Title: Dear Diary: Oops
Chapter Thirteen B
Author: Rae
Pairing: 2x3x2, 1x4, 5xS
Category: Romance and Supernatural
Rating: R
Warning: AU!! Duo is a shapeshifter. Most of the info I used in the story is based on another books, by Dara Joy. Also language, and long times between updates
Disclaimers: I don't own them, and I never will. Nor do I own the dara joy book. I am just using the Gundam characters to help me with creative writing. I am also broke so PLEASE DON'T SUE ME!! Anime and college are sucking up all my money!
Feedback: Empress1438@hotmail.com, AOL IM: emp1438
Author's Note: I just want to thank everyone who has posted responses to the fic. This fic is my baby, and I figured that no one would want to read it. But thank you letting me you are reading and I will keep writing when my schedule permits it. I am working and doing summer school. Not fun. But thank you for your for waiting so contently. I will try to get fourteen out as fast as I can. Thank you again.
Note: //Diary Entry//
*Sound effect*
(Thoughts)
~Speaker/Thinker~
{Duo's voice spoken into minds}
Dear Diary: Oops
Part Thirteen B
Trowa turned sharply away from Duo and stalked back towards the safe house leaving Duo to follow in uncomfortable silence. Occasionally Trowa turned to bestow Duo with a betrayed look while they trudged along, but other than that the two hardly looked at each other.
//Look, I never meant to hurt Trowa. I just wanted to reassure him that I was safe. I really didn't think it would upset him so much. I guess I can understand why he feels betrayed about this, but I think he's more upset that he let his guard down and told "Cat" how he felt about me. If he'd given me a chance to talk about it before he stormed off, then I'd have had a chance to tell him how I feel about him.//
{Trowa . . .}
"Look, Duo, if I can call you that. I am doing what you asked of me. I'm going to get Heero and Wufei together with you, and, if they cannot hear you, I am going to quote-unquote 'translate' for you. After that I want you to keep as far away form me as possible, and if I never see you again, that will suit me just fine." Trowa said without looking back at Duo.
{I understand} Duo whispered into Trowa's mind in a small voice.
"And while we are at it, stay the Hell out of my head until I ask you a question. Got it?"
Desperate to appease Trowa, all Duo could do was nod, although Trowa didn't see.
When the two of them got to the house, they were in for a big surprise. No one appeared when Trowa and Duo walked into the kitchen. Trowa quickly advanced through the living room in search of the needed hacker and dragon, doing his best to ignore the cat following him. He figured the most likely place to find Heero was in his room typing on his computer, and hoped that Heero would know where Wufei could be found.
Upon entering the bedroom, man and feline were faced with Heero and Quatre cuddling on Heero's bed, obviously enjoying the afterglow of their sexual experience. Heero was draped over Quatre using his elbows to keep from crushing the petit blond. The two of them were staring in to each others' eyes and giving each other soft butterfly kisses everywhere they could reach.
"If you two are about done, we have a major problem, and everyone is needed to sort it out," Trowa said as he quickly strode out of the room to find Wufei, not wanting to deal with newly together, sickening sweet couple.
{Yeah! The two of y'all got together}
The two turned their attention way from each other, try to see where Duo's excited voice came from but all they saw was Cat. Quatre's eyes narrowed in disbelief and he asked in a small voice, "Duo?"
{Yup, in the flesh or should we say the fur}
"Wha. . ." escaped the petit blond's mouth as his brain attempted to function.
"Cat and Duo are the same person," Trowa threw back at Quatre before turning cold eyes on Duo. "And since Quatre can hear you, I will send Wufei into the living room, and be done with this whole mess."
"What's that about? I have never seen Trowa act like this." Quatre remarked mostly to himself.
{Get dressed, and I will explain it to you later. Don't worry about him. I've upset him, and I will fix it later, if I can. At the moment, we have a bigger problem.}
//I went to wait in the living not knowing what else to do. I never wanted to hurt anyone, especially Trowa, but that seems to be all that I have been doing. I know that I have blown my chance with Trowa. I can't help but wonder if that's part of my curse. Fate seems to want me to be alone all my life, 'cause anyone I care for either dies or wants nothing to do with me once they know of my curse. //
//It wasn't long until everyone joined me in the living room. I knew Trowa didn't want to be there, but it was important for me to get everyone in my life on the same page.//
{Can everyone hear me?} Once everyone nodded, Duo continued. {By now I guess everyone realizes that Cat and Duo are the same person.} Trowa snorted at this, so Duo changed his choice of words. {I guess 'entity' is a better word.
{I am going to get this all out at once, so please do not interrupt me. If you have questions, please hold them; I will answer what I can when I am finished. I should probably start by apologizing for not telling you that I am a familiar from the beginning. I didn't tell you because I didn't want the fact that I am not normal to affect anyone's judgment, and for that I am truly sorry.}
{The readers digest version of my life is this, when I am under extreme physical or mental stress or I think about transforming, I seem to transform. I have only transferred three times in my life before now. The first two times coincided with the death of people who were extremely important to me, and the other time I don't want to talk about. The truth is that I know very little about who and what I truly am.
