep breath before saying:
"I don't know how he did it, and why or how I did it, but...but I.." he hesitates I know what he's about to confess "I used an unforgivable curse on an innocent, two innocents I might say" he seems really disturbed by this, poor baby I would give the world to take him in my arms and comfort him
"Avada Kedavra?" The headmaster asks with a simple tone Severus shakes hi head "cruciatus, the one I always wanted to use on my father and he said I was worthy of being with him, and told Lucius that I should get my initiation. Lucius told me that they were really happy with what I did and that once I join we would do stuff like that and..." he swallows "there's no way back." Now there's an expression I haven't seen before on his face, he's terrified and begging when he says "but headmaster I don't want to do that, that's not who I am I don't want to be an assassin not even my father or Potter and his gang" he says rolling his eyes "and if I back down now the dark Lord would kill me..." his voice is trembling "help me, please.."
Dumbledore looks deep into his eyes considering each and every word he's about to say. Severus eyes him with hope and regret at the same time, would he think he's a horrible person for now on? For him the old headmaster's trust is everything, he's the father he always wanted.. finally Dumbledore speaks "I know Tom Riddle perfectly well, and you're right, he's dangerous, when he was only 15 he killed an innocent girl, and ruined the life of an extraordinary young man, instead of being stopped he just.., well was rewarded" He shakes his head I know who he means "If he now has a powerful selection of wizards this is going to be terrible you're absolutely right, he would do anything to get the power, and anything includes killing and torture, he's resented to his father, I have no way to prove it but I'm positive he killed him and his family as well:" he makes a pause to stand up and set closer to Severus who looks now something between puzzled and terrified "If he's on the track to do it so, we must do something to fight him, to try and stop him, are you agree?" "absolutely" Severus replies and my smile grows wider "That leads to tell you this : I could find a way to help you, but I won't; don't look so disappointed and listen to me, please." Disappointed? Please Dumbledore you're turning him down, he doesn't want to.....oh I realize what's going on and what I feel now is pride he continues. "Severus I trust you, you know that" Severus nods and Dumbledore keeps talking "I know you are brave and smart, perfectly able to take care of yourself, with remarkable notes in Defense against the dark arts I wouldn't think of a better person to do this than you, I need you there, you know what they say "keep your friends and your enemies closer, and with you I can't have him closer I really appreciate you here and telling me what you know could you please keep doing that for me? Become one of them and keep me informed of what he's doing I know its a huge risk that's why I'm asking you, the choice is yours I'll understand if you say no and will look for the way to get you out of this, but think about it: Severus' eyes are wide open and he simply says "But I'm not a killer and if I join them, I will have to kill and torture" "do it only if you have no choice , Severus, however, let me tell you something even when you kill someone you'll be saving many lives if you agree, " Snape looks at the headmaster considering the point, he thinks he's brave and smart, not a sissy boy,, and of course if he keeps him informed, he would be under his protection would Potter and his gang have the courage to take this job? Absolutely not, because this obviously means there won't be any credit to take He stands up and says simply "I will" his voice is trembling, but determined Dumbledore hugs him and says "very well then, thank you very much" My sight isn't good as I feel dizzy and shut my eyes when I open again there's a lot of people wearing a hood Severus is kneeling in the centre of the circle they're making, with Voldemort there he pulls Severus' left forearm and pointing his wand at it he says "mosmordre" a mark with a skull and a snake as tongue appears in his forearm its killing him in pain Voldemort speaks "very well take your place in the circle" Severus stand up and walks to where I am I rest my head on his back and muttered "you did the right thing, and I'm proud of you" there's no point he can't hear me, but I feel better saying so, and no one can blame me.
Thanks a lot to the reviewers ; Mac hope you like this one. Avivagirl : thanks a lot, I'm glad you enjoyed it hope you like this one as well I'll explain you your comments later Cid and Piper: glad you love this Phoebe: hope you're still around And the last 3 this time review instead of mail me your opinion plese?
The headmasters office looks a bit different, from last time a new dark detectors. Severus ' heart is beating so fast I'm afraid he might have a stroke, maybe its because, after all, I'm inside his head but I'm feeling his anxiety so I say to myself "calm down, everything will be okay Dumbledore will sort this out, there's nothing wrong , you know how this ends...
There he is Albus Dumbledore, I stop my muttering and approach Severus, he seems calmed now and I am as well.
"well, Severus, what are you going to tell me now? Your letter seemed confusing..."
Now that I think about it I don't know what happened what did Riddle tell him so I turn to him interested. He takes a sip of water and starts:
"there's a man out there, his name is Tom Riddle he was a member of the house, perhaps you remember him?" there's a bit of hope in his voice, and he smiled confidant when the headmaster nods.
"well he is creating a "Slytherin 's society" Lucius Malfoy invited me to join, and..." Severus blushed ashamed.
"and?" Dumbledore asks, with a soft parental tone.
"well, when he starts talking about the ideals of Salazar Slytherin it's fine, as such we've been sorted into that house for some reason, but...he's using it to manipulate and , well, this isn't just a society I can tell."
The headmaster looks as puzzled as I do when he says "what do you mean Severus?"
"Yes, what do you mean, Severus?" I get caught in the moment.
