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Author Note: Okay first of all Thanks everyone for the reveiws so it took long :( But anyways SpikeAngel1 helped me a bunch half of all these idea r hers so check her stuff at she awesome
Maribel awesome beta Please Review
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Spike sat in the waiting room of the hospital, waiting for someone to tell him something, anything about what happened. His insides were twisting in knots and dreadful thoughts were swimming around in his head. He ran his bloody hands through his tousled hair.
Everything happened so fast. He didn't exactly know what had happened. One minute he had been fighting with Buffy. The next she was in his car...and then blank. Everything went silent and black. He knew he was alive but couldn't wake up. All he could feel was a thick liquid running down his head, and a limp body beside him. He wasn't in his right mind to think it was Buffy.
Spike glanced up at the doors on the other side of the room, and he instinctively knew someone was coming. Someone had to come. Then, he saw a flash of red running towards him.
"Spike!" Willow shouted coming up to him with Xander trailing behind."A-are you okay? W-what happened?" Willow asked, unaware of her shaky hands and worried voice. Xander was almost crying as well.
"Where's Buffy? I-Is she okay?" Xander questioned taking a deep breath. Spike didn't answer, he just looked down at the floor shamefully. His lack of cooperation inflamed Xander's anger. "Where is she, man?! What happened?!"
"Xander, honey. Calm down. This isn't Spike's fault." Anya said, placing a hand on his shoulder comforting him, trying to calm him down.
"Yes it is! He was the one drunk! He was the one driving!" Xander spat bitterly at Spike.
Spike was silent for a moment, he was trying to concentrate on what was happening around him. Xander blamed him. He blamed himself. He didn't know if Buffy was going to... no, she's not. He couldn't even think about it. He was the one who was supposed to die, if anyone! Him!
"He's right. It is my fault." Spike said lowly, avoiding their gaze. "She got in the car because she knew I was drunk and couldn't drive, she got in anyway." He said looking down again.
Suddenly, a doctor appeared coming towards them. Willow spun around along with Xander. Spike slowly rose to his feet.
"Doctor! My friend's in there! Buffy Summers...she was the one in the car accident. Is she... is she alright?" Willow's voice was flooded withemotion.
"Is she okay or what?!" Spike's voice rose as he got impatient with the doctor. This was all too much for him. Everything was going wrong. He was supposed to be the one in there, not her, never her.
"She's stable at the moment, but I'm afraid I've got some bad news. She has a slight concussion. Her head slammed against the dashboard due to the impact. We're doing everything we can...but she hasn't wake up yet. It could take a few hours, or days." The doctor said softly, looking at the four young people in front of him.
"Will she wake up?" Xander spoke his fear.
"I think you should know the longer she's in comma...the chances get reduced that she will wake up. But we'll do our best. We're trying to do everything we can. I'm sorry." He said.
Willow and Anya turned into Xander's shoulders crying.
"Paging Dr. Lopez." The voice over the loudspeaker voiced.
"Excuse me." Dr. Lopez said as he nodded sadly, and walked off into the opposite direction.
A few minutes of silence passed between the friends.
"It's getting late. You guys should probably get home." Spike said.
"What about you?" Willow asked facing him again.
"I'm not going to leave her here. What if she wakes up? She doesn't know where she is. I-I have to be here for her." Spike said.
They all nodded except for Xander. He wasn't sure if he wanted to leave Buffy alone with Spike but agreed. "If something happens, no matter what time it is, call." Willow said patting Spike's hands.
They all left Spike alone. After a few moments of inner debate with himself
he sighed heavily, and then walked down the empty hall to room 464 where
Buffy was staying.
He breathed deeply to calm himself, opened the door slowly and walked in, letting the door shut softly behind him. He was paralyzed in the spot when he saw her.
She looked so tiny and weak, just lying there helpless. Her eyes were closed and he could barely make out her breathing. He took a hesitant few steps to her bedside.
Her forehead had a deep cut and her hands were all bruised and bloody like his. Spike slowly lifted his hand and placed it gently on hers.
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Flashback
"William I'm scared. Please tell them to let me go home." Little Buffy cried to her friend. William was sitting on the bed beside her, holding her hand.
"It's going to be fine Buffy. I promise." He said soothingly, trying to calm her down.
"I'm scared. I don't want to have my tonsils taken out! They are fine right where they are." She pouted.
