Author Note I like to give a big thanks to SwEeTwAtEr613 also known as Spikes Angel 1 she wrote
all english has and Desire she helped a huge lot in this chapter.
Thanks for all the reviews and thanks to Maribel for the reviews
Disclamer: I dont own these
Please Reveiw means alot
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"So are you all ready for this weekend? I mean just you and me like old times," Willow smiled
"Yea, I bought chips and dip and candy and we can order pizza and what's cooler, mother not being home," she explained.
"Well look who it is. Hey Red," he smirked at Willow who waved back, Buffy didn't smile she kept a straight face.
"What is it now William, feel like bugging me some more?!
"Can't a bloke say Hi. So what are you two planning for tonight?"
"We're having a sleep over and talk about girl things."
"Mmm Buffy, do you remember our sleep over? So Red, did Buffy ever told you about our sleep over?"
"Spike please… not now," she asked with an almost begging voice and pleading eyes. His smirk left his face.
"Right, I hate to bring up something I've been trying to forget it's just a nightmare playing in my head." He started his car again and speed off down the driveway.
"What was that about?" Willow asked.
"Nothing, nothing at all."
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Buffy and Willow were sitting on the bed, they already had a green mask on their Faces and were wearing their pj's, Willow had a pair of black and pink kitten's pj's and Buffy was wearing a pair of white and sky blue care bears' pj's.
"Okay Ewan McGregor or Josh Harnett?" she said looking at two different movie boxes trying to pick one.
"Well I really love Pearl Harbor and that has Josh but then there's Moulin Rouge and I like that movie too, so… I don't have many movies.I haven't been here for a while but I do have the Lion King," Buffy laughed.
"Pearl Harbor it is," she giggled taking out the movie and slipping it into the VCR. "You should really get a DVD player," she pointed out.
Buffy sat in front of the bed playing with Willow's hair, "That girl was such
a slut, I hate her, I mean she slept with her lovers and they were almost like brothers, then she got pregnant, hello condoms people, this got me so mad!" Willow said throwing a stuffed animal at the screen.
"Will can I ask you a question?" Buffy frowned letting Willow's hair drop from her hands and sat up on the bed pressing the pause button. Willow got on the bed and sat next to Buffy, she could tell she had something on her mind.
"Sure what is it?" She asked placing her hand on her shoulder giving her a reassuring pat.
"If I tell you something, will you promise you'll never tell anyone, and I really mean no one, not Anya, Xander or even Oz," she asked begging Willow to comply with her
eyes, she placed her hands on her lap.
"I promise, you can tell me anything."
"Okay you remember our freshman year when I became this stuck princess because
I finally had Angel," she told bringing up the dark past.
"I kind of couldn't forget that Buffy, I mean I was hurt and so was Xander and even Spike or William at the time," she frowned, she remembered the day Buffy thought she was to cool to be their friend, it really hurt her.
"Anyways, I got home one day and my parents told me my dad was moving out because he had gotten his secretary pregnant and he was going to leave me and my mom for her. I was so upset I stayed in my room crying, I had no one to talk to,"she whispered remembering all those nights.
"Buffy," Willow whispered, her voice full of concern.
"And there we so many times I wanted to call you, I dialed but I hanged up.Then one day William came over, he had to return something to my mom, but my mom was still dealing and she had took off in the middle of night and it was late and the door was open so he came inside and I guess he heard me crying and then he asked me if everything was okay," she explained with a tightness in her voice.
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Flash Back
"Hello? Anyone home? Joyce, Buffy? are you here?" He heard a loud crying coming from upstairs, he placed the plate on the kitchen table and ran upstairs towards the crying, he stopped at Buffy's room where he saw her laying
on her bed crying her eyes out.
"Buffy?"
"William, is that you?" she asked sitting up on the bed. She turned to face him wiping the tears from her face, he nodded yes and walked over towards her.
"What's the matter, Luv? Where's your mom or Da," he asked, as he took a sit next to her, she threw her arms around his neck.
"She left, I don't know where and my dad is staying at his office."