"Well.." Severus turns pale I would love to let him know no one is judging him, but since he cant hear me what's the sense? However, he keeps talking "He told me about how he admired me for dealing with my father and for the way I humiliated him but he made me feel all the anger I was feeling again, the anger and loath my father inspires me" he says turning sad, I would love to touch him, since I cant I just place my hand next to him.
"he says that magic must be the key to prove the world we are blessed, not a phenomena and that we are better and keep the pride of wizardry, he wants the power, the control, but he's not like taking a political path. " He swallows "He doesn't think he need to be elected, he is willing to do as he needs or pleases to get to the power"
"Tom Riddle was always ambitious" Dumbledore recalls
Severus just shakes his head "He doesn't want to be known by that name anymore, he calls himself Lord Voldemort, and wants us to call him the dark lord"
I turn my head and Look at Dumbledore, he nods "He used to call himself that since he was in here, when I was his teacher. " I should calm down, but I detect certain anxiety in the potions master to be, and surely does Dumbledore because he locks eyes with him and gives him a special "go on" look. Severus nods and says: "He forced me, well can't say he forced me, but I didn't mean to I swear" he turns sad and looks to where I am, in order to avoid the headmaster's look, I feel the well known need to comfort him still unable to do it, I take his hand, even when he can't hear me or feel me for that matter, I do it more for me, than for him. "Forced you to do what, Severus?" Dumbledore 's voice pulls me back to the situation and Severus takes a deep breath before saying:
"I don't know how he did it, and why or how I did it, but...but I.." he hesitates I know what he's about to confess "I used an unforgivable curse on an innocent, two innocents I might say" he seems really disturbed by this, poor baby I would give the world to take him in my arms and comfort him
"Avada Kedavra?" The headmaster asks with a simple tone Severus shakes hi head "cruciatus, the one I always wanted to use on my father and he said I was worthy of being with him, and told Lucius that I should get my initiation. Lucius told me that they were really happy with what I did and that once I join we would do stuff like that and..." he swallows "there's no way back." Now there's an expression I haven't seen before on his face, he's terrified and begging when he says "but headmaster I don't want to do that, that's not who I am I don't want to be an assassin not even my father or Potter and his gang" he says rolling his eyes "and if I back down now the dark Lord would kill me..." his voice is trembling "help me, please.."
Dumbledore looks deep into his eyes considering each and every word he's about to say. Severus eyes him with hope and regret at the same time, would he think he's a horrible person for now on? For him the old headmaster's trust is everything, he's the father he always wanted.. finally Dumbledore speaks "I know Tom Riddle perfectly well, and you're right, he's dangerous, when he was only 15 he killed an innocent girl, and ruined the life of an extraordinary young man, instead of being stopped he just.., well was rewarded" He shakes his head I know who he means "If he now has a powerful selection of wizards this is going to be terrible you're absolutely right, he would do anything to get the power, and anything includes killing and torture, he's resented to his father, I have no way to prove it but I'm positive he killed him and his family as well:" he makes a pause to stand up and set closer to Severus who looks now something between puzzled and terrified "If he's on the track to do it so, we must do something to fight him, to try and stop him, are you agree?" "absolutely" Severus replies and my smile grows wider "That leads to tell you this : I could find a way to help you, but I won't; don't look so disappointed and listen to me, please." Disappointed? Please Dumbledore you're turning him down, he doesn't want to.....oh I realize what's going on and what I feel now is pride he continues. "Severus I trust you, you know that" Severus nods and Dumbledore keeps talking "I know you are brave and smart, perfectly able to take care of yourself, with remarkable notes in Defense against the dark arts I wouldn't think of a better person to do this than you, I need you there, you know what they say "keep your friends and your enemies closer, and with you I can't have him closer I really appreciate you here and telling me what you know could you please keep doing that for me? Become one of them and keep me informed of what he's doing I know its a huge risk that's why I'm asking you, the choice is yours I'll understand if you say no and will look for the way to get you out of this, but think about it: Severus' eyes are wide open and he simply says "But I'm not a killer and if I join them, I will have to kill and torture" "do it only if you have no choice , Severus, however, let me tell you something even when you kill someone you'll be saving many lives if you agree, " Snape looks at the headmaster considering the point, he thinks he's brave and smart, not a sissy boy,, and of course if he keeps him informed, he would be under his protection would Potter and his gang have the courage to take this job? Absolutely not, because this obviously means there won't be any credit to take He stands up and says simply "I will" his voice is trembling, but determined Dumbledore hugs him and says "very well then, thank you very much" My sight isn't good as I feel dizzy and shut my eyes when I open again there's a lot of people wearing a hood Severus is kneeling in the centre of the circle they're making, with Voldemort there he pulls Severus' left forearm and pointing his wand at it he says "mosmordre" a mark with a skull and a snake as tongue appears in his forearm its killing him in pain Voldemort speaks "very well take your place in the circle" Severus stand up and walks to where I am I rest my head on his back and muttered "you did the right thing, and I'm proud of you" there's no point he can't hear me, but I feel better saying so, and no one can blame me.
Thanks a lot to the reviewers ; Mac hope you like this one. Avivagirl : thanks a lot, I'm glad you enjoyed it hope you like this one as well I'll explain you your comments later Cid and Piper: glad you love this Phoebe: hope you're still around And the last 3 this time review instead of mail me your opinion plese?