{I have never been in this form for a long period of time, so I am learning about my powers in this form as I go. For example, it was just today that learned, by complete accident, that I have the ability to send people my thoughts. Please don't think that I misled you on purpose, because I didn't.
{And since I am confession all my sins, I think I should tell you that I've also developed the ability to read some thoughts.}
At the collective gasp, Duo paused. He looked everyone in the eyes to gage their reaction. Heero and Wufei were upset at the invasion of their privacy. Trowa's eyes displayed his disgust and revulsion toward Duo and his abilities. The only one who seemed the least bit open-minded and understanding was Quatre.
Taking a deep breath to calm himself, Duo continued, {I cannot read all thoughts at all times. In truth, the only time I could was last night at dinner. I tired to block it out, but I couldn't. The only way I can explain it is that I can hear the thoughts people want to say, but either choose not to or are emotionally unable to. Please believe that I will go to my grave without repeating what I heard, although it was nothing bad.
{In case you haven't figured out the 'major problem' that I need your help with, it is that I don't seem to be able to transform back. I know there is an energy force inside me that aids the transformation, but I can't seem to find it. I don't know what the difference is between now and when I did it back then. I was wondering if Heero could look around the 'Net to see if he could find anything out. It also might be helpful, Wufei, if you could look up familiars in the legends. Some of the information is off, bit I think it is a decent place to look.}
"What do you mean 'the information is off'?" Wufei demanded as soon as the statement finished inside of Wufei head.
{Well, Familiars, can only change into cats. Most of the time our color is based on our natural hair color, my case being the exception rather than the rule. I don't know why I am different. Then there's the whole witch thing that is mostly pure fiction. Familiars follow Wizards, if they want to follow anyone. This is supposedly because the wizards give off this incredible energy charge that most familiars seem to enjoy. I think it boosted their libido, but I don't know for sure.
{If y'all are still mad at me after I transform, I will leave and the only time you will see me will be when I am in Deathscythe. I know I am a freak. Once you help me get back to "normal", and I will leave your lives for good.}
//I can't believe I offered to leave. As much as we fight amongst ourselves, I am truly happy here because, to an extent, I can be my self. But I know that if I stay it will make everyone else uncomfortable, and I could not bear looking at their faces everyday knowing that they despise me. Not to mention the fact that my secret wish that Trowa would eventually come to like and possibly love me has been smashed into a million pieces. All I can do is turn my back on them and hope they find their happiness, even if it is without me.//
tbc
Chapter Thirteen B
Author: Rae
Pairing: 2x3x2, 1x4, 5xS
Category: Romance and Supernatural
Rating: R
Warning: AU!! Duo is a shapeshifter. Most of the info I used in the story is based on another books, by Dara Joy. Also language, and long times between updates
Disclaimers: I don't own them, and I never will. Nor do I own the dara joy book. I am just using the Gundam characters to help me with creative writing. I am also broke so PLEASE DON'T SUE ME!! Anime and college are sucking up all my money!
Feedback: Empress1438@hotmail.com, AOL IM: emp1438
Author's Note: I just want to thank everyone who has posted responses to the fic. This fic is my baby, and I figured that no one would want to read it. But thank you letting me you are reading and I will keep writing when my schedule permits it. I am working and doing summer school. Not fun. But thank you for your for waiting so contently. I will try to get fourteen out as fast as I can. Thank you again.
Note: //Diary Entry//
*Sound effect*
(Thoughts)
~Speaker/Thinker~
{Duo's voice spoken into minds}
Dear Diary: Oops
Part Thirteen B
Trowa turned sharply away from Duo and stalked back towards the safe house leaving Duo to follow in uncomfortable silence. Occasionally Trowa turned to bestow Duo with a betrayed look while they trudged along, but other than that the two hardly looked at each other.
//Look, I never meant to hurt Trowa. I just wanted to reassure him that I was safe. I really didn't think it would upset him so much. I guess I can understand why he feels betrayed about this, but I think he's more upset that he let his guard down and told "Cat" how he felt about me. If he'd given me a chance to talk about it before he stormed off, then I'd have had a chance to tell him how I feel about him.//
{Trowa . . .}
"Look, Duo, if I can call you that. I am doing what you asked of me. I'm going to get Heero and Wufei together with you, and, if they cannot hear you, I am going to quote-unquote 'translate' for you. After that I want you to keep as far away form me as possible, and if I never see you again, that will suit me just fine." Trowa said without looking back at Duo.
{I understand} Duo whispered into Trowa's mind in a small voice.
"And while we are at it, stay the Hell out of my head until I ask you a question. Got it?"
Desperate to appease Trowa, all Duo could do was nod, although Trowa didn't see.
When the two of them got to the house, they were in for a big surprise. No one appeared when Trowa and Duo walked into the kitchen. Trowa quickly advanced through the living room in search of the needed hacker and dragon, doing his best to ignore the cat following him. He figured the most likely place to find Heero was in his room typing on his computer, and hoped that Heero would know where Wufei could be found.