"Oh, why are you crying then?"
"Because my life sucks, because my dad is leaving my mom and she's back to the drinking and I have no one to talk to" she cried.
"That isn't true, Luv, you have all those friends, how can you be alone?" he asked.Then she pulled out of his arms.
"William, you think I'm never lonely because I'm so cute and popular? I can
be surrounded by people and be completely alone. It's not like any of them really know me. I don't even know if they like me half the time. People just want to be in a popular zone. Sometimes when I talk, everyone's so busy agreeing with me, they don't hear a word I say." She cried in a low whisper.
He looked shocked.
"I'm sorry Buffy," he said bringing her into another hug. She pulled away
and kissed him and he kissed back and they gently fell back on the bed.
End of flash back
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"You slept with Spike!" she asked not believing the tale Buffy had just told
her. Willow's eyes had widen.
"Yea, and I guess we fell asleep and next thing I knew my mom came home and
find us,screaming about this and she was so upset, I mean I never believed she would
freak out so much."
"Is that why your mom sent you with your dad when he left?" She asked.
"Yes, she explained to me that she didn't want the same thing to happen to me that happen to her when she was my age."
"What about Spike's parents?"
"I know she talked to Spike's mom and dad and that was about it, they never told Angel, I made Spike promise to never tell a living soul and he didn't,"she explained in a low whisper. "So please Willow don't tell anyone."
"I promise I won't. I have an idea that might cheer you up."
"What?"
"Let's go downstairs, make some popcorn and watch whatever's on the Lifetime Channel," Willow smiled getting off the bed and walking over towards the door.
Buffy laughed, "All right."
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After Willow and Buffy talked, watched some more movies and had a good cry, Willow had fallen asleep near Buffy's bed and Buffy stared at the window to calm herself down, she used to walk just to catch a few breaths, she Slowly put on a black sweater over her pj's.
After a couple of minutes she found her way to the park where she and the gang became good friends until she screw it up. She knew he was there, she could smell the smoke.
"You really should stop doing that William or should I call you Spike? I mean stalking isn't really a good thing," she said turning around to come face to face with Spike.
"I didn't follow you here Luv, I was already here when you came," he answered flicking his cigarette to the dirt then stomping on it.
Spike pulled her by the waist, "Spike no, stop," she warned. He smirked and pulled her into a hot kiss. She just let the kiss overtake her, wrapping her arms around his neck, he moved from her lips and started kissing down her neck. He knew she loved when he had his lips there.
"I was the only one that ever made you hot," he whispered into her ear, her eyes fluttered open then she finally realized what she was doing and pushed him away,
"You're a sick disgusting thing," she shouted.
"What's the matter, Buffy, you never mind before?"
"Why do you do this? Why do you bring this up all the time? That happened two years ago Spike and you knew I wasn't in my best state of mind, I was dealing with my pain and I took comfort in you."
"In another words you used me pet, I mean what? You got your jollies then after you were done, I remember you saying it was the biggest mistake in your life. But you know what Luv? I thought you were great," he smirked.
Buffy frowned, she didn't understand why he was saying these nasty things toher. Why does he hate her so much?
"I have an idea, lets tell Angel how you and I had a night full of sex and lies, come on Buffy, he's at the house and guess what? Drusilla is there with him and I'm pretty sure they will be having sex, I bet he's making her scream the same way I made you scream, and you know what else? Angel lied to you he's been screwing Drusilla way before you left, but you've been to dumb to see it, all your friends were laughing behind your back," he laughed at her.
Buffy felt like she couldn't breath, he was hurting her, not with hitting or fighting, but with the words he was saying. She couldn't stand it anymore, she slapped him right across the face, he just laughed.
"That's the best you got?" he smiled. He didn't know why he was telling her these things, he just wanted to hurt her like she had hurt him.
"You bastard, I said I'm sorry and you say these hurtful things to me!" she cried, she hadn't realized when she had started crying.
He didn't say anything, he just stayed quiet, she looked at him with disgust
And ran home. Spike felt bad for telling her all these things. "I'm sorry
Buffy," he whispered into the darkness.
all english has and Desire she helped a huge lot in this chapter.
