Authors Note: Never even occured to me someone might not know what
schitzophrenia is. It's multiple personalities, or in my story's case, it's
hearing voices in your head.
-Chapter Four: Whisper-
Catch me as I fall Say you're here and it's all over now Speaking to the atmosphere No one's here and I fall into myself This truth drives me into madness I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
I opened my eyes and Sage smiled at me. We were sitting on her bedroom floor. It turns out she and Lizzie lived next door to each other. When Lizzie saw me walk past her driveway she asked where I was going. When I told her, she asked me why I was friends with Sage, because Sage was such a freak. We had a big argument that somehow ended with Gordo taking my side. He said he was sorry that he'd been ignoring me this year, and he asked if I wanted to go to the Digital Bean tomorrow to catch up. I agreed, but the last thing Lizzie and I said to each other was 'I hate you!'. Now Sage was trying to teach me how to control my voices. They had become painful to have, and Sage told me to stop trying to hide from them. To fight them instead. "Okay Miranda, do you still hear them?" she asked. I nodded. She turned off the lights and lit a candle. "Go for it," she told me.
Don't turn away Don't give into the pain Don't try to hide Though they're screaming your name Don't close your eyes God knows what lies behind them Don't turn out the light Never sleep never die
There were more voices than just one now. And they all had names. But the worst one was the one named Miranda. She was my conscious. I looked across the hardwood floor at Sage, who was laying down now. Then I took a deep breath. Truth be told, I didn't believe that this would actually work. I'm not into all this new age meditation stuff. Sage noticed I was looking at her and sat up. "What's wrong?" she asked. What's wrong?!
I'm frightened by what I see But somehow I know that there's much more to come Immobilized by my fear And soon to be blinded by tears I can stop the pain if I will it all away
I told her it wasn't working. She told me there was another way to stop it, one she'd been considering. She stood up and told me she'd be right back, leaving her room. I watched my best friend go, wondering what this new way was. Somehow I knew it would work, but I also had a feeling that it would bring more pain than the voices.
Don't turn away Don't give into the pain Don't try to hide Though they're screaming your name Don't close your eyes God knows what lies behind them Don't turn out the light Never sleep never die
Sage stepped back into her room, holding something. When I saw what it was, my feeling was conformed. "Wanna try it Miranda? I'll go first. It will work, I promise," she told me. Then she shoved a knife into her aorta and fell to the ground, beside me, blood pouring out. She smiled weakly. "Hey, what do you know, it worked," she said. Then she was gone.
Fallen angels at my feet Whispered voices at my ear Death before my eyes Lying next to me I fear She beckons me shall I give in
The next day I was at school. The picture of Sage's corpse still in my head. I couldn't wait for the day to end. Because I knew that the day would be my last.
Upon my end shall I begin Forsaking all I've fallen for I rise to meet the end
-Chapter Four: Whisper-
Catch me as I fall Say you're here and it's all over now Speaking to the atmosphere No one's here and I fall into myself This truth drives me into madness I know I can stop the pain if I will it all away
I opened my eyes and Sage smiled at me. We were sitting on her bedroom floor. It turns out she and Lizzie lived next door to each other. When Lizzie saw me walk past her driveway she asked where I was going. When I told her, she asked me why I was friends with Sage, because Sage was such a freak. We had a big argument that somehow ended with Gordo taking my side. He said he was sorry that he'd been ignoring me this year, and he asked if I wanted to go to the Digital Bean tomorrow to catch up. I agreed, but the last thing Lizzie and I said to each other was 'I hate you!'. Now Sage was trying to teach me how to control my voices. They had become painful to have, and Sage told me to stop trying to hide from them. To fight them instead. "Okay Miranda, do you still hear them?" she asked. I nodded. She turned off the lights and lit a candle. "Go for it," she told me.
Don't turn away Don't give into the pain Don't try to hide Though they're screaming your name Don't close your eyes God knows what lies behind them Don't turn out the light Never sleep never die
There were more voices than just one now. And they all had names. But the worst one was the one named Miranda. She was my conscious. I looked across the hardwood floor at Sage, who was laying down now. Then I took a deep breath. Truth be told, I didn't believe that this would actually work. I'm not into all this new age meditation stuff. Sage noticed I was looking at her and sat up. "What's wrong?" she asked. What's wrong?!
I'm frightened by what I see But somehow I know that there's much more to come Immobilized by my fear And soon to be blinded by tears I can stop the pain if I will it all away
I told her it wasn't working. She told me there was another way to stop it, one she'd been considering. She stood up and told me she'd be right back, leaving her room. I watched my best friend go, wondering what this new way was. Somehow I knew it would work, but I also had a feeling that it would bring more pain than the voices.
Don't turn away Don't give into the pain Don't try to hide Though they're screaming your name Don't close your eyes God knows what lies behind them Don't turn out the light Never sleep never die
Sage stepped back into her room, holding something. When I saw what it was, my feeling was conformed. "Wanna try it Miranda? I'll go first. It will work, I promise," she told me. Then she shoved a knife into her aorta and fell to the ground, beside me, blood pouring out. She smiled weakly. "Hey, what do you know, it worked," she said. Then she was gone.
Fallen angels at my feet Whispered voices at my ear Death before my eyes Lying next to me I fear She beckons me shall I give in
The next day I was at school. The picture of Sage's corpse still in my head. I couldn't wait for the day to end. Because I knew that the day would be my last.
Upon my end shall I begin Forsaking all I've fallen for I rise to meet the end