"But you can get ice cream when they're out. Plus, I'll be right here when you wake up. I'll always be here." The little boy responded, giving her hand a light squeeze.
Buffy wiped the tears away from her eyes. "William how can you stand being here after what happened to your mom?" Buffy asked.
"Because I knew you would be scared being here alone. That's why I'm being brave, Buffy. You're mine and I'm yours." He whispered looking down at her.
She smiled and leaned up to kiss him on the cheek.
"Thank you William, for everything." She leaned back, never taking her eyes off William.
End Flashback
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Spike sat beside her bed, holding her hand to his face. "I'm here, luv. I'm not going to leave until you wake up." He said kissing her hand. "I'm sorry Buffy. I never meant for this to happen. I would prefer to hurt myself before hurting you. When you came back to Sunnydale I hated you, I just couldn't look at you after the way you left, Buffy. It hurt so much. But now you're back, and everything's different." Spike whispered.
He gazed down to her pale face, wishing on some star that she would Suddenly wake up. He prayed to God, prayed to the Powers that Be that he could just look at her. Look and see her eyes.
"Please Buffy. Just wake up and let me see those beautiful green eyes." Spike sobbed. "Please wake up. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. Just don't leave me. You can't leave me. You're the only one I have left." Spike cried, tears cascading down his face as he wept.
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Flashback
"My little William." William's mother cried, she caressed his cheek with her hand, trying to give him her best smile. "Mommy loves you sweetheart. Don't ever doubt that."
"Mommy, why are you crying?" He asked looking down on his mother's crying face. He was getting nervous seeing that sad expression on her face.
"I'm crying because I'm happy, you're getting so big. Soon Jr. High, High school, college, then marriage, and a child of your own."
"I'm going to have all of that with Buffy, mommy. I love her." He beamed.That made her smile.
"Buffy's a very lovely girl and I'm glad she makes you happy."
"Are you coming home soon?" William asked hopefully. His mother was silent for a minute.
"William, please listen to me. I want you to be a big boy for your father and a good little brother for Angel, okay? You guys have to take care of each other now." She explained. "Mommy loves you." She cried, knowing this was the last time she was going to see her little boy.
"You're not coming home, are you?" William frowned, his eyes filling with unshed tears.
"No I'm not."
A few minutes later, William was told to go out in the waiting room. As he exited the door he heard some whispering and crying, and then a machine started to beep and then it went dead, a straight line going across it.
William walked into the waiting room, and was surprised to see Buffy there waiting for him. She hated hospitals.
"I thought you hated coming here. Doesn't it scare you?" William said looking down at Buffy, then turned his gaze back to his hands. She walked beside him and put her hands over his.
"It does, but I'm going to be brave for you." She whispered.
"She's gone Buffy. My mum." He cried. "It hurts so much. I feel alone and empty, Buffy. I don't like this feeling." William sobbed.
"You're not alone, I'm here with you and you'll always have me. Because I'm yours and you're mine forever." Buffy whispered, squeezing his hand.
End Flashback
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Buffy's eyes started to flutter open. She looked to her side and she saw Spike asleep in the chair, still holding her hand. She tried to smile but her head was killing her. She lifted her hand slowly and ran her hand through his hair.
"Spike, wake up." She whispered. Spike's eyes shot open immediately, hearing the sound of her voice and feeling the warmth of her hand on his face.
At first he thought it was a dream, but when he looked at her she was really awake. Smiling at him weakly.
"Buffy! You're awake!" Spike cried kissing her hand a million times. "I'm sorry, luv. I'm so sorry, please don't hate me." Spike sobbed, getting up and caressing her golden locks. Desperately trying to feel her, to make sure he wasn't dreaming.
"Shh, Spike. Don't cry please." Buffy whispered.
"You must hate me. I almost killed you last night because I was so frickin' dumb. How can you ever forgive me?"
"That's what friends do, they forgive each other." Buffy said leaning back, her eyes half open.
"We're friends?" Spike asked, dreading the stupidity of his question. He didn't want to know the answer. He just wanted to hold her, be with her.
"Forever."
"And ever." He smiled, leaning in and kissing her cheek.