Thanks for all the reviews and thanks to Maribel for the reviews
Disclamer: I dont own these
Please Reveiw means alot
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"So are you all ready for this weekend? I mean just you and me like old times," Willow smiled
"Yea, I bought chips and dip and candy and we can order pizza and what's cooler, mother not being home," she explained.
"Well look who it is. Hey Red," he smirked at Willow who waved back, Buffy didn't smile she kept a straight face.
"What is it now William, feel like bugging me some more?!
"Can't a bloke say Hi. So what are you two planning for tonight?"
"We're having a sleep over and talk about girl things."
"Mmm Buffy, do you remember our sleep over? So Red, did Buffy ever told you about our sleep over?"
"Spike please… not now," she asked with an almost begging voice and pleading eyes. His smirk left his face.
"Right, I hate to bring up something I've been trying to forget it's just a nightmare playing in my head." He started his car again and speed off down the driveway.
"What was that about?" Willow asked.
"Nothing, nothing at all."
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Buffy and Willow were sitting on the bed, they already had a green mask on their Faces and were wearing their pj's, Willow had a pair of black and pink kitten's pj's and Buffy was wearing a pair of white and sky blue care bears' pj's.
"Okay Ewan McGregor or Josh Harnett?" she said looking at two different movie boxes trying to pick one.
"Well I really love Pearl Harbor and that has Josh but then there's Moulin Rouge and I like that movie too, so… I don't have many movies.I haven't been here for a while but I do have the Lion King," Buffy laughed.
"Pearl Harbor it is," she giggled taking out the movie and slipping it into the VCR. "You should really get a DVD player," she pointed out.
Buffy sat in front of the bed playing with Willow's hair, "That girl was such
a slut, I hate her, I mean she slept with her lovers and they were almost like brothers, then she got pregnant, hello condoms people, this got me so mad!" Willow said throwing a stuffed animal at the screen.
"Will can I ask you a question?" Buffy frowned letting Willow's hair drop from her hands and sat up on the bed pressing the pause button. Willow got on the bed and sat next to Buffy, she could tell she had something on her mind.
"Sure what is it?" She asked placing her hand on her shoulder giving her a reassuring pat.
"If I tell you something, will you promise you'll never tell anyone, and I really mean no one, not Anya, Xander or even Oz," she asked begging Willow to comply with her
eyes, she placed her hands on her lap.
"I promise, you can tell me anything."
"Okay you remember our freshman year when I became this stuck princess because
I finally had Angel," she told bringing up the dark past.
"I kind of couldn't forget that Buffy, I mean I was hurt and so was Xander and even Spike or William at the time," she frowned, she remembered the day Buffy thought she was to cool to be their friend, it really hurt her.
"Anyways, I got home one day and my parents told me my dad was moving out because he had gotten his secretary pregnant and he was going to leave me and my mom for her. I was so upset I stayed in my room crying, I had no one to talk to,"she whispered remembering all those nights.
"Buffy," Willow whispered, her voice full of concern.
"And there we so many times I wanted to call you, I dialed but I hanged up.Then one day William came over, he had to return something to my mom, but my mom was still dealing and she had took off in the middle of night and it was late and the door was open so he came inside and I guess he heard me crying and then he asked me if everything was okay," she explained with a tightness in her voice.
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Flash Back
"Hello? Anyone home? Joyce, Buffy? are you here?" He heard a loud crying coming from upstairs, he placed the plate on the kitchen table and ran upstairs towards the crying, he stopped at Buffy's room where he saw her laying
on her bed crying her eyes out.
"Buffy?"
"William, is that you?" she asked sitting up on the bed. She turned to face him wiping the tears from her face, he nodded yes and walked over towards her.
"What's the matter, Luv? Where's your mom or Da," he asked, as he took a sit next to her, she threw her arms around his neck.
"She left, I don't know where and my dad is staying at his office."
"Oh, why are you crying then?"