Upon entering the bedroom, man and feline were faced with Heero and Quatre cuddling on Heero's bed, obviously enjoying the afterglow of their sexual experience. Heero was draped over Quatre using his elbows to keep from crushing the petit blond. The two of them were staring in to each others' eyes and giving each other soft butterfly kisses everywhere they could reach.
"If you two are about done, we have a major problem, and everyone is needed to sort it out," Trowa said as he quickly strode out of the room to find Wufei, not wanting to deal with newly together, sickening sweet couple.
{Yeah! The two of y'all got together}
The two turned their attention way from each other, try to see where Duo's excited voice came from but all they saw was Cat. Quatre's eyes narrowed in disbelief and he asked in a small voice, "Duo?"
{Yup, in the flesh or should we say the fur}
"Wha. . ." escaped the petit blond's mouth as his brain attempted to function.
"Cat and Duo are the same person," Trowa threw back at Quatre before turning cold eyes on Duo. "And since Quatre can hear you, I will send Wufei into the living room, and be done with this whole mess."
"What's that about? I have never seen Trowa act like this." Quatre remarked mostly to himself.
{Get dressed, and I will explain it to you later. Don't worry about him. I've upset him, and I will fix it later, if I can. At the moment, we have a bigger problem.}
//I went to wait in the living not knowing what else to do. I never wanted to hurt anyone, especially Trowa, but that seems to be all that I have been doing. I know that I have blown my chance with Trowa. I can't help but wonder if that's part of my curse. Fate seems to want me to be alone all my life, 'cause anyone I care for either dies or wants nothing to do with me once they know of my curse. //
//It wasn't long until everyone joined me in the living room. I knew Trowa didn't want to be there, but it was important for me to get everyone in my life on the same page.//
{Can everyone hear me?} Once everyone nodded, Duo continued. {By now I guess everyone realizes that Cat and Duo are the same person.} Trowa snorted at this, so Duo changed his choice of words. {I guess 'entity' is a better word.
{I am going to get this all out at once, so please do not interrupt me. If you have questions, please hold them; I will answer what I can when I am finished. I should probably start by apologizing for not telling you that I am a familiar from the beginning. I didn't tell you because I didn't want the fact that I am not normal to affect anyone's judgment, and for that I am truly sorry.}
{The readers digest version of my life is this, when I am under extreme physical or mental stress or I think about transforming, I seem to transform. I have only transferred three times in my life before now. The first two times coincided with the death of people who were extremely important to me, and the other time I don't want to talk about. The truth is that I know very little about who and what I truly am.
{I have never been in this form for a long period of time, so I am learning about my powers in this form as I go. For example, it was just today that learned, by complete accident, that I have the ability to send people my thoughts. Please don't think that I misled you on purpose, because I didn't.
{And since I am confession all my sins, I think I should tell you that I've also developed the ability to read some thoughts.}
At the collective gasp, Duo paused. He looked everyone in the eyes to gage their reaction. Heero and Wufei were upset at the invasion of their privacy. Trowa's eyes displayed his disgust and revulsion toward Duo and his abilities. The only one who seemed the least bit open-minded and understanding was Quatre.
Taking a deep breath to calm himself, Duo continued, {I cannot read all thoughts at all times. In truth, the only time I could was last night at dinner. I tired to block it out, but I couldn't. The only way I can explain it is that I can hear the thoughts people want to say, but either choose not to or are emotionally unable to. Please believe that I will go to my grave without repeating what I heard, although it was nothing bad.
{In case you haven't figured out the 'major problem' that I need your help with, it is that I don't seem to be able to transform back. I know there is an energy force inside me that aids the transformation, but I can't seem to find it. I don't know what the difference is between now and when I did it back then. I was wondering if Heero could look around the 'Net to see if he could find anything out. It also might be helpful, Wufei, if you could look up familiars in the legends. Some of the information is off, bit I think it is a decent place to look.}
"What do you mean 'the information is off'?" Wufei demanded as soon as the statement finished inside of Wufei head.
{Well, Familiars, can only change into cats. Most of the time our color is based on our natural hair color, my case being the exception rather than the rule. I don't know why I am different. Then there's the whole witch thing that is mostly pure fiction. Familiars follow Wizards, if they want to follow anyone. This is supposedly because the wizards give off this incredible energy charge that most familiars seem to enjoy. I think it boosted their libido, but I don't know for sure.
{If y'all are still mad at me after I transform, I will leave and the only time you will see me will be when I am in Deathscythe. I know I am a freak. Once you help me get back to "normal", and I will leave your lives for good.}
//I can't believe I offered to leave. As much as we fight amongst ourselves, I am truly happy here because, to an extent, I can be my self. But I know that if I stay it will make everyone else uncomfortable, and I could not bear looking at their faces everyday knowing that they despise me. Not to mention the fact that my secret wish that Trowa would eventually come to like and possibly love me has been smashed into a million pieces. All I can do is turn my back on them and hope they find their happiness, even if it is without me.//
tbc