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Okay the reason Buffy mom isnt there is because she doesnt know about the accdent they couldnt get a hld og her so thats y she isnt there
Author Note: Okay first of all Thanks everyone for the reveiws so it took long :( But anyways SpikeAngel1 helped me a bunch half of all these idea r hers so check her stuff at she awesome
Maribel awesome beta Please Review
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Spike sat in the waiting room of the hospital, waiting for someone to tell him something, anything about what happened. His insides were twisting in knots and dreadful thoughts were swimming around in his head. He ran his bloody hands through his tousled hair.
Everything happened so fast. He didn't exactly know what had happened. One minute he had been fighting with Buffy. The next she was in his car...and then blank. Everything went silent and black. He knew he was alive but couldn't wake up. All he could feel was a thick liquid running down his head, and a limp body beside him. He wasn't in his right mind to think it was Buffy.
Spike glanced up at the doors on the other side of the room, and he instinctively knew someone was coming. Someone had to come. Then, he saw a flash of red running towards him.
"Spike!" Willow shouted coming up to him with Xander trailing behind."A-are you okay? W-what happened?" Willow asked, unaware of her shaky hands and worried voice. Xander was almost crying as well.
"Where's Buffy? I-Is she okay?" Xander questioned taking a deep breath. Spike didn't answer, he just looked down at the floor shamefully. His lack of cooperation inflamed Xander's anger. "Where is she, man?! What happened?!"
"Xander, honey. Calm down. This isn't Spike's fault." Anya said, placing a hand on his shoulder comforting him, trying to calm him down.
"Yes it is! He was the one drunk! He was the one driving!" Xander spat bitterly at Spike.
Spike was silent for a moment, he was trying to concentrate on what was happening around him. Xander blamed him. He blamed himself. He didn't know if Buffy was going to... no, she's not. He couldn't even think about it. He was the one who was supposed to die, if anyone! Him!
"He's right. It is my fault." Spike said lowly, avoiding their gaze. "She got in the car because she knew I was drunk and couldn't drive, she got in anyway." He said looking down again.
Suddenly, a doctor appeared coming towards them. Willow spun around along with Xander. Spike slowly rose to his feet.
"Doctor! My friend's in there! Buffy Summers...she was the one in the car accident. Is she... is she alright?" Willow's voice was flooded withemotion.
"Is she okay or what?!" Spike's voice rose as he got impatient with the doctor. This was all too much for him. Everything was going wrong. He was supposed to be the one in there, not her, never her.
"She's stable at the moment, but I'm afraid I've got some bad news. She has a slight concussion. Her head slammed against the dashboard due to the impact. We're doing everything we can...but she hasn't wake up yet. It could take a few hours, or days." The doctor said softly, looking at the four young people in front of him.
"Will she wake up?" Xander spoke his fear.
"I think you should know the longer she's in comma...the chances get reduced that she will wake up. But we'll do our best. We're trying to do everything we can. I'm sorry." He said.
Willow and Anya turned into Xander's shoulders crying.
"Paging Dr. Lopez." The voice over the loudspeaker voiced.
"Excuse me." Dr. Lopez said as he nodded sadly, and walked off into the opposite direction.
A few minutes of silence passed between the friends.
"It's getting late. You guys should probably get home." Spike said.
"What about you?" Willow asked facing him again.
"I'm not going to leave her here. What if she wakes up? She doesn't know where she is. I-I have to be here for her." Spike said.
They all nodded except for Xander. He wasn't sure if he wanted to leave Buffy alone with Spike but agreed. "If something happens, no matter what time it is, call." Willow said patting Spike's hands.
They all left Spike alone. After a few moments of inner debate with himself
he sighed heavily, and then walked down the empty hall to room 464 where
Buffy was staying.
He breathed deeply to calm himself, opened the door slowly and walked in, letting the door shut softly behind him. He was paralyzed in the spot when he saw her.
She looked so tiny and weak, just lying there helpless. Her eyes were closed and he could barely make out her breathing. He took a hesitant few steps to her bedside.
Her forehead had a deep cut and her hands were all bruised and bloody like his. Spike slowly lifted his hand and placed it gently on hers.
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Flashback
"William I'm scared. Please tell them to let me go home." Little Buffy cried to her friend. William was sitting on the bed beside her, holding her hand.
"It's going to be fine Buffy. I promise." He said soothingly, trying to calm her down.
"I'm scared. I don't want to have my tonsils taken out! They are fine right where they are." She pouted.