"Because my life sucks, because my dad is leaving my mom and she's back to the drinking and I have no one to talk to" she cried.
"That isn't true, Luv, you have all those friends, how can you be alone?" he asked.Then she pulled out of his arms.
"William, you think I'm never lonely because I'm so cute and popular? I can
be surrounded by people and be completely alone. It's not like any of them really know me. I don't even know if they like me half the time. People just want to be in a popular zone. Sometimes when I talk, everyone's so busy agreeing with me, they don't hear a word I say." She cried in a low whisper.
He looked shocked.
"I'm sorry Buffy," he said bringing her into another hug. She pulled away
and kissed him and he kissed back and they gently fell back on the bed.
End of flash back
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"You slept with Spike!" she asked not believing the tale Buffy had just told
her. Willow's eyes had widen.
"Yea, and I guess we fell asleep and next thing I knew my mom came home and
find us,screaming about this and she was so upset, I mean I never believed she would
freak out so much."
"Is that why your mom sent you with your dad when he left?" She asked.
"Yes, she explained to me that she didn't want the same thing to happen to me that happen to her when she was my age."
"What about Spike's parents?"
"I know she talked to Spike's mom and dad and that was about it, they never told Angel, I made Spike promise to never tell a living soul and he didn't,"she explained in a low whisper. "So please Willow don't tell anyone."
"I promise I won't. I have an idea that might cheer you up."
"What?"
"Let's go downstairs, make some popcorn and watch whatever's on the Lifetime Channel," Willow smiled getting off the bed and walking over towards the door.
Buffy laughed, "All right."
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After Willow and Buffy talked, watched some more movies and had a good cry, Willow had fallen asleep near Buffy's bed and Buffy stared at the window to calm herself down, she used to walk just to catch a few breaths, she Slowly put on a black sweater over her pj's.
After a couple of minutes she found her way to the park where she and the gang became good friends until she screw it up. She knew he was there, she could smell the smoke.
"You really should stop doing that William or should I call you Spike? I mean stalking isn't really a good thing," she said turning around to come face to face with Spike.
"I didn't follow you here Luv, I was already here when you came," he answered flicking his cigarette to the dirt then stomping on it.
Spike pulled her by the waist, "Spike no, stop," she warned. He smirked and pulled her into a hot kiss. She just let the kiss overtake her, wrapping her arms around his neck, he moved from her lips and started kissing down her neck. He knew she loved when he had his lips there.
"I was the only one that ever made you hot," he whispered into her ear, her eyes fluttered open then she finally realized what she was doing and pushed him away,
"You're a sick disgusting thing," she shouted.
"What's the matter, Buffy, you never mind before?"
"Why do you do this? Why do you bring this up all the time? That happened two years ago Spike and you knew I wasn't in my best state of mind, I was dealing with my pain and I took comfort in you."
"In another words you used me pet, I mean what? You got your jollies then after you were done, I remember you saying it was the biggest mistake in your life. But you know what Luv? I thought you were great," he smirked.
Buffy frowned, she didn't understand why he was saying these nasty things toher. Why does he hate her so much?
"I have an idea, lets tell Angel how you and I had a night full of sex and lies, come on Buffy, he's at the house and guess what? Drusilla is there with him and I'm pretty sure they will be having sex, I bet he's making her scream the same way I made you scream, and you know what else? Angel lied to you he's been screwing Drusilla way before you left, but you've been to dumb to see it, all your friends were laughing behind your back," he laughed at her.
Buffy felt like she couldn't breath, he was hurting her, not with hitting or fighting, but with the words he was saying. She couldn't stand it anymore, she slapped him right across the face, he just laughed.
"That's the best you got?" he smiled. He didn't know why he was telling her these things, he just wanted to hurt her like she had hurt him.
"You bastard, I said I'm sorry and you say these hurtful things to me!" she cried, she hadn't realized when she had started crying.
He didn't say anything, he just stayed quiet, she looked at him with disgust
And ran home. Spike felt bad for telling her all these things. "I'm sorry
Buffy," he whispered into the darkness.