"But you can get ice cream when they're out. Plus, I'll be right here when you wake up. I'll always be here." The little boy responded, giving her hand a light squeeze.
Buffy wiped the tears away from her eyes. "William how can you stand being here after what happened to your mom?" Buffy asked.
"Because I knew you would be scared being here alone. That's why I'm being brave, Buffy. You're mine and I'm yours." He whispered looking down at her.
She smiled and leaned up to kiss him on the cheek.
"Thank you William, for everything." She leaned back, never taking her eyes off William.
End Flashback
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Spike sat beside her bed, holding her hand to his face. "I'm here, luv. I'm not going to leave until you wake up." He said kissing her hand. "I'm sorry Buffy. I never meant for this to happen. I would prefer to hurt myself before hurting you. When you came back to Sunnydale I hated you, I just couldn't look at you after the way you left, Buffy. It hurt so much. But now you're back, and everything's different." Spike whispered.
He gazed down to her pale face, wishing on some star that she would Suddenly wake up. He prayed to God, prayed to the Powers that Be that he could just look at her. Look and see her eyes.
"Please Buffy. Just wake up and let me see those beautiful green eyes." Spike sobbed. "Please wake up. I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. Just don't leave me. You can't leave me. You're the only one I have left." Spike cried, tears cascading down his face as he wept.
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Flashback
"My little William." William's mother cried, she caressed his cheek with her hand, trying to give him her best smile. "Mommy loves you sweetheart. Don't ever doubt that."
"Mommy, why are you crying?" He asked looking down on his mother's crying face. He was getting nervous seeing that sad expression on her face.
"I'm crying because I'm happy, you're getting so big. Soon Jr. High, High school, college, then marriage, and a child of your own."
"I'm going to have all of that with Buffy, mommy. I love her." He beamed.That made her smile.
"Buffy's a very lovely girl and I'm glad she makes you happy."
"Are you coming home soon?" William asked hopefully. His mother was silent for a minute.
"William, please listen to me. I want you to be a big boy for your father and a good little brother for Angel, okay? You guys have to take care of each other now." She explained. "Mommy loves you." She cried, knowing this was the last time she was going to see her little boy.
"You're not coming home, are you?" William frowned, his eyes filling with unshed tears.
"No I'm not."
A few minutes later, William was told to go out in the waiting room. As he exited the door he heard some whispering and crying, and then a machine started to beep and then it went dead, a straight line going across it.
William walked into the waiting room, and was surprised to see Buffy there waiting for him. She hated hospitals.
"I thought you hated coming here. Doesn't it scare you?" William said looking down at Buffy, then turned his gaze back to his hands. She walked beside him and put her hands over his.
"It does, but I'm going to be brave for you." She whispered.
"She's gone Buffy. My mum." He cried. "It hurts so much. I feel alone and empty, Buffy. I don't like this feeling." William sobbed.
"You're not alone, I'm here with you and you'll always have me. Because I'm yours and you're mine forever." Buffy whispered, squeezing his hand.
End Flashback
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Buffy's eyes started to flutter open. She looked to her side and she saw Spike asleep in the chair, still holding her hand. She tried to smile but her head was killing her. She lifted her hand slowly and ran her hand through his hair.
"Spike, wake up." She whispered. Spike's eyes shot open immediately, hearing the sound of her voice and feeling the warmth of her hand on his face.
At first he thought it was a dream, but when he looked at her she was really awake. Smiling at him weakly.
"Buffy! You're awake!" Spike cried kissing her hand a million times. "I'm sorry, luv. I'm so sorry, please don't hate me." Spike sobbed, getting up and caressing her golden locks. Desperately trying to feel her, to make sure he wasn't dreaming.
"Shh, Spike. Don't cry please." Buffy whispered.
"You must hate me. I almost killed you last night because I was so frickin' dumb. How can you ever forgive me?"
"That's what friends do, they forgive each other." Buffy said leaning back, her eyes half open.
"We're friends?" Spike asked, dreading the stupidity of his question. He didn't want to know the answer. He just wanted to hold her, be with her.
"Forever."
"And ever." He smiled, leaning in and kissing her cheek.
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Okay the reason Buffy mom isnt there is because she doesnt know about the accdent they couldnt get a hld og her so thats y she isnt there